a quarter of his

Lin Jingfan's attention was briefly diverted.

"One Leaf Boat": What are you confused about?

"Doge": I'm confused about everything, I'm confused about everything, I can't tell, let's meet and talk, do you have time for a meal?

"One Leaf Boat": Yes, you pick a place, and I'll take it.

"Doge": Please.

"It's agreed, senior brother, of course I'm asking you for help, otherwise I won't eat."

The two met at a self-service barbecue restaurant, and Mai Xingze was the first to speak harshly when they met.

Lin Jingfan didn't speak, but turned his head to look at his eyes, and found that he was almost unrecognizable after not seeing him for a while.

Mai Xingze changed his hairstyle, shoveling the hair on both sides to black, and shaved a lightning bolt on the right side, wearing white T overalls, one strap hung on the shoulder, and the other naturally fell to the side. Compared with the previous image, I got annoyed a few more times.

"Tell me, what's the trouble?"

Lin Jingfan knew that this guy had always been in a good state of mind, and he didn't look like he had any troubles, most likely he just couldn't decide on something and asked himself for advice.

"I'm anxious." Mai Xingze stroked the bangs on his forehead, and said with a bitter face, "Brother, how did you choose between work and graduate school?"

"Was I then?" Lin Jingfan held his chin and thought for a while, feeling that that time has become very far away, "I can't keep the graduate school, and I don't want to take the exam. If you like it, it’s settled.”

"What about you?" Lin Jingfan asked, "Do you want to continue your graduate studies?"

"This is where the problem is now." Mai Xingze took a sip of dark beer collapsed, "My mother wants me to go back to Jilin to study at Jilin University." Mai Xingze said again, "My father wants me to go abroad to study business. , I will go to the company to help him in the future. A few days ago, the two had a big fight over this matter, and it was a mess, and no one asked me if I wanted to read it.

Lin Jingfan: ...

Lin Jingfan has lived in school by himself since high school, and has been used to being independent since college.Whether it's studying or finding a job on weekdays, it's all up to me, and my parents seldom participate.Hearing what Mai Xingze said, he felt a little envious and amused at the same time.

"I remember when I was looking for a job." He thought for a while and said, "A brother told me that job hunting and graduate school are actually the same thing. I just refer to two dimensions, one is what you like, and the other is It's what you're good at."

"I didn't go to graduate school because I didn't want to take the exam, and on the other hand, it was really difficult to study this major," he said, "but from the bottom of my heart, I still think it would be better to read more books, and I will consider it in the future." Read a part-time graduate student or something."

"So if you like this major, it's a good choice to continue studying. I remember that you seem to be good at programming?"

He vaguely remembered that Mai Xingze was a member of the school's programming team when he was in high school, and it seemed that he almost got recommended.

"Programming is really interesting," Mai Xingze said, "but the usual theoretical classes are too annoying, and there are politics, it really hurts my head."

"Then you go abroad," Lin Jingfan said expressionlessly.

"It's impossible to leave the country. Miao Miao wants to study in J University, so it's impossible for me to leave City C."

"Who is Miao Miao?" Lin Jingfan was puzzled.

"My wife," Mai Xingze said carelessly, "Didn't I tell you before?"

There are two black lines on Lin Jingfan's forehead. Many people in the circle like to be called "wife" and "husband", but he can't accept it anyway, especially when he is called "daughter-in-law". feeling of transformation.

"I don't even want to find a job," Mai Xingze continued, "I'm not ready to face this complicated society, I'm just a baby!"

Lin Jingfan: "Then you take the postgraduate entrance examination."

Mai Xingze: "I don't want to review."

Lin Jingfan: "Then you look for a job."

Mai Xingze: "I don't want to be a social animal."

Lin Jingfan: "Then you take the postgraduate entrance examination."

Mai Xingze: "..."

The two of you came and went in boredom, after a while, Mai Xingze collapsed.

"Ah, how can it be so difficult to be a human being?"

"You have risen to the meaning of life." Lin Jingfan was a little amused, "Isn't it just a graduation season, you can find a direction and do it, remember what the "lady" said before?"

"If there is only one way to go in front of you, it is called no way; if there are two ways, it is called a dilemma; if there are three ways to go, that is the real choice. You now have three The road is about to go, so why worry about it.”

"Alas", Mai Xingze sighed wearily, "It's so annoying, I don't want to choose any road, what should I do?"

"You don't want to do anything now. It's just that you are lazy in college. You are afraid of difficulties and dare not take the first step. You are afraid of failure, and you are also afraid that if you make a wrong decision, it will affect your life."

"You are right," Mai Xingze said, "There are too many suggestions around me, and I don't know which one to listen to, and I am afraid that if I don't listen to the advice, I will miss the best opportunity and affect my life."

"No matter which path you choose, it is impossible to harm you for the rest of your life. You are just greedy for too many things now, and you want to get everything, and you don't want to pay."

"That's right, that's right, brother, you understand me too well," Mai Xingze nodded frantically, "I'm too lazy, I just want to have everything without doing anything, oh why can't I guarantee my research."

"I'm still a little unconfident and unwilling to take responsibility," Lin Jingfan said, "You are afraid that you will regret your choice, but if you hear other people's choices and make a mistake, then you can push all the sins on others. He made me do it, and I became like this."

"Brother, what you said," Mai Xingze said with tears streaming down his face, "I feel like I'm about to die in front of you."

"Tsk, let me show you a strip show." Lin Jingfan laughed loudly.

