bedside calendar

I slept with the curtains closed last night, but when Lin Feng woke up, he still felt that the sun was shining on his eyes, and it was a bright red that woke him up. The sun was shining on his face, and it happened to be warm on his face, which was very comfortable. Coupled with the soreness of his body, even his fingers and toes were so numb that he didn't want to move.I lay there without opening my eyes, feeling that time was quiet.Turning over to avoid direct sunlight, Lin Feng opened his eyes.No one was around.Lin Feng was startled, the problem wasn't that there was no one around, but that Lin Feng felt a chill from the side, and reached out to touch it uncertainly. The bed belonging to Jia Zhipeng's side turned out to be cold, so cold that it made people feel chilling.Lin Feng sat up suddenly, looked at the clock on the wall, it was not yet 7 o'clock!What about people? The plane at 11 o'clock has enough time to go out at 9 o'clock, where are people now?

The uneasiness in his heart instantly increased, "Doc!" Lin Feng called out, but no one responded, "Doc—" Lin Feng called out again, losing confidence in his voice, what's going on?Lin Feng lifted the quilt and jumped off the bed, opened the bedroom door, the bathroom light was dark, this was more or less expected in his heart.Looking around again, Jia Zhipeng's luggage was not there at the living room and the door, "Dapeng, he left?" Lin Feng couldn't be sure, and the thought in his mind bit him: "Dapeng got on the plane alone?" Lin Feng didn't believe it, but he couldn't help it. Do not believe.

After getting up and taking a walk, Lin Feng quickly went back to the bedroom, took his mobile phone and rushed to the bathroom, sat on the toilet, turned on his mobile phone, and clicked on WeChat. He wanted to ask where Jia Zhipeng had gone, but saw In the upper right corner of Jia Zhipeng's avatar, there are dazzling white characters on a red background ④—Jia Zhipeng has a message!Half of Lin Feng's heart was relieved, maybe it was just something to do, click on it.

The first one I saw was: Fengzi, I love you!

Previous: "Don't wait for me, I won't thank you for this, I have a father, a mother and a wife, I don't want you to do anything for me, as long as you live happily every day, nothing is important , I'm not important, you understand. No matter what, don't treat yourself like Lao Liu, if you really do that, you might as well kill me, I will hate myself to death. "

Lin Feng paused, what exactly did Jia Zhipeng want to say?You just broke up with me, yes, you just want to break up with me, and you don't owe anyone the fuck... Feeling a dull pain in my heart, I subconsciously turned up.

Last one: "I'm sorry, Fengzi! I don't have the courage. In fact, you know I'm cowardly. Every time I go home, I dare not call you. It's the same this time. I'm afraid I will cry! I'm working hard and I hope you can believe it Me: This is my home, I will definitely come back! But the time, I don’t have an exact time to promise you. I don’t want you to wait for me, you should have your life, a happy life, without me Involved. I just hope you don't turn me away when I get back, and that'll do it, really!"

"You're a fucking bastard. Do you want to break it or not? Who do you think you are? It's because you've gone out for a while, and you can come back when you turn around and let me hold the door for you?" Lin Feng asked. Yelled at the phone.

Scrolling up again, there is another article: "I booked the plane for tonight, not tomorrow, I am afraid of you, I am afraid that you will stare at me, I will not have the courage to go, I am even more afraid that you will send me off, can I ask Do you forgive me? Forgive me, forgive me, okay?"

"You've already figured everything out. You don't want to feel bad, so leave it to me?" Lin Feng's tears blurred his vision, "You're a fucking bastard!" Turn it over, and above it is the information of the two discussing what to eat for dinner a few days ago.Coming out of the bathroom, Lin Feng was in a daze, and went into the bedroom to the bedside.

"Ah!" Lin Feng yelled, heart-piercingly, and fell on his back on the bed, tears slipped silently from the corners of his eyes, he wanted to cry, but found that he didn't have the strength to cry, and slowly closed his eyes.With one hand, he dragged Dapeng's pillow to cover his face, smelling the scent left by Dapeng.What was last night?Is it the last orgy?Or a crazy gift?If I want to leave, I will set a fire in my body and mind, and burn me completely!He only knows that the body of love is boundless, but he doesn't know the pain of lovesickness... Lin Feng suddenly jumped up.

Woke up, as if nothing happened, took a shower, found some clothes to put on, Lin Feng thought for a while, he didn’t want to have breakfast at home today, then well, put on clothes and go out, bought tofu naphtha pancakes at the morning market, and Added two spoonfuls of leek flowers, a spoonful of pepper, and some mature vinegar to the tofu brain, and took it to his small hardware store and opened it for business.

Lin Feng put the tofu nao together with the outer bag into a bowl, held the oil cake in the plastic bag, took out his big white steel spoon, and ate breakfast in big mouthfuls.

"Well, the bean curd is a bit salty today." Lin Feng took a big bite of the pancake.

