Long grass warbler flying

Chu Lan never expected the scene of being in contact with Ji Xiao again.

He began to fall into frequent insomnia, and occasionally saw Ji Xiao's news in Moments, watching him interact with Xin En, Zhou Yang, etc. in the comment area, only he seemed to be isolated from the small group.

So adding up the sleepless time at night, Chu Lan read the entire history of Western philosophy.There were still ten days before the results came out, and the students were restless, making appointments to go out to play in twos and threes, Chu Lan was late at night, and his energy was so sluggish that he almost alarmed his parents.

This day, he read the book until one o'clock as usual, and wrote several pages of reading notes, but he still didn't feel sleepy.Chu Lan didn't dare to stop thinking, everything about Ji Xiao always entered into his mind immediately when he was unconscious, and then desperately clamored to declare his sense of existence, he had no choice but to pretend to be an ostrich, implying that everything was over.

Chu Lan turned off the air conditioner, Jincheng's summer night occasionally rains, and it will be cooler afterwards.He opened the window, the house was a small three-storey villa, his room was on the top floor, it was a bit high and cold, but at this time there was moonlight on the window lattice.

It was rare for him to have an atmosphere of sadness and sorrow, and before he could blurt out his poetic and picturesque feelings, the mobile phone placed beside his pillow vibrated crazily.Chu Lan looked at the time and suddenly had a bad premonition.

The word "Ji Xiao" was shining brightly on the screen, and it was even more dazzling in the room where only one desk lamp was turned on.

Chu Lan hesitated for a moment, then pressed the answer in a strange way.He brought the phone to his ear, but didn't speak, he wanted to hear what Ji Xiao was going to talk to him late at night.

There was only panting, occasionally mixed with strange footsteps, Chu Lan felt wrong, and shouted: "Ji Xiao?"

The footsteps stopped, but still could not hear the other party's voice, Chu Lan yelled twice, and this time the phone was hung up directly.His heart was beating like thunder, and he couldn't hold back his emotions and quickly dialed back.

This time, I only heard the notification tone of the ice-cold machine: "The user you dialed is temporarily unavailable..."

He put down the phone strangely, and called again unwillingly, but still couldn't get through.Chu Lan was not a patient person at all, and when he was a bit sleepy, he simply turned up the volume, thinking that Ji Xiao could just ask him if he had anything to do, and went to bed.

Until the next day, Chu Lan slept until noon and woke up, but did not receive any news from Ji Xiao.If it weren't for the two phone calls he dialed in the phone's address book, Chu Lan would almost have thought that those were all Nan Keyimeng. He resolutely believed that the night had deceived his feelings, and he should still let go of Ji Xiao completely as before.

Life has to go on, and it is impossible to change for anyone.

Two days later, Chu Lan received an order from Ms. Li Wenyin to accompany Fan Fan to the hospital to see her sick grandfather.In fact, Fan Fan said that it was just a small problem, and the elderly would feel uncomfortable when they got older, but Chu Lan thought it was a courtesy, dutifully bought fruits and flowers, and carried them all the way to the ward.

The grandpa of Fan's family has an escort, and the two daughters take turns watching TV and talking with him, so it's not the junior's turn at all.There was nothing to talk about with the elderly, Chu Lan was dragged outside the ward by Fan Fan to get some air, planning to go home as soon as the adults were done.

There was a smell of disinfectant in the corridor of the inpatient department. Chu Lan was in poor health when she was a child and had to go to the hospital almost every month. When she smelled this smell, she almost instinctively felt uncomfortable.He lowered his head to play with his mobile phone, and heard Fan Fan complaining in his ear that the graduation trip that he planned to go with Chu Lan was wasted because of the driver's license test.

Chu Lan has a cousin who is studying for a master's degree in Europe, and she is also related to Fan Fan.Before the college entrance examination, it was agreed that everyone would go after graduation, and she would be in charge of hospitality and tour guide, but now that Fan Fan couldn't go, she was beating her chest.

"My sister also said that she misses you and wants to buy you a bag." He casually said, "I'll go by myself, and she won't even want to see me."

"Just bring it back for me..." Fan Fan smiled and gave him a hammer.

Chu Lan tolerantly bent the corners of her eyes at her, her gaze went straight past Fan Fan, and she glanced past a certain ward with its door open.He just took a look, but he met someone he didn't expect.

He showed a puzzled look, and Fan Fan asked, "What's the matter, Alan?"

Chu Lan looked away, and took two steps towards the ward after a while, ignoring Fan Fan's question at all, but stood at the door, gesticulated at Fan Fan with his hands behind his back, and said, "Why are you in the hospital?"

