Fast-wearing Inner Demon

Lin Lu originally thought that he could save himself through Lin Ye, but in fact it couldn't.

He is still deeply troubled by depression, his mind often wanders, it is all hallucinations, his mood is negative and pessimistic, and his thoughts are dark.

For another ten days in a row, she could only sleep for three hours at most every day, and when she fell asleep, she would have continuous nightmares, and Lin Lu once again entered the brink of collapse.

This night, when he came back to his senses, he found that he even hid in the quilt and wept bitterly just now, wanting to commit suicide by self-mutilation, he simply could not accept and face himself.

However, his sanity and shame could only last for ten minutes, and after ten minutes, he couldn't help but want to bang his head against the wall, scream and cry loudly.

Then, he did it again...

But at this time, because of his disappearance for two consecutive weekends, Liu Yingyu found the graduate student's apartment, opened the door of the apartment with the key she had privately assigned, broke in, and the scene broke out immediately.

"What are you doing!" Liu Yingyu screamed so loudly that other students in the apartment came out to watch.

Qiao Jianan, with tears and snot all over his face, froze in the movement of banging his head against the wall, his eyes widened.

Liu Yingyu was still screaming: "Why are you doing this? Are you sick?! Are you crazy?!"

"Did something happen?" A graduate student who lived on the same floor and had a good impression of Qiao Jian'an came out to speak, and Liu Yingyu realized it. With a bang, she slammed the door shut against the man's nose.

Lin Lu felt that he could die already!

He will start to hate the present and tomorrow crazily. With such a shame, how will he have the courage to walk out of this apartment tomorrow? Everyone will laugh at him behind his back!

Liu Yingyu, who took a deep breath to calm herself down, also knew that her actions just now were all wrong, so she quickly put on a reluctant smile, walked up to Qiao Jianan, hugged him into her arms, and asked him softly, "Did something happen? You Tell me, okay?"

"Let's break up!" Lin Lu pushed Liu Yingyu away, resolutely.

"No!" Liu Yingyu immediately went into a rage, and rushed to grab Qiao Jianan again.

Ingratiatingly said: "Jian'an, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that about you just now, I didn't mean it, I was just too worried about you, no matter what happens, you tell me, I will help you, we will study together, there will always be a solution Way. Don't say such angry words, okay? I'm sorry!"

Somebody come and save him!It's okay to give him a knife!He really really can't take it anymore!

Lin Lu suddenly let out a sharp roar, and cursed loudly: "Get out! Get out! I don't want to see you! I don't want to hear you! Get out!"

Liu Yingyu was frightened, she had never seen Qiao Jianan in such a state of out of control, the person in front of her was like a madman.

Involuntarily, she opened the door, ran out, slammed the door shut, and separated the two of them before letting out a sigh of relief.

But not long after, she felt regretful again, and ran to knock on the door, but there was no answer.

He simply stuffed a small note in, saying that Qiao Jian'an should call her when he calms down, she is very worried about his behavior, or if she comes to him later, she will help him or something.

Lin Lu, who went back and forth between irritable and depressed, slowly regained her senses, looking back at her behavior just now, she couldn't believe it.

Such a person is himself?It's so embarrassing and shameful, he wants to drop out of school and go back to his hometown!

Don't stay in this place that humiliated him again, when he was asked to pack his luggage, he couldn't get any energy to start.

Lin Lu, who couldn't stand it, didn't want to stay in the apartment any longer, explaining to Liu Yingyu who came back later.

He put on a coat over his pajamas, didn't even change into his slippers, and took advantage of the night to walk along the corner of the wall and leave the graduate student's apartment in a mess.

When walking back to his senses, what Lin Lu saw was the sparkling lake surface in front of him, and what he saw was his own foot protruding on the lake surface.

Wanting to commit suicide to escape pain, this cowardly behavior, has become his instinct.

He clearly promised [-] that he would stay in this world for ten years. He had just established a one-on-one support relationship with Lin Ye, and established an intimate relationship with Lin Ye.

If he left so suddenly, what's the difference from the sudden move of the neighbor's brother who turned him into such a scum who is keen to play with people's hearts?There is also Yuanchen's father, a big man, who was both a father and a mother to bring up this son. After Yuanchen jumped off the building, that man was old and had nowhere to rely on, and owed a whole body of debts. He also chose to commit suicide without even leaving his body. People restrain themselves.

Could he still be so indifferent and hurt another innocent poor man?

How did he become like this?He wasn't like that before.

He doesn't love himself that much, he has always disdained cowardice and begging for mercy, why is he thinking about others now?

Why can't I even love myself now, and become so small?

Lin Lu was so frightened that she hurriedly withdrew her feet, stayed away from Xiaojing Lake, and continued to walk blindly along the dark place by the roadside.

