a quarter of his

In March 2018, I resigned from Shenzhen, bid farewell to this fast-paced modern metropolis, and returned to my hometown, City C.

I planned to watch TV, meet up with friends, and live a leisurely life for a period of time. The high pressure of the Shenzhen Internet company made me very collapsed. However, a resume I accidentally submitted made me enter Lin Jing Sail's company ET.

When I first met Lin Jingfan, it was not as described in the novel. When I was looking for him for material, I heard about his experience of going to Yunnan. In the same year, my best friend and I also went to Yunnan, so we had a chance to create a fateful encounter. .

The first time I met Lin Jingfan was in a small office of ET.

I had just completed the entry procedures that day, and when I passed the door of the office, I found that the door was ajar, and he was the only person sitting inside, and he was trying to broadcast a PPT, so I went in to say hello.

At that time, Lin Jingfan had been an intern in the company for a period of time, but because he had not yet graduated, he still belonged to the same batch of new employees as me in terms of procedures.

The two of us chatted politely in the office for a few minutes, and then I left the office to report to my department, and he continued to try out the PPT without further communication.

Little did I know at that time, he would be one of the first friends I met in ET to make eye contact.

The second contact was a team building in July.

I was very impressed. During the group building session, we played in the playground for an afternoon, and then went to an open-air self-service barbecue area to eat barbecue in the evening.

In my memory, it was the most failed team building of the company.

July is the hottest time in City C. We spent the whole afternoon in the hot amusement park, and then rushed to eat a hot open-air barbecue.

Since I joined the company later than everyone else, I missed several training sessions for new employees, so I didn’t know anyone in the company except for the few interviewers I recruited.At the beginning, I just sat silently at the table of the new employees, and then slowly chatted with a few people around me.

At that time, Lin Jingfan was already well established in the company, and almost everyone knew him.Because his dress is much more refined than other men in science and engineering, everyone affectionately calls him "Lin Sao".

"Lin Sao" likes to take pictures very much, so HR entrusted him with the responsibility of taking pictures and promoting them, so he shuttled back and forth between the tables throughout the dinner, taking promotional photos, and even taking ugly photos of everyone.

One of the ugliest photos in my life was taken by him during this dinner, and it is still in his mobile phone.

Speaking of my familiarity with Lin Jingfan, I really want to "thank you" for this ugly photo.

That night, whenever Lin Jingfan took photos (giant and ugly photos), he would post them in the group for everyone to appreciate, and they would quickly withdraw them after they were posted.At first, I had nothing to do with myself, and I was just eating barbecue with a girl next to me, until another male colleague, Lao Wang, patted me on the shoulder and showed me the ugly photo in the group.

It is no exaggeration to say that at that moment, there was a "bang" in my head, a bolt from the blue.

Although I am not a beautiful woman, I have always been praised for my good looks since I was a child.When I saw that photo, my first reaction was not to settle accounts with the person who took the black photo, but to feel that my image in the company was gone.

Leos love face, and they have just joined the company for a few days.At that time, I felt like my whole face was burning, I was very ashamed, and I even had a bad impression of Lin Jingfan who took the black photo.

It was a hot night, and the heat from the barbecue was lingering around me, and I was hot and ashamed and sweaty.He asked Lin Jingfan to delete the photos on his phone several times, but he stinkingly disagreed.

Entangled and entangled, before I knew it, the people at the barbecue stall almost left.

Only me, Lin Jingfan, and my colleague Lao Wang were left at our table, and soon the other tables were all gone, leaving only the three of us in the entire open-air area.

The barbecue stand had already been extinguished, and the night wind blew away some of the heat. The three of us sat around on the stone bench and chatted about the company.Most of the time, they were chatting, and I was listening. It was almost a night of whoring for nothing before taking the subway home together.

Along the way, I was thinking about my black photos, and begged Lin Jingfan several times, and also asked my colleague Lao Wang to help me.However, Lin Jingfan's obsession with Hei Zhao was simply beyond my imagination. No matter how hard I tried, I tried all kinds of tricks, but I still insisted on not letting go. In the end, I had no choice but to give up.

However, the consequence is that every time the company holds an event and needs to collect black photos of everyone, my black photo will be selected without a doubt, and then there will be various public executions repeated□public executions□□...