She walked over and saw three beds in that ward, and a boy of seventeen or eighteen years old was lying on the bed closest to the door. Seeing Chu Lan, he first opened his eyes slightly, and then sat up straight involuntarily. It seemed to be pulled somewhere, and he let out a painful cry of "Ouch", so he had to lie flat with his stomach covered.

Fan Fan swears as an honorary member of the Appearance Association that this boy is definitely a likable type.

The appearance is quite satisfactory, the bridge of the nose is very straight, and the eyes are bright and beautiful. Although he is not handsome, but it gives people a very comfortable feeling. I want to chat with him more pleasingly.Even though he was wearing a hospital gown, he didn't look weak, but his face was pale, and after the big movement just now, he was grinning now, which was a bit funny.

She was about to tease who it was, when she heard the young man on the hospital bed speak in a hoarse voice, probably without drinking water for a long time: "Chu Lan, why did you come to the hospital? Are you uncomfortable?"

Chu Lan ignored it, turned to Fan Fan and said, "This is my classmate Ji Xiao."

Fan Fan immediately straightened his body, awe-inspiring: "Long-awaited, long-awaited!"

Ji Xiao: "Huh?"

After finding out that Chu Lan didn't come to the hospital because of illness, Ji Xiao was obviously relieved.He didn't want to get along awkwardly with Chu Lan in this situation, but the other party didn't seem to care much.

The girl named Fan Fan was very familiar with herself. After running out, she came back with an apple and sat on the stool accompanying the bed: "Whether you want to eat apples or not, you and Alan are half of each other."

Ji Xiao smiled wryly: "I don't like it, I just finished the operation."

These words caught Chu Lan's attention, he leaned against the door, and finally followed the steps Ji Xiao gave him to ask the question he had been stuck for a long time: "What's wrong with you?"

"Acute appendicitis..." Ji Xiao said indifferently, he tried to sit up, but was ordered to lie down when Chu Lan found out his intention, so he looked at the ceiling and said calmly, "I suddenly had a stomachache in the middle of the night before yesterday, I couldn't stand it, I called an ambulance and went to the emergency department. Not long after the operation, I have to observe for a few days."

Chu Lan thought for a while and asked, "Is it the day you called me?"

Ji Xiao looked at his position, trying to capture other emotions from that forever calm face: "Is it your number I called? I don't know, it hurt so much that day, so I grabbed my phone and dialed a number directly ... No one spoke for a long time, I fell again, hung up the phone, and called 120."

He spoke as if it was just an ordinary incident and it was taken care of.Fan Fan was terrified while listening to it. Although appendicitis was not a serious illness, but it had a sudden onset, if it was not treated in time, the consequences would still be disastrous.She couldn't help asking: "You have such a serious illness, where are your parents?"

As soon as this remark came out, both Ji Xiao and Chu Lan turned pale. Chu Lan sighed and said to Fan Fan, "Don't ask these questions, not everyone has a happy family like you."

Fan Fan said "Oh", and belatedly realized that he asked the wrong question, so he buried himself in cutting apples.She split the apple into two, and after confirming that Ji Xiao really couldn't eat it, she handed half of it to Chu Lan.

He gnawed on the apple and didn't speak, Fan Fan was full of gossip and wanted to ask, but he didn't dare to make a fuss in front of Chu Lan, so he had to talk about him from left to right, and chatted with Ji Xiao.Ji Xiao was still alive and kicking after the operation, he lay flat and chatted with Fan Fan, from the embarrassing things in school to the final questions of the exam, it was a bit late to see each other.

"...Later, Chu Lan chose No. [-] Middle School, not the same school as me." Fan Fan bit an apple and said vaguely, "You don't even know, Ah Lan is so naughty, everyone used to go to a mountain villa for vacation, he I insisted on picking oranges from other people's fruit trees, and later I caught two praying mantises and lit a fire to roast them."

Ji Xiao laughed so hard that he couldn't see his teeth, he covered his wound to prevent convulsions: "Really?"

Fan Fan: "That's not right! Later, when we were in primary school, we were in the same class, and he didn't know me. It was only after being introduced by my godmother that he thought of 'there seems to be such a person'...so this person's memory, he Just ignore what you say, forget it in three days and regret it in five days, it’s worse than a goldfish.”

Ji Xiao vaguely felt that there was something in her words, so he answered vaguely.

He didn't know how much Fan Fan knew about him, until the other party said in a nonchalant tone: "A Lan often mentions you to me, it's his honor that you treat him so well."

