beggar anecdote

"Anecdotes of Beggars" Author: Ming Hao / July and a half [Author's Revised Edition]

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Self-report of a perverted autistic patient who had been hiding for many years after being caught.

CP: A perverted autistic patient who is only dominant to Ning Ye, a "good guy" who is inconsequential and harmless to humans and animals

Content tags: broken mirror reunited with a soft spot

Search keywords: protagonists: Jiang Ke, Ning Ye┃Others: waiting

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Ning Ye may have discovered something, but I don't know what it is, after all, what have I done...

Sorry, there are so many, it's hard for me to determine which one it is.

Let me guess, it's probably caused by that old box.

Ning Ye called them rubbish, I didn't comment on this, and for the first time I didn't obediently agree with him.

Ning Ye said many times to throw away that pile of "garbage", I laughed, but never did it.I think he's angry, but there's really nothing I can do about it.

Ning Ye is not a curious person, and has no interest in other people's privacy. No one knows this person's indifference better than me.This realization frustrates me, and for so many years, I was just a human being.

I have never objected to Ning Ye, since he didn't know me, I thought affectionately, if this person asks me what I want, I must give it to him even if he kills and sets fire to him.Facts have proved that Ning Ye is a normal person in this respect. He neither wants the stars in the sky nor anyone's eyeballs. This has allowed me to stay safely outside the police station so far.

If my guess is correct, then I really don't know whether to be happy or sad.

The good news is that maybe I am finally far away from "others", and Ning Ye can condescend to take a look at my pile of things he called "garbage", at least it proves that our relationship has gone further.What is worrying is that I am farther away from "others", and in his eyes, I guess I am closer to psychosis.

But Ning Ye, don't be afraid of me, I have to tell you in advance, so I will really be sad.

If you don't mind, I'd be happy to tell you about me.

August 01, XX8

The first time I saw Ning Ye was in Bazi Village under Qingfeng Town, or more specifically, by the small pond in Bazi Village.Banana leaves with a width of two people block the scorching sun. At two or three o'clock in the afternoon, no parent will let the children out to hang out, let alone by the pond with a high level of danger.

Except me, of course.

Aunt Li always said that I was a poor child, that my mother had run away, and that my father was still a good-for-nothing. After telling these clichés that had been repeated thousands of times, she sighed in a prolonged tone: Poor!

But if you are pitiful, there are still principles. Aunt Li never lets her grandson Erpang play with me.Of course it's not just Er Fat.People in Bazi Village regard my house as a nest of snakes, scorpions and rats, so everyone hates me as a person who came out of the den.

Although this snake, scorpion and rat den is the only three-story building in the whole village.

In short, it was on such a scorchingly hot afternoon that I met Ning Ye and a bunch of children with Ning Ye.

I know all the children in the village. In the past, this group of children would sneak up on me to play. Although I would be beaten up when I went back, whoever made me the most versatile and daring, could play with everything.

The days like this are not too long. After witnessing my beating, no one dared to come to play with me.

It is not uncommon to be beaten, and any boy in Bazi Village will cry for his father and mother every day or two.

It is not uncommon to be beaten with blood all over the head.

But this is nothing unusual to me.

The aunt and aunt also saved a lot of effort, and the children didn't dare to come to me without saying hello.I enjoy myself, and I don't care if there are people.

As everyone said, my dad is a lunatic, so don't get involved.

So I immediately saw that Ning Ye was a new face.

I am very glad that Aunt Li likes to talk about other people's parents in front of me. After all, I am a seven-year-old child who probably doesn't understand anything in her eyes.

To be honest, I don't know if I understand it, but her jealous and envious face has become a template for me to observe others in the future.No matter how calm the person is, I can see Aunt Li's shadow in it, which is really a good thing.

What was she talking about, the girl from the Liu family who came back from the big city brought a son back, and she didn't know who the father was. Judging by the appearance of her and the baby, the man should be rich.

The sun was so hot that one could hardly keep one's eyes open.A group of children walked slowly along the path.

While soaking my feet in the warm water, I looked at the anxious puppy.I don’t know if it’s true that the dog jumps over the wall in a hurry, but it must be true that the dog bites people in a hurry.After a while, the group of children dispersed, chattering and running back.