"Fuck, did you hit the salt shaker?" Lin Feng took another bite of the pancake, it was still salty.

After the tofu nao and pancakes were finished, Lin Feng thought about it, "Why is there no vinegar smell?"

"Damn it, the business is getting worse and worse, and the old vinegar is also mixed with water!" Lin Feng cursed in his heart, took the bag from the bowl and threw it into the trash can outside the door together with the pancake.Turning around, he took the spoon and the bowl and rinsed it with water, and it smelled a bit like rust, "Fuck, the white steel spoon won't get rusted too!" Lin Feng looked at the spoon carefully, there was no rust spot, this smell, why is it a bit like— -soy sauce!Damn, I thought soy sauce was vinegar!

A normal day can no longer be normal, waiting for customers in the small shop, locks, lights, PVC pipes... what else are there two glass cleaners, a bathroom rack, and a few wire ducts? Lin Feng was thinking hard, But in the end, I have no impression, alas!If you forget it, forget it. In the future, remember to write down everything immediately. Today is very good, but Lin Feng deliberately does not think that Jia Zhipeng is gone, and there is no date for his return.He didn't think about it, and tried his best not to think about it, so he really blocked the matter. When it was 19:[-], he closed the shop and locked up and went home, even humming the song of "Nan Shan Nan" Tiao'er knocked on the door of the house, and suddenly, Lin Feng fell back to reality from the stable situation he set up in this world, and his chest exploded suddenly.Lin Feng gritted his teeth and didn't let himself make any sound. He took out the key and opened the door. His hands were shaking in a mess. Finally, he opened the door and closed it with his backhand. Lin Feng lost his support and slid against the door. silent...

Last night, Dapeng called Feng'er again and again, calling Feng'er, calling Feng'er, with a hoarse, deep and passionate voice. At that time, Lin Feng didn't notice it. He only thought that Dapeng was acting emotionally. How many words can't be said, how many feelings are not clear.At this moment, Lin Feng's ears were full of Dapeng calling him again and again.

Lips still remember the temperature and arc of Dapeng’s lips, tongue still remembers the shape of Mipeng’s teeth and the wetness of the mouth, skin still remembers the tactile sensation when rubbing against each part of Dapeng’s body... bit by bit, Lin Feng carefully Reminiscing, he raised his hand, the fingertips still had the temperature of Dapeng's skin, and the palm of his hand still remembered the shape and convexity of Dapeng's life root.But what about people?

"Dapeng—" Lin Feng called softly, "Dapeng—" No one responded, "Jia, Zhi, Peng!"

In my ear was what Jia Zhipeng said last night: "Feng'er, Feng'er, I love you, Feng'er—" With a low sound, almost muttering to himself, Lin Feng held the phone tightly and looked at Dapeng's profile picture on WeChat , "I forgot to say yesterday, Peng, I love you too!"

Lin Feng suddenly discovered something, he lowered his head lonely, in the empty room, he could still hear the beating of his heart, but he clearly felt that the part of his heart was empty, without fresh blood and enthusiasm sound.He didn't think about it. He pretended that Jia Zhipeng was still there because he was afraid of admitting the loss. He was afraid that his heart would hurt when he was separated, but Lin Feng found out that he was wrong. The emptiness described, it turns out that the pain is not terrible, but the boundless emptiness is scary.In the dark emptiness, Lin Feng was so helpless, there was no need for you to do anything, your existence, your real existence is the most important, warmest and most reassuring.When he closed his eyes, he saw Jia Zhipeng's naked eyes last night, coated with a layer of water, [Oh] Lin Feng thought, "It must be the tears that Dapeng was holding back!" 〗In my ear is Jia Zhipeng's whisper: Feng'er, I love you...over and over again.

Although he didn't see it, Lin Feng knew clearly that Jia Zhipeng must be in a place he couldn't see, making the water in Jia Zhipeng's eyes smooth into strings of salty tears, so he finally couldn't help it, and Lin Feng, who was sitting on the ground, also cried flow in line.

Lin Feng took out the phone from his trouser pocket, flipped through Jia Zhipeng's messages, one by one, and felt very uncomfortable. You still want to come back, but are you afraid that you don't know when you will come back? Are you afraid that I will have no one to accompany you?You stupid!Are you afraid that I will not be able to make it through like the sixth child, and go out to have sex regardless?Use other people's body to warm my cold?You're gone, what's the point of worrying so much?

I read those messages over and over again, and it hurts every time I read them, like masochistic.After reading it backwards, and then looking back from the front, Lin Feng's hand trembled, what are you doing with your confusing logic?It's only now that I can see how confused this person was at the time, I'm afraid he doesn't know what he wants to say!Lin Feng lightly rubbed the phone screen with his thumb.

Lin Feng stared at the time on his phone, November 2015, 11, the first day after Jia Zhipeng left.Suddenly he wanted to drink, so he sat on the ground by the door, reached for the white wine he had opened the day before yesterday, and took a sip...

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