second love

Cheng Zhuojun is not gay.

He himself is well aware of this.When he was in high school, he had a relationship with a girl. Although he was busy with his studies later, the two of them had a lot of conflicts because they spent less time together, and finally broke up.

Getting to know Yue Chen was a coincidence.In the first month of college life, he lived very leisurely every day, and there was nothing to be busy with.So sometimes he would wait on the basketball court for his roommates to finish playing basketball, then go to dinner together, and then go back to the dormitory.

He has little interest in basketball, so he prefers to sit by the basketball court, play with his mobile phone, and see if there are any beautiful girls passing by the court.

Maybe because he stayed by the basketball court too many times, he was noticed by a senior brother named Yue Chen.

Yue Chen greeted him, talked to him, and after a while, they became friends.

Their friendship developed very quickly. One is a leisurely senior senior, and the other is a freshman who is not yet busy. They have a lot of time to spend together every day.

After they knew each other for three months, one night, they were sitting in front of the library door, with the cold wind blowing, Yue Chen told Cheng Zhuojun something that surprised him.

"I'm gay."

Cheng Zhuojun opened his eyes wide and looked at the shivering person beside him, as if he thought he was joking.

"Really, everyone who has a good relationship with me knows it. You won't alienate me just because of this, right?" Yue Chen felt a little funny looking at Cheng Zhuojun's expression, and couldn't help but twitched the corners of his mouth to tease that person.

And that night, Cheng Zhuojun didn't know if he was frozen stupid, or what happened, he told a lie.

"I, I like men too!"

"True or not? I don't believe it." Yue Chen looked at Cheng Zhuojun, "I can't tell at all. Let me tell you, I have a small radar on my head, and I can know if there are gays within a hundred meters."

Hearing Yue Chen say this, Cheng Zhuojun felt choked, but then he said:

"I'm bisexual!"

Just such a sentence surprised Yue Chen.

That lie was the beginning of the real intertwining of two people's lives.Because of that lie, Yue Chen dared to confess to Cheng Zhuojun someday in the future.

Cheng Zhuojun said that he was bisexual, and he didn't want Yue Chen to have a sense of distance from him. In his heart, he was not at all willing to let go of Yue Chen, a friend.He likes this friend so much that he doesn't want to let go.

A lie by Cheng Zhuojun planted a seed.

A few days after that, when the two chatted, they consciously did not talk about the issue of sexual orientation.

But a few days later, during a meal, Yue Chen suddenly asked Cheng Zhuojun if he had ever liked a boy before.It happened that Cheng Zhuojun was drinking water, and he had to choke after hearing Yue Chen's words.Then he hesitated and talked about other things, but didn't answer Yue Chen's question directly.

"You are the one who bullies junior brother like this?" Cheng Zhuojun retorted, "If you want to know other people's gossip, you should blow yourself up first."

Yue Chen was very generous, telling him about his high school events in detail.

When he was in the first year of high school, Cheng Zhuojun was only in the first year of junior high school.When Yue Chen was in the first year of high school, at the flag-raising ceremony on a Monday, he found that the male student who was giving a speech on the flag-raising platform had delicate features and fair looks.Later, when he was doing exercises in the playground, he also found that classmate, who was next door to the class next door, and every movement of the exercise was well-behaved, like a good student.

Such a coincidence, that three-good student was on the same floor as Yue Chen's class, and every time the get out of class was over, Yue Chen would run to the door of his class, pretending to chat with his junior high school classmates, and occasionally waiting for the three-good student to come out to breathe the fresh air outside the corridor, Just hook up by the way.Day after day like this, those three good students got on good terms with Yue Chen.

Hearing this, Cheng Zhuojun felt as if something was blocked in his heart, he curled his lips and said disdainfully to Yue Chen: "It sounds like a gay version of a monster catching Tang Seng to eat."

"Go, go." Yue Chen scolded with a smile. "However, the three good students of the family originally liked girls, and then they got on the so-called right track and behaved like his normal people."

Yue Chen said it lightly, but he was actually dumped, and the reason for dumping him was still very bad.

"Then you..." Cheng Zhuojun started, but he wasn't sure whether to ask further.

