so called love

On both sides of the entrance of the hot pot restaurant, there are more than a dozen private cars parked, black, red, and navy blue. A few people in guard uniforms stand guarding these cars. This is one of the attractions of this hot pot restaurant. Unlike In other places, the slogan "Free parking, car damage at your own risk" is posted on the wall.

"When I was young, I wanted to have a four-wheel-drive vehicle that made my friends envious or jealous. Commander Devil, charged with victory. Now I want to have a car like the one in front of me. When I grow up, my desire is different." Zhang Xixi explain.

"There is another beauty." Xiao Xia said.

"Yes, only beautiful women are worthy of you." Zhang Xixi said, "The consumption of this store seems to be very high, why don't we change to a self-service hot pot."

"Didn't you say you can't turn your back on the customer?"

"As a guest, I hope that you, the host, will be more frugal."

"If you come, please be safe. Last week, my mother gave me a card." Xiao Xia didn't remember her mother's birthday several times. Since her mother gave him this card, he remembered her mother's birthday. Birthday, because of the card password, the first three digits are his birthday, and the last three digits are mother's birthday.

They followed a young and beautiful waitress to a window seat, sat opposite each other, and smiled.

"Here, order what you like!" Xiao Xia pushed the menu display stand on the dining table to Zhang Xixi, took off the dark green coat, turned around and put it on the armchair, and showed off the wine red cotton shirt thoughtfully and unrestrainedly. .

"A plate of black fungus." Zhang Xixi said to the waiter standing beside him waiting to order.

The waiter looked at him, waiting for him to continue to order, but he pushed the menu display stand to Xiao Xia.

"What else do you like to eat, order some more!" Xiao Xia pushed the menu display back.

"Nothing."

"You only love black fungus?"

"Ah."

"I know you only love black fungus, why should I take you to eat hot pot, how nice it would be to take you to the chicken coop! Hurry up and order some more!" Xiao Xia said eloquently.

Zhang Xixi looked at the menu display stand.

"Spinach, cabbage, cauliflower, all on one plate."

"Do you like to be vegetarian?"

"I don't like to eat, but my body likes to eat." Zhang Xixi pushed the menu display stand to Xiao Xia and said, "It's your time to order."

"Beef venetian leaves, pig brains, sheep tails, donkey whips, all in one plate."

"Do you like these?" Zhang Xixi asked with wide eyes in surprise.

"I don't like to eat, but my body likes to eat." Xiao Xia said imitating Zhang Xixi's tone.

"Excuse me sir, the donkey whip is sold out." The waiter said softly.

"That dog whip." Xiao Xia said without thinking.

"The dog whip is gone, but there is a horse whip, do you want it?" the waiter said diligently.

"The horsewhip is too long, can you eat it?" Xiao Xia glanced at the waiter with passionate eyes, he deliberately said this to tease her, after all, she was young and beautiful.

"Sir, you can eat donkey whips, and you can eat horse whips even more. Donkey whips are longer than horse whips." The waiter said without changing his face.

"Is the horse whip longer than the donkey's whip?" Zhang Xixi asked.

"I work here every day and revolve around these things every day, don't I know?" the waiter said without doubt.

"But I still have to ask the biology teacher." Zhang Xixi said.

"Oh, that horsewhip." Xiao Xia couldn't help laughing.

The rainy sky has become clear, the rainwater hides the filth, contains a lot of mist, contains a lot of light, moonlight, street lamp light, starlight, and neon light, the sky also has a lot less scattering And the diffuse reflex, became relaxed and straightforward, only his eyes on Xiao Xia did not change, it was still the same, there was a passionate longing amid shyness and dodging.

The dishes came one after another, and before the hot pot boiled, Xiao Xia lit a cigarette.

"If smoking is not for love, it is a meaningless hazard." Zhang Xixi said vaguely.

"Do you want to smoke one?" Xiao Xia asked.

"How can my quiet and elegant life be against smoke?"

"You're always so polite."

"Talk to people when you see people, and talk to the devil." Zhang Xixi said with a smile, "Actually, you are also so polite. Remember, on the first day of school, the opening line of your self-introduction was-"

"What is it?" Xiao Xia asked.

"You stand on the bridge and look at the scenery, and the people watching the scenery look at you upstairs; the bright moon adorns your windows, and you adorn other people's dreams."

"I don't even remember, but you remember so clearly."

"After you said it, I wrote it on a piece of paper and read it intently."

"What did you see?"

"At that time, I didn't see anything. Looking back now, I think it expresses the emotion of secret love."

"Is it because you are secretly in love now?"

"Well, I'm secretly in love. He's looking at the scenery, and I'm also looking at the scenery, but my scenery is him."

"It's not good to have a secret love. Love starts with a confession."

"I won't be secretly in love forever, I will confess when the song ends."

"What's the use of confession after the song ends?"

