My baby tame dyed bandages to become semen

The familiar light Tsu disappeared.

Buildings, streets, pedestrians...

All traces seemed to be eradicated by a hurricane, and collapsed like a collapsed city wall.

Little by little, the world around me revealed its true appearance.

Aji and I were surrounded by thick fog.

This is the river of time.

"Why is Aji here?"

I looked at him without sadness or joy. Azhi, who was wearing a sand-colored windbreaker, looked like he was 22 years old.

He is still holding my hand.

But I can't feel the slightest joy in my heart.

The longer I spend here, the farther and farther away I am from the joys and sorrows of the world.

"Yuzuki wants to exile the human part to the past world, but I don't allow it."

He put away all expressions.

Those iris-colored eyes that once made my heart flutter were looking at me intently.

"Xiyue wants to exist as a god, but I don't allow it."

His attitude cannot be questioned.

It turned out that Azhi even knew this.

If I compare my life to a game, the identities of human beings and gods are two different branches.

Yuzuki as a human and Akatsuki as a god.

There is a tug of war going on all the time in this life.

In the beginning, it was Akatsuki who wanted to take the initiative to become a human.

God's time is too long.

As the river of time, he has seen countless destinies.

Those fates are either joyful or bitter, plain or sad.

Human life is so short, but emotions are so complicated.

Their lives are like fireflies.

There are always some human beings who, when they die, seem to dissipate like stars, shining brightly.

The last god born in the last generation thought so.

Anyway, much more interesting than my whole life.

He has seen human beings rushing to their destiny with a smile.

Even gods.

Even knowing that the only future waiting for him is death.

and dissipate.

They, he... all turned around and left without hesitation.

What good is there in the world?

The god of time, who is curious, senses his destiny in the young lady he meets by chance.

He gladly accepted.

So Xiao became Xiyue Xiao.

The gods have seen too many emotions and destiny in the river of time.

Being human I can't comprehend.

I need to learn about emotions by how I feel.

Before the age of six, my world was only happy.

After the age of six, with meeting Aji as the dividing line, I began to understand more and more emotions.

It's all because of Aji!

Why is he not special?

Whenever the part that belongs to God wakes up, as long as you look at Aji, the part that is human can continue to grow.

I want to live as a human being.

I instinctively stared at Aji.

But the 14-year-old Azhi has disappeared in Minecraft.

From then on, divinity began to compete with humanity.

Parents, cousins, uncles and aunts, teachers, Kishi-san, Uncle Weitzman...

They did their best to hold me back.

For me at the time, it was just a drop in the bucket.

Until I reunited with Aji.

The human part comes alive as never before.

I look forward to spending time with Aji every day.

This time I can watch him silently, no longer wanting.

I was very sad when the teacher passed away. I used too much power to cause an imbalance. The golden king who was originally promised turned colorless and entered the ability restriction agreement signed by Yokohama...

I don't care about any of this.

I came to Yokohama as I wished.

Come to Aji.

I carefully hid my gaze, unwilling to bring additional burden to Azhi.

I know he hated me as a kid and was afraid of me.

He is such a timid person, full of worries and fears for unreasonable kindness.

I turned a blind eye to those struggles for the sake of my own survival.

Be good to him wholeheartedly.

Love is indeed the eternal topic of human beings.

Even if I don't understand, instinct makes me walk on eggshells and tremble.

Aji is smart and perceptive.

He found what I was hiding.

But why?

Why would he accept it?

Why is he so nice to me?

When we lived together, I sometimes panicked.

Maybe all this is my imagination and dream.

But I was too happy to think deeply about the source of my panic.

Until I saw Aji's body that lost his breath.

finally, I understand.

It turns out that I was once a god.

It turned out that I wanted to live as a human being.

I love Aji

It turned out that I couldn't bear the pain of losing Aji.

Because I'm a god, I don't know much about emotions.Because I wanted to become a human being, I took Aji as a life-saving straw without authorization.

Because I love Azhi, I can't help but watch him, and I can't bear to lose him.Because I couldn't bear the pain of losing him, I lied about the reunion.

It turned out to be the case.

My divinity suddenly overwhelmed my humanity.

Azhi has been chasing the footsteps of death.

If I stop him, he will suffer.

If I don't stop him, I will suffer.

If I turn back into a god without sorrow or joy.

All difficulties will be easily solved.

He can chase his death, and I can pass the long years without knowing it.

My strength is completely out of control.

I return to the river of time.

Confine the human part in the world before the age of 14.

Let the past play out over and over again.

Over and over again I felt the emotional changes, the joy of gain, and the pain of loss.

One day, humanity will fade into memory.

At that time, I won't be sad anymore, right?

but……

A figure that should not appear suddenly broke into the world belonging to the past.

The black-haired, kite-eyed child asked that sentence.

Show me a familiar smile before being pulled away by my parents.

That was the smile of 22-year-old Aji.

Since then, everything has been completely different.

That period of the past is no longer my wishful thinking, we give and get together.

I have felt the violation of the world countless times, but I ignored it again and again because of the joy in my heart.

It wasn't until I was 14 that I finally couldn't fool myself any longer.

I am sober.

Why did Aji come?

"Because Xiyue needs me."

Did I accidentally ask it out?