"Huh?" Yue Chen looked at him.

"You guys, is that..."

Yue Chen blinked, smiled and slipped a hand into Cheng Zhuojun's cuff.His fingers rubbed gently on Cheng Zhuojun's arm a few times as if on purpose.

"Yeah, what do you want to know?"

Cheng Zhuojun had goosebumps, and he was so frightened that he quickly threw Yue Chen's hand away.

Yue Chen didn't feel embarrassed, and continued to gossip about Cheng Zhuojun.

Cheng Zhuojun was so annoyed by him that he said that he had feelings for a boy in his class when he was in junior high school, but he didn't confess it, and later found out that he was bisexual.In fact, the person he was interested in in junior high school was a girl, and in order to deceive Yue Chen, he changed her gender.

After this conversation, Cheng Zhuojun felt very uncomfortable, and he tossed and turned in bed at night without falling asleep, thinking about the story Yue Chen told.

Moreover, after that conversation, Yue Chen occasionally talked about related topics, and sometimes told Cheng Zhuojun dirty jokes, and had more physical contact with Cheng Zhuojun, although it was only a few seconds, and in the end he would be rejected Cheng Zhuojun opened his hand.

The confession happened when Cheng Zhuojun's second semester of freshman year was about to start.

Their winter vacation was only a short month, and the report time was on the 28th, but Cheng Zhuojun thought it was the 26th, so he returned to school early.

At noon on the 26th, Cheng Zhuojun arrived at the school. After learning from the dormitory uncle that the registration time was on the 28th, Cheng Zhuojun felt dumbfounded.Complaining in the circle of friends only got a lot of praise and ridicule from a large group of bad friends.

After hearing the news that Cheng Zhuojun had returned to school, Yue Chen immediately changed the ticket - he didn't even have time to pack his luggage, and took the high-speed train for nearly eight hours from home to the city where the school was located.

There are only a few people in the school three days before the start of school.It was nearly nine o'clock in the evening when Yue Chen arrived at the school. After he asked where Cheng Zhuojun was on WeChat, he rushed over in a hurry.

So after Cheng Zhuojun opened the door of the dormitory, he saw Yue Chen was wearing a blue coat, breathing cold and panting.

Originally, he thought that Yue Chen had misunderstood today's report and was about to laugh at him, but before he could finish a sentence, he was hugged by Yue Chen.

Cheng Zhuojun's head rested on Yue Chen's shoulder, and he was in a daze, not realizing what was going on now.It was only when he felt the cold air on Yue Chen's body that Cheng Zhuojun wanted to shrink back.But as soon as he shrank, Yue Chen stuck up, pressed him against the wall, pinched his chin with his hands, and gave him a deep kiss...

I don't know how long the kiss lasted. After the lips parted, both of them were gasping for breath, and one of them still looked happy.

Yue Chen licked his thumb with his tongue, and wiped Cheng Zhuojun's lips with his thumb.

"Little friend, will you date my brother?"

Cheng Zhuojun panted, raised his head and gave Yue Chen a dissatisfied look.It's just that the kid's face is blushing, but it doesn't have any lethality in front of Yue Chen.

Yue Chen smiled lightly, and hooked the frozen red nose of the man with his fingers.

"I like you."

……

They started dating, they are a couple of lovers——Yue Chen thought it was like this.

At the beginning, Yue Chen was immersed in the joy of the beginning of the relationship, and did not realize that their relationship had fallen into an embarrassing situation.

Before they were friends, close friends.

But because of Yue Chen's confession, their relationship has long since ceased to be linked to the word "friendship".

On the night of Yue Chen's confession, Cheng Zhuojun didn't respond to Yue Chen verbally, he just hugged Yue Chen gently without saying a word.

After that, Cheng Zhuojun has always avoided getting too close to Yue Chen in front of others.In private, they still kiss and hug.Sometimes when Yue Chen pushed Cheng Zhuojun into a corner where no one was around, Cheng Zhuojun would subconsciously want to avoid him, shaking his head and saying "no".But when Yue Chen's lips came close, he never pushed her away.

If it wasn't for that incident in the academy, Yue Chen might have always thought that Cheng Zhuojun was just a little awkward and cute.

