A certain CV that is not noble and glamorous

The room was very quiet, only the sound of clothes rubbing against each other at first, and then the chair was moved away.Someone opened the drawer to search for things, and then there was the crisp sound of pills hitting the medicine bottle.

With a sound, it hit the old Ci's heart heavily.

He knows it all...

Old Ci clearly knew that his self-harm would eventually turn into despair of the world to the point of committing suicide.Sometimes, you are not so optimistic that you can think of some happy things to solve it. When your emotions are out of control, he can't control it at all. He feels mentally anxious, stressed, disappointed with himself, disgusted with himself, and unable to see his own existence. value.

Scratching the blade on his hands was a way to decompress. It was miraculous that he didn't feel any pain, and felt very happy inside.

Old Ci never thought of dying, and he didn't want to die either.

However, now Shen Qingchuan knows.The mood of the depressed patient is too moody, although he has already controlled it well in front of Shen Qingchuan, but now that he knows it, will he hate himself?Do you feel like a nuisance?Does he have the patience to tolerate his anxious emotions over and over again?

Old Ci gritted his teeth tightly, and suddenly felt very cold, so cold that he began to shiver under the warm blanket.

The old Ci made a whimpering sound, shouting in his heart over and over again: Don't hate me, Shen Qingchuan, I will get rid of it slowly, you believe me.

"Small words..."

Shen Qingchuan lifted the quilt, Jiuci's neck shivered, he covered his face with his hands, sweat from the quilt oozing from his forehead.

Shen Qingchuan helped the old Ci to brush his hair, his tone was gentle and reverent: "Xiao Ci, it's okay, just tell me slowly, okay?"

The old Ci shook his head: "You will blame me, everyone will blame me, and you will blame me too."

"But now I know, are you going to say nothing? Wait until one day, when I'm not watching you, just end your life without caring about anything? Is that so?"

Old Ci was still shaking his head, sinking into the abyss of his own despair.

"You are so cruel, I lost you without knowing anything. Maybe I will be sad for a while, then start a new life, find a considerate and sensible boyfriend, and forget the person I once liked , do you think so?"

Old Ci froze, he didn't even make a sound, as if he had stopped.Shen Qingchuan turned his face, opened his hands, and let him look at himself.

Laoci closed his eyes in self-deception.

The endlessly lingering words sounded in Jiu Ci's ears: "I don't want to be like this. I might be sad, and I can't think about it, and then I follow you. It's good, and I can make a couple again."

The old words were sobbing, and the voice was intermittent: "You won't, you have always been so sunny and cheerful, you won't be overwhelmed."

Shen Qingchuan continued without thinking: "Yes, I was forced by you."

Old Ci suddenly opened his eyes, with deep sadness in his eyes, and he spoke with certainty: "You won't, you're not me, you won't do this."

Old Ci walked into a dead end by himself and didn't want to come out, Shen Qingchuan lost his temper after being made so confused, he felt that it didn't make sense, so he had to smile wryly: "There is already someone who likes you so much, why are you still getting angry?"

After saying this, Shen Qingchuan stopped talking and started playing with his mobile phone.

Shen Qingchuan didn't look at the old words, only heard the sound of sniffling.He figured it out, it was like a fight, as long as he ignored the old remark, there would be nowhere for him to vent his grievances, and he would be able to calm down in a short while.

Sure enough, he heard the old Ci take the initiative to show weakness, and he asked softly: "What are you doing?"

Old Ci's gaze shifted from Shen Qingchuan's face to the phone.

Shen Qingchuan's voice was low and long: "I'm filming your black history, and I still cry with snot and tears at such an age."

The old words immediately lowered their heads, and before they had time to wipe them off with their hands, Shen Qingchuan asked: "You don't mean to use the sheets to wipe away your black history, do you?"

Jiu Ci was silent, and silently wiped his face with his hands, his ears were red.

Shen Qingchuan laughed: "Is your mood much better now?"

"Um……"

"Then why don't you look at me?"

Old Ci raised his head slightly, his eyes were swollen from crying, and he narrowed his eyes slightly due to discomfort.

"It's a good thing you don't have to go to class during the day." Shen Qingchuan brought a hot towel over for Jiu Ci and asked him to apply it to his eyes.

Poured another glass of water and asked him, "Do you want to take medicine?"

