Stop loss

78 From Titanic to Revolutionary Road

The salesman was of middle age and build, he didn't fall to the ground, but put half of his body on the sofa, staring at Chen Xiye who was much thinner than himself.

He opened his mouth and gasped, the fall was not because of injury, but because he felt unbelievable.Chen Qiye picked up another bottle of ace of spades and wanted to throw it at him, causing the dumbfounded people around to scream and shout, but no one dared to go up and stop him. If the staff didn't arrive in time and hugged Chen Qiye by the waist, That bottle of wine that fell off the sofa will surely fall on the salesman's head again.

"You—you're sick! You're making trouble here!" Realizing that this is his home field, the salesman finally reacted, covering the back of his bleeding head, and the facial features squeezed into the center of his face were funny and ugly.

The staff heard that they didn't know each other anymore, that they had no grievances or enmity, so they unavoidably loosened their arms.Chen Qiye took the opportunity to break free, and under the watchful eyes of everyone, kicked the salesman who had climbed up in a panic to the ground again, sat on him, and hit the face directly with his first fist.

Everyone looked dumbfounded, only Chen Xiye remained calm, once again his clenched fist was about to be smashed down, his wrist was caught by another person, he was lifted up and left the beer belly.

Chen Qiye was caught by the man's neck, struggling violently but unable to break free, and then bit the inside of the man's forearm without hesitation.The man hissed and took a breath, the voice was so familiar that it couldn't be more familiar, Chen Qiye lowered his eyes, only to see that the man's wrist was tied with a piece of dark red silk, the silk was rough and fluffy, making people doubt the rope Will it break if you pull it lightly?

Chen Qiye couldn't help but let go of his mouth, and turned his head stiffly. Qin Ge, who was trapped in him, gritted his teeth in pain, and cold sweat broke out from the corner of his forehead.

"He's my friend, we know each other." Qin Ge told the staff.When the salesman heard this, he could only hold back his breath, but the owner of this bottle of wine, who had booked a box seat at a huge price, was so angry that he didn't listen to the staff's persuasion and insisted on calling the police.Chen Qiye wanted to find the transvestite and his sisters, but they disappeared without a trace, as if they never existed.

It is normal for small frictions to occur in entertainment venues, and the police station in charge of this area dispatched the police very quickly.Sales and the bar are a cooperative relationship, and they still rely on selling wine for food. They covered their wounds and said "it's okay" and "misunderstanding", and offered to mediate. Now, with the arrogance of "someone above me", Chen Qiye was asked to go to the police station and compensate him for drinking and mental damage, otherwise he would complain to the police for not serving the people and upholding justice.

The police had to take the three parties back to the police station to make a record first.Chen Qiye did not defend himself, but Qin Ge insisted on impersonating him, saying that the incident was caused by himself. After arriving at the police station, the salesman and an accompanying staff member took statements outside, and Chen Qiye and Qin Ge were temporarily detained in a five-room In a small room of about six square meters.

The place was like a temporary detention center. Qin Ge stood upright and leaned against the iron gate, while Chen Qiye sat on the ground in the corner of the white wall. The two tacitly opened up the maximum distance in the narrow space.

After entering the police station, both of them were searched, but their belongings were not confiscated, and their mobile phones were all there.After changing positions several times, Qin Ge still called his family members whom he hadn't contacted for a long time, and then continued to wait, confident that the follow-up would not be as out of hand as that beer belly said.

But this didn't mean that Qin Ge could understand Chen Qiye's impulsiveness and recklessness.He crossed his hands on his chest and looked at Chen Qiye who was sitting in a corner hugging his knees.Chen Qiye seemed to be asleep, but he shrugged his shoulders when he heard the sound, and did not meet Qin Ge's eyes.Qin Ge took another look outside the iron gate. There was no one in the aisle, and there would be no one for the time being. He walked up to Chen Xiye, squatted down, and held his face with his hands.

Chen Qiye didn't obey, and buried his face against his shoulders and the corner of the wall against the direction of Qin Ge's hands, causing the side of his neck to curve, and the connected collarbone became more obvious, making him thin and pitiful.

Chen Qiye said, "Leave me alone for a while."