"Xingze, in fact, at this age, we should learn to be responsible for ourselves. Since there are too many suggestions around you, you might as well follow your heart and choose the path you want to take the most. Once you choose, you must Go forward unswervingly, and I believe there will be good results."

"When I was looking for a job, I encountered various obstacles at the beginning. It took me a long time to find this one. This is how everyone got here. Everyone has to go through this step sooner or later."

"Alas", Mai Xingze nodded ignorantly, seemed to understand something, sighed again, and said, "I'll be entangled again."

"By the way, brother, can you lend me some money, money is a little tight recently."

"Yo", Lin Jingfan raised his eyebrows in surprise, "Young Master Mai actually asks me to borrow money, don't you want to treat me to dinner? How much?"

"How much does it cost to eat a meal?" Mai Xingze said indifferently, "Besides, I can't save money by saving a meal."

"Is five thousand okay?" He gestured to Lin Jingfan, "Maybe I have to wait until I find an intern to pay you back."

"What's going on?" Lin Jingfan keenly sensed something was wrong, "Did you fall out with the family?"

"It's not my dad." Mai Xingze got angry when he mentioned this matter, "After a fight with me, he turned off the intimate payment to me. It just so happened that I lent all the money I had on me two days ago to a friend. All of a sudden, the capital chain was broken."

Lin Jingfan buried his head in calling him five thousand, and asked curiously, "What kind of friend can let you lend all the money you have?"

"It's the same as us." Mai Xingze sighed, and his expression turned serious. "He has a date A, and he is in a hurry to spend money recently."

Lin Jingfan: "A?"

"It's HIV," Mai Xingze explained, "everyone in the circle said that, I was afraid of my A once before, so I can understand this feeling very well."

"Oh my God", it was the first time Lin Jingfan encountered such a situation, and he was beyond shocked, "Then what should we do? What's wrong?"

"I don't know." Mai Xingze shrugged his shoulders, "There is no cure for this kind of disease, I can only take medicine. I heard that it was contracted by going out to 419. I actually don't know this person, and it was mainly to help my brother. "

"Your senior brother? From our school?" Lin Jingfan asked.

"Yeah," Mai Xingze nodded, "It's still from our school, the same level as yours, and my high school alumni."

"Oh." Lin Jingfan nodded blankly, thinking of something, suddenly raised his head, "You just said that senior is your high school alumni, what's his name?"

"Ying Zhe," Mai Xingze said, "What's the matter, you two should know each other."

Lin Jingfan:! ! !

It was Ying Zhe.

It was Ying Zhe.

How could this be?

Ying Zhe's boyfriend was infected with HIV, Lin Jingfan sat on the sofa for a long time and couldn't recover, he couldn't believe it.

"Your senior brother." After a while, he heard himself asking in a hoarse voice, "help me ask, does he still need money?"

A few days later, the same place.

Ying Zhe sat opposite the sofa, looking a little tired.

When seeing him again, Lin Jingfan felt very complicated in his heart.

I just feel that he looks a little strange, and a little distressing.

"Are you... all right?" he asked tentatively.

Ying Zhe nodded wearily, and said, "At first I was devastated and desperate, but now I can accept it, thank you, Fanzi, and I'm sorry for you."

"Don't say that," Lin Jingfan said, "If it were me, you would definitely help. Besides, I just paid some money and didn't do anything."

"Thank you", Ying Zhe rubbed the broken hair on his forehead, took a deep breath, his eyes were already a little red, "I'm sorry for you, you don't know what I did back then, if you knew..."

"Are you trying to say that you two knew each other before we broke up?" Lin Jingfan said lightly, "I already know."

"You know everything?" Ying Zhe stared at him incredulously.

Lin Jingfan then told him about the adventure with "Dan" a long time ago.

"Not together." Ying Zhe heard half of it, and explained, "We got together after we separated. We only had a meal together before."

Lin Jingfan had already almost forgotten about this incident, but he was relieved to hear Ying Zhe say that. What he cared about most at first was whether Ying Zhe was loyal in his relationship.

"Thank you for telling me this." He looked at Ying Zhe seriously and said, "It solved a knot in my heart."

Ying Zhe shook his head with a wry smile.

The two chatted a few more awkward words together, and when they met after being separated for so long, they were both very reserved, and they would be cold if they couldn't last a few words on a topic.

However, from this brief conversation, Lin Jingfan could feel that Ying Zhe seemed to love this current boyfriend very much.

Even when he went out to mess with 419 and contracted HIV, he still never left him.

Lin Jingfan felt a strange feeling when he saw the person he once loved deeply now loves someone else deeply.

A little sour, or more of something else.

Thinking of Ying Zhe's high-spirited appearance in the past, and his current appearance, he couldn't help feeling a little bit more embarrassed.

Maybe everyone is another person's debt, Ying Zhe used to be his debt, and Ying Zhe's boyfriend is Ying Zhe's debt.

Whose debt is he then?

Zhou Hao's face appeared before Lin Jingfan's eyes, thinking that he hadn't seen him for a long time, the longing that was buried deep in his heart came out little by little.

After the meal, he said goodbye to Ying Zhe, and when he walked out of the restaurant, he suddenly saw an extremely familiar figure coming out of the same restaurant, and had just stepped into the elevator.

"Zhou..." Before Lin Jingfan could yell out, the elevator door closed suddenly, blocking his sight from the door.

Is that Zhou Hao?

Lin Jingfan frowned suspiciously.

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