a quarter of his

Lin Jingfan said: "That was the first time I looked up the word 'gay' on the Internet, and I found that many people are like me..."

The bus stopped at the entrance of the village.

The father and son worked together to drag the two large boxes out of the luggage compartment.

There were a few electric tricycles parked at the intersection, and Lin Wulian went to negotiate and delivered them to their door for five yuan.

The sky in the countryside is very blue, and pieces of wheat shine golden on both sides of the road.The father and son were sitting on a tricycle that was ventilated on all sides, and the warm wind gently caressed the sides of their faces, feeling indescribably comfortable.

It was already 05:30 when I got home, and Shen Fangfei was busy in the kitchen when she heard a voice coming out with a plate of fruit.

"You're exhausted, take a rest."

The two piled their luggage aside, sweating all over.Lin Wulian went to the side to wash his face, while Lin Jingfan was holding the electric fan and blowing desperately.

There was a "jingle dingling" car bell at the door, followed by Wei Yang's earth-shattering roar.

"Lin Jingfan, you are finally back!"

Hearing this sound, Lin Jingfan's dull and lifeless eyes suddenly lit up a little, and Shen Fangfei said: "Go, I came here yesterday to look for it once."

Lin Jingfan didn't even have time to change his clothes, he grabbed his phone and ran out.

Wei Yang rode a [-]-foot bar, with one leg on the ground and the other leg up, looking at him with a smile.

Not seeing him for three years, he has hardly changed, his dark skin looks shiny in the sun.

Lin Jingfan sat straddling the back of his car with ease, dragging his legs on the ground.When he approached, he smelled a faint smell of sweat, and when he looked up, he saw that the back of Wei Yang's black T-shirt was completely wet.

"What did you do, why are you sweating all over?" He couldn't help asking in dialect.

Wei Yang started the car, grinned, showing his big white teeth, and said, "Just after I came out of the Internet cafe, I saw you and my uncle getting on a tricycle, thieves, what the hell chased me all the way."

"Are you an idiot, how can a human-powered one compare to someone else's electric one?" Lin Jingfan couldn't help laughing at him, but felt very moved in his heart.

When I was in high school, I only had one day off every half a month. When I got home exhausted, I had to take a shower, wash dirty clothes, and have a lot of homework. It was not uncommon for me not to go home for a month or two.

Wei Yang was studying in a high school in the county, and the two had barely seen each other a few times in the past three years, and when they saw each other, they didn't feel any sense of identity, as if they parted only yesterday.

Lin Jingfan only felt that he had never made friends like Wei Yang in three years of high school.Even Chi Lei, who had a good impression before, seemed to be a bit inferior compared to him.

It was a feeling that was accumulated over the years, almost like family affection.

We will be friends forever, he couldn't help thinking as he looked at Wei Yang who was pedaling hard in front of him.

"Hey, can I ask you something?" Wei Yang suddenly stopped the car, and Lin Jingfan came back to his senses, "What's wrong?"

Wei Yang glanced at him dissatisfied, "I asked you how your exam was, are you hysterical?"

"You're only hysterical. I guess it's 630. How about you?"

Wei Yang grinned and said indifferently, "It's about the same as you, where shall we go?"

Lin Jingfan also had no idea: "You decide."

In the past few years, the country has vigorously promoted rural construction. In the first year of high school, all dirt roads were refurbished into cement roads.In the past three years, almost every time Lin Jingfan went home, the village would change.

Wei Yang said narrowly, "I'm sure? Then go to Sister Xiaoye's house."

Xiaoye was his first love before, Lin Jingfan's face changed immediately: "Don't, it's too embarrassing, we haven't contacted each other."

"Tsk, I remember you chatting about penguins with my little sister every day on my computer." Wei Yang was very funny, "How do you say Fanzi, there is something new?"

Lin Jingfan's face froze.

Wei Yang originally wanted to tease him a few words, but he hit his mind by mistake.

"No, how is it possible?" Lin Jingfan breathed out, thinking that it was good that Wei Yang had his back turned to him, "It's not like you don't know how perverted you are in G, how can you have time to fall in love."

"What about you?" He said with a guilty conscience, and asked Wei Yang, "The County No. [-] Middle School is not busy, so you can't justify it if you don't talk about it."

"Not really." Wei Yang shook his head and said, "My sweet first kiss is for my girlfriend from college."

Lin Jingfan: "...Are you disgusting or not?"

Bickering back to bickering, after what Wei Yang said, Lin Jingfan couldn't help but look forward to college life.

That will be a brand new life completely different from high school, and maybe there will be a warm love waiting for him.

Both of them didn't think about what to do, and they rode their bicycles aimlessly on the street.

