after being terminally ill

In the past 20 years, I have never had a real close friend, most of them are just casual acquaintances, but in the last days of my terminal illness, I can meet a confidant like Zheng Qiying, which is probably a blessing and a curse stop.

When I thought of this, I found that my thoughts had diverged unconsciously again, so I quickly put away my thoughts and focused on the homework at hand.

At this time, I was sitting by the window, and the sun was shining on me warmly. I stared intently at the slender blades of grass in my hand, flipped my fingers clumsily, and weaved the blades of grass seriously.

This skill was taught to me by Zheng Qiying.

Once when he came to see me, he gave me an exquisite straw tiger, and then he winked at me with some pride and told me that he made it himself.

I couldn't believe it at first. After all, he looks so handsome and has a military-like aura. He really doesn't seem like someone who can make this kind of handicraft.

But then Zheng Qiying made up a cricket very dexterously in front of my face.

I watched his fingers flutter, his movements were quick and familiar, and I opened my eyes wide in surprise.

He smiled and handed the cricket to my eyes: "I learned it from my grandpa when I was young, and my craft has been appraised by my grandpa. It's very good."

I took the straw cricket and looked at it carefully, and found that the cricket looked quite aura.

Zheng Qiying seems to be really skilled.

However, in just ten minutes, a bunch of seemingly ordinary grass leaves were turned into such a handicraft by his hands, which made me feel very amazing.

Zheng Qiying saw that I was interested, so she offered to teach me knitting.

At the beginning, I was full of confidence in this. After all, as a bystander, watching Zheng Qiying's weaving process, I just felt very relaxed.And in the past twenty years, I haven't encountered anything that is particularly difficult for me. Whether it is study, musical instruments or boxing, as long as I am willing to work hard, I can always get good results in the end.

But this time I overestimated my abilities.

Zheng Qiying taught me carefully—it can even be said that he taught me many times, but I was still clumsy and couldn't grasp the main points.With the assistance of Zheng Qiying, it took me a long time to weave a strange-shaped cricket with difficulty.

I frowned slightly, and dissatisfied with the work in my hand, I was a little angry: "I don't make it up, I don't make it up, maybe I really don't have talent."

Although I said so in my mouth, I have to admit that although frustration is inevitable, the rare competitive spirit has also been aroused.

So in the end, I couldn't help picking up the blade of grass again after repeated defeats, and then started a new round of weaving with all my attention.

Zheng Qiying was sitting next to me, smiling at me with one hand resting on his chin, the sunlight turned into pieces of gold in his eyes: "You are a bit popular when you look at me like this. When I looked at you before, I always felt that you would disappear in an instant. .”

I was stunned, not knowing that I had such an impression in his eyes.

Then I couldn't help laughing: "You are talking nonsense again, I am here alive, how could I suddenly disappear."

He smiled and said nothing, just looked at me quietly.

Recalling the past, I couldn't help but smile on my lips.

I tried my best to recall the key points Zheng Qiying taught me, and weaved earnestly, but after knitting for a while, I began to feel sleepy, and some dense black spots even began to appear on my retina.

I had to put down the semi-finished product in my hand, closed my eyes slightly, and laughed at myself that I was just like Daiyu now, and even such an easy job could hardly support it.

While resting, I suddenly heard a rustling sound, opened my eyes, and saw Zheng Qiying suddenly appeared without a sound, standing in front of me at this time, holding my semi-finished product in his hand and looking at it carefully .

I'm used to him being so elusive, so I'm not surprised at this moment, but I can't help but feel a little embarrassed, because my semi-finished product is really... unsightly.

"It has improved a lot compared to before." Zheng Qiying looked at me with a smile, and his tone was full of encouragement.

Although I felt that the knitting was as clumsy as before, I was still a little happy when I heard his praise.

"I take your words seriously." I took the semi-finished product with a smile and re-examined it. This time, with Zheng Qiying's compliment, I felt that it was not so bad, "I won't think about it if you praise me like that. Aggressive."

Zheng Qiying laughed: "There's nothing wrong with not being aggressive. I teach you how to do this, just to make you happy. It doesn't matter how the final product is. If you really want anything, I can make it up for you. "

I joked with him: "What if I want Gundam?"

"If you want, no problem." He said without the slightest hesitation, looking straight at me with serious eyes, unexpectedly without the slightest hint of joke.

Subconsciously, I avoided his gaze, gave a slightly embarrassed smile, and then changed the subject: "It was just a joke just now, speaking of it, I still haven't grasped something, please help me find out."

To my relief, he no longer entangled with the previous topic, and began to give me serious advice.

But before I finished weaving a finished product by myself, Zheng Qiying suddenly told me that he was leaving the village and returning to the capital.

When I heard the news, I couldn't help but feel lost in my heart.

"The turbulent period is over, and now my family ordered me to go back." Zheng Qiying sighed.

My mind was empty and I lowered my eyes, not knowing what to say for a moment.

——Do you want to keep it?I can't do such a thing, I can't ask Zheng Qiying to accompany me, a dying person, to waste in this nameless village.

——Wish him a bright future?Maybe I really should bless, but the feelings in my heart seem to be stuck in my throat, which makes me unable to say the words of blessing for a while.

Zheng Qiying looked at me without smiling, but with a serious expression: "Are you willing to go back to the capital with me? I can definitely protect you."

Looking at his eyes, I believe he can definitely do what he said.

But I can clearly feel that my life is getting weaker and weaker, so what qualifications do I have to follow him.

Memories of getting along with him in the past suddenly came to my mind little by little, thinking that there were still so many things I couldn’t finish talking to him, and I couldn’t finish the things we agreed to do together. For the first time in my heart, I began to regret my life. short.

But none of this could make him see it, so I pretended to smile nonchalantly: "No. I don't want to go."

Zheng Qiying looked at me with good eyes, and his aura became awe-inspiring, which almost made me feel like when I first met him. After a while, he suddenly said firmly: "You are lying."

I opened my mouth to say something, but in the end I was speechless.

After all, in the past few months, I have also realized how keen Zheng Qiying's observation skills are, and he always seems to be able to accurately capture my feelings.

"But since you don't want to go with me, there must be a reason. It's okay if you don't want to say it, I won't force you." Zheng Qiying suddenly changed his seriousness before, and gradually smiled brightly, "But you can do it in this matter." I am already very happy to hesitate in the matter, which shows that I still have a place in your heart."

Looking at his smile, I felt a complicated and inexplicable feeling in my heart.

"After I deal with the matter in the capital, I will definitely come back, trust me."

I looked at his serious eyes and nodded unconsciously.

Zheng Qiying left within two days. Before he left, he handed me a handwritten note, which detailed the main points of the weaving process, and even had diagrams.

I still remember him looking at me with a smile before he left: "Can I make a request——When I come back, give me a finished product made by you."

I gripped the notebook full of heart, looked at him, and nodded seriously.

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Late night update_(:зゝ∠)_I will try to keep this article updated daily, but I have to take the second exam the day after tomorrow, which may delay two days