As we walked, we arrived at the villas on campus. There are only a dozen or so villas in this group, and some retired old professors live in them, and there are also a few powerful rich second generations who use their connections when studying in University A. Checking in, Liu Yingyu's father is a well-known real estate developer in China, with assets exceeding tens of billions, and there is no relationship here to get a villa for Liu Yingyu.

However, the hero Yu Lian lives here.

Lin Lu hesitated for a moment, then walked in, until the innermost part of the villa group, half enclosing the mountain on the back, and enclosing the waterfall that flew down from it, in front of the villa with the largest area. , rang the doorbell.

He wanted to get rid of this terrible disease, and he didn't want to cowardly admit defeat and commit suicide. One of the ways to try to save himself was to have a relationship with the center of the world, the hero Yu Lian.

Just like after he had a relationship with Zhan Yue, at least he would no longer encounter accidents all the time. After arriving in this world, Bababa also told him that if he had a relationship with Lu Xu, the curse could be lifted.

So he wanted to try it out, would having a relationship with Yu Lian help him get rid of the effects of depression?Even if this is congenital, I want to try it.

He rang the doorbell for a long time, pressing it again and again, no longer afraid of the pain, and no longer caring about anything else, as if he wanted to grab the last straw, as if he was just concentrating on the simple action of pressing the doorbell. press the .

Bababa's heart felt sour when he watched it, which was curled up on his shoulders. The host was not like this at first.

In the first world, he was still so persistent and self-willed, in the second world, he was still so proud, and the changes probably started in the third world.

It wanted to tell Lin Lu that it was useless to find the male lead this time.But it still didn't.

"Why are you here?" Yu Lian patiently watched the finder for ten minutes, and finally opened the door.

Lin Lu didn't answer, and walked into the door on her own, and waited for Yu Lian to close the door and turn around.

Lin Lu put his hands on the button of his coat, unbuttoned it and threw it away, and then began to take off his pajamas.

Soon he stood in front of Yu Lian nearly naked.

Yu Lian glanced at it, then turned his head hastily.

The skin of the person in front of him was as pale as thin snow, without any trace of blood, his waist was slender and his legs were long, very good-looking.

However, she was so thin that she only had a skeleton left, which was also a bit permeable.

What made him have to turn his head the most was the man's eyes.

The dark pupils seem to be a black hole, full of sadness and despair that can't be penetrated to the bottom, which can sweep people into it, making people fearful.

Keeping turning his head and not looking at him, Yu Lian knelt down and picked up Qiao Jianan's coat that was still on the ground, put it on him, gently wrapped him around him, dragged him to the sofa in the living room and sat down, and asked gently He: "Have you taken today's medicine?"

After ordering someone to find out Qiao Jian'an's information, he forgave him for running away after flirting.

Because a normal person cannot compare with a patient.

Qiao Jian'an's mother suffered from depression and committed suicide shortly after giving birth to him. Qiao Jian'an inherited his mother's depressive physique. When he was young, he was prone to depression. After entering university, he had already reached the late stage of depression and was still able to work normally. Going to school, maintaining a superficial calm, and maintaining daily life, according to the doctor's report, is already a remarkable self-control.

"I took medicine, but it didn't work." Lin Lu hugged her head and buried it in her knees, tears overflowed from her eyes again uncontrollably.

Choking and begging: "Help me! Help me!"

Excited, he slammed his head against his knee again and again, and the hand that pulled his scalp was also very hard, as if he wanted to tear off his hair directly.

Yu Lian was taken aback, and hurriedly restrained him, trapped him in his arms, and asked him: "How do you want me to save you? Can I hug you like this? Do you want to sleep on my shoulder again? I'll lend you Depend on!"

Lin Lu turned her head abruptly, bit his mouth that kept talking, and squeezed her tongue through the gap between his teeth.

The moment the two lips touched, fireworks exploded one after another in front of Yu Lian's eyes, and the electric current rushed from the tailbone to the scalp, making his whole body numb, but his heart contracted violently and then let it go. Open, it hurts to stimulate.

No need to speak anymore, and unable to speak anymore, Yu Lian took back the initiative.

He has thought about letting go, how can he fall in love with a man who wants to commit suicide anytime, anywhere?

But at this moment, he couldn't take it back.

He is his blessed fortune, his irresistible destiny.

It is said that when God created man, he missing a rib in Adam's chest, so he used that rib to create Eve. Therefore, every Adam has a gap in his chest, waiting for his Eve to settle in.

Yu Lian believed that Qiao Qian'an was the missing rib, otherwise why that night, when he leaned on his shoulder and put his arms around his waist, his heart instantly felt at peace.

Otherwise, why, at this moment, he is so excited.

Nothing was prepared in the villa, and when he was entered in a hurry, Lin Lu snorted in pain, but he didn't push Yu Lian away to make him stop, but urged him to hurry up, the stinging pain made him feel his own existence, and he could call He understands that he is still alive.

He collapsed under Yu Lian's body like a dead fish, and after his mind went blank, he finally entered the darkness and gained a precious and peaceful sleep.

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