That time at the stairs of Cheng Zhuojun Academy, Yue Chen touched Cheng Zhuojun's hair with his hands, and the two stood there joking.

But when he sensed the sound of footsteps approaching, Cheng Zhuojun knocked off Yue Chen's hand suddenly.

Perhaps because of panic, Cheng Zhuojun used some force when he knocked off Yue Chen's hand.

When Cheng Zhuojun was talking with the classmate who passed by the corner, Yue Chen felt a dull pain in the hand that was beaten, and his hand felt numb, and he felt uncomfortable.

Later, on their way to the cafeteria, Yue Chen tried to hold Cheng Zhuojun's hand, but when his fingers just touched the palm of the man, the man froze as if he had been electrocuted, and then stared back. Glancing at Yue Chen, he quickened his pace and threw him off.

Cheng Zhuojun did not fully admit this relationship in his heart.Yue Chen began to feel this way.

He didn't dare to be too intimate with Yue Chen in front of others, and he didn't dare to mention Yue Chen in front of other students.Even if someone advances Yue Chen with Cheng Zhuojun, he doesn't care about it.

On the surface, Cheng Zhuojun made his relationship with Yue Chen very clear.But for those who had a good relationship with Cheng Zhuojun in the first semester, Cheng Zhuojun's slightly deliberate behavior would arouse their suspicion.

Seeing that Yue Chen is about to graduate, the relationship between the two is still unclear.

Knowing that there was a problem with each other, Yue Chen still didn't have a serious talk with Cheng Zhuojun.

As long as there is a chance to catch the little guy, he will endlessly ask for kisses from the other party, kissing the other party until he is out of breath.Those brief intimacy only brought Yue Chen a temporary sense of peace of mind, and also made him continue to procrastinate.

One evening, the two kissed on the path they used to take on their walks.After the kiss, Yue Chen asked Cheng Zhuojun, do you want to have sex with him?

Cheng Zhuojun was stunned, not knowing how to answer.

Seeing that he was silent, Yue Chen put his hand into his clothes without asking for his permission.

It was early summer, and Cheng Zhuojun was only wearing a long-sleeved T-shirt. He felt Yue Chen's hands moving around his waist and back. He thought he was just joking, so he pretended to be angry and asked Yue Chen to quickly withdraw his hand. go.When Yue Chen's fingers started to slide towards his buttocks through his pants, Cheng Zhuojun's expression froze, and he pushed Yue Chen away forcefully.

Cheng Zhuojun is also a man, even if Yue Chen wants to force him, he can't make things difficult for him.

But seeing Cheng Zhuojun's reaction so big, Yue Chen still felt a little bit disappointed.

"Okay, just kidding. I won't force it."

Yue Chen could only say this to Cheng Zhuojun with a wry smile, but Cheng Zhuojun couldn't bear the way he turned his head and grabbed his bangs to cover up his injury.

In the end, Cheng Zhuojun hugged Yuechen to express his apology.

The rift between the two men widened.But none of them wanted to fix it.

They still know how to kiss and hug, except for doing it——Yue Chen mentioned it several times but was rejected.

One month before Yue Chen was about to graduate, their relationship was coming to an end.

Ever since the two of them dated, Cheng Zhuojun had become overly sensitive, as if he was very afraid that his real relationship with Yue Chen would be exposed.

During a dinner with a roommate, Cheng Zhuojun was asked by the roommate if he was in a relationship because he checked his phone too frequently.

Cheng Zhuojun panicked all of a sudden, and quickly stuffed a few pieces of meat into his mouth.

"No! Didn't fall in love, okay?!" He said a little inarticulately.

However, Yue Chen knew about it a few days later.

Cheng Zhuojun has a roommate named Yan Jiaming, and his relationship with Yue Chen is not bad.Because he didn't know that Yue Chen was gay, he invited Yue Chen to a party on Saturday.

After being politely declined by Yue Chen, Yan Jiaming still didn't give up.

"Brother, just go! Aren't you still single? Maybe you found a girl you like at the party?"

In order to please Yue Chen, Yan Jiaming beat Yue Chen's legs, squeezed his back, and said all kinds of good things.

Yue Chen had no choice but to agree first.