Although Lin Jingfan treated me like this, I still liked that night very much.

Whenever I think back to the time when I first entered ET, the image of the three of us sitting around the extinguished barbecue stand blowing water and chatting always comes to my mind.

I have gained the first warmth of entering a new company, and I have also gained two good friends.

One is Lin Jingfan, and the other is Lao Wang who showed me the black photo.

In this book, the two names Wei Yang (impotence) and Meng Nan (male man) were provided by him with all his heart. Although he didn't have any good intentions, but fortunately, I turned the rot into a magic (proud.jpg).

Perhaps a quarter of the readers would think that Lin Jingfan and I have a particularly good relationship.After all, no one would trust a person with a bad relationship to write such a private story about himself, or even publish it online.

Of course, I also want to make a point here, as a reliable friend and a qualified novel writer.The cities, schools, and even Lin Jingfan’s occupation and company mentioned in this article have all been coded and reverse-guided by me, so there is no possibility of leaking real information. There is a high probability that it is wrong, and everyone can rest assured on this point.

Continue to talk about me and Lin Jingfan.

It's amazing, the relationship between me and Lin Jingfan has always been above ordinary friends and below good friends, which is not awkward or awkward.

It is a friend who dares to say anything after confirming the eyes, but still can't find a sublimation point; it is a friend who appreciates and understands each other, but keeps a cautious distance.

Among the many colleagues in ET, Lao Wang and I were the first to confirm our eyesight. We used to play skewers together every day while working overtime on a product, and soon became good friends who talked about everything.

And Lao Wang is a "central air conditioner". Among the same group of people who came in, he seemed to have a good relationship with all his colleagues, which often confused me, and I didn't know who was the one I could trust.

For a while, the relationship between Lao Wang and Lin Jingfan became very good, and they hugged each other every day (gaygay). It happened that the three of us had dinner together. I accidentally mentioned a few sensitive topics, and Lao Wang immediately Give me a wink and change the subject.

After the meal, Lao Wang told me: "I dare not say anything in front of 'Lin Sao', and I haven't checked my eyes with him yet."

Me: "??? I thought the relationship between you two has risen from wine and meat friends to soul friends."

Old Wang: "Don't be in a hurry, wait for me to test it out."

I:"......"

Regarding Lao Wang, this is also a very interesting person, and I will let him play soy sauce in other novels in the future.

After that, Lin Jingfan and I didn't see each other for a long time.

Among the same group of colleagues who came in, Lao Wang and I had a good relationship with a male colleague surnamed Han, while Lin Jingfan and the other two colleagues formed the Three Musketeers, an iron triangle combination of two men and one woman.Although everyone has a good relationship, eating and working on weekdays are always combined with my own.Therefore, in daily life, the two of us are almost distinct and rarely contact each other.

One day at the end of 2018, the mentor in charge of training our new employees celebrated his birthday. We raised funds together to order a cake and booked a box at KTV.

That night I had to leave early because of family affairs, and it happened that Lin Jingfan was also leaving early, so the two of us hailed a car together.

On the way, I found out that he was going to raise a kitten, which is a folded ear, and I will go to a friend's house to pick it up tonight.

I have been afraid of all kinds of animals since I was a child, and even moths can scare me half to death. At that time, I was a cold girl who had no interest in keeping cats and dogs.

But when he heard that he was going to pick up a two-month-old kitten, he was very curious and volunteered to go with him.

That was the first time I saw Lin Jingfan's Smelly, it was a small one lying in Lin Jingfan's arms, its wet eyes rolled around uneasily, it made me cute instantly.

I also have a little blue cat at home now. It is more than three months old. Although it is very naughty, it can drive me crazy every day.

I think my love for cats should have sprouted from that day.

After the incident of picking up the cat, Lin Jingfan and I had no contact for a long time.

Not long after, Lin Jingfan and I worked together on a project, and I went out to fetch water, and Lin Jingfan chatted with another girl about relationship matters.

When I came back, I just heard a tail.

Just like what I wrote in the chapter [Coming Out], Lin Jingfan did not hide from me, but instead shared his two relationship experiences with the two of us.

Afterwards I asked him if the object was "boy or girl", and he admitted it very frankly.

