After I die, I become the white moonlight in your heart

Mr. Jiang said that Yanhui’s mental state was not very good, and he asked her to pay more attention. Auntie wished to keep her eyes on Yanhui’s body 24 hours a day, except for sleeping. .

Until today, a good-looking boy she didn't know came here, and the conversation between the two didn't exceed 10 minutes. As soon as the other party left, Yan Hui changed his mind when he was about to go out, and sat on the balcony until late at night. Auntie said softly He told him to go to rest, and Yan Hui was startled.

After Yan returned to the room, he burned the documents that Su Yuebai had handed over to him one by one. From the moment of anger and sadness when he learned the truth, his heart at this moment was probably like ashes melted in the brazier, shattered into powder , the wind blows away and there is nothing.

Many details of getting along with Jiang Xu over the past seven years flooded his mind little by little. At that time, he was so difficult. He did not expect that the many warmth and detours he had experienced that he thought were precious in his heart were all made by Jiang Xu himself. designed.

He is like an insignificant pawn on Jiang Xu's chessboard, and the future of the entire Chu Garden is in Jiang Xu's hands.

Yan Hui wiped the corners of his eyes, he did it, he thought it would hurt his heart, but at this moment, he couldn't even shed tears, and he didn't know if he had been prepared for a long time or his heart had cooled down to the point of being unmoved up.

During the day, my aunt hid in a corner and reported to Jiang Xu.

"He is very quiet and seems to be in a good mood. He went fishing this morning."

"Well, he was in the sun for an extra hour, and the books slipped from his hands while he was sleeping."

The aunt always reported the good situation to Jiang Xu, and on the surface, Yan Hui was indeed getting better every day, that is...

Auntie can't describe the feeling, the more she looks at the person in front of her, the more she feels that the other person is not real. A while ago, she would look at the same place in a daze, but in recent days, it seems that she has no emotions at all, and all the emotions have disappeared.

Jiang Xu went to other provinces to attend a meeting for a few days. This day, after getting off the plane, he went straight from the airport to the farm. Yan Hui was not at the villa, but found Yan Hui in the surrounding fields.

At the end of autumn, the sun was gone before the evening, and the wind was dry. Mixed with the scent of flowers and hay, the geese lay down on the dry straw and slept soundly.

Auntie said that Yanhui has been lethargic recently, but even so, there is still a light dark blue under the eyelids, and the end of the eyes shows fine lines when you look closely.

Jiang Xu squatted and watched for a while, his originally good mood seemed to be blocked by something.

He held Yanhui's thin wrist tightly. The weather was not cold yet, and Yanhui began to wear a long-sleeved coat outside. His hair was much longer than before, covering his eyebrows and eyes, and curled slightly on his temples. Show a more well-behaved posture.

Jiang Xu's throat tightened: "Yanyan."

Yanhui fell into a deep sleep, and Jiang Xu called out several times before waking up from the languid state of mind. He looked at Jiang Xu with half-closed eyes for a moment, and then slowly fixed the focus and became conscious.

"You're back..."

Yan Hui was moved for a moment, as if thinking of something, he stretched out his hand around Jiang Xu's neck in a rather awkward manner.

Jiang Xu's heart was inexplicably soft because of his actions, and his expression became much gentler. The palm of his hand fell on the back of Yanhui's neck, caressing the end of his hair seemingly absently.

"Why does Yanyan sleep here?"

Yan looked back at the yellowing fields behind Jiang Xu, and said in a calm tone, "I fell asleep when I was tired."

Contrary to his tone, his movements were extraordinarily gentle and careful, and he was very attached to Jiang Xu's arms.

"Jiang Xu, carry me on your back."

Jiang Xu's suit was not conducive to stretching his hands and feet, and it was rare to hear Yanhui ask him to carry him up. He simply unbuttoned two shirt buttons, folded the cuffs towards his arms, and easily carried Yanhui up.

Yan Hui looked a little stunned: "It would be nice if it rained."

The end of the year is approaching, and he and Jiang Xu have known each other for almost eight years.If there are another eight years left, and he is heading towards the age of [-], Jiang Xu will definitely still be a middle-aged man with extraordinary appearance by that time, and he will be more dignified and elegant than he is now.

"Jiang Xu, what do you like about me?"

It is the first time that Yanhui asked such a question. He and Jiang Xu went from trading to a natural and natural state, whether they love it or not, like it or not, the two of them seem to have tacit understanding and did not express it on their lips. Pass.

Jiang Xu stopped where he was, feeling unexpected for Yan Hui's sudden words.

"Why are you asking this all of a sudden?"

Yan Hui murmured to himself: "I always felt that even if our transaction was true, our relationship later on was not false. Everything from false to true, even if it lasts for so many years, is still difficult. It must be real, right?"