I don't know which family's adults roared, and there was a clear cry.As soon as I heard it, I knew it was Er Fatty. He cried the most and his voice was the loudest. The cry before crying must have been howling dryly.Crying is brewing too.

I waited for a while, and when I saw that the person walked almost the same way, I went to the puppy barefoot.

There are so many native dogs in the country. No one wants a bitch to give birth to a cub. After weaning, they are put on the side of the road to fend for themselves.

This dog is really ugly.I curled my lips, satisfied my curiosity, and planned to go back.

After walking a few steps, he found that the dog followed him.I hugged the dog and walked under the banana leaf. No one knows that I like dogs, even if it is an ugly dog.

I'm not afraid of getting dirty, so I don't feel awkward at all holding an ugly dog ​​wrapped in something.

Then Ning Ye appeared.I've thought about it countless times.Ning Ye, you came here by yourself.

"Why isn't it afraid of you?" The voice was a little envious.

It smells the same.I hugged the puppy tightly, Ning Ye really shouldn't stand with me in this white dress.I guess no one has told him about my story yet.

"It's so dirty, let's give it a bath." Ning Ye was indifferent, gentle and polite.I have to say that Ning Ye's skill has deceived too many people, and even I didn't see through this person's true colors until a long time later.

I accidentally put the ugly dog ​​into the water, and the dog jumped into the water, splashing water all over me.

"Hahaha!" Ning Ye didn't know what kind of joke he was poking at, so he laughed so hard that he couldn't straighten up.

Seeing that he had laughed enough, I asked him to help grab the ugly dog ​​by the neck.The fur was wet and sticky to the body, this ugly dog ​​perfectly interpreted what is called ugliest but uglier.

"Little cutie." I don't know how much conscience I have to say these three words, but Ning Ye did say it without being popular or ashamed.

"Clown dog." I muttered.

"White dog? Seeing how dirty you are, I thought you were a greyhound." Ning Ye looked and looked at it in a fuss. I felt that this person was ignorant and didn't want to say anything.

"Do you want to raise it?" Ning Ye asked.

Of course I want to keep it. If my dad doesn't kill me, he won't kill him either.

"Need to raise." I accidentally did the second uncontrollable thing today, and spit out two words from my mouth.

"Thank you." I have never seen such a polite child, what's more, this thank you is really nonsensical, why do you thank me for raising it.

Ning Ye seemed to have put an end to something on his mind. After taking a bath, he looked at the ugly dog ​​again and again, and finally left reluctantly.

Looking at the little man in white clothes, I felt for the first time that Aunt Li was right about one thing, she really looked like a wealthy child.

I brought the ugly dog ​​home, and when its fur dried, I realized that it was not as ugly as before, but the place where the fur had fallen out on its back was abrupt and hideous, and it was still an ugly dog ​​after all.

As expected, I received a severe beating, and my crazy father said that I couldn't support myself and wanted to have an ugly dog.

I am very pleased that my dad and I can have a consensus.Ning Ye, this is indeed an ugly dog.

I didn't say a word, just endured a lot of punching and kicking.In fact, even without the dog, I couldn't avoid the beating. The dog just gave him an excuse.

Fortunately, the beating was not in vain, and the ugly dog ​​stayed.I think it's worth it.

You see, back then I was able to add value to my lunatic father's violent storm just because of Ning Ye's words.

I carried the dog back to my kennel, and it was really a kennel now.

I don't think the dog is dirty, and now it is still white.For the first time, I thought I was dirty.

I was wearing a khaki short-sleeve with ripped seams, a pair of blue half-length trousers that were half-black, and a pair of sandals with one heel worn off.The tips of the toe nails are all pitch black. If I lift up my clothes, I know that the skin is also pitch black.

I fetched water, and one person and one dog stood by the dam to take a bath.At this time, my lunatic father was already drunk and unconscious, so I don't have to be afraid of his sudden violent beating.

I washed it hard, and after washing, I rubbed the clothes that I hadn't changed in half a month.

After washing, I rummaged through my few clothes naked, and finally found a white one.When I changed into clean clothes, I remembered the white clothes in the afternoon, or the person in the white clothes.

I don't know how to act like a fool, but my yellowed white clothes make me angry.I tore off my clothes, threw them on the ground and stomped on them a few times, and let the ugly dog ​​pull them to make a nest.

