so called love

Ambiguous means that there are feelings but no stories, that there are dense clouds and no rain, and it is a piece of paper with colorful colors but no pictures.

If there are no exams, going to school will definitely be boring, because the learning results will not be reviewed.After the third monthly exam, the time had already entered December in the Gregorian calendar, and Zhang Xixi and Xiao Xia did not sit together anymore.

It doesn't matter if they don't sit together, after sitting next to each other for about a month, maybe he has captured Xiao Xia's heart.So what if it can be captured?Maybe that captured heart will never surface, will always sink, and will never let the other party know "my heart has been captured by you", like Zhang Xixi's heart, maybe Zhang Xixi's heart It will also be like this, and he will end up in the end of "where to stay cool". Although he loves desperately and loves more and more bravely, although he believes in all love, although he is completely unreliable, there is no guarantee. He can act in the eyes of ordinary people, or in the eyes of the other party, "defying the world's disgrace".

That’s right, too hot feelings that can’t erupt, of course you have to cool off, of course you have to forget it, the more it gets worse, the more uncomfortable it becomes, and it’s not the simple and rude instigation of the other party, but your own decision, like converting to Buddhism Same.

Maybe one day, he will think about it, think about it, live the life that most people live, eat, live, have sex, and then, maybe, he can also envy Shame others.

Envious of others, but self-aware.

It doesn't matter if you don't sit together, he lives in Xiao Xia's dormitory, which is much more enjoyable than sitting with him.

"Let's discuss something with you." One day, the two of them had lunch face to face in the school cafeteria, Zhang Xixi said.

"Say." Xiao Xia said, then picked up a lotus root slice and put it in his mouth.

"I love music and can't live without playing the guitar."

"and then?"

"Playing the guitar in the dormitory at night affects a group of people."

"and then?"

"But it's hard to restrain the desire to play the guitar."

"So what?"

"I want to move to your dormitory." Zhang Xixi said shyly.

Xiao Xia glanced at Zhang Xixi, then picked up a piece of kelp, lowered his eyebrows and lowered his eyes, and began to chew. After the kelp was consumed in his mouth, he raised his eyes to look at Zhang Xixi. His eyes seemed to have expected Zhang Xixi's gourd. He sold the medicine, but he still said: "Then you can move here! I'm bored living alone."

"You don't mind if I play the guitar?"

"That depends on how well you play it!" Xiao Xia said, "If you play those obscene sounds, within three days, I will definitely let you leave the house."

"If you say that, I'm going to find out. What is the music in your heart? It's better to avoid it in the future."

"The so-called decadent sound...the so-called decadent sound..." Xiao Xia said, "I'm sorry, I have to look it up in the dictionary."

"Ha ha."

At that time, there was no WeChat, and the mobile phones of the students had no traffic, and there were only a handful of students with QQ numbers. None of the students had a smart phone. "The most unbelievable part of the phone is that it can take pictures. If you have to talk about the games on the phone, I'm afraid there are only snakes and jigsaw puzzles. If you want to listen to songs, or go to a music store to buy tapes, go back Listen to it on the repeater, or download the song to your mobile phone for a dime apiece, or download a few songs while playing Counter-Strike in an Internet cafe.

At that time, people's daily actions were either bowing their heads or using their mobile phones, so Xiao Xia said, "I have to look it up in a dictionary." Instead of saying, "I have to Google it."

In this way, Zhang Xixi moved into Xiao Xia's dormitory.He chose a bed with ulterior motives, the one in the middle on the same side as Xiao Xia's bed, so that he and Xiao Xia could meet "end to end" when sleeping.

On the day of moving, when moving in the last stack of books, Zhang Xixi said: "You can read quietly, you can play the guitar gently and quickly, you can play music loudly, and you can accommodate a strange me, Could be here. Could be here?"

Xiao Xia replied: "Yes, I'm not a good boy who loves to study." As soon as the words fell, I don't know whether Xiao Xia's answer made him excited or what, the stack of books collapsed to the ground, Xiao Xia knelt down to help him Picking up, in the process of picking up one by one, a photo came into Xiao Xia's eyes. It was not a coincidence, or it could be said that it was right side up, so Zhang Xixi wanted to take it out quickly. When it was put away, Xiao Xia had already seen it quickly.

That photo is a photo sticker that Zhang Xixi stole from Su Mei.

"Why do you have this photo?" Xiao Xia picked up the photo and asked curiously.

"You gave it to me, don't you remember?"

"When did I give it to you?"

"Like you, I also forgot." Zhang Xixi chuckled.

"A few days ago, I heard from Su Mei that only my photo sticker was lost. Why did it get lost to you?"

"Let me tell you the truth, I found it when I was moving Su Mei's seat that day, and then I put it away."

"Why did you put away my photos? This is a little strange!"

"Let me tell you the truth, I like you."

At this moment, the volcano erupted, and the quantitative change finally led to a qualitative change. The rain finally couldn't hold back, and finally it was no longer cloudy or rainy.

Hearing this, Xiao Xia blushed a little, her eyes looked crystal clear, as if there were tears glistening.Xiao Xia should have understood Zhang Xixi's intentions long ago, and he is not stupid, but in Xiao Xia's eyes, Zhang Xixi's intentions may be tasteless to eat and a pity to discard.

Zhang Xixi stood up and closed the door and continued: "I fell in love with you the first time I saw you, you know? Your beauty sometimes makes me want to cry. Many things are also beautiful, but they don't make me Want to cry, but you make me want to cry."

"Don't you want to be together anymore?" Xiao Xia asked with tears in her smile.He didn't know why he was crying.

"Don't think about it for now." Zhang Xixi replied, also smiling with tears.

"Actually, it doesn't surprise me that you like me, because I have already guessed whether you like me or not, but I am surprised that you can say it. I admire your courage. You like me , If you like me, you like it, you like me, just like others don't like me, it has no influence on me."

It turned out that this quantitative change led to a qualitative change, only for Zhang Xixi alone, and it was not valid for two people, because they did not establish a romantic relationship because of this.Xiao Xia's words are very ordinary, it seems that this relationship can't lose his wife and lose his army, it can't steal chickens and lose money, but it can still be like a classmate, as always.

Every day living in the same dormitory with Xiao Xia, Zhang Xixi is happy, so happy that he can't think of playing the guitar.Once Xiao Xia asked him, "Why don't you play the guitar anymore? Don't you have to stop playing the guitar?" He remembered the false purpose he had told Xiao Xia when he came to live in this dormitory, but it was not all false, because "Being able to play the guitar conveniently" is nothing compared to "being able to live with Xiao Xia", after all, it is a trivial matter, but the reason why it is used as a shield is also mentioned.It’s not what it used to be. It was only when he was in an ambiguous relationship that he used “playing the guitar” to talk about things. Now, he has confessed his love to Xiao Xia, so he simply replied: “Actually, it’s mainly because I want to be with you. living together."

"But you should play the guitar more." Xiao Xia said, "Don't focus on me as soon as you get back to the dormitory, keep looking at me, keep looking at me, you think you are Wangzai milk! "

"I just like to see you like this, so what does it matter? I only see you in my image, and what I see is only in your image, what does it matter?" Zhang Xixi quibbled.

"Play the guitar well. It's all about learning how to play the guitar. What's the use of me? It's useless."

Xiao Xia's words made Zhang Xixi a little sad.He responded to Xiao Xia like this: "Some people's opinions are definitely for your own good, but it's just not suitable to listen to them."

Xiao Xia replied "speechless" and went to the water room to wash up.