"If he likes me too, it won't be the end of the song." Zhang Xixi kept his eyes sweetly, lightly and loosely, as if he was supercilious.

The hot pot boiled, and the spicy and delicious ingredients could be smelled in the steaming heat. The dishes were put into the pot one after another by Xiao Xia, and the vegetarian and meat ones had physical or chemical reactions.

"Come on, try to add more meals, I haven't even eaten dinner, I'm starving to death." Xiao Xia rubbed his fists a few times, picked up the chopsticks, and prepared to feast.

"I thought we had supper together, but it turned out that you ate supper." Zhang Xixi said plainly, "The distance between people is sometimes manifested in the fact that you eat supper at the same meal. What he ate was supper."

Xiao Xia ate to himself, seemingly not listening to him.

"You asked me to come out to eat because you were starving?" Zhang Xixi asked calmly, unwilling to let Xiao Xia react to his words.

"Well, what else?" Xiao Xia replied without hesitation, and did not hear Zhang Xixi's subtext.

"So, your hunger comes first, and I come second. In other words, I was born out of luck. Luck means you are hungry."

"I don't understand your stuff, philosophy." Xiao Xia said while adding sesame paste to the dipping bowl with a porcelain spoon.

"So, I want to thank your stomach, without it, you wouldn't think of me." Zhang Xixi said.

"You should also thank my brain. Without a brain, what can I think of?" Xiao Xia meant, don't care if I asked you to come out to eat because I was starving, you at least passed through my brain.

"One day, I hope you are not hungry, or when you are hungry but not too hungry, ask me to come out to eat - such as supper, supper is optional - that way, I will feel that we go out to eat not only to eat , more for the sake of seeing each other." Zhang Xixi was immersed in his own unique logic.

"What's so good about two men?" Xiao Xia said without raising his eyes.

"Both Li Bai and Jingtingshan can look at each other, let alone two people? Take a look at me."

"Don't look!" Xiao Xia looked up, picking food from the hot pot.

"Because I'm ugly."

"You are not ugly, the boys in our class, I am the most attractive, followed by you." Xiao Xia said while chewing food.

"That's why you don't look at me?"

"Looking down is very tiring for the eyes." After Xiao Xia finished speaking, he laughed.

"One day I'll grow taller. Hate!"

"Yo, you still have this side."

"Which side?"

"Girls only hate the girl's side."

"Hate!"

"Don't be annoying, I'm going to throw up." Xiao Xia lowered his head and smiled.

"You should have vomited all that crap you ate."

"Come on, you can eat too." Xiao Xia put the boiled beef louvers, pig brains, sheep tails, and horse whips on Zhang Xixi's plate.

"Stained all my plates, nasty."

"The shabu-shabu was all shabu-shabu in one pot, it's really hypocritical."

"Hate!"

Zhang Xixi felt happy saying that he hated Xiao Xia.

"I can't stop hating it, didn't I tell you that girls say I hate it." Xiao Xia taught earnestly.

"I would like to be a girl in front of you." Zhang Xixi blurted out, with some happiness and some regrets. Happiness is that he expresses his heart inadvertently, and regret is also that he expresses his heart inadvertently.

Xiao Xia didn't answer, just lowered his head and ate unhurriedly, but the expression on that face, like the reflection of starlight in the lake water blown by the breeze, was affectionate, melancholy, pear blossoms with rain, and charming.

"These are disgusting to look at, let alone eat." Zhang Xixi looked at the plate with a bone stuck in his throat.

"But they still have something fresh." Zhang Xixi said meaningfully, and his emotions took a right-angle turn.

"What's refreshing?" Xiao Xia raised his head, and the expression on his face eased slightly.

"You gave it to me."

"Haha."

When Zhang Xixi said some ambiguous and meandering words to Xiao Xia, Xiao Xia's attitude was either silent, or changed the subject, or just laughed it off.

Whether it's silence, changing the subject, or just laughing it off, it's better than cold words such as "pervert", "save it", "disgusting" and "forget it".

The two of them were talking, laughing and eating in silence, the night outside the window, and the face inside the window, the years are quiet and beautiful.

"I love mature vinegar." Zhang Xixi picked up the delicate glass bottle containing mature vinegar and gurgled down it.

"Does your dark skin have something to do with your love of vinegar?" Xiao Xia asked jokingly.

"It has something to do with me being exposed all the time."

"Sitting in the classroom, where can I bask in the sun?"

"I'm always exposed to love."

"Waiter, bring me a case of beer and bravely venture into the world." Xiao Xia raised his voice, and then murmured to himself, "How can there be hot pot without beer."

The beer has arrived, and the waiter said, "Excuse me, sir, how many bottles are you opening?"

"Full open." Xiao Xia replied.

"I don't have a lot of alcohol, you can figure it out." Zhang Xixi said.

