i am a ghost

"I am a ghost" episode

My name is Gu Nian.

The woman declared that I was the offspring of her intercourse with the dead man.

So believers with good deeds will call me "son of death".

I don't care about such absurd remarks, anyway, my family is already ridiculous.

I don't know how to describe those who share my blood.

monster?Cult?Ogre?

My grandpa was a maniac who hugged and kissed an eyeball all day long.

My mother, that woman, was a liar indulging in lies and lust.

However, such a ridiculous family actually attracted many ignorant human beings who tried to get rid of misfortune.

Those people kowtowed to the young me, praying for meaningless detachment, but they didn't know that I would only bring them deeper misfortune and despair.

After all, when unhappiness becomes unbearable, all that is needed is to create more unlucky people.

When a person can't bear the pain of his own incompetence, he often chooses to abandon his life, and discards his body and soul like garbage in the wilderness and shallows.

And those people who are connected with my blood are like hungry wild dogs and hard-working scavengers, recycling those unowned garbage, so as to maintain their kitsch youth and evil power.

But I don't hate my job. In fact, I like to watch the suicide crowd the most. Seeing those faces full of desire and appeal gradually distorted and desperate in misfortune, I trembled with excitement.

I have never failed, and if a man has not killed himself, it is only because I have not given him enough misfortune.

I was so confident until I met Gu Qingyue.

I still remember the day that woman brought an arrogant man to me and told me it was my uncle.

Brother of my dead father.

The man's greedy and cold face made me feel sick.

I looked away, and at that moment, I saw Gu Qingyue following behind the man.

Looking at each other, he tilted his head and gave me a playful smile.

I threw up in nausea, the acid burned my nose and esophagus.

His innocence, curiosity, and blind love for life all bore and hate me.

From that moment on, I decided that I would destroy this self-righteous cousin with my own hands.

I began to erode his life. I will fill this man's boring life with pain and misfortune as usual until he kills himself with his own hands.

The first thing I did was to trick his believer mother into stabbing his own neck artery with a table knife in front of him.

Blood spurted wantonly, staining Gu Qingyue's pale cheeks red, and also ignited my excited thoughts.

Thinking of the broken expression he will show, I, who was hiding in the dark, was so excited that I was almost incontinent.

However, Gu Qingyue didn't even cry.

He just watched his mother's twitching corpse gradually die in pity, and then closed her wide eyes.

He even kissed the almost detached head with a sigh of relief.

My palm was pinched with blood by myself, I wish I could rush out and cut Gu Qingyue's neck immediately.

But I will not give up, I will let him die willingly.

I cursed him so that he would suffer from sickness all day long; I insisted on going to the same school with him so as to bring misfortune to him all the time;

However, Gu Qingyue always lived as if nothing had happened.

Whenever I silently cursed him around him, he would tilt his head and give me that disgusting grin.

I really hated him more and more.

When Gu Qingyue and I were 16 years old, I finally saw his tears.

That day, he was curled up in the corner, his clothes were disheveled and covered with scars, like a dilapidated doll that had lost its soul.

He held a rusty old table knife in both hands, trembling slightly.

My dear uncle was lying on the ground covered in blood, grabbing my trousers and swearing wildly, asking me to punish his disobedient son.

So I grabbed Gu Qingyue's hand and stabbed the knife in his hand into that man's heart.

Gu Qingyue shed tears for the first time, crying because of her cruelty to life.

Who told him to call me first?

His tears delight me, his pain satisfies me.

As a reward, I kissed his cold, soft lips.

He didn't struggle, which bored me.

So I bit his tongue hard until the smell of blood permeated between our teeth.

The smell was so sweet it took my breath away.

Why should someone so repulsive have such delicious lips?

I started wondering if other parts of him were just as tasty.

It wasn't long before I got the answer myself.

Lost eyes, moaning throat, skinny collarbone, sweaty back, trembling legs, and deep convulsions.

Everything—an addictive poison.

Maybe that's the real reason I hate him.

Bite, gnaw, chew, swallow.

This is all my desire for Gu Qingyue.Just like that woman's desire for flesh and soul.