Ning Ye asked me why I didn't wear white clothes, but I smiled and didn't answer.That anger came for no reason, I don't know how to say it, I never admit that it is inferiority, in front of Ning Ye, I have no self-esteem at all, so why should I be inferior.

August 01, XX8

I haven't seen Ning Ye for six days.

I guess someone has already popularized my deeds for him.That was kind of bad, but it was okay.If this is the case, it is normal not to see other people, and he will probably take a detour when he sees me.

Of course, this is just one of guesses, I have to say there is another situation that I am more unwilling to face.

Maybe he just went to the countryside to visit relatives during the summer vacation, and he has been back to the big city in the past two days, after all, he does look like a city dweller.

I am more anxious than ever.Sitting under the banana leaf with the ugly dog ​​all day long, I went to bathe the ugly dog ​​while sitting, and then I thought of Ning Ye again.This cycle of days was hard, but it didn't take long for me to get used to it.

I am the best at waiting in my life.

At that time, I admitted that I never cared whether others would pay attention to me, and my heart was a little shaken.I hope that at least Ning Ye can still remember this ugly dog, and by the way, he can also remember me.

Look, I never had too high demands on Ning Ye, just like the beginning.

But Ning Ye finally let me down.

I sat under the banana leaves all day, and I never met Ning Ye again.I began to believe in the second guess, comforting myself that maybe I could see you again next year, or maybe I had already forgotten about him next year, which was better than the complicated mood now.

I was really disappointed, this kind of disappointment was the first time since my crazy father went bankrupt and went to the countryside, and he didn't even know that I wasn't in the car.

I still like to bathe ugly dogs, and because of the mutilated white hair, I also like to bathe myself.I think this is the only benefit Ning Ye brought me from the first meeting, of course, there are more disadvantages.

The last thing I should have done was to be too self-indulgent towards Ning Ye.It was a long time later that I discovered that Ning Ye was indeed a person who was really duplicity. Unfortunately, I couldn't see it earlier. It's useless for a terminally ill person to say anything.

August 01, XX10

When I saw that figure, I finally breathed a sigh of relief.

I reported it with the hundreds of dollars I finally got.The lunatic father was quite measured this time, at least he couldn't tell that he was beaten badly just yesterday with his clothes on.

The second grade classes are all on the same floor, and I saw Ning Ye standing at the door without any difficulty.I can't remember what that woman looked like, but the scene of the woman who was out of place in our place holding the child really left a deep impression on me.

That woman is Ning Ye's mother.

Ning Ye was transferred to class two, unfortunately, I was in class one.

Soon I was relieved, there are three primary schools in Qingfeng Town, and we are in at least one school.As long as I work hard, I can see him at least once a day on the balcony, once in the toilet, once on the playground, and if I'm lucky, once in the office.

I don't understand why I saw Ning Ye, I just did it myself.

A week's practice has proved that Ning Ye doesn't like to appear on the balcony, and he rarely appears in the toilet. I once suspected that he would only go to the toilet when he was home.But it doesn't matter, I soon discovered that Ning Ye is not only the leader among the classmates, but also the teacher's darling.

I started to appear in the office frequently, either asking questions or holding homework.I think that was the most gratifying period for the head teacher. She once suspected that I had mild autism, which in turn dispelled the unrealistic thoughts she had for some reason.

Contrary to my silent and introverted image, I even volunteered to be the representative of the Chinese class when I was selecting a class cadre, and the class teacher naturally liked it.

This class with the most affairs gave me countless opportunities to enter the office openly, and I could pass Ning Ye openly.

As a result of this, I quickly learned that I was wishful thinking.

Ning Ye has long forgotten me, or never remembered me at all.That's right, I found out what his name is, where he lives, and who his friends are now. It doesn't mean that he will know me, or remember me.He doesn't even remember me.The guy who bathed an ugly dog ​​with him.

The earlier imaginations were really all fantasies.I even suspected that the person who smiled and said thank you that day was simply my illusion.I think of Ning Ye too well.

I'm pretty sure he didn't know my name until seven years had passed.It doesn't matter, as I said, I'm the best at waiting.

August 04, XX10

Ning Ye mixed well.

