There is a kind of love that is insincere

When I went home at night, my brother saw my zongzi head wrapped in gauze and cried, which surprised my mother and me.His cry was no different from that of killing a chicken, but it infected me, and I cried even more.Lele looked at us coldly.

I cried and cried and glanced at Lele who was on the sidelines.He looked at me and pursed his lips, and now I cried even harder.Fortunately, my mother coaxed me and my brother, and we stopped for a while.My mother took me and Lele into the room first, washed our faces, and let me go to bed with him.

On the same bed, Lele and I were both very awkward, we slept on opposite sides of the bed, with a big gap in between.It's like a chasm that can never be crossed.

The moonlight spilled into the house, peeping at us like a sneaky child.My eyes were wide open, I couldn't fall asleep, and I was afraid of Lele who was lying on the same bed with me.But I want to be close to him, want to touch this beautiful brother.

I moved my body and turned around cautiously. The moment I turned my head, my eyes met his indifferent eyes, which made me catch my breath.There was a dark emotion in his eyes that hung over me.

What kind of look?Why does that look scare me so much?

I can't read and don't understand.I swallowed, and asked in a milky voice, "You..."

"I'm not going to apologize to you," he said first, before I could get my words out.

I asked idiotically, "why" why didn't you say sorry to me after hurting me?

He looked at me without speaking, his eyelashes fluttered slightly, and then he lowered his eyes.

When I was young, I didn't know what kind of surprises and sorrows the beautiful Lele would bring to me, let alone what kind of turmoil his arrival would cause in my family.Now I just think that there is one more beautiful brother who hides secrets.

I thought about it and asked, "What's your name?"

He said softly, "Lele, joy, joy."

"Is your surname Le?"

"I don't have a name."

I was taken aback, and asked strangely, "How could there be no name?"

He said impatiently, "What do you care about so much!"

I wonder if he hates me too?But why doesn't he have a name?What does this mean?I certainly wouldn't think about such a complicated issue when I was young.

"Then can I call you Lele from now on?"

He said nothing, closed his eyes, and seemed to be asleep.

I watched his pretty face quietly, and suddenly remembered something, and whispered, "Lele, my name is Bai Yuanyi."

Lele ignored me, and I asked again, "Do you remember?"

He didn't respond to me, opened his eyes and said, "Are you arguing?"

I was stunned, covered my mouth slowly, and muttered, "No noise, no noise to you."

Lele looked at me with a smile on the corner of her mouth.When he smiles, the corners of his eyes are slightly curved, similar to crescent moons.He moved his thin lips lightly, "Your name is really ugly."

I was a little sad, and he said again, "I remember, though."

I remember.Just these four words make my heart beat wildly.I secretly covered my chest with my hands under the quilt, and it became abnormal there.Because of Lele, the frequency of jumping is wrong, but this kind of palpitation is a feeling that we didn't understand when we were young.

The next morning, my brother shook his fist at Lele out of my mother's sight.

Lele ignored my brother, probably in his eyes, he still regarded my brother as a fool.

Wearing big slippers, I came out of the room indistinctly, with my pajamas slipped on my shoulders. If I were to look like this in ancient times, I would have been shot with a stick.But I'm young, so I don't know that much.

My mother came over to hug me and adjusted my clothes, "Yuan Yi, is there any discomfort in your head?"

Hearing what my mother said, Lele lowered his head, and his slightly long bangs covered his eyes.I glanced at Lele and shook my little head.

"No."

My mother breathed a sigh of relief, then smiled, hugged me to sit down at the dining table, and then waved to Lele and my brother, "Come, have breakfast."

My brother rushed over first and picked up the chopsticks without restraint.When Lele sat down, my brother had already finished the porridge in the bowl.

Lele frowned when he saw the fried eggs on his plate, and ate silently without saying anything.

After a while, my mother suddenly asked Lele, "Are you supposed to be in fifth grade this year?"

Lele remained silent, stopped holding the chopsticks, and nodded after a while.

My mother smiled and said, "Lele, do you want to repeat the grade and go to the fourth grade with my younger brothers, so that I can take care of you."

Lele didn't speak, but nodded.

"Then mom will take you to school tomorrow to go through the formalities."

Lele frowned slightly, trying to hold back something, then he looked at my mother, and replied as if sarcastic, "Okay, mother."

The sound of his barking made my mother happy, probably she felt that Lele really called her mother.

Can you be sincere?

No one knows.

After eating, Lele sat on the sofa and watched TV. He was too quiet, but my brother and I were very noisy.

The two of us were chasing and fighting at home, jumping on the sofa for a while, and rolling circles on the ground for a while.

The innocence of childhood was brought to the extreme.

thump—

Lele suddenly turned off the TV, and the living room was quiet.

My brother and I looked at him suspiciously, but he didn't look at us, went back to the room and closed the door.