Chen Xiye still didn't cut his hair, his bangs covered his eyes in a mess, and his pale cheeks were flushed after drinking.Qin Ge thought that Chen Xiye was frightened, and before he recovered, he said softly, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

"I said...let me take it easy." Chen Xiye remained motionless, his voice raised a degree, and he refused to communicate with Qin Ge, as if he was showing his face to Qin Ge.

Qin Ge immediately became unhappy, and without thinking too much, he said forcefully: "You are usually alone in the capital, is it necessary to slow down now?"

Chen Qiye looked at Qin Ge without saying a word. His silent appearance was not a refusal to communicate, but an awareness of the futility of communication.

But Qin Ge is still trying and working hard——

Qin Ge wanted to find out the cause and effect, so he simply sat down on the ground and said, "I didn't realize before that you can be so ruthless. How dare you hit someone's head with the ace of spades."

Generally speaking, Ace of Spades is the most expensive wine in a bar and disco, and it can't be bought for eight thousand apiece. The bottle that Chen Qiye smashed was brand new, and it cost a lot of money according to the market value, but Qin Ge wasn't worried at all. , Comforting him: "It's okay, he frightened you, the wine is fake, you can't pay much."

The real ace of spades is very expensive, and some people can’t afford the real ones, so they have to ask the bar to rent a fake model for the sake of face, and put it on the table just to look good and satisfy their own vanity.

Qin Ge thought that Chen Qiye would relax after listening to his explanation, but Chen Qiye asked him how much money he could earn by accompanying people in the end

"...You heard from whoever said that I can get four figures in a show, so there's no need to take on private work." Qin Ge's tone was quite relaxed, and the price of a night show in that kind of place did drop, but Really got a lot of money.Now that his family has cut off his source of income, there is no need to struggle with this kind of quick money.Besides, Qin Ge also sang in Lu Chong's Qing bar when he was in high school. In his eyes, these two part-time jobs are similar in nature and there is no difference.

But Chen Qiye didn't think about him, he couldn't accept it and said, "Is it really the same?"

Chen Qiye's eyes hidden behind his hair were wide open, his facial expression and tone were very ungrateful, as if he deliberately wanted to provoke Qin Ge and have a fight with him.

The smile on Qin Ge's lips gradually withdrew.He smelled the smell of alcohol when Chen Xiye spoke, and he also remembered that the police took out a gift box from Chen Xiye's pocket during the body search before. After opening it, there was a watch inside, which was exactly the same as the Casio that Chen Xiye was wearing now.

Qin Ge took a deep breath, rubbed his face, and there were bloodshot eyes at the end of his eyes.

He was still optimistic, and hoped that Chen Xiye would think of the good as he did. He squeezed out a smile and said calmly, "This gift is really a surprise."

Qin Ge said that he will never forget the experience of this night in his life. He and Chen Qiye spent their 19th birthday at the police station.

But Chen Qiye shook his head stubbornly, said "no" several times, each time more firmly, and gritted his teeth.Qin Ge was stunned and had a terrible headache. He reached out to hug Chen Qiye again, but Chen Qiye resisted and pushed him away.

Chen Qiye shrank back to the corner where there was no way to retreat, and did not help Qin Ge, nor did he apologize.Qin Ge had a premonition that his patience was about to run out, so he gave each other a step down, and said slowly, "You're drunk."

Chen Qiye also spit out each word clearly: "You know I don't."

The two looked at each other, not giving in to each other, not like lovers, more like jealous enemies.

"Okay." Qin Ge was indifferent again, his chin slightly raised and his face expressionless, just one step away from anger.If it were normal, Chen Qiye would definitely try his best to speak kindly to Qin Ge and coax him comfortably. Today, Chen Qiye not only dared to touch the tiger's butt, but also kicked it to death, questioning Qin Ge directly Ge: "Why do you feel that everything is still under your control?"

"Lu Chong will come later," Qin Ge closed his eyes, "he can handle it."

"It's Lu Chong again..." Chen Xiye smiled, his hands that had hugged his knees were spread out on both sides of his body, and the eyes he looked at Qin Ge became a little playful.He asked Qin Ge, since he still had to rely on Lu Chong and his family in the end, why did he go to that kind of place to work part-time instead of continuing to be his young master.

