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When I graduated from elementary school, Aji invited me to go to the beach together.

It's early spring.

A month ago, Qingjin sent off the last heavy snowfall.

At this time, there was still a cold shadow in the air.

Especially when the sea breeze is blowing, it is not gentle and considerate when greeting people.

Probably winter is saying goodbye.

However, spring has arrived, and the cherry blossoms on the roadside have formed buds and are eager to try in March.

Soon after, you must be able to see the cherry blossoms all over the street.

After the graduation ceremony, Azhifei wanted to take me to see the sea.

At that time, the Tsushima couple had already left, and before leaving, Aunt Tsushima asked Aji to go home earlier.

My dad is sorting out the photos he just took.

Azhi took me through the back door of the school and took someone else's ride to the beach.

Today is a working day, and now is not the best time for a vacation.

Coupled with the clean coast we are looking for.

We were just the two of us on the huge beach.

We walked together on the beach.

"Why are you here?"

A step behind Aji, I looked at his back.

The 12-year-old Azhi has lost the frailty of his childhood.Although he still has a thin body, as his gymnastics teacher, I know that his skill is more than the top and the bottom is more than enough.

The body is already much healthier.

The 12-year-old boy can't be said to be mature, but he can vaguely see what he will look like when he grows up.

It doesn't surprise me that the grown-up Ji turned into a playboy.

"I want Xiyue to see it."

Azhi did not stop, he led me to the center of the coastline.

"The painting I gave Xiyue when I was eight years old."

The thumbs and index fingers of his two hands touched each other, gesturing to form a camera shape, enveloping the scenery in front of him.

"Our home will be built in a place similar to this."

"us?"

I am puzzled by Aji's choice of words.

"I know Xiyue wants to live with me."

Azhi turned around, his iris eyes were full of ridicule.

"No, no!"

I stammered back.

Why would Aji know?

Obviously, I only told my mother about this plan last Meng Lan Pen Festival.

Make "Little Mount Fuji" a reality or something.

Now Aji said it bluntly...

So why on earth would he know?

"It's no use denying it."

He hooked into a three-petal mouth with great interest.

The eyes also became round and bean-like.

"Xiyue, don't prepare my room."

"Ok?"

I was confused by Aji's request.

"It's fine if we sleep together! I want a super big Simmons."

Alright alright.

I subconsciously considered Azhi's request.

I will remember to ask Ming...

Wait, who is Ming?

I shook my head.

"Xiyue once did something excessive to me at the beach."

Azhi's voice interrupted my thinking, and I threw aside my previous thoughts.

"This is the first time we've come to the beach together."

"That's why I remembered wrongly."

Aji said nonchalantly, he walked towards the sea.

Aji crossed the shallows and climbed onto a rock.

The waves beat against the shore again and again.

He stands on the edge of the reef.

I don't know why, but I actually have a sense of dislocation.

The seaside sky does not seem to be like this.

It should be a brighter, richer color.

"Yuzuki! I'm going to do something unreasonable to you next time."

Azhi's voice came from the distant reef.

I shifted my gaze from the sky to Azhi.

But I found that Aji was smiling at me.

Then Azhi faced the sea and jumped with all his strength.

With a "plop", the sea surface stirred up splashes.

Aji was nowhere to be seen.

My mind went blank.

The whole person was in a daze.

Instinct ran to the reef as fast as he could.

I jumped from where Aji fell.

I was looking for Azhi in that water area.

nothing...

can't find it anywhere...

An oxygen-deprived brain sounds a warning.

I had to swim out to the surface to get a moment's respite.

But on the sea not far away from him, he found a body with the back of the head over the top and face down.

The slightly curly black hair is a bit like swaying seaweed.

That's Aji.

I smiled subconsciously.

Try to swim to him.

I am getting closer and closer to him.

I was about to reach out and pick up Aji and bring him back to the shore.

Those slender white arms wrapped around my waist.

Aji wrapped himself around me like an octopus.

The black head rubbed against the hollow of the shoulder.

We are all water.

"a big surprise!"

Words with a smile sounded from his ears.

All the senses I had lost came back in that instant.I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, and I wanted to press Azhi's head and bury him in the sea to wake him up.

But see his sly iris eyes.

I can not let it go.

After returning to shore.

I nod Azhi's forehead bitterly.

"Is this what you said was too much?"

I am not willing to poke a few more times.

"It's too much."

Azhi covered his forehead with a look of grievance, I looked at the red marks on his forehead, and stopped.

"Not as much as Xiyue."

He answered as a matter of course.

This answer is simply nonsense.

Reason tells me so.

Feeling guilty but intensified.

There seemed to be many fragments running through my head.

Sand-colored windbreaker, golden-red sunrise, tears...

Ok?

what are these?

"I just informed Xiyue in advance, and the more extreme ones are yet to come."

Aji's words interrupted my thinking again.

I couldn't help asking him: "Then what are you doing this time?"

"Suicide~"

He whistled indifferently.

"Xiyue should be very used to it."

"You put those weird and wonderful ideas into practice just like that?"

"I have always thought that dying in the sea is refreshing and clear."