This is my gratifying conclusion after three years of observation.

I am still conscientiously adhering to the career of my Chinese class representative. He has risen steadily from group leader, class leader, squadron leader, and team leader to become the darling of the new class of teachers and the leader of the new round of classmates.

This result made me refuse without hesitation to many positions that were about to be promoted.

Because Ning Ye came in and out of the office more frequently, and the representative of the Chinese class always kept the number one in and out of the office in each class.

I never find unnecessary tiring things for myself to do, so even though I affirmed that Ning Ye is doing well, it is definitely not my pursuit, and I don't have the slightest envy.The Chinese class representatives are very good.

In fact, I have nothing to pursue, except for trying my best to catch a glimpse of Ning Ye.

I think if Ning Ye looked at the box carefully, it would not be difficult to find something.

That captain's badge should be one of the best things I keep.Ning Ye definitely didn't know that on this day, he wrote the first self-criticism in his life because he lost the captain's badge, but I was actually half responsible.

If Ning Ye can still remember, then I don't mind apologizing here. Apologizing doesn't take much effort after all. If it can solve the problem, I'm happy.

But I want to make it clear that I absolutely did not mean to steal that badge by saying this, at most I just picked it up and didn't return it.

Ning Ye made me believe that in this world, no matter how well you do it, it is impossible to satisfy everyone.

As the team leader, Ning Ye resolved a dispute among the seniors impartially.

I watched the dispute caused by not wearing the red scarf as required, which triggered a rights defense movement for civilian students who were seriously dissatisfied with the privileged class.

Just because I say I'm half-responsible doesn't mean I'm taking part in activities that I find boring even as a schoolboy.

Thanks to Ning Ye, I learned many secrets from the toilet in those years.Just to not miss Ning Ye, even if I was able to enter the school toilet once because of urgency, I insisted on becoming a frequent visitor to the toilet.

I don't understand why elementary school kids like to share their little secrets in the bathroom.Such as stealing plums from Erpang’s house after school, Li Jun’s homework that he couldn’t find was actually squatting in the last seat in the toilet, Teacher Liu’s appointment of Wang Xiaomei as a shift cadre was actually because she took a few bottles of wine from her house, and so on, too many to list.

But I still thank you all for having such a good habit.I have received a total of two valuable news from the toilet, one of which is the protagonist of the just-resolved dispute, the planned power-seizure movement.

When Ning Ye was being scolded for losing the captain's armband, I happened to go to the office to pick up my homework.

Wearing a blue short sleeve, he sincerely apologized to the teacher and promised that this kind of situation would not happen again, and finally even offered to write a self-criticism.

He was the teacher's favorite, not to mention that the teacher seemed to be pretending to punish him.I shook my head and left with my homework in my arms, ignoring a few heads poking around the office door.

See, just a small conversation with a teacher can mobilize a large number of people to escort them.

I heard the people behind me laugh indifferently, saying that the teacher is very good, just to write a review.

The voices of panic and yelling came and went, making Ning Ye feel aggrieved.I walked away quickly, feeling very boring, just talking about a fart.

I came home very late that night, and the ugly dog ​​was waiting for me at the intersection wagging its tail. I guess I came back too late and was hungry.

Thankfully, my crazy dad wouldn't hit me even if I didn't come home all night.Of course, this is not because of his conscience, he found that children should not be educated in this way.He just seldom returns to this three-story bungalow, so that he doesn't care about beating me.

I waited for the two senior students at the school gate. After school at 04:30, I didn't see them until 05:30.I don't care how long, as long as I wait.

I followed them to the black Internet cafe, and the armband representing rights was taken out to show off in the smog.

My thin, chronically malnourished frame gave me good cover, and I stood in the corner watching the armband pass from hand to hand.

Finally, the temptation of the game surpassed this lifeless thing that no one wears.

I took the armband and left the Internet cafe calmly.Fortunately, no one found out.

I told myself that even if I don't take it, tomorrow it will only appear in the corner of a certain paddy field, next to a certain trash can, or in a certain squatting position in that toilet full of secrets.

You see, Ning Ye, I can only bear half of the responsibility. Even if the armband is still kept with me, it cannot be entirely blamed on me.