Ji Xiao's heart skipped a beat, and he couldn't help looking at Chu Lan.The other party still maintained an awkward posture, leaning against the wall, eating apples in small bites, as if they hadn't heard their conversation at all.He stared at Chu Lan quietly, with too much emotion revealed in his eyes, which made Fan Fan's heart flutter indescribably.

Those eyes were very focused, and there was a little expectation, which seamlessly matched with the warm smile on the corner of his mouth, and together they outlined endless tenderness.

She bit an apple and thought, "Such affectionate, Ah Lan is going to be over."

When returning home from the hospital, Chu Lan and Fan Fan were sitting in the back of the taxi.As soon as he got in the car, he used earphones to block out the noise from the outside world, Fan Fan didn't bother to talk to him, and played with his mobile phone - she just exchanged WeChat with Ji Xiao, and they chatted happily.

"I think he's pretty good." Fan Fan said, as if talking to himself. Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Chu Lan, who moved his fingers slightly as if he had pressed a pause, so he continued, "And he's a friend who can get along well with people." , high emotional intelligence, I just met him and I already think he is very cute. How can you..."

The corners of Chu Lan's eyes twitched: "God is annoying, what do you mean?"

Fan Fan: "There is such an excellent person who likes you, but you are like an enemy. Forgive me, Alan, you were just like that to Song Shiyong before, you were so lovable. So homophobic, are you a deep closet— —”

Chu Lan yanked off the earphones, Fan Fan quickly shut up, and turned his head away as nothing to do with himself.

"He's good, so I'm going to accept him? Have you ever thought about it for me?" Chu Lan's voice rose a little, and the taxi driver turned off the radio without losing the opportunity. The whole space was narrow and cramped. Fan Fan was startled and kept silent, looking over with doubts in his eyes.

Fan Fan's voice was as thin as a mosquito humming: "...If you don't like it, you don't like it. Why are you angry?"

Only then did she realize that she had lost her composure, and Chu Lan leaned back, slamming her head heavily on the back seat.He maintained this posture, staring at the roof of the taxi, feeling a little sour in his eyes.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it to you." He said softly, "I'm blaming myself."

"Do you also think he is very nice, so you blame yourself for not being able to respond to his liking?"

Chu Lan was taken aback.

Just now when he saw Ji Xiao lying on the bed with a sick face, when he saw him chatting happily with Fan Fan but looking this way from time to time, a thought actually flashed through his mind: "Yes, if I It’s fine if you like him, it’s not so sad.”

His swaying was simple and clear, he was reluctant, and forced himself to sever the connection.

If he could fall in love with Ji Xiao, would he still be in such pain?

What is the gap in my heart, is it Ji Xiao, or the same sex?If the latter, why not?

Chu Lan patted her forehead, feeling that if she couldn't figure it out in this life, she would be troubled to death.The answer is ready to come out, he no longer has a reason to be buried in the desert and pretend to be deaf and dumb, it seems that there is only one choice left for Ji Xiao at that time.

He really needs time to accept the truth.

Ji Xiao stayed in the hospital for five days, during which almost every afternoon, he greeted Chu Lan on time after a short lunch break.Sometimes Fan Fan would come and bring him fruit, and then eat it by himself while chatting.

Chu Lan always doesn't speak, and starts looking at her phone as soon as she sits there.He didn't mention Ji Xiao's failed confession before, and he didn't say why he came here, as if he changed his mobile phone in another place, with 12 points of casualness.

Ji Xiao didn't know what Chu Lan meant at all, so he could only find something to say, and he was left in the cold every time.

One time when Fan Fan was away, Ji Xiao had trouble getting up by himself, and desperately tried to call Chu Lan to hand him water, but the other party didn't say a word of nonsense, and brought him a cup of hot water to feed him—Ji Xiao was flattered, and then Chu Lan Lan choked on water, threw up on the bed, and wet Chu Lan's clothes.

Later, practice makes perfect, but I realized what Chu Lan meant when he said "I don't know how to take care of people".He was in real pain and joy, and felt that it was not a bad thing for his parents to ignore him and his family to ignore him. He wished he could stay in the hospital for a few more days.

It's a pity that things backfired, appendicitis is not a serious illness, and Ji Xiao always has to be discharged from the hospital.And once he was discharged from the hospital, he had to face another heavy event——

The college entrance examination results came out.

The author has something to say:

The experience of the male protagonist in this article is actually based on a pair of good friends of mine =-=

The cities and schools involved are all from actual sources, but you can just take a look and don’t oversubstitute