The setting sun dissolves into gold and hangs at the west end of the village. The sun covers every corner of the concrete road and falls on the hem of the young man's clothes that sway in the wind.

In the evening, Lin Jingfan invited Wei Yang to eat at home, but Wei Yang was not polite.The two grew up together since they were young, and they are also very familiar with each other's parents. It is common for them to rub off on each other since they were young.

"Yangyang is here, sit down quickly, the meal will be ready soon."

Shen Fangfei cooked a large table of dishes, and when she saw her son coming back with friends, she hurried forward to say hello.

Lin Jingfan washed his hands and went to help her with the meal, Wei Yang also came in, but Shen Fangfei pushed her away with a smile.

"Fanfan took Yangyang to play outside, the kitchen is too small to fit in, you two young men."

Lin Jingfan had no choice but to sit with Wei Yang on the sofa and show him his new mobile phone.

"Is the 5S easy to use?" Wei Yang took out his mobile phone, "It seems to be similar to my 5S. Hey, you added me to WeChat."

Wei Yang passed his friend smoothly, and after chatting for a while, we were able to have dinner.

At the dinner table, Shen Fangfei showed great enthusiasm. When asked what the two children planned to volunteer, Wei Yang said that he wanted to study medicine, while Lin Jingfan was a little confused, and only said that he wanted to do the kind of work that sat in the office and played on the computer.

"Computers!" Wei Yang said, "This is very popular now."

Lin Jingfan was shocked that Wei Yang knew so much, Shen Fangfei said: "Auntie and your uncle don't understand these things either, so Yangyang will bring some of our Fanfan."

Wei Yang grinned, grabbed Lin Jingfan's shoulders, and said to Shen Fangfei: "Don't worry, Auntie, when the time comes, Fanzi and I will volunteer together, maybe we can go to a school."

Shen Fangfei and Lin Wulian laughed from ear to ear, and praised Wei Yang for his ability.

The meal was enjoyable, but Lin Jingfan was still a little out of sorts.

The moment Wei Yang hugged him just now, he clearly felt the stiffness of his body and the uncontrollable beating of his heart.

What the hell, what the hell is going on? !

"Go to the Internet cafe tomorrow?"

After dinner, Lin Jingfan sent Wei Yang home. Wei Yang stepped on his bicycle and raised an eyebrow at him.

Lin Jingfan frowned: "Let's talk about it."

Wei Yang looked at him with some confusion: "You are not particularly tired in G, it seems that you are not energetic."

Lin Jingfan himself found out, especially after seeing Wei Yang today.

He has hardly changed from three years ago, but Lin Jingfan himself has spent three years in G, but he seems much duller.

Hearing Wei Yang's high-spirited talk at the dinner table, including when he just saw him stepping over the bicycle with his long legs, Lin Jingfan felt an indescribable youthful spirit, as if his body was shining.

That night, Lin Jingfan lay on the bed tossing and turning, unable to sleep, Chi Lei's sunny smile appeared in front of him for a while, and Wei Yang's handsome appearance on his bicycle for a while.

He was distracted, switching back and forth between the various apps.Finally, with a bit of apprehension, he typed the three words "gay" in the browser.

A row of results appeared on the screen, Lin Jingfan didn't dare to get angry, he paused for a moment with his fingertips in front of the screen, and finally clicked on one of them as if he had made up his mind.

The unfamiliar nouns rushing towards him seemed to drag him into a whole new dimension.

Lin Jingfan was short of breath, and sat on the head of the bed with his arms around his knees, the phone screen cast a dim light on his face.

He found that the homosexual group was far larger and more complex than he had imagined.

They are like a special species hidden in this world, with their own set of communication languages.Usually work and life are no different from normal people, but in invisible corners, all kinds of absurdities are staged.

Wait, isn't homosexuality normal?

Lin Jingfan felt that it was wrong for him to think so, but he really couldn't accept those one-night stands and cheating marriages on the Internet.

In his cognition, even homosexuals should have a fixed and sincere relationship, and both parties should give and take responsibility for each other.To him, this kind of irresponsible and greedy behavior is simply destroying the three views.

The night is getting darker, and there is no silence in the summer night in the countryside, and the cicadas are constantly singing, just like his chaotic mood at the moment.

Lin Jingfan couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, the amount of complicated and impactful information constantly washed away his three views.Several times I wanted to quit the browser and leave this absurd world, but I couldn't help clicking one by one.

Someone asked in the Q&A: Am I gay in this way?

Lin Jingfan read all the answers below and compared them with his own one by one.

Dimly, he seemed to have found the answer, but he didn't want to admit it anyway.

The author has something to say: I still love you today~