This realization made me almost mad with anger, and I felt that I had to kill Gu Qingyue immediately, otherwise I would become a monster like that woman, firmly bound by never-ending hunger.

I immediately found Gu Qingyue, he smiled at me as always, this familiar and hateful smile has been my nightmare for ten years.

His inexplicably exuberant vitality is obviously incompatible with his frail body, but it is the best irony of what I have done in the past.

So without hesitation, I inserted my fingers into his chest and pinched the beating heart.

A trace of surprise flashed across his face, and then he regained his composure, tilting his head and looking at me inquiringly.

"You're going to die." I told him, tightening my fingers slightly. .

"Yeah." He nodded, his body limp and was hugged by me.

"Aren't you afraid of death?" I asked him.

Why?Obviously love life so much, but ignore life so much.

Gu Qingyue held my blood-soaked wrist with a smile, raised her head and asked: "I exist, but death has not yet come, and when it comes, I no longer exist. So, what does death have to do with me?" ?”

Yes, what did death have to do with him?

After all, even I, the "son of death", can only hold his seemingly fragile heart for a long time, but I still can't make up my mind to crush it.

I withdrew my bloody hand.

I lost.I will be bound by the shackles named Gu Qingyue forever, and I will not be able to break free.

In retaliation, I'll never let him go either.

He will lose all his past and future freedom, and will always belong to me alone.

Gu Qingyue and I have been inseparable for a long time, in a house just the two of us.

I still hate him because he always makes my supposedly calm mind spin out of control.

His curiosity, his stupidity, his blindness, and his fragility always touched my nerves, and I couldn't help but crush him on the ground until he fainted from crying.

But he never learned his lesson and always challenged my bottom line again and again.

No, his very presence was a provocation, and just seeing the bite mark on his neckline that never faded made me bite hard into a new one on his collarbone.

Just when I thought this provocative game would never stop, Gu Qingyue committed suicide.

The pain I left on him back then gradually corroded his already frail body, and he became terminally ill.

I didn't want him to die for such a boring reason, so it took some effort to turn Lake Zero into a dead lake that tempted suicide.

Only this voluntarily given up soul can be effectively used and become the raw material to fill life.

But Gu Qingyue rejected me.

He would rather die than live by the dead lake.

Of course I don't agree with his senseless compassion.

So I tied him to the bed, opened his mouth, and poured a potion made of flesh and blood down his throat.

If he dares to spit it out, I will pour it again.

The medicine can only work for one month, so this kind of thing will be repeated every month.

Gu Qingyue's health improved, but he never smiled at me again.

It doesn't matter, I have long hated that kind of smile.

But, I didn't expect that Gu Qingyue would run away, run to Zero Lake, or jump off the bridge.

Obviously, I spent more than ten years trying to get him to give up his life, but now he ended himself so easily, willingly dedicating himself to the Dead Lake to endure endless torture.

what is this?

unforgivable.

Absolutely unforgivable.

I preserved his body, but the hunger still tormented my soul and drove me to hell.

I couldn't help biting his shoulder.

But I finally let go because this inanimate thing is just a pile of garbage to me.

I will not eat others, because that would fulfill the woman's wish.

So I have to get Gu Qingyue back.

Only he can fill my hunger.

So I found that crazy old man who loves eyeballs, and gouged out my right eye in front of him.

I know he's always wanted it because my eye looks like the one in his hand.

In exchange, he told me some forbidden methods that should have been sealed away forever.

I bandaged my right eye casually and went to the place where Gu Qingyue committed suicide.

First I needed to be in a near-death state, so I jumped.

Maybe I will really die. After all, the old man is a lunatic, so he may not have told the truth.

But it turns out he still remembers something.

I found Gu Qingyue.

A pure and energetic Gu Qingyue who forgot everything.

The result was much better than I expected.

Because only by turning into a blank sheet of paper can I repaint the color I want, isn't it?

And these colors will only belong to me, and anyone who wants to stain them will recycle them as materials for repairing white paper.

In this way, none of my colors will be wasted.

Perhaps as the number of smears increases, this white paper named Gu Qingyue will eventually become dirty, fragile and fragmented.

But what does that matter.

Anyway, I hated Gu Qingyue very much.

It's almost like falling in love with him.

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