so called love

"You once said that my heart is like a glass, pure and transparent like water, even if it is full of heartbreak, you can easily spill it and pretend it doesn't matter, I should say that I am like a glass..."

After the evening self-study, the music played as usual, and it was the same song as always. Zhang Xixi didn’t know the song, nor did he understand the lyrics clearly. Every time he listened to it, he could only hear a few words, but it moved him inexplicably And Sorrow, if he had WeChat at the beginning, he would definitely open WeChat and shake it to see what song it is.

This evening, Zhang Xixi was lying on the bed doing homework, and a bottle of newly bought mineral water was placed beside him in case of thirst. After taking a sip of water, when he was tightening the bottle cap, he suddenly thought , what might happen if you stand the water bottle up on the bed without unscrewing the cap?Probably the water will all be spilled on the bed!Sprinkled on the bed, where shall I sleep then?So, he put the water bottle in the middle of the bed, because he had to soak the "vital" parts, so he couldn't sleep. With a light push, the water bottle fell down, like an accident.The water gurgled onto the bed, soaking a large area of ​​the bed.Zhang Xixi hurriedly pretended to be careless, and shouted: "Xiao Xia, my bed is wet and I can't sleep."

"There's a hair dryer there, you can blow it dry." Xiao Xia said softly.At this moment, he was on the bed, with his back against the wall, flipping through "NBA Sports Time and Space", his eyes wandering, his legs drooping naturally.

"No, blow dry."

"If you don't blow it dry, it's still damp, not wet!"

"No, I get pimples when I get wet."

"You slept on Li Hui's bed, didn't he leave a foam mattress on the bed?"

"No, I'm allergic to foam cushions."

"I'll borrow one for you in the next bedroom in a while. There should be extra mattresses next door."

"No, I hate it."

"What do you dislike if you are all classmates?!"

"I hate it."

"Why are you so hypocritical?"

"I am born to be hypocritical. A hypocritical child has milk. I want to sleep in your bed."

"Okay, then I'll sleep in your bed."

"It's all wet like that, and you can't sleep."

"Then I'll sleep on Li Hui's foam mattress."

"How uncomfortable it is to put foam pads on your body!"

"It's okay, I can handle it."

"Why should one deal with something that can have the best of both worlds?"

"How to have the best of both worlds?"

"I sleep in the same bed with you, and I have the best of both worlds."

"No, you said you liked me, and that scares me."

"Xiao Xia, I have no way out."

"You have no retreat, I have retreat."

"I like your sweet voice when you talk to me, I like your eyes when you look at me like spring is coming, I like that you can smell you when you are close to me." Zhang Xixi said, "But I don't like you .”

"The meaning of what you say is the same as saying 'my nanny is rich, my security guard is rich, my driver is rich, but my family is poor'." Xiao Xia said, "You just like me .”

"Well, I like you. If you don't like me, you don't have to take it seriously. If you like me too, you take it seriously." Zhang Xixi said, "I want to sleep in the same bed with you, just want to get close You, I'm not gay, maybe just gay attachment, just being gay attached. What do you think?"

"Does attachment need to be kissed?"

Xiao Xia still remembers the kiss Zhang Xixi gave him after the hot pot.

"Why did you suddenly think of that kiss?" Zhang Xixi said, "You miss that kiss."

"Don't disgust me."

"That kiss, it doesn't matter." Zhang Xixi said, "It's not distracting, it's the same as hooking shoulders. So you don't need to be disgusted. If you are disgusting, you are just annoying yourself."

"No, you said something very romantic before you kissed me," Xiao Xia said, "so you must have missed your heart when you kissed me."

"Humph——" Zhang Xixi let out a laugh, and said, "You think it's romantic too? But I'm just deliberately playing with you romantically, just like you taught me to masturbate, just want to take the opportunity to tease me, I just wanted to tease you, too. Seriously, you lose."

"But I always felt that the kiss meant something else."

"Yes, there is another meaning. I just finished kissing you that day, so you just answered the phone and said goodbye to me! Didn't it have other meanings!" Speaking of this, Zhang Xixi sang: "You and I Kiss goodbye on a deserted street..."

"Can you talk to me seriously?" Xiao Xia asked.

"Why do you have to think that it has other meanings? You must have figured it out and started to like me, right? There are other meanings, and that other meaning is also a meaning that you cannot accept. You think that If it means shame, it means to make you sick, then it's better that it has no other meaning. Otherwise, I will be too sorry for you. "

"Come back to business!" Zhang Xixi continued, "Do you want to sleep in the same bed with me?"

"No, I'm afraid you have unreasonable thoughts about me."

"You already have girlfriends, and you have two girlfriends at the same time. What reason do I have for you?"

"Then why do you have to sleep in the same bed with me?"

"I said, I just want to get close to you. I didn't say to get close to you in the name of friendship or love. Why are you so frightened?"

"Okay then." Xiao Xia said, "If this is summer, I will definitely not let you come up. In winter, for the sake of the cold weather, force it."

Hearing this, Zhang Xixi was extremely excited, and could finally "carry the beauty home".