Of course, what I prefer to believe is that Ning Ye actually forgot about it after writing the review.That is more in line with his heartless nature.

August 04, XX11

There is actually nothing to mention about this matter, but I am a person who starts well and ends well. If you saw the armband, you must have seen the review as well.And I guess, armbands may not be enough to remind you of this old past. If it weren't for that well-organized review, you probably wouldn't be able to recall such a thing back then.

Yes, not long after this incident, I saw that review letter on the teacher's desk, which can definitely be called a model for elementary school students.

The day before, when I entered the office, the head teacher was talking to the teacher who was holding the review book, saying that he was going to read the review to the class.

I don't think this is an honor at all, but I am very relieved. Look, Ning Ye can even use the self-criticism as a model.I was strangely excited, and hoped to hear someone else read the review for no reason.It is undeniable that I was excited with a bit of a naughty taste.

But the teacher in charge let me down.

I didn't wait for the review until I saw it again, it was pressed under a pile of chalk boxes mercilessly.

I can't stand being treated so roughly today that was held up as a model yesterday.This reminds me of Ning Ye, but how could such a thing happen to Ning Ye?

As you can imagine later, it was comfortably lying in my baby box with that armband.

This matter made me observe the atmosphere in the office for several days with trepidation.

Very well, no one cared about the disappearance of the review paper that was pressed under the chalk box.Although they had heatedly discussed whether to take it to the class as a model.

It made me a little bit annoyed, sure enough, they were all talkative guys.

I really shouldn't be so angry, but I'm always easy to forgive the idiotic mistakes I made when I was young. Who hasn't made mistakes?

Ning Ye has done so many things that are not what he appears to be, and I forgive him differently. Being strict with yourself and being lenient to others is the law of a saint. I have this awareness, and I think I should be more tolerant to myself.

August 05, XX1

Bazi Village is small, so when a stranger comes, the whole village knows about it.What's more, that stranger drove a luxurious car that even the town had never seen before.

I've seen that car before my crazy dad had a car with the same logo before he went bankrupt.As far as I can remember, I've only been in this car once.

Usually only when a more beautiful car appears, I will pull out the car for a walk. A few days before I returned to Bazi Village, my crazy father let me sit in the back seat for the first time, but after that, I never saw him again. Pass that car.

When this car appeared, I had a hunch that it was not a good thing.

It turns out that sometimes a woman's intuition is not the only one that is accurate.

Ning Ye, who seldom walked around Bazi Village, got into the car with his beautiful mother, and roared away from a group of onlookers.

Aunt Li played her intelligence role again after many years.

The girl from the Wang family has lived in this village for several years before a man appears. Which rich man can endure it for so long? Look at Jiang Ke, his lunatic father has two dollars, so he looks chic every day. I see, she is a man There may be a few people hiding outside.

Of course I don't mind if Aunt Li is right or not, but it's really not representative to use my dad as an example.I have always known that there are not many people who are similar to my dad in the crowd, so I will not believe what she said.

There is only one thing I have to believe.

The person who came to pick Ning Ye up was probably his father whom I had never met before.

I sat nervously under the banana leaf.It's a good place in summer, but not in winter.

That afternoon was really difficult. From one o'clock to six o'clock, I didn't move anywhere. I couldn't even bear the ugly dog ​​that was entrenched on the side at the beginning, so I still waited there.

It was already dark.As soon as a car's lights come on, I straighten up and watch with bated breath the signs it reveals as it passes.

I was disappointed not many times, and there were not many cars in Bazi Village.

It wasn't until the ugly dog ​​appeared in front of me again that I realized that it was very late, and even the dog couldn't help but want to eat.

I ignored it and let it sway in front of me, even the usual whispers didn't shake me at all.

I seldom get angry. After all, no one cares about my anger, and being angry is just asking for trouble, but at that moment, I knew that I was just being angry.

It's really boring.Ning Ye never knew that there was a man named Jiang Ke, because he sulked because he didn't come back one night. What's more interesting was that Ning Ye didn't know this man named Jiang Ke at all.

I finally returned disappointed, warmed up the leftovers for the ugly dog, and lay down on the cold bed shivering.

I'm scared.

Something I've always wanted to admit and had to admit is about to happen.

From the first time I saw Ning Ye, I knew that he didn't belong here, it was impossible for him to belong here.

