beggar anecdote

A shrewd man.

I vaguely knew the truth about the bankruptcy back then. I was not very popular. The accident in the mine made me, a red-eyed father, suffer a lot. I worked hard to save my savings for many years and made up for the compensation of dozens of people. Another layer of skin had to be peeled off.

People always said my mother was a whore. I didn't know what that meant at the time, and I knew it was not a good thing, but I never denied it.

I admit that my mother, who I don't even remember what she looks like, is not a good person. Not to mention that she ran away with the only valuable business in the family in the end, even the behavior of not staying at home all year round is enough for everyone to judge and think about it for a long time.

Looking back now, it really feels like a lifetime away. In my short age, with Bazi Village as the boundary, I seem to have lived more than three lifetimes.

Of course, Ning Ye is the one who deserves the most credit. I think if it wasn't for Ning Ye's existence, it would be difficult for me to fully and firmly record this not-so-glorious half of my life.

After this day, before this is no longer important.I am very happy that Ning Ye will appear in my world.

In City C, I learned about Ning Ye's last whereabouts from the toilet of Wangcai Primary School in Qingfeng Town.And I'm about to go to the same place as him.

August 06, XX9

I looked at the person in the mirror for a long time.The slightly too long bangs covered half of the forehead, the overly pale skin revealed a morbid weakness, and the brand new clothes were not suitable for the thin figure.

this is me?

I seldom look at my own face carefully, so that when I face the person who can see everything in front of the floor-to-ceiling mirror, I am suddenly stunned.

The clothes were newly bought in City C.Maybe it was my miserable appearance on the hospital bed, which aroused my so-called father's weak conscience, and finally remembered that he was still the father of a poor son.

He is not short of money now, allowing me to live in a clean and spacious house, wear brand new clothes, and to a certain extent, allow me to choose a school by myself.

To a certain extent, it can only be to a certain extent, and a good school has to rely on itself.

My poor father has never cared about my studies. The matter of choosing a school has exhausted all his care for his son in the past few years, and it will soon be revealed.

My dad was furious at my nonchalant rejection of schools that would get me in if they had the money.I'm pretty adamant about it, I gotta go to good schools.

With my plan two months ago, the question of which school to go to would never have occurred to me, but now everything is different.I have to go to a good school. From what I know about Ning Ye, the school he will go to is definitely not among the bunch of schools my father listed for me.

However, City C is so big and has so many schools, that soon I almost gave up the idea of ​​meeting Ning Ye in so many schools. Fortunately, I am not only good at waiting, but also love dying.

Under the impatient guidance of my lunatic father, I went to a few good schools in City C. After the written test and interview, I still had two choices.

This result surprised my lunatic father, who rarely showed a little surprise.He may not have thought that his gloomy son's head is still flexible, and of course he may be glad that my head has not been hit by him.

All in all, I cherish these two opportunities very much. I use my not-so-well-developed thinking to analyze the advantages and disadvantages of schools in many aspects. In addition, I have the awareness of empathy and imagine the school Ning Ye might go to. Finally, I was right.

Seeing the red list of new students' placement information, I finally let go of my nervousness for several days.

There is nothing more pleasurable than the satisfaction of having worked hard.I didn't even think about the possibility of the same name and surname. The appearance of the two big characters Ning Ye made me sure that it was that person.

I sat quietly in the classroom of Class 3, Grade [-], nervously paying attention to the figures passing by outside the window.

It's a pity that I couldn't be in the same class as Ning Ye in elementary school. This time I still passed by, but the current situation is enough to make me grateful. Compared with the three elementary schools in Qingfeng Town, City C may have more than [-] middle schools.

After a year and a half of reunion, I feel that every second is slowing down.

Ning Ye has grown taller, and he is not surrounded by those children in Qingfeng Town who are discussing how to send their classmate records to him.

I couldn't help but sigh happily that Ning Ye's undiminished charm really attracts a large number of people to follow wherever he goes.

A few people laughed and entered the next classroom, and I reluctantly looked away.The same is only separated by a wall, and the same encounter does not know each other.

After a long difficult day, this school, which I had chosen thousands of times, finally gave me some sweetness.

After everyone in the classroom had gone out, I slowly got up and left.I am often grateful for my unsociality, which often brings me unexpected good luck, although sometimes it is only a trivial touch, which is enough for me to recollect.

People from class four came out one after another, but I stopped at the door.

Ning Ye was wearing white short sleeves and black trousers. His slightly taller figure than his peers was particularly eye-catching, not to mention that he was already so dazzling.

A bunch of people I made friends with in a short time walked past me like no one else.I smiled and followed them downstairs slowly.

Standing behind Ning Ye, who was short even compared to his peers, was even more incomparable. This made me a little sad, and it was the first time I thought about physical problems.

You see, Ning Ye can also bring some good changes to me to a certain extent. At least after many years, I will have a good figure that can look at the same level as Ning Ye.

Good things can easily come in pairs.The team with only two rows in a class surprised me again.

Ning Ye, who stood at the end of the line, and I, who could only stand at the end after arriving late, were separated by an aisle that was only one person wide.

It was sweet torture.

I am so close to you, yet so far away.

August 06, XX10

The monthly exams come and go quickly.I have always been a person who can keep things simple, so when I saw the title of the paper appearing in an unbelievably simple form, I chose to be as low-key as possible.

However, I soon reaped the consequences.But that's all for later. After the exam, my attention was already attracted by the first time I heard about the class basketball game.

Ever since I found out about this, I felt very uncomfortable, but after a year and a half, Ning Ye was no longer exactly what I remembered, which made me both annoyed and powerless.