My brother didn't know where the anger came from, maybe he hated Lele for beating him, opened the door, and shouted at Lele, "You wild doll! You have no education!"

Lele's face changed instantly, and his little face turned pale. He stared at my brother with hatred in his eyes and said, "Say it again!"

My brother has such a temper, he shouted at the top of his voice, "What's wrong with you, you wild baby! You are a wild baby! No one wants you to come to my house!"

Lele rushed to my brother, and the two fought for the second time.My mother heard the movement and came over, saw the two children pinching each other with red faces, and quickly pulled them away.

I think if my mother is not here, it will be another fierce battle.However, there will be more fierce battles in the future, but only one person has changed, but the nature has not changed.

My brother and Lele stood in the corner, and my mother asked, "Who made the first move?"

My brother pointed at Lele and said, "He!"

Lele didn't deny it, and looked up at my mother with clear eyes.

When my mother saw the attitude of the two, she almost knew who it was. She said to my brother, "Although you are a younger brother, don't bully your brother."

My brother was slightly stunned, probably not thinking about my mother talking about him, and shouted, "I didn't do it first."

My mother was helpless, "Mo Xian, don't quibble after you make a mistake."

My brother blushed and shouted, "It wasn't me! I didn't hit him first, he hit me first!"

There was disappointment in my mother's eyes, and she sighed and said, "Whether you did it first or not, he is the elder brother, you can't rush him."

He is an older brother.You are the younger brother.Everyone understands that my younger brother should get along with my elder brother in a friendly manner, but my elder brother doesn't understand. He is still young, so how can he be sensible.

"He's not my brother! I don't want him as a brother!" My brother cried, the decibels were extremely loud.

My mother looked at Lele with an unnatural expression, and suddenly slapped my brother on the ass, "Apologize to brother."

My brother cried with red eyes, "Don't! He should apologize to me! Why should I apologize! He is a wild baby! Wild baby!"

As soon as he said this, my mother had a bad face, and she spanked my brother's ass hard again, again and again, with tears in her eyes, "Lele is your brother, you can't say that about him."

My mother's discomfort is not because of my brother's attitude, but because she loves my brother.That day my brother finally apologized to Lele and promised in front of my mother that he would never beat him or scold him again.At that time, Lele said hypocritically, it's okay, whoever let you be my younger brother, the elder brother should let the younger brother.

But if he can, the fate of the three of us will be different again, will it become better?And I should have known that most of the words that can come out of Lele's mouth are sarcasm, but we don't understand at this time, if we can understand, there won't be so many troubles.

The school term starts in September, and I went to school with my brother and Lele.The appearance of Lele made the little girls in our class a little excited.Of course, this is not their nympho, after all, it can only be called curiosity at this time.

Lele stood on the podium without speaking.The teacher asked him to introduce himself, but he didn't introduce himself, which made the teacher very embarrassed.

The teacher took Lele to the seat and said to the girl next to him, "Shangshang, you have to take care of Lele more in the future, can you?"

Shang Shang nodded, and extended his hand to Lele kindly, but Lele didn't look at her, and took out a book to read.

She put her hand down at the end, and then she glared at Lele angrily, but she didn't want to get angry with her new classmates, so she endured it.I sat behind them and was very happy to see Lele's attitude towards Shangshang.Shang Shang has always been very arrogant, and now he will be looked down upon, it is really a happy thing.

How much I wanted to pat Lele on the shoulder and tell him, you are doing well, but I didn't have the guts to do it.Originally, my mother planned to let Lele and my brother be in the same class, but she was worried that Lele and my brother would have conflicts, so she let him stay with me, saying that she took more care of Lele, so I had the responsibility.

After class at noon, I hesitated for a long time before I poked Lele's back with a pen and asked him in a low voice, "Do you want to go to the cafeteria with me for dinner?"

Lele didn't turn his head or answer, but continued to read the book in his hand.

Seeing that he was silent, I asked again, "Want to go together?"

He stopped flipping the book, "Just go if you want to go, don't worry about me."

What he said was very alienated, but I couldn't hear it. I just remembered my mother said that one should not be hungry.I stood up and came to him, "Let's go, Lele, let's go together."

Lele glanced at me, then turned his head to look at the sky in silence, the blue reflected in his eyes seemed to be fluctuating.

Is he ignoring me?I asked myself, but I couldn't get an answer, but he didn't eat, and I was too embarrassed to eat, so I went back to my seat silently and lay down on my stomach.

He and I stayed quietly in the class one after the other, while Cicada, who was in the summer, shouted outside, adding a touch of unique color.I also look at the sky, but I can't see anything famous, and I don't understand what Lele is looking at.

"Lele, is there anything interesting in the sky?"

Lele was still silent, but he looked at me sideways, making my heart pound like a deer.I still didn't dare to look at him, lowered my head, and said lightly, "Do you hate me?"

At this time, he was not silent, but responded, "Yes, I hate you." And he didn't finish what was left to say, he not only hated me, but also everyone in our family, including my kind and kind mother .