"Because Xiyue is an idiot, I know exactly what you want to say."

What, so I didn't make a sound.

"Because Yuzuki wants to live as a human being."

Aji held my hand and placed it where his heart was.

puff, puff...

"Let me call you Xiyue is the best proof."

His words were full of certainty.

"Xiao is the name of a god. Xiyue Xiao is your name."

Those iris eyes were full of softness, shining like stars.

"So Xiyue, let's go together."

Aji extended an invitation to me.

"I lied to you."

I finally spoke up.

"No. Odasaku did come back to life. That Natsume-san seems to be a very good person at first glance, and he has been taking care of Odasaku."

I nodded.

"As long as Xiyuexiao is still there, Azhi will not be able to chase death, which will make you miserable."

"Seeing the appearance of Ghost Lantern, I suddenly don't want to die! Once I know the real shape of hell, death will become unattractive. It's scary!"

Aji complained incessantly.

"I have always wanted to tell Azhi that if one day he succeeds in committing suicide, he will definitely be enslaved by Ghost Lantern in hell. As the strongest social animal in hell, Ghost Lantern will not let any labor force go."

"Xiyue has been watching my jokes, telling me that I need to continue working in hell after I die."

"No."

I couldn't help pursing my lips.

"There is no difference between life and death for me. If Aji dies accidentally, I can visit hell. But..."

I couldn't say what to say next.

"But Xiyue just doesn't want me to commit suicide successfully, right?"

Aji continued speaking naturally.

"It's a terrible curse to be the old me."

He touched my eyes.

"Now, maybe it's a sweet burden."

"why?"

The river of time began to ebb and flow.

The premonition in my heart is vaguely telling me...

"I want to live in the world with Xiyue."

There were brilliant waves on the river.

"For me, there is no difference in the human world. It doesn't matter to me whether the desires in the eyes of human beings, the thoughts in their heads, and their positions are good or evil. They are all things that can be seen at a glance. It's boring."

"For a long time, what I thought was the meaning of life has also become a joke after Yuzuki was honest with each other."

The slight waves on the river surface turned into waves.

"But……"

He bowed his head.

"I actually think it's a good choice to live."

Aji raised his head, with a bright smile on his face.

The obscurity disappeared from his body.

"Although the world is like a rotten dream, I also want to try to sink in the dream."

Countless joyful destinies turn into colorful bubbles and rise up around us.

"The premise is that Xiyue holds my hand all the time."

Aji held out his hand to me.

"I'm still in pain, but I'll try to be patient. Xiyue took me as a beacon in the human world without authorization. If you leave Xiyue alone, the idiot Xiyue will not be a human being."

He leaned forward slightly, bending over me.

"It was Xiyue who dragged me into the water, you can't just walk away."

He invited me.

"Shall we try it together?"

Even though it is such a sweet word, it seems to me that it is not stingy with the devil's whisper.

The iris-eyed demon invites the gods to fall with him in the most emotional way.

"Sign a contract with the gods, and the soul belongs to the gods. It is impossible to step into death again."

"I know."

Aji's expression remained unchanged.

"Xiyuexiao will return to the river of time after his life as a human is over. As the half body of a god, he can only sleep with him."

"Will you never wake up?"

He rested his chin in thought.

"Maybe. After a long time, your souls will merge into one, and the new god will not have the previous memory."

"This is the eternal sleep I seek!"

He clapped his hands and laughed.

"Ever since I went to hell, I've been worried that I'll become a social animal after I die. Onito-san is simply an enhanced version of slug and Kunikida-kun's oni animal, so I don't want to fall into his hands."

He sincerely asked.

"Please sign a contract with me. As a price, I will live with Yuzuki in the dream of this oxidized world. Until the day we return to the river of time."

I set my eyes on the person in front of me.

As has been done for many years.

I can't help admiring.

"Fragile and hard, beautiful and cruel. Aji has always fascinated me. As long as you are still alive, then the human me is fine."

Azhi is my first and last memory in the world.

It is the selfishness in the struggle between human nature and divinity.

It was the last straw that crushed divinity.

That being the case...

I hold his hand.

Look at me! Look at me all your life!

Now that you have liberated my humanity, I shall live as a human for the time being.

I will be with you until the day when my life ends.

He sighed deeply, willing to step down from the altar while watching for a long time.

I returned to the human world with Azhi.

The author has something to say: This is what I thought at the beginning, the ending of Xiyue and Dazai.

They will live together in the world, and finally they will sink into eternal sleep together.

It can be regarded as a wish.

I know that some little angels may feel OOC if I write this way, but if there is no change in the fanfic, there is no need for me to write it down.

This change is inevitable, and it is my original intention to write this story.

There was still a lot to say, but I suddenly felt that there was no need to say it.I think this chapter is very warm, and I want to end the main text tomorrow, and it will come to an abrupt end before the co-phagia event.

Of course, there are still many planned episodes~ No need to say goodbye for now!

Then, after the little angel reminded me, I found out that Naomi and Naomi have the same pronunciation.After thinking about it, I changed Naomi to Kanami. I will change a few chapters every day before and after the update starting today. Don’t panic when you see the update prompt! I apologize first if it affects you!

And, I couldn't help catching bugs in this chapter, sorry!

That's it! Thank you all for your company! Love you all!