Fast-wearing Inner Demon

After finally sending Liu Yingyu into the dormitory, Lin Lu rubbed her swollen and sore temples, then turned and went to a coffee shop in a relatively hidden corner of the school.

This coffee shop, named Youjian casually, not only sells milk, but also secretly sells alcohol after ten o'clock at night.

Lin Lu, who has been unable to sleep well for sixteen consecutive days, basically unable to fall asleep after three o'clock at night, and wakes up on time at five o'clock, feels that milk alone can't save his poor nerves, he needs some more Stronger and stronger stimulation.

When he entered a coffee shop, it was just after ten o'clock, and it was the time when the wine began to be sold. The coffee shop was full of people, full of male and female college students who were going to drink a few cups here, and then went to the back mountain grove to have an affair.

However, by brushing his face, he quickly found a position. Several freshman girls were willing to squeeze out a space for him and warmly invited him to join.

Lin Lu didn't want to wait any longer, she just wanted to have a few drinks earlier and go back to sleep, so she agreed without even refusing a sip.

After adding it, for the sake of politeness, I invited a few girls to each have a bottle of Heineken, and I was embarrassed to add a glass of fresh milk for myself.

However, if you ask him to talk and flirt with these girls, he will not be interested.

He sat at the table and drank his beer on his own, pretending not to notice the shy eyes and suggestive words that glanced over the table from time to time.

Feeling a little drunk after drinking five or six bottles of beer, Lin Lu planned to leave and go back to the apartment to try to fall asleep.

However, those girls were dissatisfied because they were left out in the cold, and they refused to let him go.

The helpless Lin Lu could only ask: "Okay! Aunts and grandmas, why don't you just ask for a condition?"

Several girls looked at each other, whispered for a while, and finally pushed out the most beautiful one and said: "You go up and sing a song, and we will let you go, otherwise you will not even think about walking out of the door of the coffee shop tonight."

There is a small stage in a coffee house, not for people to dance on, but occasionally some students are invited to perform on it, and guests are also allowed to sing on it, and a simple home-style karaoke equipment is placed.

Some men and women would go up and sing to express their love when they were drunk.

Because it is an old home-style karaoke equipment, you can only choose DVDs to order songs. Lin Lu flipped through them, and barely found a song that he knew the melody: Blank World.

Watching the gray sky slowly tilting behind me

I have no end, maybe it's the feeling of love traveling

freedom is obvious why happiness is so vague

Why didn't the edge of hustle and bustle find that lonely boundary

...I see blank worlds everywhere

Whose face is just an indifferent landscape

I don't know where happiness is

Maybe the love I want is just for a moment

When Yu Lian squeezed into the door of the coffee shop, he saw Qiao Jian'an standing on the small stage at first sight.

Some cyan lights hit him. This man put one hand in his pocket and held the microphone in the other. He hummed the same indifferent song softly with his expressionless face. His expression was so melancholy and lonely, like a dark elf who had suffered the original sin unfortunately. .

The appearance is exquisite and fragile, but the inner core is changeable in the mud.

This is the eighth time we have met today, there is only one more difference, only one more difference, we are each other's luck...

But Yu Lian hesitated whether to wait for the ninth time, because at this moment, his heart was already moved.

However, Yu Lian, who hadn't made up his mind whether to wait until the ninth time to act, went to the bar and ordered two bottles of wine, turned around, and Qiao Jian'an had disappeared from the coffee shop.

Lin Lu, who returned to the graduate student's apartment, took a shower, lay down on the bed, and the moment she closed her eyes, the alcoholism disappeared completely.

The woman called mother, with delicate heavy makeup and a beautiful dress, showed no nostalgia in his gaze, never looked back at him, went straight into the bathroom and locked the door.

He stood outside the door and looked in through the gaps between people. She was floating in the bathtub in the bathroom. The seven neat cuts on her left wrist were already wrinkled, and there was a weird smile on her stiff face.

His hands and feet were cold.

He was carrying a small schoolbag, bouncing around holding the small cake that he bought to save the next week's breakfast money.

Today is the neighbor's little brother's birthday, and he also carefully prepares birthday gifts. It feels so good to prepare gifts for others.

Jumping forward happily all the way, I heard the little brother and his friend say at the street corner: "That Lin Lu! I don't want to take him to play, but I heard my mother say that he is pitiful all the time. When I saw him, I kindly gave him I gave him a piece of candy, and I got entangled unexpectedly, don’t mention how annoying it is! Let’s go quickly, or that annoying spirit might follow after me later!”

He covered his mouth, backed away quietly, and delivered the little cake to the neighbor's house, and asked his aunt to pass it on. After that, he tried his best not to bother the little brother of the neighbor's house, and never dared to play with him without his initiative. .

However, when the little brother moved away, he never mentioned it to him beforehand, let alone said goodbye to him.

He lay alone in the crack of the door, trying to look into the empty neighbor's house again and again, each time he was disappointed.

Always eating alone, going to school alone, leaving school alone, loneliness completely overwhelmed him...until he...

He closed his eyes, gritted his teeth, and threw the energy needles onto Yan Qi's body. Before he closed his eyes, he saw his surprised and disappointed eyes fixed on him, and his expression finally fixed on this regretful expression. one frame.