I was so shocked that I couldn't add more, and my heart was full of grass and mud horses roaring and galloping.

What shocked me was not the fact that he was gay, but that he admitted it.

Because of Lin Jingfan's personality, there were a lot of gossip in the company before, teasing him as gay, even when the leaders held meetings, they would default to him as a gay and active atmosphere.

Although every time he encountered such a situation, he would deny it with a smile, and then joke back.

But based on my radar of rotten girls who have read tanmei articles for many years, I have already concluded that he is gay.I have also asked Lao Wang for verification several times. Every time this Chehuo mysteriously said that he would help others to keep it secret, he would not say anything about it, but his secretive attitude made me believe it even more.

However, even if you are gay, being able to admit it frankly in front of your company colleagues is a very courageous thing, which I have admired for a long time.

I later learned that Lin Jingfan didn't really dare to admit his identity until the time I asked him.

Besides Lao Wang, I was almost his second colleague who came out. At that time, his two girlfriends didn't even know about it.

For a while, Lin Jingfan became very poor.

He has always owed Lao Wang a big plate of chicken. Every day at work, the two of them would have a boring discussion of "when will you buy me a big plate of chicken" for 5 minutes.

We happened to have frequent dinners during that time, and every time we called Lin Jingfan, he always refused to go.

Later, for a period of time, he even ate only buns from convenience stores every morning, noon and night.

I was very surprised at the time. In my impression, Lin Jingfan was a person who spent a lot of money and enjoyed the moment very much.

When the two of us bought computers together, I bought a Macbook Pro without a touchbar in order to save 2000 yuan, but Lin Jingfan said bluntly that if you want to buy, you can buy the best configuration, and directly buy the most expensive one.

Whether it is a mobile phone or a computer, he always uses the latest top configuration.

This kind of person is so poor that he only eats buns for three meals a day, which makes me so curious.When I was eating at noon, I ran to ask him while there was no one around, and the answer I got was that I borrowed it from a friend.

I said "oh" at the time and didn't ask any more questions.

Later, we met again at a KTV gathering. That day there was a hot search on Weibo called "AIDS Ratio in Colleges and Universities". I saw this by accident, and chatted with him who was sitting next to me. Halfway through the conversation, he suddenly asked me: "Do you remember a time when I was very poor?"

I nodded: "You said you borrowed a friend."

Lin Jingfan nodded solemnly: "Well, that's what my friend got (referring to AIDS)."

I said "ah" in shock and asked a stupid question: "What should I do then?"

Lin Jingfan: "There is no other way but to take medicine."

I still remember the expression on his face when he said that, and I will never forget the loyalty and boldness with which he lent all the money he had to his friends.

From that day on, I unilaterally confirmed my gaze to him.

Lin Jingfan recently had a mid-life crisis and started to "bald", which made him very distressed.

And our whole family has a lot of hair. In their words, "half of your hair can double my hair" and "the hair you lose every day is all I have."

Lin Jingfan is both envious and jealous of me, every time he sees me, he will say sourly: "It's so thick."

Later, he couldn't take it anymore, and chose to spend a lot of money on hair transplants for the sake of beauty.

At first I thought he was joking, but one weekend later I saw him wearing a peaked cap to work, so I couldn't help but took off his cap immediately.

I saw a bald corned egg head at a glance, I was stunned for a moment, and I couldn't breathe out of laughter immediately.

That whole day, every time Lin Jingfan met an acquaintance in the company, the other party would always follow my example, take off his hat, look at his braised egg head, and make him blow his hair in the end, where to go? They all covered their heads with their hands.

The effect of the hair transplant is not bad, and his beauty value has increased by 5.00%.

However, after a year, the transplanted hair started to fall out again.

Some time ago we went to a colleague’s house to eat hot pot together. When we were shopping for vegetables in the supermarket, Lin Jingfan stroked my hair sadly and sighed: “It’s so thick.”

The colleague on the side was startled: "What are you talking about?"

Lin Jingfan gave him a coquettish wink: "What are you thinking, I'm talking about Nan Nan's hair, you just look at it like a prostitute seeing prostitution."

I smiled and patted his head, and asked, "How is your hair transplanted now?"

