i am a ghost

Ever since I met that woman named Hongyue, I have never gone out alone.

On the one hand, I have some shadows in my heart; on the other hand, it is because Gu Nian must lock the door when going out now, even the windows are not allowed to open.

But in order to compensate me, Gu Nian increased the number of times he took me out for fun when he was not busy.

In fact, I don't have any particular favorite spots, or I like everything.Anyway, as long as it is full of vitality, even a small nesting bird, I can watch it all day long.

Gu Nian obviously doesn't understand my hobbies, so he will keep staring at me at such times.

"Are you bored? How about we go." After being stared at by him for half an hour, I finally couldn't help but surrender.

"It's okay, you can continue." Gu Nian pointed to the tadpole in the pond, signaling me to leave him alone.

It's a pity that I really couldn't stand his staring salute, so I simply got up and dragged him away on the pretext of being hungry.

We went to a well-known Chinese restaurant nearby, and the presentation of the food was very good, but unfortunately I don't think the taste is as good as Gu Nian's.

I was just idly stirring the soup in front of me, when suddenly there was a commotion among the diners, and then a man dressed as a chef with a beard sprang out from the slant, and knelt down beside our table with a plop, frightened. I shivered, and the spoon in my hand fell into the soup.

"Destroy! Destroy! I've done it!"

In the surprised and curious onlookers around, the bearded man howled, hugged Gu Nian's leather shoes and kissed them, looking frighteningly crazy.

Gu Nian was obviously very upset, and kicked the man's chest hard with a look of disgust.

This kick was obviously not light, and the beard rolled several meters away, and his head hit the iron sheet of the table leg, bleeding profusely in an instant.

The crowd immediately scattered in fright, but the man still supported his swaying body and struggled to crawl towards Gu Nian, splashing a few drops of blood on my pants on the way.

Gu Nian was furious, she stood up suddenly and walked in front of the man, stepped on his bloody head on the ground and crushed it a few times.

It was the first time I saw him so violent, and I was a little overwhelmed for a while.

Just as he was hesitating whether to step forward to persuade him, Gu Nian suddenly leaned over and whispered a few words, and the wailing man immediately fell silent.

Before I could react, I was dragged outside by Gu Nian. When I got to the door, the hotel owner rushed over after hearing the news and kept bowing and apologizing to us, but was pushed away by him.

After being dragged to the opposite side of the road, I couldn't help but secretly glanced back.

A lot of spectators had already gathered at the entrance of the restaurant. I seemed to see a beautiful woman with black hair in a red dress disappearing in the crowd. I don't know if it was my illusion.

When I got home, Gu Nian didn't comment on this matter, and I could only comfort myself that I just met another lunatic.

But that night I had a nightmare. I dreamed that Gu Nian tied me to the bed and filled my mouth with a bottle of dark red and smelly viscous liquid.

In the dream, I was crying and struggling in heart-piercing pain, but Gu Nian just looked at me coldly, covering my mouth and not allowing me to spit out that disgusting thing.

I woke up from the dream in a cold sweat, but the pain lingered from the dream.

I can't tell where it hurts. This kind of pain is more like coming from the depths of my soul, like a wild beast chewing my flesh and soul in a place I can't touch. I can't even moan, I can only Shuddering with eyes closed.

Gu Nian next to me quickly noticed my movement, turned on the light and embraced me in his arms, kissing my sweaty forehead lightly.I trembled and raised my eyes to look at him, and there was only tenderness and worry in those dark eyes at this moment.

Sure enough, it was just a nightmare.

How could my Gu Nian look at me with that indifferent look.

The pain gradually subsided, but the terrible feeling was seared in my heart, and I desperately needed to escape from the panic.

Climbing onto Gu Nian's shoulder, I raised my head and gently licked his rolling Adam's apple.

I know he can't refuse my love.

Sure enough, Gu Nian's breathing immediately became rapid and hot.

Maybe it was because the pain just now was too terrible, but it made me feel that Gu Nian's usual roughness became easier to bear.

Even when the familiar feeling of tearing climbed up my spine along the nerves, I excitedly raised my legs and wrapped them around his waist.

By the time the sky turned pale, I was too tired to move a single finger, but Gu Nian was still full of life, stroking my avatar, which had long been unable to produce anything, and whispering in my ear: "You It was so good tonight, I couldn't stop."

I snorted softly and asked hoarsely, "Don't you like it?"

"Of course I like it, but I'm afraid I can't help but eat you." He gently licked my earlobe and pushed it in again.

I whimpered and closed my eyes in a mixture of painful pleasure.

I poked my head out of the bedroom ceiling light and looked down.

That's right, I'm dead again.

"Sure enough, it's your fault!" I angrily pointed at my naked "self" on the bed, and complained loudly to Gu Nian, "Every time I finish it, I die soon!"

Gu Nian casually looked up at me while putting on her clothes: "Well, I didn't expect you to be so involuntary..."

I rushed down and covered his mouth, just in time to prevent him from uttering the last word.

Gu Nian took the opportunity to grab my arm and pull me down from mid-air: "It's okay, just get another one."

I don't know why I felt that when Gu Nian said this, there was a strange coldness in his tone, which reminded me of the nightmare of last night.

The "corpse" on the bed was like a damaged rag doll, its naked body was covered with bruises and hickey marks, and the turbid fluid and blood from last night were still stained between its legs.

