After I die, I become the white moonlight in your heart

The cold wind poured into his ears, and Jiang Xu's brain twitched a few times, looking at Ye Qiao in a daze, thinking he was joking.

When Ye Qiao sat next to him, Jiang Xu regained his free consciousness, put his fingertips on the steering wheel and rubbed lightly, ah, um, and drove away.

He thought that he would give Ye Qiao a mocking and alienated look, or that he would not take it seriously, in short, he would despise him as much as he wanted. After all, he had just finished ordering the class leader himself, and it was normal for Ye Qiao to look down on him for using some tricks.

Ye Qiao leaned on the co-pilot and squinted his eyes slightly, he likes rainy days the most, thinking, Jiang Xu lowered the car window a little bit, just enough to seep in strands of cool rain, occasionally sprinkled on Ye Qiao's arms and forehead .

Ye Qiao turned her face away, and didn't tell Jiang Xu what he was going to do, nor did she ask why Jiang Xu didn't ask herself what to do next.

Under the alienation, their silence has become more and more tacit, many words are no longer spoken, and some eyes understand each other's meaning after the collision, what to go, what to avoid, like Jiang Xu who understands in his heart He hesitated and didn't avoid Ye Qiao, saying that his sloppy face was a waste of tongue.

Jiang Xu was a little hungry. He drank a few sips of hot tea when he came out of the company and went to the theater. He didn't eat for almost half a day.It was not easy for him to quit those drugs, and occasionally he would appear to be in a trance while driving, but he didn't tell Ye Qiao about these, he deserved it.He doesn't pity himself.

Jiang Xu leaned the car outside a supermarket near the community: "I'm going to buy something, do you want to eat?"

Ye Qiao's eyes were tightly closed, as if she had fallen asleep.

Jiang Xu knew that he was ignoring him, so he got out of the car, spent more than ten minutes buying some easy-to-digest fast food, after paying the bill, he hesitated outside the car, opened the car door and saw Ye Qiao was still inside, and then let go tone.

Jiang Xu put a cup of hot milk tea by Ye Qiao's hand: "Drink some, and I have another cup for Dongdong."

There was only his voice talking to himself in the car, sounding like an idiot, Jiang Xu smiled and didn't care, only vaguely glimpsed a trace of expectation and disappointment in his eyes, and then said nothing.

After parking the car in the garage, Ye Qiao came out, Jiang Xu deliberately walked a few steps behind him, probably because he was taller, seeing the small whirlpool behind Ye Qiao's hair, he suddenly laughed.

He thought it was over like this, but Ye Qiao followed Jiang Xu closely, watching him open the door and stepping into his house with a calm expression, leaving Jiang Xu outside the door with a look of astonishment on his face.

Ye Qiao turned her head, and suddenly tugged at Jiang Xu's hand impatiently in the darkness, all the food and shopping bags fell on the floor, no one took care of her, and no one turned on the lights.

"Quietly..." Jiang Xu opened his mouth and his tongue was in knots. He thought Ye Qiao would ignore him, but Ye Qiao's hand was completely stiff, as hard as a rock.

Ye Qiao patted Jiang Xu's face: "Why don't you dare?"

He pressed Jiang Xu's neckline roughly and pushed him against the wall. The door was ajar, and the light leaking in from the corridor became dim and ambiguous. Biting him, the voice was as cold as a knife: "Don't you dare?"

Jiang Xu's voice was hoarse, he didn't feel any joy, being forced by Ye Qiao was worse than giving him a few knives.

"Quietly, don't do this."

Ye Qiao said: "Don't you just want to be like this, now you want to be a bitch and set up a memorial archway, what are you pretending to do in bed?"

Jiang Xu's expression was painful, he didn't resist any of Ye Qiao's movements, his body was far more honest than that day, seeing that the fire was about to burn, Jiang Xu was sweating all over his head and body, but there was a wet gleam in his eyes.

He didn't want Ye Qiao to become like this, and he didn't like him for this reason.