It's just that I don't know his thoughts. If I can understand, I will definitely stay away from him as soon as possible. The farther I can hide, the better, and I won't be hurt by him in the future.

Lele is a poor child, and I am a child who loves others.

"Lele, don't hate me, I'll give you the candy my mother gave me in the morning, so you don't hate me, right?" How innocent I am now, I wish I could keep it until later.

Lele was taken aback, looked at me with a frown, pushed my hand away, and then the candy fell to the ground with a crisp sound, "Bai Yuanyi, don't you understand me? I've said it all, I hate you, I hate you so much .”

I looked at him, picked up the candy, blew on it, and spread it out in front of him, "This is my favorite flavor, don't refuse it."

Lele frowned and looked at me for a long time, wondering what he was thinking, but finally he took the candy.

I smiled happily and said to him, "It's really delicious."

He looked at the candy in his hand, then at me, and suddenly smiled, which warmed my heart so much.

In the afternoon, my mother came to pick us up with candied haws in her hand. My brother grabbed the stuffed one first, while Lele and I could only eat the original flavor.

My brother is proud, but he is a little proud, why do I say he is a little proud?That's because a few days later, he developed a tooth decay.

The so-called happiness is too early, which means my brother is like this.After my mother brought my brother back from the hospital on Zhou Tian, ​​my brother kept crying and howling, saying that he would never go to the hospital again!never again!

Caused me to urinate since I was a child and had a shadow on the hospital. For example, if I want to recover naturally, I must not take medicine. I will only recover after taking medicine. I must not go to the hospital for injections, so I rarely go to the hospital, but accidents need to be ruled out .Because of accidents, we can't avoid it.

Lele is often silent, sometimes in a day, he will not say a word.I wonder if Lele is sick, why is she dumb?My mother also found this out like me, and talked to Lele, but Lele only stopped my mother from caring by saying that I don't want to talk.So every night, my mother would come to my room to see if Lele and I were getting along well, and told me to talk to Lele more, and I also wanted to talk to Lele, but every time I wanted to say that he talked more, Lele They all choose to ignore me.

The only time he warned me, said, stay away from me or I'll drag you to hell.What is hell?And what is hell like?Will there be more torture than Lele will bring me in the future?

Early this morning, I was falling asleep, when I heard a plain voice beside me, "It's time to wake up, if I sleep again, I will be late."

I looked at Lele confusedly, "Wait another minute, no, no, ten seconds, let me lie down for a while."

Lele was speechless, rolled her eyes at me, and got out of bed to wash.

When my mother asked us to eat, I slept like a piglet. Before, my mother would be angry, but since Lele came, I can also secretly sleep in again.But the consequence of snoozing is being late for class. I have never been late, so I am very shy when I enter class in the morning.

After class, I asked Lele, "Why didn't you wake me up?"

He said indifferently, "I don't care if you want to sleep yourself."

He always looks like he refuses to be thousands of miles away, but I still like to be with him, as if he will be lonely if I don't accompany him.I think Lele probably doesn't like to be in contact with others, so let me make him happy alone.

I decided that the center of my world would be Lele from now on.

Lele heard my bold words and sneered, "I don't need your kindness."

"What I said is true, you have to believe me." As I spoke, I still grasped Lele's hand, trying to express my feelings.

"Don't get close to me, don't think that I will like you."

"Why don't you like me? Shouldn't brothers love each other?"

It’s okay if I don’t say this, but after I said it, Lele stared at me, seemed very angry, bumped me away, and walked out of the classroom.

I followed behind him, I don't know how this remark annoyed him, but my mother often taught me and my brother that way.

Lele's legs haven't grown yet, so she walks very fast.After I couldn't keep up, I had to trot, and finally I was so tired that I was out of breath.

He stopped and I didn't stop and bumped into his back.

He turned his head to look at me, "Bai Yuanyi, you've never finished!"

I patted my chest to stabilize my heartbeat, "Lele, class is about to start, where are you going?"

He stared at me like he could see through me, but how could he know what I was thinking.

"Lele, did I say something wrong earlier?"

When he heard it, he glared at me again, "Yes! And what you said is completely wrong!"

I wonder, "What's wrong?"

He smiled, very sarcastic, but I couldn't understand his smile, I just heard him say, "We are not brothers! It is even more impossible to love each other! Don't think that I can recognize you as a brother!"

I am slightly taken aback.

He pushed me hard, and I fell to the ground, but he didn't help me up.

He looked at me and frowned delicately, "I will never admit that I am your brother! You will never want to be my brother! I don't have a brother!"

After he finished yelling, he walked away, the little back was very lonely, but I didn't catch up, because I was thinking why Lele said that he and I were not brothers?Mingming's mother said that Lele is my brother, why does Ke Lele say that he is not my brother?I don't understand, so I'd better ask my mother.