"I don't have a lot of alcohol either." Xiao Xia looked calm.

"Then don't open it all?"

The waiter opened the beer skillfully and gracefully, ignoring their disputes, as if to complete the full opening before the "full open" change of mind, and put a bottle cap into his trouser pocket every time he opened a bottle.

"But I think it's different tonight. Tonight, I will be able to drink, and you will be able to drink too." Xiao Xia smiled crookedly, his face seemed to be able to handle every kind of smile freely, No matter how you laugh, it doesn't seem to be too much, it's nice to look good.

Good-looking, all you need to attract a person is appearance, 360 degrees without any scruples, flamboyant and trembling around; not good-looking, but you have to spend a lot of effort to take out the soul, take out the soul, but the world often loves beauty Too much, too little soul-loving soul, and the effort can be unflattering.

Xiao Xia tilted the glass, and the beer flowed down along the wall of the glass, with very little foam, and it was combined with the wine frivolously.Xiao Xia handed the cup to Zhang Xixi, and poured another cup for himself, but a lot of foam came out of his own cup.

"Come on, let's toast to you always being exposed to love." Xiao Xia raised his glass and spoke boldly.

Zhang Xixi picked up the wine glass, but said: "How can there be a toast for misfortune?"

"Wine can soothe your worries." Xiao Xia said leisurely.

Zhang Xixi raised his wine glass to the same height as Xiao Xia's, "Bang!" - the sound of clinking glasses, and drank it down in one gulp.

"Only the bitterness of beer is fragrant." Zhang Xixi said.

Xiao Xia continued to pour the wine, still pouring himself a lot of foam and pouring Zhang Xixi a little foam.

"Come on, let's make a toast to wish you not to be exposed to love." Xiao Xia raised his glass and spoke softly.

Zhang Xixi picked up the wine glass, but said: "Wait a minute, wait a moment."

When the foam in Xiao Xia's wine glass dissipated, Zhang Xixi laughed deliberately and said, "Look, your wine is much shorter than mine."

"Are we really going to compare heights?" Xiao Xia smiled reassuringly.

"how?"

"You are much shorter than me!"

"But my wine is much higher than yours!" After finishing speaking, Zhang Xixi took the initiative to clink glasses and drank it down.

"One day I will grow taller, as tall as you." Zhang Xixi said bitterly.

Xiao Xia poured two more glasses of wine, raised the glass, and remained silent.

"Why this time?" Zhang Xixi asked.

"Cheers to the day you'll be as tall as me."

Zhang Xixi picked up the wine glass, but said: "Why do you have so much foam every time, and I have so much beer."

"An accident."

"It won't do you any good to get me drunk, I'm not a fuel-efficient lamp."

"You don't save fuel, I will provide fuel for you."

"I'm afraid you can't afford it."

"Ouch!" Xiao Xia said as if he had been hit on the waist.

Zhang Xixi took out his mobile phone and pretended to be looking at something. In fact, he turned on the camera, looked at him through the lens of the mobile phone, and looked at him carefully. His mobile phone held up an umbrella for his watching.He looked, he looked, the man in front of him is really nice.The skin is white, as if it is exuding heat and humidity all the time - just the right amount of sweat, which attracts people to stick to it; the stubble is green, and it seems that there are some furry beards; the hairline is half low and half high, which is asymmetrical It adds intriguing movement to his face with symmetrical features.

During his adolescence, he had nothing to do with acne. His body used male hormones on the "knife edge", on height, Adam's apple, fine hair, and other imaginable places.

Zhang Xixi looked at this man, this man whom he admired and admired, who might be so close to him and thousands of miles away from him, he had already looked at this man countless times. In his eyes, this man had already surpassed countless in the world. , this man, he fell in love the first time he saw it. The moment of true love cannot be said to be fake. The true love is eternal, and it cannot be said that there is only that moment.If there is a definite number for happiness, he hopes that "this man falls in love with him" is one of the definite numbers. Then, they will fall in love, and it will no longer be self-pity and self-admiration.

Beside this man—such as at this moment—his soul is so frivolous that it will come out as soon as it is summoned, but the soul is a soul after all, and the body cannot follow suit and become frivolous.

It is popular to say "slow down the pace of the body and wait for the soul", but there are times when the body cannot keep up with the pace of the soul.

If the soul can’t keep up with the body’s footsteps, it’s a vulgar life at best, which doesn’t contradict happiness or even become one with the vulgarity; Doesn't get in the way of happiness.

What does it feel like when the body cannot keep up with the pace of the soul?To be more general, it means wanting to love but not being able to love, being unable to achieve it, having more than enough desire but not enough strength, maybe hemiplegia.

But maybe one day, at a moment when he can't help it, Zhang Xixi's body will become frivolous towards Xiao Xia along with his soul, and he won't be paralyzed.