He is leaving.

Ning Ye, you don't know, this makes me despair.

August 05, XX3

The toilet of Wangcai Primary School in Qingfeng Town gave me the last piece of valuable information.

At the beginning of the new semester, I didn't see Ning Ye anywhere, and I vaguely knew that something I was worried about had happened. ,

Over the past few years, the number of times I have seen Ning Ye in Bazi Village can be counted on the fingers, and there is no distance between us from one side of the mountain to the other, and it is even just a few rural houses.I didn't know the reason before, but when I thought about it later, it was inseparable from this rareness that Ning Ye could always maintain the temperament of a handsome young man.

I have to admit that Ning Ye's mother is a far-sighted person, and she has eliminated the possibility of Ning Ye getting all kinds of habits of country children.

Since I was a child, I have always believed in the immortality of the Yellow River. Thanks to my rare good qualities, I did not let Ning Ye go.

I don't believe that Ning Ye is really gone, and the number of times he ran to the office in the first few days of school was more than that of a semester.

God will not ignore anyone who wants an outcome, good or bad.

This time, God gave me a bad result.very bad.

Ning Ye's transfer procedures were not even handled by anyone I knew.When the man in the black suit shook hands with the teacher who had praised Ning Ye countless times, I felt that I had finally reached the Yellow River.

I suspect that I will never see Ning Ye again. The world is so big, where can I find someone.

The words of the ancestors always make sense.The so-called endless road is by no means an excuse for dying people. The perennially stinky men’s toilet at Wangcai Elementary School convinced me of what my ancestors said.

The students in the second class are not indifferent to their excellent monitor, even if their monitor never thought of saying goodbye.From their excited discussion, I know that they have prepared for Ning Ye a classmate list that the other party will never care about, and the city he went to.

I think about it, I was 11 years old this year, and I was already thinking about where I should go in four years.

Why is it four years later? I think, even if I am a child laborer, I must at least have the physique of a high school student.

This is the best result I can think of. As for things like fate, I really don't have much expectation.For so many years, I have never found that this thing favors me even a little bit, so that when he suddenly favors me, I suspect that everything is fake.

Beautiful like a dream.

Believe it or not, Ning Ye, I didn't plan any arrangements before and after that.I was finally grateful for the fate once, and the assist was very powerful.

August 06, XX4

This is a day I don't want to mention.

A lot happened that day, and a lot of people were sad.I was also sad, not because Wang Dahan from the village next door lost his life by burning hornets, nor was it because Uncle Ma in the town broke his leg while repairing a house.

It's just because of an ugly dog ​​that Ning Ye and I bathed together.

The ugly dog ​​beat me twice, once when I brought him back, and once when I brought back his carcass.

Spring is here, I vaguely remember that the ugly dog ​​was still in heat yesterday, and I was kicked out of the house in disgust, but at dinner, I still gave it a bowl of white rice that was exactly the same as mine.

After school that day, when I didn't see it waiting at the door, I didn't take it to heart, wondering which bitch it was hooked again.

This calm only lasted until dinner time.

I have to admit, I take this ugly dog ​​seriously.

It didn't come to me until dinner time, when my weird intuition came back.

The first thing I thought of was Aunt Li. Fortunately, she is a know-it-all.

I got a clear answer.

Your ugly dog?I was hit by a car at noon, and no one picked it up, so Zhao Si picked it up.I also said it belonged to the Jiang family's baby, and he just carried it away without caring.

I can feel the process of my heart slowly sinking, hopeless and angry.

Zhao Si, I know that the only hobby of the bachelors in the village, people in their thirties is drinking and playing cards.The scene of him giving me candy is still vivid, not because of gratitude, but he is the only one who gave me candy.

When I rushed to Zhao Si's bungalow, the earthy wind brought a strong smell of blood, mixed with the peculiar fishy smell of animals.

This is really an unbearable memory. I have to say that in the days since then, there has never been a time when I was so crazy.Not because I grew up, but there is a despair that makes all suffering fade away.

Chaos is the only word I can describe this memory.

When I returned home with the pile of stray hairs, the scalped head, and a pile of dog meat that had been cooked, the door was locked from the inside.My crazy dad who didn't go home once in those days is back.