I still couldn't get used to the weird feeling of looking at my broken "corpse", so I could only hide nervously in the wall behind me, pretending that I was just a wall brick that couldn't think.

Gu Nian didn't force me to show up, put on my clothes and carried the "corpse" out of the bedroom.

I knew he was going to the basement again.

In that mysterious place, with a method I don't know, I continued my existence that should have disappeared long ago.

A week after I got my new body, I read this story in the corner of my local newspaper:

[Dong, a restaurant chef in this city, killed his wife and children a week ago and escaped. His body was found in Lake Zero last night. The autopsy showed that the cause of death was drowning. The police suspected that his abnormal behavior was related to cult worship. 】

Looking at the bearded face in the picture accompanying the news, I felt a chill behind my back.

I glanced at the black steel door on the floor of the stairwell - Gu Nian was working underneath.

What is he doing?I dare not think deeply.

Putting down the newspaper, I ran to the study on the second floor, opened my laptop, and began to search for the Zero Lake suicide incidents in the past year.

There are many related reports, but there is very little personal information about the suicide. I managed to find a few photos of the suicide.

However, it was these few people who made me stunned at the table as if struck by lightning.

I remember that young man wearing glasses was the salesman who forcibly recommended training courses to me during the Spring Festival, and he pestered me for a long time.

I also remember the woman with the red phoenix eyes, the street girl who tried to flirt with me when I was waiting for Gu Nian to pick up my car from the parking lot.

I even remember the old man with white beard and hair. He was the one who knocked me down and bit me back when I was walking alone in the garden last month. Fortunately, a security guard witnessed everything before he left angrily.

These people are all ordinary people who have had contact with me.

They all threw themselves into the lake.

Although the reasons for suicide given in the news are nothing more than career frustration, frustration in love, and unfilial sons and daughters.But is this really just a coincidence?

Closing the notebook with trembling hands, I stumbled to the bathroom to undress and observe myself in the mirror.

Every time the body looks exactly the same, but if you observe carefully, you can find the difference, such as the red mark on the back of the left hand last time, such as the very light blue spot on the ankle this time.

I remember that the street girl with red phoenix eyes had a conspicuous butterfly tattooed on her ankle. When she left angrily because of Gu Nian's driving away, the butterfly danced with her enchanting steps, which left a deep impression on me. impression.

What am I?

I hid in the shower, turned on the spray, and tried to use the hot water to dispel my unstoppable chills.

My head hurts, as if something is stirring in the depths of my mind.

After an unknown amount of time, there was the sound of the bathroom door being opened. Through the tempered glass in the shower, I could see a vague figure approaching.

"Why do you suddenly think of taking a bath in broad daylight?" Gu Nian's voice entered the eardrums.

"...It's a bit cold." I replied softly.

"Cold?" Gu Nian pushed open the sliding door and stepped into the shower room, reaching out to touch my forehead, "...I don't have a fever."

"Why did you come in, your clothes are all wet!" I quickly turned off the shower, but Gu Nian's shirt was still soaked in a large area, and it stuck tightly to his body.

I pulled the towel and wiped him a few times before realizing that I was also wet, so I stuffed the towel into his hand.

"Go and change your clothes, I'll go out after I get dressed."

But Gu Nian watched me get fully dressed before leaving the bathroom with me.

"What's the matter with you?" he asked after me.

I went straight to the cloakroom and looked through the closet: "It's nothing? Why do you ask?"

Gu Nian didn't take the dry shirt I handed him.

"Absent all day." He looked at me who stepped forward to unbutton him and asked in a deep voice, "Did you remember something?"

I shook my head, took off his wet clothes, and said while trying to put on clean clothes for him:

"No, I don't remember anything."

Gu Nian didn't speak any more, just grabbed the shirt in my hand and threw it aside, pushing me down on the soft couch in the cloakroom.

Soon, the clothes I just put on were stripped off again.

"I don't really want to do it."

Feeling Gu Nian's loss of control, I begged in a low voice without any hope.

Gu Nian suddenly stopped, and finally just hugged me tightly and let out a weary sigh.

I felt uneasiness and irritability from his tense arms, which made my heart throb inexplicably.

Reaching out to push away Gu Nian's damp black hair covering his right eye, unlike the red left eye, there are only empty eye sockets, like a black vortex that will engulf me at any time.

"Nian, I'm very disturbed." I traced Gu Nianying's straight eyebrows with my fingertips, "I'm obviously dead, how can I still walk in the world with such peace of mind, you...can't you really tell me the reason?"

Gu Nian grabbed my hand, hugged me and turned sideways, and squeezed on the small soft couch with me face to face.

He looked at me in silence for a long time, and then suddenly asked a seemingly irrelevant question: "Do you know what I am most afraid of?"

I thought for a moment and shook my head.

"you."

"I?"

"Yes, you are so terrifying that I tremble." Gu Nian's mouth curled up with a strange arc: "You made me cowardly, dull, and depraved. It was you who made me a slave to desire."

I was speechless for a moment, and I didn't even know if it was love or a curse.

Gu Nian's fingers caressed my throat: "But after destroying me, you want to escape responsibility by death, how cunning."

destroy?What is he saying?

I held my breath nervously, afraid that Gu Nian would say something more terrifying.

But he suddenly let go of his hands, stood up and looked down at me condescendingly.

"You don't need to know anything." He was backlit so that I couldn't see his expression clearly, "Anyway, you've already died once."

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