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"Bring this!" Lin Feng said as he brought two dried mackerel from the kitchen, and shook them in front of Jia Zhipeng's eyes.

Jia Zhipeng, who was packing something into the suitcase, looked up and saw it, and nodded with a smile, "Find something to pack it for me." Even though Jia Zhipeng is an inland guy, he can't resist being a foodie, and not only Knowing how to eat and cook, of course he likes this kind of food with local characteristics.

Lin Feng responded, then turned around and went to the kitchen to get the plastic wrap back.

Jia Zhipeng's eyes were fixed on the dried fish, shining like a cat seeing fishy fish. After looking at it for a while, he remembered to ask, "Where did you get it?" Jia Zhipeng was sure that there was no such thing at home. Ready to serve on the table.It's not that this item isn't unsold, it's just that it's a little strange that something that isn't too common has suddenly appeared.

"Lei Zi went to Dalian with the car earlier, and he brought it back." Lin Feng wrapped the bag tightly with plastic wrap, after all, it was going to be put together with other things, and it didn't smell very good. A bag was added outside, and I warned: "Take it out when you get home, don't cover it." Then it was packed and put into Jia Zhipeng's luggage along the way.

Dalian is close to the sea, so far there is a habit of drying salted fish. Some people buy fish and go home to dry it, and some fish sellers pack it up and dry it before selling it. So you can buy it directly from the fishmonger, and this thing is nothing. Strange.

Jia Zhipeng suddenly thought of it, and asked Lin Feng: "Did you save some?"

"Gangsan sent a lot. I think you brought too many things. I didn't give you more. I left four." Lin Feng stood aside, watching Jia Zhipeng stack things one by one in the suitcase.

"Oh, then make some tonight! I still like the flavor you made." Jia Zhipeng began to swallow as he spoke.

"Fuck, what are you doing? I'll do it for you now." Seeing Jia Zhipeng like that, Lin Feng said nothing.

Jia Zhipeng nodded, "Hurry up and do it! Don't just move your mouth." Looking up at Lin Feng, "Tell me, Lei Zi really has a heart, thank him for me."

"I thought you forgot everything you ate, it's okay, remember to thank you!" Lin Feng teased, and went into the kitchen. The dried salted fish has to be processed in advance. Depending on the degree of the dried fish, at least It needs to be soaked in clear water for half an hour to an hour. Soak it now, and you can still eat it for dinner.

As soon as Lin Feng left, Jia Zhipeng let out a heavy breath and suddenly wanted to smoke.For a while, I only thought about parting with Fengzi, but at this moment I remembered that this parting was not just about leaving Lin Feng, but about leaving Shenyang, a group of friends here in Shenyang, and more precisely, the gay circle here.After Jia Zhipeng found out that he liked men, he went to work in Shenyang. Four years later, he had no family or acquaintances here, so he felt confident and bold in the gay circle, went gay, made gay friends, and attended gay parties... Otherwise, I wouldn't know Lin Feng.Jia Zhipeng thought about it, and there would be no one who could tell the truth when he went back.Back in his hometown, it was Jia Zhipeng's city, a city that trapped him. The walls were high and the gates were thick.

Lin Feng simply washed the dried fish that had been cut into pieces, soaked them in clean water, turned around and went back to the house, and saw Jia Zhipeng, who seldom smoked, had a cigarette between his right index finger and middle finger, and he raised his head and exhaled. , maintained that posture and looked at the ceiling, with the unresolved sadness on his face.I have been watching Jia Zhipeng deal with it as usual, thinking that he doesn't care, or at least not as much as I care about this parting, and now I see it with a forced smile.

Lin Feng retreated to the kitchen, pretending not to have seen the scene just now, and said loudly, "I thanked you for you, so why don't you go over and say goodbye?" Lin Feng knew that Jia Zhipeng and Lei Zi could get along very well, Thought he would tell someone else.

"Let's not go!" Jia Zhipeng came back to his senses, pinched the cigarette in his hand, shook his head, and went to pack his things again.I ate, drank, and went to nightclubs that day. I have said everything that should be said, and there is nothing more to say. Leave some time for myself and the person in front of me.

When Lin Feng reappeared, he held a washed apple in each hand. Jia Zhipeng had already packed a box. Lin Feng whistled. When Jia Zhipeng raised his head, Lin Feng threw an apple and Jia Zhipeng caught it.

"Let's tidy up later." Lin Feng sat on the sofa and patted the seat next to him.Jia Zhipeng sat over, and the two of them gnawed on the sweet and crisp apples.

After eating an apple, Jia Zhipeng didn't move and sat on the sofa staring at the other box in a daze. Lin Feng opened the closet.

"What are you going to do about your clothes and pants? I'll pack them all up for you and ship them back?" Lin Feng pointed to Jia Zhipeng's clothes for him to see, "You'd better pick and choose, and throw away what you can't wear. Too much." Too much, Jia Zhipeng was originally considered a handsome man, with a good figure and likes to dress up, but after getting along with Lin Feng in the past few years, Lin Feng is used to being lazy and has grown twenty catties of meat. But 150 catties.I always love to dress up, and the clothes I bought in the past are all stylish and stylish, and I don’t want to throw them away, so there are more and more clothes.