I don't remember if I cried or not, because I really seldom cry. Since I knew that the more I cried, the worse I was beaten, I seldom cried.

But if she wasn't crying, then why Aunt Li would appear at my door doesn't make any sense.

She said that the bitch from Aunt Gong's house next door had another litter, and she would catch another one tomorrow. She said that the dog was already ugly, so she changed it to a beautiful one, and said that a dog couldn't cry so badly.

I think I should have cried and called out the neighbors.

Now that I think about it, she said something wrong, how could I cry so badly after my father died.

I knew from that moment that some things cannot be replaced.For example, this dog, where can I find another dog that I bathed with Ning Ye when I was seven years old?By the way, it happened to be such an ugly dog.This is really a rare thing.

Then I got hit.Aunt Li couldn't hold back the lunatic father. I'm sure I was crying at this time, but I don't know if it was because of the ugly dog ​​or because of the pain.

I didn't go into the house that night, and slept by the dam all night holding the ugly dog ​​with its dead body in the cold spring.I think it's almost as cool as being in the house.

At daybreak, I went to the orange tree in the back mountain and dug a hole. I pulled out the two fangs that the ugly dog ​​was most proud of from the smooth dog's head, and threw the broken body into it.buried.

The ugly dog ​​is gone, but those two teeth are still there.

Ning Ye, if you look through that box carefully, you may find these two very nice canine teeth, if not, it can only mean that you are still not paying attention.But it doesn't matter, this is the only thing related to you that you don't know, it's normal that you don't know.

August 06, XX4

The first time I was hospitalized because of an ugly dog ​​and a crazy dad.The former made me develop pneumonia, and the latter made me need three stitches.

When Ning Ye and I were in bed for the first time, he smiled and asked me how did I get the scar on my ribs, what did I answer?

I forgot, it's not important after all, I always forget the nonsense things in a blink of an eye.

The truth is very simple, but I don't want to tell Ning Ye that my miserable childhood is enough for me to know.Now it seems that I still can't escape the fate I want to say. In fact, it was just because of the struggle between my father and Aunt Li. I was unlucky and bumped into the steps by my crazy father.

The sharp stone made a two-finger wide opening in my particularly obvious ribs.

No one noticed that I was injured, and everyone only heard cursing and crying in the dark night.Even I didn't notice it, the pain all over my body made me ignore the trickle of blood, mixed in the ugly dog's filthy pile of fur, completely ignored.

It wasn't until I passed out in class wearing black short sleeves that my frightened teacher sent me to the hospital.Fever, inflammation, excessive blood loss, malnutrition, and depression that has begun to show signs.The teacher watched over my hospital bed with sympathetic eyes. The two beds next to me were full of elderly people, but no one was accompanying them. I felt strangely comforted.

Although I can't even remember what the teacher's name is now.

The first time I remember seeing the look of remorse on the face of the crazy dad was on the afternoon of the 10th. When the teacher tried his best to contact him, he was killing all directions at the poker table.

By the way, the reason I say remember is because I'm not sure if he ever had this rare look when I don't remember.

I was admitted to the hospital at noon on the 9th and was discharged on the afternoon of the 11th. It felt like a century had passed.

August 06, XX7

The time to leave Bazi Village came a little earlier.

For the first time, I felt that having a crazy father was not so bad. He still remembered to take me with him when he left, and generously let me go to City C together.This flattered me, who only needs tuition and necessary living expenses to have a vague sense of existence, and let me know that my crazy father still remembered that he had a son.

I think I need to defend my crazy dad.Crazy dad is certainly not crazy, I believe he is smarter than most people.A shrewd man is somewhat idiosyncratic, and I can only attribute his irascible temperament to this.

My few memories outside of Bazi village are not bad.Although my so-called parents rarely see each other for a few days, that doesn't prevent me from living a good life.Crazy dad has enough money to find a nanny for his wife and children.

This kind of life didn't last long, and soon I found that my home was getting more and more empty, until one day my mother finally disappeared, and I got in the car and left the villa where I had lived for four years.

Ever since the lunatic father gradually stopped coming home, I had a hunch that the days to stay here would not be long.There are many opportunities for a comeback, not to mention that he is such a sophisticated and tactful person who can afford to take things up and down.