"Let's say it first, I'm just going to gather the number of people. When the time comes to enliven the atmosphere or something, don't drag me!"

"Okay, okay." Yan Jiaming smiled triumphantly, "Although you said so, you still want to find a girl, right? You know Cheng Zhuojun from my dormitory, right? That guy said before that he wasn't in a relationship, so I called him more He went to the party, but he refused to go. If I hadn't told him, 'Get out of the single soon.' That would have coaxed him to go to the party."

"...You mean, Cheng Zhuojun told you that he is single?"

Yan Jiaming nodded.

Yue Chen pursed his lips and didn't speak any more.

On that Saturday, about two hours before the appointed time for the party, Cheng Zhuojun received a WeChat message from Yue Chen, saying that he wanted to go to his dormitory by himself.

Recently, the seniors were sorting things out, thinking that Yue Chen needed help, so Cheng Zhuojun got up from the dormitory and went to Yue Chen's dormitory.

When Yue Chen opened the door, Cheng Zhuojun hadn't noticed the gloomy look on his face, he always thought he was here to help, and went into the dormitory to see if Yue Chen hadn't tidied up anything.

Yue Chen didn't answer Cheng Zhuojun's words, but just closed and locked the door silently.When Cheng Zhuojun sighed that they were getting on and off the bed, he had already walked to Cheng Zhuojun's side, and when the other party was not paying attention, he pushed him down on the bed.

The sudden violent impact caused Cheng Zhuojun's back to ache.He raised his eyes to look at Yue Chen suspiciously, but saw that person's calm and sullen face.

Cheng Zhuojun was stunned for a moment, unable to say a single word he wanted to say, he wanted to push Yue Chen away but the other party pressed his hands even harder.

"you--"

As soon as Cheng Zhuojun uttered a word, Yue Chen blocked his mouth with his mouth.

Different from the domineering but gentle kiss in the past, Yue Chen kissed Cheng Zhuojun with such strength that he wanted to eat Cheng Zhuojun, leaving no chance for him to breathe.

Cheng Zhuojun wanted to turn his head away from Yue Chen's kiss, but Yue Chen would grab his chin with his hands and force him to turn his head back.

"Ah!" Cheng Zhuojun couldn't help screaming when he felt his lower body being pressed against by something. He used his only movable hand to break away Yue Chen's hand that was taking off his pants, but he couldn't avoid the other party's constant entanglement at all. Come kiss.

When Yue Chen stuck his tongue in again, Cheng Zhuojun couldn't hold back, and bit Yue Chen's tongue with some force.

Yue Chen's body froze, obviously in pain, he even stopped the movement of his hands.

"Eh?" Seeing Yue Chen frowned, Cheng Zhuojun also stopped what he was doing. "No, I'm sorry, accidentally..."

Yue Chen glared at him fiercely, pinched Cheng Zhuojun's chin with his hands, forced the man to open his mouth, and bit down on his tongue, but not as hard as Cheng Zhuojun.

His tongue was bitten, and Cheng Zhuojun also suffered a little pain.But the two of them didn't stop all their actions because of this sudden episode.

Yue Chen was still roughly taking off Cheng Zhuojun's clothes.Cheng Zhuojun's thin blouse was easily lifted to Cheng Zhuojun's chest.

No matter how Cheng Zhuojun pushed Yue Chen, the other party remained unmoved.Although his refusal was obvious, Yue Chen just wanted to strengthen himself.

"open……!"

Every time he found a gap to avoid Yue Chen's mouth, but he would be blocked again soon.They had been entangled for an unknown amount of time, and Cheng Zhuojun was forced to shed physical tears. Every time Yue Chen's tongue licked his own, Cheng Zhuojun would only feel a nausea of ​​wanting to vomit.

Cheng Zhuojun put his hands on Yue Chen's neck, but he didn't dare to use all his strength.And Yue Chen seemed to grasp his point, without any resistance in his hand, he took off Cheng Zhuojun's pants and underwear to the base of his thigh.

Cheng Zhuojun felt his lower body go cold, and his heart felt as if he had fallen into a frozen lake.