"You, what did you say?" Qin Ge was speechless for a moment.He laughed too, angrily.It didn't matter why Chen Qiye smashed the sales with the bottle, because the current Chen Qiye was simply unreasonable, and Qin Ge felt unfamiliar with his incoherent and aggressive attitude.

Chen Qiye repeatedly asked Qin Ge several times how he could skip class and take a part-time job in that kind of place. He was more venting his subjective emotions, as if Qin Ge's image in his mind had collapsed and the filter had been shattered.The more he spoke, the more excited he became. Qin Ge, who couldn't get in the way, became more and more irritable when he heard it. He raised his voice and said, "I'm not for you!"

The small space finally returned to silence, but what they ushered in was not a gasp, but an increasingly intense suffocation.

Qin Ge struck first.He had never complained before, and he didn't want Chen Qiye to be involved in the complicated family conflicts, and he had to bear all the pressure alone.What a competent partner he is, when his family forced him to choose between the two, he gave up blood and family for love, and chose the latter between studies and making money in order to maintain the same standard of living as before, because he couldn't bear Chen Qiye to be too tight Baba's poor days.

He promised that Chen Xiye only needs to wait for him to feed him like he did in high school, and he doesn't need to worry about anything else.He kept his promise so conscientiously and created the best environment for Chen Qiye, but Chen Qiye couldn't help but brushed back his hair, revealing watery eyes, and said to him: "This is your unilateral promise from the beginning to the end. .”

"Did you ask me if I needed such a promise?" Chen Qiye's eyes were full of water.He said frankly to Qin Ge that he was unhappy and unhappy in school. His grades were only outstanding in the small town, but after reaching the top 2, he disappeared from everyone. He was not as good as Qin Ge imagined.

The truth is still very powerful.Qin Ge's mind went blank for a while.Chen Qiye said that he regretted going to a major he didn't like because of Thu's name. If everything could be done again, he would definitely accept the invitation from UCAS.

Qin Ge stood up and sighed twice as if he suddenly realized.

The Chen Qiye in front of him was still the sensitive, introverted and unconfident Chen Qiye he was familiar with. The difference was that the former Chen Qiye only blamed himself after being frustrated, but now he actually blamed him, Qin Ge.

"Do you think you'll be happy when you go to UCAS?" Qin Ge said contemptuously.Based on what he knew about Chen Qiye, no matter what school Chen Qiye went to or what major he studied, his personality was destined not to make him a social expert, and it was impossible for him to be as good at interpersonal relationships as he was.

Chen Qiye retorted, saying that it was precisely because Qin Ge's desire to control him was so strong that he was not given a chance to try and make mistakes at all, so there was no talk of progress and change.

"Do you think I want this? You don't even look at yourself!" Qin Ge was furious.Others can sum up experience after trial and error, but Chen Qiye will make mistakes once he makes a wrong step.Qiao Yan is a good example. If he wasn't by his side, Chen Qiye would probably be sold by someone who planned to do something wrong and pay for it.

He didn't do anything wrong, he was almost about to tell the man's name, his remaining rationality suppressed this urge.

At this moment, they were all arguing until their faces were flushed, and they couldn't remember why they were arguing. They kept digging up old accounts and misinterpreting each other's love and devotion to them.

But is there no truth in what they say, of course there is.The irony is that it is because of love, love to the bottom of their bones, that they will show each other their most vulnerable sides each night they embrace each other and fall asleep.

They are the most intimate lovers, and they are willing to entrust each other with indescribable privacy. When they used to warm each other, how could they think that one day in the future, they would speak ill at each other like they are now.

—He who can tear your soul must have saved you.

"You're so hypocritical." Chen Xiye tried his best not to let the tears fall from his eyes.No longer shrinking in the corner.

He sat on an equal footing with Qin Ge and stood up too.Qin Ge described himself as noble, like the great sage who saved Chen Qiye, but Qin Ge was not selfless. He was lonely for too long, and he longed for family love for many years but couldn't get it. Chen who just appeared at that critical point The perching leaf is simply his life-saving straw.