"Jiang Xu, I know same-sex people can get married abroad, have you ever thought about marrying me and building our family?"

Jiang Xu slightly turned his face to look at him, Yan Hui stared at Jiang Xu's brows and eyes, paying special attention: "I have thought about it, but your family doesn't accept me."

"I am with you because I am a high climber. You may have to have a blood heir for your identity. I have thought about all of this. Even if you ask someone to do a test tube or a surrogate, as long as our families are not separated, I will not give up." Acceptable and mentally prepared.”

Yan thinks back so far, he feels very tired after speaking, he is the only one who has been in the play from the beginning to the end.

At that time, Yan Hui was so proud that Jiang Xu often asked their team to sing operas for the old lady. Jiang Xu didn't like to listen to this, but every time he sat and watched, his eyes were only on Yan Hui, watching him sometimes sing in a variety of styles Daji, who charms the monarch, sometimes transforms into the heroic Mu Guiying.

Yanhui could sing all kinds of dan roles, but his master was strict with him. At that time, he was stubborn and learned, and he didn't shed a single tear when he was hit by the board.

Jiang Xu fell in love with him, but almost sent him the stars and the moon, Yan Hui scolded him for being corrupt.

When he concealed his disappointment and unwillingness, and was about to be overwhelmed by Chu Yuan's list, Jiang Xu's modest care made Yan Hui not so uncomfortable to accept.

Jiang Xu knew that he was the one who wanted face the most, and was arrogant, but when they were together, Jiang Xu liked to break his arrogance the most and wanted him to be soft.

It's just such a bad Jiang Xu, when he lies in the hospital with a high fever in the middle of the night and proudly says that he doesn't want anyone, he will smile and keep silent, and when Jiang Xufei comes back to get along with him, he will be so scared that he can't speak. Although within a few hours Jiang Xu had to rush to the airport to go back to attend the engineering project meeting.

At that time, Jiang Xu was busy and was often a trapeze outside. Even so, Yanhui never felt sad.He wanted to take care of Chu Yuan. In Jiang Xu's eyes, Chu Yuan was just a very small and inconspicuous team, but it was Yan Hui's life, so he guarded his small team and didn't go anywhere. Jiang Xu was the only one who worked hard. Flying from here to there, it was almost stable in Danyang City, several years have passed.

During Jiang Xu's busiest period, Yanhui didn't feel close at hand. The day before Su Yuebai came, he simply felt that Jiang Xu was unpredictable. Now this person is carrying him behind his back, so close contact, still Unable to resist the chill in Yan Hui's heart, he felt that Jiang Xu was terrified.

For nearly eight years, I haven't really gotten to know this person thoroughly. Yanhui can't imagine that all his life trajectory, circles, work, and everything he came into contact with during the past eight years have been precisely and meticulously arranged by Jiang Xu. Like an impenetrable net, the result that awaits him at the moment of knowing the truth can only be slowly eaten away.

He couldn't even understand Jiang Xu's state of mind that he would regard Song Ran, who was only 16 years old at the time, as a thorn in his side, and send someone to teach a child a lesson for his unwarranted possessiveness?If he hadn't gone back to save Song Ran by mistake, today would be another situation.

Jiang Xu never let things he dislike appear in front of him. It turned out that the hidden meaning was to destroy that thing. Yan Hui didn't know that there really was a law around him that he couldn't resist at all.

Yan Hui bit Jiang Xu's ear, his teeth gently grinding against his earlobe: "What do you like about me?"

Jiang Xu is really amazing, it took him so long and spanning multiple time periods to give him the game, good and bad, all the things he experienced are actually within Jiang Xu's controllable range, the only thing that got out of control was probably that time fire.

Jiang Xu finally noticed Yanhui's abnormality: "Yanyan, what did Su Yuebai tell you?"

Auntie reported to him about Su Yuebai's visit, and Jiang Xu didn't pursue it too much considering that Yanhui was not in an abnormal state after contacting him, and only used a little trick to keep the Su family busy, so that Su Yuebai would not be too idle. Disturb the goose back to rest.

Yanhui folded his hands, looking like he was pinching Jiang Xu's neck.

There were many noisy voices in his ears, like a group of demons dancing wildly, and there was no peace in his heart.

Yanhui's mouth squeezed out two words to Jiang Xu: "Devil."

The devil is carrying him forward, there is only the abyss, there is no home he so-called expects, no.

Jiang Xu has never been the way of retreat behind him, there is no way for Yan Hui to retreat, and there is no way to ask for help.

"I know everything you have done," he said in a low voice, "To cut off everything in Chuyuan is to take away my life. Losing my voice is no different from breaking my hands and feet on stage. Jiang Xu, you have never They didn't want me to live."

"You still dare to say that you love me. Fortunately, I haven't heard this word from you."