Yue Chen distanced himself from Cheng Zhuojun, raised his hand to wipe away the tears from the corner of his eyes, and then moved his hand to a place behind Cheng Zhuojun's buttocks.

At first Cheng Zhuojun was a little surprised what Yue Chen wanted to do again, but when he realized that Yue Chen was paying attention to that side again, he quickly grabbed Yue Chen's hand.

"Yue Chen, don't do this!" Cheng Zhuojun was so frightened that he even cried out when he spoke. When he noticed that Yue Chen's eyes were fixed on his body, his heart beat a little faster. Most of the reason was because of fear. .

Yue Chen clasped Cheng Zhuojun's two hands with one hand, and then moved the other hand there unhurriedly.When his hand reached that place, Yue Chen felt the man's body tremble, and then let out a frightened whimper.

Yue Chen raised his head to look at the man, the man's eyes were red, but he held back a tear without shedding it.

"Don't worry, I can't insert it without lubricating oil." Yue Chen said lightly, and let go of Cheng Zhuojun's hand.

"I heard that you guys are going to a party later?" Yue Chen hooked the corners of his mouth and said softly, "I'll give you a gift, can you take it with you?"

Yue Chen left a hickey on Cheng Zhuojun's neck.

Cheng Zhuojun covered his neck with his hands, and returned to the dormitory with his head down all the way, and then sat on the chair in a daze.

He looked at the marks on Yue Chen's neck on the screen of his mobile phone.To be honest, there is nothing to see, the purple one, Cheng Zhuojun can't hide it even if he wants to.

There is no way to go to the party.When Yan Jiaming and the others came back, they saw Cheng Zhuojun sitting on a chair, motionless.Staring at the posters on the wall, as if thinking about something.

At the beginning, the other two roommates were still complaining about why Cheng Zhuojun didn't go today, and a senior senior brother didn't go there temporarily, which made the girls from other schools feel unhappy and other trivial things.

Yan Jiaming's eyes were sharp, and he saw the mark on Cheng Zhuojun's neck at a glance, and quickly patted the other two roommates, telling them not to bother him.

Until the roommates went to bed, Cheng Zhuojun was still sitting there, maintaining that posture.

I don't know how many hours later, Cheng Zhuojun stood up suddenly, ran to the corridor and called Yue Chen.

The phone call was very long, long enough for Cheng Zhuojun to finish everything he hadn't said, and long enough for Yue Chen to break up and break up.

Maybe in terms of love, Cheng Zhuojun liked Yue Chen, but he didn't like him as much as Yue Chen.

In Cheng Zhuojun's heart, Yue Chen is more of a friend than a lover.Important friend.

He also has a lot of possessiveness towards Yue Chen, but it is more out of friendship.

Because he didn't want to lose Yue Chen, he lied, and it was because of that lie that they came to where they are today.

Yue Chen confessed to him that Cheng Zhuojun didn't know what to do, so he let Yue Chen do what he wanted.

Although he himself thinks that homosexuality is just an ordinary person, he just happens to like someone who is the same as himself.But when Yue Chen said that he liked him, Cheng Zhuojun panicked.I don't want to abandon Yue Chen, but I also don't want to accept other people's strange eyes.

Yue Chen listened to Cheng Zhuojun's words and thought about it carefully.He wasn't particularly surprised, as he had reasonably expected many of the scenarios.

In the end, Yue Chen told Cheng Zhuojun that he was very grateful to him for cherishing himself and for treating him as an important friend.

"But your method is wrong. If you want us to be just friends, you should learn to reject me. It's just a kind of harm to me that you accept me blindly."

Yue Chen smiled and felt sorry for himself a little.

"Zhuo Jun, thank you very much. These three months have been too hard, maybe it was a mistake for me to confess to you. If it weren't for this confession, maybe we could be friends for a long time. Even if I graduate, I still Will come back to see you once in a while. But it's time to end."

"From my point of view, I'd say to you: 'Break up.' But from your point of view, I'd say to you: 'Break up.'"

Yue Chen sniffed, and seemed to be able to see Cheng Zhuojun's silence on the other side of the phone.

"Cheng Zhuojun, we will be strangers from now on. Goodbye."

The author has something to say: Scale limitation... to what extent is it restricted... distressed.