He used Chen Qiye to break away from his dependence on his original family, which was his own choice; he tied Chen Qiye by his side, and Chen Qiye had no choice from the beginning to the end.He accused Chen Qiye of arguing with him for being stupid, as if he was back before the two knew each other.At that time, Chen Qiye had no opinion and habitually tried to please the people around him, so how could he make efficient and wise decisions.

Chen Qiye was neither humble nor overbearing, and asked instead: "Then do you really like Chen Xiye, or the obedient and well-behaved Chen Qiye?"

Qin Ge was really stopped by the question, and he stopped being aggressive.The tears in Chen Qiye's eyes still fell, and he murmured that Qin Ge still couldn't get rid of Qin Siyuan's influence. "

Chen Qiye burst into tears: "You are as greedy as your father, you want everything. You just want me to fulfill you, to sacrifice my freedom and individuality willingly, to satisfy your selfish desires."

Chen Qiye wanted to punish him for killing someone, so he mentioned Qin Siyuan on such an occasion.Qin Ge couldn't feel the anger anymore.It was more like revenge, he said that Chen Qiye and Chen Wang were also similar.

"What are you talking about...me? Like Chen Wang?!" Chen Qiye laughed and cried.

It is undeniable that children are replicas of their parents. They have been subtly influenced since childhood, and when they grow up, they will either live in their appearance or try their best to avoid living in their appearance.Chen Xiye has a psychological construction and can accept Qin Ge saying that he is like his mother Chen Yue. His sensitivity and inferiority all come from Chen Yue. He can't accept anyone saying that he is like Chen Wang who has never fulfilled his father's duties, let alone that The person is Qin Ge.

"Who doesn't stick to one thing?" Qin Ge pressed him, crushing him with his height advantage.What Chen Qiye said so nicely, freedom!personality!These words are so desirable, but is Chen Qiye really eager for these things?Do you really want it?Then why didn't he reject Qin Ge's interference in his life from the very beginning, but accepted it time and time again, willingly.

Qin Ge said: "You just don't want to be responsible. All you can see is your own sacrifice. The individuality and freedom you want are all illusory things. Why don't you look at my sacrifice! I worry about gains and losses, and I Fear! I will also feel insecure, Chen Xiye, but my needs are so specific and clear, why do you want to escape again and again. If you don’t give me, you still want me to feel sorry for you, as if I am forcing you You are an innocent victim!"

"You're going to drive me crazy." A fragility flashed in Qin Ge's resolute eyes.If his object hadn't been Chen Qiye, if Chen Qiye hadn't put so many dispensable meanings on sexual behavior with ethics and morality, he might have achieved his wish long ago; it was precisely because he loved Chen Qiye that he waited so hard. Chen Qiye.

"But I'm also a man..." Chen Qiye was exhausted, speechless about Qin Ge's weak understanding of love.As a male, his perception of physical desire is different from Qin Ge's, although Qin Ge's understanding is more representative of the entire male group.And when those sanctimonious fellows deceived themselves and tried to justify the animal nature in their genes, Qin Ge showed no restraint in front of Chen Qiye, and frankly showed his original desire.

Chen Qiye used to envy Qin Ge's frankness.If Qin Ge's behavior and words made him feel uncomfortable, he would rationalize those actions, because he adored and worshiped everything about Qin Ge, Qin Ge sparkled in his eyes, and he was willing to look up to him.

But now he has completely faded away from Qin Ge's filters, fantasies, and beautification.The Qin Ge in front of him had never been real before, and he was just a higher animal.

"You call this sacrifice... If you don't sleep with others, it's your sacrifice." Chen Xiye covered his face, tears streaming from his fingers, if he hadn't leaned his back against the wall, he wouldn't be able to stand up at all.

How pitiful and powerless he is, he is going to make Qin Ge feel bad again, he is an innocent victim, Qin Ge is the bad guy who made him look like this.

So Qin Ge really became a bad guy.

Qin Ge grabbed Chen Xiye's neck, his eyes were red as he approached, like a rakshasa from hell.