"Little white-eyed wolf, you are really..." Yan Qi's intermittent voice sounded in his ears, and he seemed to be tightly bound by Yan Qi's iron arms again in a trance, as if Yan Qi's blood spurted again him all over.

He wanted to justify and redeem, but he knew that everything was just an illusion, there was nothing to justify, it was his own choice to protect himself.

Irreversible, everything that has happened is irreversible, and he will not.

And Chen Yin, who was so careful to please him, and finally chose to drag him to die together, why could he smile so happily?

And Lu Xu... It's not that he didn't know that he was very important to him, but he still chose to leave him behind.

In fact, there is no need to talk about it. He also knows that if he kills the protagonist, nothing will happen. He is unwilling to suffer slowly with the protagonist. In order to solve the battle as soon as possible, he chose to leave Lu Xu behind.

He was let down by others, and he also let down many people and hurt many people.

But now, he doesn't know what's the point of his persistence?

So hard to live, so hard to design, what's the point?

Is it just to return to the original world full of desolation?Is it just for rebirth?

He couldn't find the meaning of going back, and he couldn't find the meaning of being reborn and resurrecting himself.

All of them, in his current opinion, are not enough reasons for him to persist, and none of them can make him understand why he persists?

So tired, so tired, I wish I could close my eyes and sleep soundly.

Never wake up again.

Never have to continue again.

"Host! You're sick again! Take your medicine quickly!" Bababa, who was lying on Lin Lu's bedside, saw the unlovable expression on his face, and quickly kicked him in the face hard, pulling him out of despair. The edges are pulled back.

"I've finished my medicine for today." Lin Lu opened his eyes suddenly, his eyes were full of gloom.

Squeezing her thighs vigorously to regain her sanity, Lin Lu said slowly: "I've finished my medicine, I just want to sleep without doing anything, do you know where the hero is now? "

"The male lead is sitting on a bench in Hubei, a small area in the school. Is the host going to find him?" Bababa saw that Lin Lu started to get up and get dressed, jumped out of bed, and jumped onto his shoulders.

Lin Lu didn't answer, but slowly opened the door and walked towards Xiaojing Lake.

Call him despicable or shameless, but now his mind is a mess, and he can't think about anything.

He can know from Bababa's words that the hero is the absolute center of every world. Basically, it can be said that every world is born for him.

He wants to try, if he gets close to the hero, can he be less affected by depression.

Yu Lian sat on the bench by the lake, looking at the watch on his hand, there are still 10 minutes, and the day is over.

His lucky number is nine, and eight is his unlucky number.

In another 10 minutes, he and Qiao Jian'an will not be lucky, but bad luck.

The men and women who were sitting sparsely in Xiaojing Lake began to retreat one by one.

Yu Lian stared at his watch, wearing only a white shirt on his upper body, shivering a little from the cool wind blowing from the lake, suddenly felt that sitting by the lake and waiting for the last chance encounter was a bit ridiculous.

It's not a sentimental little girl, she sighed, stood up, determined to forget everything about today after twelve o'clock.

The moment he raised his head, he saw that person walking towards him slowly, like a dark elf, coming slowly to take the restless heart in his chest.

The ninth encounter in one day, he was the lucky one he was blessed with.

Even if this melancholy dark elf came to take his heart away, he accepted his fate, who can resist fate?

"Why are you here at this hour?"

"Probably because I was guided in the dark, so I have to come here at this moment."

"What are you doing?"

"Come to you, let me lean on your shoulder."

Yu hurriedly sat down on the bench by the lake, patted himself on the shoulder, and smiled excitedly, "Welcome."

Lin Lu's expression was extremely numb, and he slowly sat beside him, resting his head on his shoulder.

Closing his eyes and adjusting to a more comfortable position, he said weakly, "Can you put your arms around me from behind?"

Yu Lian quickly put his hand around Qiao Jian'an's back and put his arms around his waist.

Lin Lu didn't speak any more, and counted her breaths one by one, and her body relaxed little by little.

In a daze, the person who hugged him and lent him a shoulder to lean on gradually became blurred in his consciousness, Lu Xu.

It wasn't just that Lu Xu would have sleep disturbances after leaving him. That night, when he went to his yard barefoot and stood outside his door waiting for him to open the door, he was already used to his embrace, and he could only smell his breath. The point of peace of mind.

Yu Lian quietly enjoyed the pleasant feeling of hugging this man's waist that was so thin that he couldn't help but pinch it. He couldn't hold back and spoke: "Is it okay for me to call you Xiaoan? What do you think of me? Do you think of me? Also interesting?"

There was no answer, and he turned his head to look. The man was breathing heavily and seemed to be in a deep sleep.

She couldn't help curling her lips, and muttered: "You don't want to sit by such a cold lake all night?"

Under the moonlight, Qiao Jianan's delicate face was covered with a layer of haze, the long and dense eyelashes were like two small fans, and there was not a single pore on the pale skin.

Yu Lian muttered, stared dumbfounded, and sighed instead: "This kid looks so fucking evil!"