Shen Qingchuan will not stop Jiuci from taking medicine, to a certain extent it can effectively relieve depression and anxiety, and relieve inner pressure, otherwise he will not properly control Jiuci and turn to self-harm, Shen Qingchuan wants to let Old words slowly reduce the use of drugs.

Jiu Ci shook his head: "Thirsty."

"I've shed so many tears, it's time to drink some water." Shen Qingchuan handed over the cup, Jiu Ci half got up, leaned against the bed and drank it all in one gulp.

Shen Qingchuan didn't speak, and the old words also fell silent.After a while, he said, "Do you know about Liang Da's return?"

Shen Qingchuan raised his eyebrows, as if he was a little surprised that the old Ci would tell him something important, and he covered his chin and said "huh". "I know, the vest has been changed, so it should be called Liangbo now."

"He's not Liangda." Then, Shen Qingchuan heard the firm voice of the old Ci again.He was very mean, he saw a lot of comments in the post saying that Liang Bo was Liang Da, but he had never heard of Liang Bo's voice.No wonder, the old Ci held such hostility towards the "Liang Da" after the circle, he reopened the post full of doubts and listened to the audio.

"Isn't it?" Shen Qingchuan had heard Liang Dada's drama before, and when he heard Liang Bo's voice, he also felt that it was Liang Dada.

Old Ci's face sank like water: "No, he's not."

"You know him quite well." When these words came out, both of them were taken aback. Shen Qingchuan was outraged by his blatant jealousy, and the old words were surprised that Shen Qingchuan would say such a thing, even in a very flat tone. , also let him know what to do.

Shen Qingchuan actually said it casually, without any other intentions.But now the old words are not in the right mood, obviously what they said is inappropriate.

"I'll just say that casually, don't take it to heart." Shen Qingchuan immediately added.

Jiu Ci just lowered his eyelashes slightly, and his eyes fell on nowhere. "That's right, the voice is very similar, but I know that Liangda won't turn around." The old Ci's expression was covered by the fine hair ends, "I can only confirm that Liangbo intends to take advantage of Liangda's reputation , take a shortcut."

The voice of the old words was heavy and tired. "Actually, if Liang Bo really intends to use Liang Dada's account to mix smoothly in the online distribution circle, it doesn't matter. At least the fans are very happy. But I saw some bad screenshots. He disclosed his family in the group address, and invited his fans to his house to play. He disclosed his mobile phone number, and reminded that his mobile phone number is Alipay. Once these things are found out, he will retreat easily, and all the stigma will be passed on to Liang Da.”

If it wasn't for the certainty of Jiu Ci, even Shen Qingchuan would not have doubted that he was not Liang Dada after listening to Liang Bo's audio.Maybe this Liang Bo is indeed a newcomer, taking advantage of his voice which is very similar to Liang's.It's true that he didn't admit that he was Liang Da, but he didn't deny it either.Those who believe that Liangbo means Liangda are all on one side, and the acquiescence is acknowledgment.

But there is no proof that Liangbo pretends to be Liangda, and Liangda's fans are all crazy. If Jiu Ci points out that Liangbo is not Liangda, they will definitely have to pinch him again.

Can't you see my family going back and forth every day?

You say no?Obviously it's okay?

Does Ri Yi still want to force Da Da to quit the circle again?

……

Think about it and know what to pinch.

It's not enough to just say that Liang Bo is not Liang Da, after all, the similarity of the voices of the two makes it difficult to prove that two-dimensional is not like three-dimensional.

Shen Qingchuan's thoughts were concentrated little by little, and suddenly he had a flash of inspiration, and said: "Then ask Liang Da to clarify, are you afraid that the fake will not admit it when the real master comes?"

Although he was not very happy to find Liang Da in the old resignation.

The old words changed slightly: "He won't return to the online match circle again."

Shen Qingchuan almost wanted to say "you know him quite well" again, but he held back.

"Why? Does he not care if someone is using his identity to do his best?"

Old Ci stared at him without blinking, opened and closed his mouth a few times, and did not speak for a long time.

The surrounding air became quiet and silent, and in the end Shen Qingchuan was the first to lose the battle: "Forget it, if you don't want to talk about it, don't talk about it. Just promise me, don't be so impulsive and just hang up this matter. If you think about it, you will know that Liang Da’s fans will definitely not believe you, and will even throw you dirty.”

Jiuci nodded, thoughtfully, but Shen Qingchuan who turned his back to get breakfast didn't notice.

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