"Otherwise?" Chen Xiye, who couldn't help coughing, lost his last rationale, and that person's name turned into the tip of a knife and pierced Chen Xiye's beating heart with precision.

"Do you think I really don't care and don't want to know what step you and Zhao Yunhe have made?! Are you really being deceived? You are an adult, Chen Qiye, you have such a father, you are really so pure , can’t see how much he cares for you? Or is it that you are simply voluntary, just pushing the boat along—”

Qin Ge's voice was overshadowed by the sound of the police unlocking the lock.

The visitor never expected that the two of them would fight inside the iron fence, and rushed in after opening the door.Qin Ge didn't need them to deliberately separate himself from Chen Qiye. He let go of his hand and took a step back, two steps. Chen Qiye was like the cheap and rough red silk rope on his wrist, floating down to the ground lifelessly. on the cold ground.

"It's okay, where is the injury?" A policewoman was comforting the weeping Chen Xiye. It was hard not to suspect that Qin Ge had caused him serious injuries from his tearful breakdown.

But Qin Ge still stood still, no one dared to touch him or press him down, because beside him stood the director of Lu Chonghe Police Station.

Lu Chong was also shocked, and subconsciously wanted to help Chen Xiye, but he didn't go forward because of his position.The chaos in front of him was beyond everyone's expectations, but Qin Ge, the creator of the chaos, was extremely calm, as if the person who almost strangled Chen Qiye to death a few seconds ago, and who was swearing at Chen Qiye was not himself at all, but just a shell. Only at this moment did Qin Ge return to his place unscathed.

But Chen Xiye, who was clutching his chest tightly, crying until he had difficulty breathing and screamed, obviously couldn't escape, and grabbed every inch of his naked skin like crazy, as if Qin Ge was still pinching his throat.He pulled Qin Ge's wrist and forearm instinctively before, and broke the marriage in order to survive.His vision was blurred by tears, and it took him a long time to see that Qin Ge's red rope had been torn off by himself, and he was holding it tightly in his hand.

Chen Qiye suddenly stopped crying.

He didn't need the help of the policemen who came, he staggered and stood up by himself.

Standing in front of the intact Qin Ge.

His face was in a state of embarrassment, his eyes were surprisingly calm, he restrained himself from trembling, and opened his mouth slowly.Qin Ge regretted his impulsiveness just now. He seemed to have won, but they were lovers. Why did he win?Why should we win or lose? !He might as well lose, or be insulted by Chen Qiye, using the most vicious language to take revenge on himself.

But Chen Qiye was not as impulsive as Qin Ge.Pulling off the red string from his wrist and holding it in his palm, what Chen Qiye said was, "I'm sorry."

Chen Xiye couldn't keep his calm, so he still cried, saying, this lump has never been let go in your heart, you must be suffering.

Qin Ge's breakdown came from the inside out.He gradually could not feel the existence of the physical body, only the soul was listening to another soul for the final frank treatment.

Chen Qiye gave up explaining.His apology was sincere.The past has become the past, and no one can change it. He doesn't have the courage to face up to it, but it doesn't mean that Qin Ge will whitewash it with him.

Qin Ge also had no obligation to endure the rest of his life.

What's more, how could Chen Xiye let him suffer.It's so painful that I can't let go of it until now.

Chen Qiye is finally willing to admit that he is not innocent, no longer makes futile redemption, and accepts the disintegration of the old relationship.He did not forget to bless, and prayed silently in his heart.The love poem that runs through the love-hate entanglement of the parents became a prophecy, and it became the ending they could not escape——

【God bless you,

Another person will love you as much as I do. 】

The author says:

This chapter is one of the plots I want to present the most (the other plot is at the end of the second volume), inspired by "Marriage Story" starring Scarlett, and the quarrel scene in it is also very exciting.The two movies in the title of this chapter have nothing to do with the main text. The former one talks about how the purity of love shapes intimacy, and the latter one talks about how the triviality of marriage destroys intimacy.Interestingly, these two films starred both Li Zi and Kate, so there is a short comment saying that if Jack survives in "Titanic", he and Rose are likely to embark on "Road to Revolution" more than ten years later.

There are four chapters left in the first volume.