gray love

God never told you, He closed your door and opened a window for you.

After school in the afternoon, Chu Mo came as scheduled, and I suddenly felt so ashamed that I asked a girl to pick me up from school, but the kindness is hard to refuse, not to mention that I have something to ask her for help and it is hard to push her away.

So she showed up in my kitchen.

I can’t help but lie on the sofa and browse Weibo. Recently, a blogger named Xiyu Wei’an always interacts with me, but her dynamics are very few. I think this kind of beauty control is still rarely contacted. Okay, but if I can become fans of Yu Xiao, then I can wake up from my dreams with a smile.

I was surprised by the sumptuousness of a table of meals. Western food and Chinese food are mixed, balanced in nutrition and full of fragrance.

I looked at her in surprise and admiration and said, "When did Sister Mo Mo become so virtuous?"

"Sister Mo Mo made me look like a dating app." Chu Mo glared at me and set the table and chopsticks.

"Are you comfortable? Do you want me to feed you?" Chu Mo said to me with deep meaning.

I quickly refused: "I hurt my left hand, but I can use my right hand."

"I was joking to see you scared." Chu Mo said with a smile.

"I remember you didn't know how to cook before, where did you learn this skill?" I cut a piece of pizza and chewed it in my mouth.

She thought for a while and said: "The pizza, egg tart and steak that I learned at Z restaurant on Guangming Street; their signature fish with pickled cabbage, and…”

"Okay, okay." I waved my hand and said, "Why don't you study hard at school to learn these things?"

"I was working there, and I learned it when I was in the kitchen." She said, her hands were busy picking up vegetables for me.

"Are you so short of money? Your parents are both teachers, so they can't starve you? Why are you working so hard to work in those places?

The movement of her hands stopped, and she stared blankly at the dishes on the table.

I saw something was wrong with her and asked, "What's wrong?"

She didn't speak, but broken tears flickered in her eyes.

"Sister," I called out to her, "Did something happen in the past two years?" I looked at her seriously.

"My father..." she said in a hoarse and quivering voice, "is gone..."

My brain buzzed, sure enough, something happened to her, but I didn't expect it to be so serious.

"On the day I received the admission letter, he left." Her tears dripped down into the bowl of soup placed in front of her.

"Sister, I'm sorry." I looked at her sadly, turned around and took the toilet paper and handed it to her.

"It's okay." She took the paper and wiped away her tears.

"Two years ago, on his way to work by bicycle, a van knocked him down. It couldn't have been so serious, but he fell on the curb impartially, suffered serious head injuries, and was in a coma for a year. Finally left." She said lightly, but every sentence pierced her heart.

"I dropped out of school and took care of him with my mother for a year, but he still couldn't hold on..." Chu Mo choked up, and I patted her on the shoulder, "The family's savings have all been spent, and the money awarded to us by the court , we didn’t get a cent.”

"Why?" I frowned.

Chu Mo smiled bitterly and said: "The perpetrator transferred the money in his account after the incident happened, and now all his funds are with his wife."

"Then let his wife pay for it." I said angrily.

She looked at me and said, "The people in the court told us that individual behavior has nothing to do with the joint property of the husband and wife, and they have no right to enforce the freezing of his wife's property."

"So...that's it?" I asked her with wide eyes.

"The law is no longer our weapon," she said.

I exhaled and slumped on the back.

Is this the kind of society we are trying so hard to get into when we grow up as soon as possible?Is this the grand-sounding blueprint for our future constructed in our textbooks?Now I finally understand the sentence "Darkness gave us black eyes, but I use them to find light". It turns out that everyone is struggling in the dark, and they have to look for it in this damn darkness with a cheeky face and bruises. That light is smaller than starlight!

"Stop talking, Xiao Haozi, the dinner bar is getting cold." As he spoke, Chu Mo stretched out his hand to try the rice bowl in front of me.

"Sister," I said to her sternly, "I will definitely help you."

"Thank you, but I hope you don't use your family's influence, okay?"

I asked her why with my eyes.

"If justice is obtained with money and rights, then what is the difference between me and those people? I hope that every road I take is open and aboveboard, even if I am deep in an ugly quagmire, even if others laugh at me stupidly. And I don’t want to be like them.”

I looked at her with admiration.

"Okay," she said with a sigh of relief, and said with a smile, "let's eat."

I also looked at her with a smile and said, "Sister, you are so strong."

"If you are not strong, how will you live?"

"But even if you take a break from school, you can go to school now, why haven't you gone yet?" I asked her as if remembering something.

She froze, with an indescribable melancholy in her eyes.

"Maybe it's because I didn't go to school for a year, and I couldn't get used to the school, so I dropped out."

I looked at her in amazement: "Why...won't you get used to it?"

"Before the college entrance examination, I thought that university is my ivory tower. University should be a place where I sit on the grass with my guitar on my back and play and sing in the afternoon sun, but when I really sit in a certain classroom of the university I didn't realize how tired I was until I was sitting in a certain seat."

"I have to put on various masks and say various things every day, and I have to use my fiery and sincere heart to face cold responses every day. There is no more passion in high school, and there is no more utterance in high school I no longer have the sincerity and memories of high school, so... I feel that I am insulting my previous efforts by staying there."

"No," I said sternly, "There must be something wrong. You are so strong that you can't drop out of school because you don't get used to it. Besides, you work in bars every day. That kind of place is no more dirty than school, but you If you persisted, how could you drop out of school because you didn’t adapt?”

I continued to question.

Chu Mo's eyes were glazed, and he remained silent.

"Sister..." I called her tentatively.

"because of him."

It should correct my guess, it really is because of the man.

"Because he plagiarized my work and secretly gave it to my roommate in the same dormitory."

I didn't ask, I didn't want her to fall into a new round of painful memories again.

"Sister, it's all over, let's have dinner." I thought about it and went to the refrigerator in the kitchen to get a few cans of beer and put them on the table.

"How can there be no wine for dinner." As I spoke, I opened two cans.

"Hey! You can't drink." She panicked and tried to snatch the beer back from my hand.

"It's okay." I took a sip and said mischievously, "I heard that bandages go better with wine."

She smiled happily and said softly, "You have grown up."

I took a sip of wine with a wry smile: "Some say I've grown up, some say I'm still young."

"How can you say that you didn't grow up if you sacrificed your life to save me like that, but——I hope you won't do this again next time."

"No, I'll find you a safe job." Finally, I brought out what I wanted to ask her for today.

"what?"

"My brother's bar, I sincerely invite you to help out."

As he said that, the phone rang, and the old five asked me anxiously if I had recruited Chu Mo, a famous bar singer in City H. I looked at Chu Mo, who was drinking beer, and smiled brightly.

That night, we went to Lao Wu’s bar and sang wildly until midnight. I played the electric piano, she played the bass, I vented my inner sorrow, and she vented her full of sorrow...

God has never told you that what you yearn for is the bright sun in the sky and the stars, and he has never told you that if you run hard, you will get back the brilliance and brilliance. He never told you... But, You still stand there facing the light, smiling, hugging...