"The night is dark, get ready to sleep." Zhang Xixi looked up at Xiao Xia with pure eyes.

"Don't you go to bed at 11 o'clock every day?"

"I'm very tired today."

"Then turn off the lights!"

"Have you washed?" Zhang Xixi asked.

"No, I won't wash it."

"The original taste is better." Zhang Xixi muttered softly.

"What did you say?" Xiao Xia asked.

"Oh, nothing."

Zhang Xixi began to take off his clothes, leaving only his underwear, and then he jumped in a fish, with a "snap", the light went out.

He jumped into Xiao Xia's bed, it felt like jumping into a tank full of water in hot summer, it was different from jumping into the sea, maybe it would be more refreshing to jump into the sea, but it would not give you a sense of security, no sense of security , Cool, it must be incomplete, and at this moment Xiao Xia is like the fence when he was playing on the edge of the cliff, it can give him a sense of security while he is having fun.But having fun is just one of his plans.Can it not be sure!

"I haven't laid down yet, why did you come up?" Xiao Xia said angrily.

"Come, come, lie down now, lie down now." Zhang Xixi's tone was like coaxing a child.

Xiao Xia lay down, lying on his back, the single bed could not accommodate two people lying on his back, Zhang Xixi could only lie on his side, and lying on his side was right in his arms, he just wanted to lie on his side.

To lie on one's side, holding his chest with his hands, like leaning on a building, so secure;

Lie on your side and listen to his breathing, his heartbeat, and his tickling from mosquito bites or whatever;

You have to lie on your side, look up into his eyes to see what kind of mood he is in, and smell his armpits to see if he has body odor.

You should lie on your side, with your legs folded on top of his, and use all the flexibility of your body to hover and climb like a creeper.

"Can you be more honest?" Xiao Xia said.

"Can you turn a blind eye and close one eye?" Zhang Xixi said, "Just indulge me in a muddleheaded way."

Xiao Xia was silent for a moment, then said, "Go down."

"Why?" Zhang Xixi said, "It's agreed."

"Go down." Xiao Xia continued.

"You can't bully people like this." Zhang Xixi said aggrievedly.

"You go down." Xiao Xia said, "Get me a cigarette and a lighter, and you come up again."

"That's about the same." Zhang Xixi said, "I thought you were going to drive me away."

"I want to drive you away, but I can't." Xiao Xia sighed helplessly.The clamor of classmates can still be heard in the corridor, and their bedtime is indeed a bit early today.

Zhang Xixi got out of bed in a hurry, and only passed the cigarette and lighter to Xiao Xia after he went to bed, because he was afraid that Xiao Xia would "cross the river and tear down the bridge", so he would not let him go to bed after picking up the utensils.

A flame, the smoke was ignited, so the two bodies were not only placed in this gentle night, but also placed in the smog.

"When did you learn to smoke?" Zhang Xixi asked.

"I feel that the days are not so good."

"Those bad days can exist and even last, but you have to believe that it won't last long." Zhang Xixi said, "If life deceives you..."

"Shutup! I don't want chicken soup right now."

"I want to try." Zhang Xixi said.

"try what?"

"cigarette."

"Smoking is harmful to health."

"With you, I can squander myself."

"Then go down and bring up the whole pack of cigarettes."

Zhang Xixi got out of bed in a hurry, and went to bed excitedly.

He took out a cigarette and lit it, took a sharp puff, almost obliterating half of the smoke, and then exhaled it out.

"Why don't you feel anything?" Zhang Xixi said.

"You vomited it all out, how do you feel! Wasted." Xiao Xia replied viciously.

"Waste cigarettes, don't waste life." Zhang Xixi said with a smile, "Quick, teach me how to smoke."

"I'll teach you after I finish smoking this cigarette." Xiao Xia said while smoking with relish.

"If you are so greedy for me..." Zhang Xixi looked into Xiao Xia's eyes, as if talking to himself.

Xiao Xia remained silent, Zhang Xixi continued: "I am a person who cherishes my feathers, although..."

"I am a person who cherishes my badminton." Xiao Xia interjected.

"Although I may be a crow, which has no color except black, I still cherish my feathers. Maybe it's a bit like cherishing myself with a broom! But I think a person must have the feeling of cherishing himself with a broom to..."

"That's why I'm narcissistic." Xiao Xia interjected again.

"I don't want to break the pot. I am a clean-spirited person who likes to be alone. I like to keep a distance from others and other people's things. In fact, I am quite arrogant. Let's talk about it now. I actually don't mind If someone else sleeps in my bed, I don't mind if I sleep in someone else's bed."

"Then why are you crying and wanting to sleep in the same bed with me?" Xiao Xia asked.

"Good question, I'm just waiting for you to ask me." Zhang Xixi said.

"Then just pretend I didn't ask, and don't answer me."

"why?"

"I'm afraid that the result of falling into your trap will be to hear a bunch of nasty words."

"Isn't numbness a comfortable feeling?"

Xiao Xia stubbed out the cigarette, threw it on the ground, and said, "Come on, I'll teach you how to smoke."