Lin Jingfan let out a sigh of relief, and said, "Don't mention it, it's all gone, and the internal adjustment has already started."

He said the name of a medicine that I had never heard of before, I nodded and asked, "Is it useful?"

He: "It is useful, but it has side effects."

I:?

He approached my ear mysteriously: "It will reduce sexual desire."

I squinted at him and said lightly, "Tsk, you don't need this."

Lin Jingfan was so angry that he chased me and hit me all over the supermarket.

What I admire most about Lin Jingfan is that he is a very open-minded person.

ET has a custom that new employees must present a program at the annual meeting in their first year of employment.

As I wrote in the article, the show was set to be "Let's Watch the Meteor Shower" at the beginning, and Miss HR asked me to be the leading actor at the beginning. He felt that he could make himself Lei Fei, so he politely declined.

Ms. HR has a whole set of thunder drama scripts in her spare time, and Kuwu created it to play it, and she came up with a clever trick to reverse the show.

As soon as this proposal came out, all the new employees were terrified, especially the boys, who ran faster than rabbits one by one.

Only Lin Jingfan accepted the role when he was in danger, and became famous because of it, which spread all over the company, and of course left many black photos.

For example, right now there is a back view photo of him wearing Chu Yuxun’s school uniform and skirt in the men’s bathroom in my mobile phone. Lin Jingfan tried to persuade us to delete it several times, but this photo has spread all over the company. Cannot be eradicated.

I also backed up to several places in retaliation to avenge the black photos back then.

Lin Jingfan experienced a period of work burnout.

He had no direction and didn't know what he was doing every day. At that time, he was in charge of several important product lines, and the company's leaders were very worried about his status.

I, Lao Wang and many friends tried to enlighten him in various ways, but to no avail.

However, after a summer, he seemed to have opened up the two veins of Ren and Du, and suddenly changed himself.

The day before my mid-year defense, I chatted with an author friend about my writing career.

When I was young and ignorant, I used to write several novels on and off in Jinjiang and other novel websites. Some of them entered v and made a small amount of money.

During the chat, my friend asked me if I wanted to continue writing, and I said "I don't know" in a daze.

In fact, the previous few novels were all boring and boring during college. They were either written for fun with roommates, or they were written with the encouragement of friends.

There are no rules, no skills, it is purely for fun, even the pseudonym is taken blindly, and was once disliked by friends.

After graduating from university, busy work suddenly filled my life, and I put this playful novel on hold for a long time.

It wasn't until a friend remembered that day that this idea came to my mind again.

I told my friend that if I write a novel this time, I must abandon my previous attitude of playing games and start from scratch.

I will change to a formal pseudonym that truly represents me, and start from scratch.And in order to avoid pitting the article again, I will publish the full text after saving the manuscript, and no matter how difficult it is, I will never abandon the pit.

After making this decision, it's time to think about what kind of book to write.

I myself have been corrupt since college, and now I basically only read pure love texts, but in terms of writing, I have always written about romance, and I have never been inspired by pure love.

But for some reason that day, Lin Jingfan was the first thing that came to mind when mentioning writing.

At that time, it had been more than a year since I talked with him and another colleague about his two recent relationships, but I still didn't know his whole relationship experience, I just blindly thought that it should be very exciting, and I was very curious about his story.

I said to my friend that I wanted to write the story of this person, and then told her about Lin Jingfan's general situation, and my friend agreed very much.

However, at that time, I only knew the general relationship experience, and did not understand the specific situation at all.If I want to write it, I must ask him to tell me about his experiences over the past few years from the beginning to the end, and he can only publish it on the Internet with his consent.

At that time, my relationship with Lin Jingfan hadn't reached the point where we could have such an in-depth chat.

Thinking of these, I hesitated again.

However, the defense the next day made me change my mind immediately.

At that time, Lin Jingfan broke his leg while playing on the trampoline because of the team building, and had to wear a plaster cast for several months.

On the day of his defense, he leaned on crutches, jumped to the screen, confidently clicked on the PPT with a page presenter, and started his speech.

During the entire defense process, he seemed to be integrated with the PPT. Even with his back to the screen, he could accurately speak out the contents of the PPT.

Among his PPTs, what benefited me the most is that I found that he was very meticulous about every detail of his work, and he had thought about all the things that I thought were completely unimportant.