"I won't take it anymore." Jia Zhipeng shook his head slowly, his eyes swept over those clothes, he didn't dare to take away a memory of the past.

"No more?" Lin Feng asked in surprise, he didn't know when Jia Zhipeng became such a prodigal.

"It's not that I don't want it anymore, let me let you go first!" Jia Zhipeng lowered his head and sorted out some things that must be taken away, ready to pack them.

Lin Feng frowned, "What does this mean? Fuck! Are you going to leave me a memory?"

"Fengzi, don't—" Hearing Lin Feng's tone, Jia Zhipeng was about to go crazy again, and Jia Zhipeng looked up at him helplessly.

Seeing Jia Zhipeng's reddened eyes, Lin Feng felt really uncomfortable, and let out a long breath: "Then why don't you take it away?"

Jia Zhipeng opened his mouth, 〖Every piece of clothing has memories with you, how do you want me to take it back? 〗I thought so in my heart, but I couldn't say it anyway. "Take so much back, it's hard to explain?" I can only take it lightly like this.

"Fuck, you need to explain to them, what about you to me?" Lin Feng became furious when he heard this, and regretted it after roaring out, either he didn't know or he didn't see it, Jia Zhipeng felt bad too! "Forget it, forget it, pretend I didn't say it." He waved his hand.

Although I knew in my heart that such a day would come sooner or later, no one thought that things would come to this point so quickly!It was too fast, and everything was placed in front of him abruptly, everyone was uncomfortable, and no one wanted to make the other party feel uncomfortable.The air pressure in the entire space was extremely low, it was almost impossible to breathe, and no one spoke.

Jia Zhipeng put down the things in his hand, and it took a while before he spoke, "Fengzi," he stretched out his hand to hold Lin Feng, "I'm serious, I will definitely come back, you believe me."

Lin Feng turned his head and stared at Jia Zhipeng, "Come back? Let's not say when you can come back, what can you do even if you come back?" Lin Feng shook his head, "How long can we be together? You can't fucking come out of the closet alone , why did you hook me up?" Lin Feng turned his head and tears fell.

"I..." Jia Zhipeng was speechless.He knew that Lin Feng was going crazy for a while, and he would be fine after a while.But he also knew the pain in his heart, but he didn't know how long it would take to heal.

"..." Lin Feng didn't want Jia Zhipeng to see his tears, so he gritted his teeth and kept silent. In a rare silence, he took out two clothes and one pair of pants from the closet. His mood had calmed down a lot, so he said, "These, Bring it on." His voice was cold and hard.

Jia Zhipeng took it, and it was all bought by Lin Feng for him, his heart turned suddenly, he didn't say anything, he took it and folded it in his hand and put it in the luggage.

After being silent for a while, Lin Feng asked again: "Is there anything else to bring, think about it."

Jia Zhipeng squatted next to the suitcase and thought for a while, "It's nothing, it should be packed." It seems that there is nothing more. "That's all." Standing up in the middle of the living room, Jia Zhipeng looked around reluctantly. How long has he lived here? Do the math, almost three years.Many things are still vivid in my memory, the first time I entered this house, the first time I quarreled with Mineko, the first time I went to bed with Mineko, and later moved in with my luggage, the first time I cooked a meal with Mineko, the first time The first time I got up early to make breakfast for Fengzi...then how many times I got up early and competed with Fengzi for the bathroom, how many times Lin Feng waited at home after the farewell and smiled when he saw him, how many times I woke up in the morning and saw Fengzi's sleeping Yan, how many times did we eat simple home-cooked meals together at the table, and how many times we quarreled and reconciled...So many pasts, so many pasts, every move of the two of them seemed to be yesterday, but suddenly To face parting, parting for a long time, this is a parting that will never die, a parting that makes people sad, and it is difficult to say goodbye.If I didn't go to see Lin Feng, I was most reluctant to see this person in front of me, but I couldn't take him away...

"That's all?" Lin Feng looked at the two small suitcases, and suddenly raised his head, "Take me with you!"

The serious look in Lin Feng's eyes made Jia Zhipeng's heart ache. "Fengzi!" Jia Zhipeng only had the strength to call out the name, and stretched out his arms to hug Lin Feng tightly, with the utmost strength, even the strong one could hear the sound of Lin Feng's bones, but Lin Feng didn't give any response, just let him go Jia Zhipeng hugged it, but didn't resist.

Jia Zhipeng buried his head into Lin Feng's neck and shoulders, and took a deep breath.Lin Feng closed his eyes silently, feeling Jia Zhipeng's strength and heartbeat.

"Fengzi—" Jia Zhipeng caressed Lin Feng's face with a gentle hand, he had a thousand words in his heart but couldn't say a word, and in front of him was the person I love the most.I want to have an account with my parents and my wife, but I cannot give you a time-limited promise.I don't want to offend anyone, but I only want to offend you.Jia Zhipeng embraced Lin Feng's head, buried it in his chest, and lowered his head to smell the smell of Lin Feng's hair. He wanted to remember this smell...

It is already November 2015, 11, and Jia Zhipeng still has 2 days left for his trip.