A Zhi said in a brisk tone: "Find a river leading to the sea, jump off the river bank, and follow the flowing water to the destination."

"Suffocation is painful, but drowning in water feels extra gentle."

Having said that, he darkened his face.

"As long as you don't get rescued by unscrupulous doctors."

Sounds a lot like Aji's fantasy.

Between the lines it is horribly true.

It seems that there was a period of time that I never participated in, but he actually experienced it.

The atrium is swollen, and the heart is sore.

I really want to hug Aji.

I did the same.

"but……"

Aji put his arms around my waist.

"When Xiyue jumped down, I really wanted to pull you to sink together."

"but……"

Aji emphasized the word again.

"Suddenly I thought surfacing was a good idea!"

He was very proud.

"Scare you."

"It really scared me."

I whispered with lingering fear.

We ended up with this wet hug.

Considering that the temperature is not high today, I forcibly took Azhi to leave.

For the next period of time, I kept thinking about the "excessive things" that Azhi said.

As we progressed through junior high, nothing ever happened.

I gradually put the matter behind me.

In junior high school, we are still as close as we were in elementary school.

The days after entering high school passed quickly, and in a blink of an eye, Aji and I were both 14 years old.

In the summer when I was 14 years old.

My father informed me of a decision.

He wants to send me to Tokyo to live with my uncle's family.

I asked the reason many times.

Father never answered.

His father's eyes were full of reluctance, but his attitude was very firm.

So I knew that there was no room for change in this matter.

So whenever I see Aji.

My heart is full of worries.

What is he going to do?

What will he do if I leave him?

Will he miss me?

There is a secret certainty in my heart, it seems that Azhi will definitely do something.

I've been waiting for that moment.

Then I found out that Azhi was secretly preparing something.

Maps, knives, backpacks, money...

Everything is in preparation for leaving home.

It turned out to be the case.

It turned out that when I was uneasy, when I was worried about being separated from Azhi.

Azhi has already decided to leave me.

The long-standing feeling of emptiness has finally found its footing.

I'm not surprised at all.

It should be so.

Even if we get along happily these years, how can we force the wandering clouds to stay in one place.

Aji always hated the same family.

Our intersection originally stemmed from one-sided stalking.

If Aji really wants to leave...

I have a ticket ready.

On summer afternoons, I avoided Tsushima House’s servants familiarly, and went to Aji’s room to spend time with him with comics, ice cream, and game consoles.

I secretly looked at the corner where Azhi hid his supplies.

Suddenly make up your mind.

Take out that ticket.

"Aji, let's go. If you want to go, go."

I handed out the ticket, and met a pair of quiet iris eyes.

There was no panic on Azhi's face, he casually glanced at the destination on the ticket.

"Does Xiyue really want me to go?"

Azhi's voice reached the eardrums, it seemed far away, but also very close.

"Aji has always wanted to leave Qingjin."

"Yes."

Aji replied immediately.

"So, go if you want to go."

I struggled to make a smile, and looked away from Azhi.

"Ah, Xiyue found that."

He walked up to where my gaze was and pulled out those things that were at the ready.

"I'm going to invite Yuzuki to go camping together!"

He opened the map, and a certain location on the map was marked with a red heart, which was the famous camping site in Qingjin.

"what?"

I was too shocked to say anything more.

The cognition in my heart was broken, and the world shook.

"Let me tell you, does Xiyue really want me to leave?"

Aji put his hands on my shoulders, forcing me to look at him.

"It's obviously Xiyue who is going to leave without saying goodbye."

He tugged at my cheek.

"Mingming Xiyue will go to Tokyo next semester."

He shook the ticket in his hand.

"Obviously the destination of this ticket is also Tokyo."

His forehead was against mine.

"Does Xiyue want to elope with me?"

"what……"

"If Yuzuki lets me go alone, I will change my destination to Kanagawa, then find a river leading to the harbor, and jump off the embankment."

Hearing the keywords of "jumping into the river", I recalled my experience two years ago, and subconsciously hugged him tightly.

"No."

"Then I will be rescued by an unscrupulous doctor on his own initiative and become a mafia, and I will reunite with Xiyue that year..."

As Azhi narrated, countless pictures exploded in my mind.

Six-year-old Azhi, 14-year-old Azhi, 22-year-old Azhi.

His confusion, his indifference, his despair, his arrogance, his smile...

We hug each other, we hold hands, we sleep together, and...

The barrier is covered with cobwebs bit by bit.

"Crackling."

It fell apart.

"I won't leave this time."

Azhi's face zoomed in before my eyes frame by frame.

"We sink together."

Aji hold my hand

"Or leave together."

His final sound dissipated from lip to lip.

I finally saw the truth of the world.

The author has something to say: Hey, Dazai’s previous changes were partly because he wanted to do this, and partly because he had to.

Only by being different from the memory can we break the confinement of this world.

The destruction was accumulated little by little, and the most important node was when Dazai ran away from home when he was 14 years old.

So Dazai, who made the opposite choice, got what he wanted, and Xiyue realized that this world was fake.

Why do you think this explanation is sweet and cruel?

Well, it must be my illusion.

It's over.

Tomorrow is the end of the time turbulence part~