The short 10-minute defense made me feel that his whole person seemed to be shining, not as depressed as we were when we comforted him before, and I was touched almost instantly.

As written in the last chapter of the text, I immediately sent him a WeChat message.

After thinking about it for a while, I mustered up the courage again and mentioned to him about writing a novel.

At the beginning, I was prepared to be rejected. After all, his identity is sensitive, and writing a novel will inevitably involve a lot of his privacy.

I waited anxiously for his reply, but to my surprise, he readily agreed and even volunteered to help me fabricate the plot.

I was very excited at the time, and I couldn't wait to set a time with him, intending to listen to his twists and turns and bizarre love story, completely forgetting that he still had a leg injury.

It wasn't until the day we met, seeing him leaning on crutches and jumping over, that I realized that I had done something stupid, so I quickly apologized to him, but Lin Jingfan didn't mind much about it, and waved his hand passed.

And not long afterwards, I started to appreciate my stupid decision.

Because just half a month after our conversation, the new crown epidemic was raging across the country. Without this stupid dinner, I am afraid that a quarter of the creations would have been postponed for at least half a year.

We found a grilled fish shop and started talking while eating.

This guy even tried to make up a plot for me, but it turned out that he couldn't even tell his own story.

Lin Jingfan's storytelling was very disorganized, and he couldn't grasp the main point at all. It was often I asked three questions before he could answer a useful one. That day we talked about Naixue's tea from the grilled fish shop.

The weather in early winter was very cold, we sat by the window, his expression was sometimes dignified and sometimes relaxed, and I took a small notebook to write.

We started chatting at one o'clock in the afternoon and continued until eight o'clock in the evening.

My only feeling after listening to the story is: that's it? ? ?What the fuck? ? ?

I thought I could learn about the ups and downs of a poignant love story from him, or some unknown gossip in the gay circle, but who knows that this buddy has never been in the gay circle at all, and he doesn't even know as much as I do.

Lin Jingfan is really an obedient wife. She doesn't smoke, drink, or play disco. This is something that even the male protagonists of ordinary romance novels can't do. And his relationship experience, with all due respect, is as plain as plain water.

Holding the small notebook in my hand, I was a little confused for a while, and didn't know how to write at all.I wrote several beginnings at the beginning, but I was not very satisfied.

Then one day, I finally figured it out.

I don't need to write any vigorous stories at all, I just need to fully present this ordinary person, his love, friendship, family relationship, his confusion and loss, struggle and hard work.

After I thought about it, I started to write. During the period, my friend was also dragged into the water by me. After sorting out the outline, I sent her a copy directly.

The two of us are working on the same outline, creating our own stories, and then exchanging manuscripts and commenting on each other every other week. It feels very interesting.

Although this whole thing couldn't hold on when Xu Chenjuan was writing, and gave up, but the days when we discussed together and bald for writing are still very memorable.

"A Quarter of His" is the first pure love novel I wrote, and it is also the first time that I describe a person's entire process from graduating from high school to entering society at such a uniform speed.

Reading a person's growth is a very tiring thing, not only the reader will be tired, but the writer is also very tired, as if growing up from scratch with the protagonist.

And the description of Lin Jingfan's four years in college is like reviewing my four years in college from the beginning.

We are about the same age, have the same major, and have no talent for writing code. Many feelings and experiences are essentially the same.

This feeling is a bit like building a wormhole in time and space, connecting two unrelated people at a certain moment in time and space to achieve a commonality. This feeling is wonderful.

Of course, there are still many deficiencies in the process of creating this book. Even I know that there are some places that are not well expressed, but I can't think of a better interpretation method.

However, no matter how many flaws and deficiencies there are, "One Quarter of His" is still a work I like very much.

It was a turning point for me as a writer, and also witnessed my many pains and struggles, confusion and thinking.

Of course, what makes me feel even more fortunate is that I am fortunate to have a group of readers like you. Even though this work is unpopular and the process is tiring, with two or three friends like you, every day is worth looking forward to.

Finally, once again, thank you all for accompanying me through this journey, thank you for reading my words, listening to Lin Jingfan's story, and loving you forever.

The author has something to say: I still love you today~