"Quietly, I'm sorry." Jiang Xu's guilt surged in his heart. At this moment, he hoped that Ye Qiao would slap and stab him a few times, but he was unwilling to use this method. He felt ashamed, and then he felt disappointed. Helpless, there are too many complicated thoughts that cannot be expressed in words, and I owe Ye Qiao too much.

Ye Qiao looked at Jiang Xu's changing expression, so indifferent that he was almost scrutinizing him, and finally let him go, and went out without looking back, leaving Jiang Xu gradually swallowed in the darkness.

Xu Chongming asked Jiang Xu what he was obsessed with and why he had to.In fact, Jiang Xu must have him.It's not that he hasn't tried before, letting himself think of nothing, and finally returning to the state of longing, thinking of starting to take medicine, unable to stop, treating it as an addiction, wanting to see him so much, he must become involuntary, that is a feeling.

Jiang Xu wiped his eyes, which were wet.Do people over thirty still cry and cowardly? They are cowardly and incompetent.He was in this powerless state in front of Ye Qiao, but he couldn't give up.

After the uncomfortable condition on his body subsided, Jiang Xu got up and turned on the light, went to the bathroom to clean up the mess, removed the prosthesis, returned to the bedroom and continued to sit motionless.

Wu Dongdong got up and drank milk tea to rinse his mouth again. After sitting with Ye Qiao and watching TV for a while, he dozed off. Ye Qiao asked him to go back to his room to sleep.Since he came out from the diagonally opposite door, he has been thinking about what happened just now. He hasn't done anything impulsive for a long time. He is a little crazy, beyond expectations.

After calming down for such a long time, he never thought about doing that kind of behavior towards Jiang Xu. He asked himself if he still loves Jiang Xu, love has died with death, can he love others, he seems to be unable to do this.

Ye Qiao touched her tense face and rubbed it vigorously back and forth.

He can't afford to love anyone anymore, but he still can't let go, or he hasn't forgotten, but no matter what, he doesn't allow himself to look back.

a year and a half later

Ye Qiao went to other places to perform a few performances and just got off the plane, he was still a little tired. He planned to get in the car to recharge his energy for a while before making a video call to Wu Dongdong.

In the past six months, Wu Dongdong has become more and more like a left-behind child. Ye Qiao is busy singing operas. When she goes out, the child will live with Xu Chongming for a while. Usually Xu Chongming will take advantage of Ye Qian's absence and put him next to Jiang Xu.

Ye Qiao knew it well and didn't break through this layer. Wu Dongdong would not tell him about Jiang Xu's situation when he came back. Jiang Xu still had wishful thinking for two opposite doors in the same building. into nature.

Jiang Xu is so cheap that he thinks about the time when Ye Qiao suddenly lost control a year and a half ago. At that time, he was so heartbroken to persuade Ye Qiao not to let him go. Now because Ye Qiao is too lazy to give him emotions, Jiang Xu goes. Thinking, thinking too badly, thinking about it makes my bones itchy, and I will take some medicine occasionally to help sleep when I really can't sleep, and I dare not touch it no matter how much it is.

People are cheap, Jiang Xu knew that Ye Qiao came back today and sent Wu Dongdong home early, holding Wu Dongdong's chubby hand and stood upright outside the apartment door, Ye Qiao just got out of the elevator with the suitcase, when she saw people Not surprising.

When opening the door with fingerprints, Jiang Xu stared at Ye Qiao's forehead and said, "Why is it a little red?"

In fact, Ye Qiao had some accidents when he got off the airport to take a taxi. He is now a little famous on the Internet, and fans and passersby praise him for his beauty and strength.There are quite a lot of people who use him to make ancient style videos on a certain video site.While waiting for the car, she was recognized by someone, and as soon as she signed a name, she found that there were more and more people around her, taking pictures with mobile phones, taking pictures with cameras, Ye Qiao seldom responded to these occasions, her forehead was swollen. Be careful to be knocked by the camera.

He said it was all right, took Wu Dongdong in, and showed Jiang Xu if there was any problem with his eyes.

Jiang Xu said, "I'm a little hungry."

While Ye Qiao was going to the kitchen to prepare meals, Jiang Xu went back to the door and took out a bottle of safflower oil from his medicine box, and put it where Ye Qiao would normally make it.