When Ning Ye contacted the monitor of Class 3, oh, my class, as the class monitor and the captain of the class basketball team, and expressed his hope for a friendly match, I couldn't describe my shock.Judging from my close attention to Ning Ye, before he left Qingfeng Town, he definitely didn't know how to play basketball.

This fact that I don't want to admit made me have to believe it later on the court.

Ning Ye on the court was very different from usual.

Zhang Yang wanton, swift and fierce, shed the layer of deliberate gentleness and politeness, this kind of Ning Ye is really fascinating.

I am obsessed with everything about Ning Ye, but I can't stop him from attracting other people. I used to be proud of this charm as Ning Ye's added value, but at this time, I have already begun to have a desire for monopoly.

Not strong, but enough to make me feel it.

I wish he was mine alone.Once this feeling pops up, it's hard to suppress.

After the game, Ning Ye was a personable and good squad leader. He not only invited his teammates and students who volunteered to be cheerleaders to drink at his own expense, but also contracted with his opponents from class 3.

I stood under the shade of a tree and watched Ning Ye circling among the crowd, his relentless smile dazzled me.

When my good monitor came over with a bottle of water, I didn't pay attention, or rather, I didn't want to pay attention at all.But even though I'm lonely, I don't want to be isolated.A lonely person can be ignored, but an isolated person can definitely steal the show.

I have to choose my gregariousness wisely.

Besides, this is the water Ning Ye bought.

I politely accept and thank you.My enthusiastic monitor seemed satisfied with my performance and encouraged me to participate in class activities.

I am very grateful to the class monitor for his misunderstanding. Unfortunately, if it wasn't for Ning Ye, I don't think I would have the slightest interest in this basketball game.If misunderstandings can make people feel comfortable, then why not.In the subsequent cross-class activities, the misunderstanding of the monitor continued. Of course I was happy to see the results, which made me seem normal.

This is not a secret, and it doesn't make much sense to say it here. I believe that even if the squad leader knows, he will probably just smile in relief.

Unlike me and Ning Ye, the squad leader is a sincere person. If possible, I hope he never knows.

August 06, XX11

The so-called self-eating is just my one-sided idea.No one cares about what kind of grades a withdrawn and indifferent classmate got, not even my dad thought about asking.The former is because it is unnecessary, and the latter is because it is too ignorant.My confident father probably thought that I would be able to get into Q University after entering the No. [-] Middle School.

In any case, I didn't care much about the monthly exam results and finally regretted it in the midterm exam.

Attached No. [-] Middle School did not fully implement the requirements of the Ministry of Education, and adopted a ranking examination system very rampantly.

Sigh, what a good policy this is, it is definitely an excellent opportunity for me who always hopes to create some opportunities to get along with Ning Ye.Of course, this is limited to the countless large and small exams in the next three years, excluding the midterm exam in the first semester of the first year of junior high school, which I regret so much.

I didn't write the last math question, and I only wrote half of the Chinese composition. Unfortunately, I will be stuck in the 31st place.

How should I describe my mood when I knew the layout of the midterm examination room?

This is an uncomfortable question.I think anyone who has accidentally eaten shit can understand.

I sat in the first seat of the second examination room, imagining what Ning Ye would look like sitting in my position in the first examination room with great curiosity.

But this is bound to be an endless question, and when I can see what he looks like, I want to know more than that.In the past, I thought that I would be satisfied if I could see his posture when he was writing a boring Chinese composition. Later, I could even see at a glance that he was laughing at any question in his heart, which was not enough.

I have to admit that I am a greedy person.

The first Waterloo didn't take me too long.I think I have become the person who loves exams most in school. In addition to the monthly exam, I wish I could have a weekly exam. If there is a daily exam, I will be even happier.

But obviously this is impractical, and no school can stand such a toss.Fortunately, I didn't force it.

I adjusted my strategy and calculated the seats in the examination room for the ranking.

If Ning Ye can maintain his grades stably, of course, this problem has been proved to be unnecessary to worry about in countless exams afterwards, he is the most stable factor in my plan.Many times, I just need to be aware of my variables.

Judging from the arrangement headed by Ning Ye, my best position is [-]th or [-]th, right behind Ning Ye. If it is [-]th, I can only sit side by side. This is obviously not the best position. , Looking sideways at people can easily give the invigilator the illusion of cheating.Even though Ning Ye might not care that a person who watched him frequently was punished as a cheater, I still have to consider the subsequent impact of this issue.

Of course, I can't run in front of Ning Ye, I believe Ning Ye has no interest in the back of my head.

Next, I have to think about how to control the ranking of the exam.This is a nerve-wracking question. I can choose not to do the questions, so as not to let myself become a sharp-edged person, or I can go all out to understand my limits. Belongs to simple tasks.

Is there anything in this world more unpredictable than the human heart?Who knows which unlucky ghost got the wrong question and accidentally fell out of the top ten, or which dark horse happened to have a question that happened to appear on the test paper and would make him break into the top three, and the thirteen or ten I was looking for so hard? Four, if you don't pay attention, you will become twelve or fifteen.Of course, this is still a good situation, and who knows if I misjudged the teachers’ thinking in grading, or if the teacher who graded the paper happened to be displeased with my carefully thought-out answer, and gave me a big red cross, Let me get out of the first examination room?

This is really an unacceptable degree.

It is a huge pity that the teachers did not ask me to analyze the grades.

No one knows better than me the fluctuations in the grades of the top [-] students, the gap between the grades of the top [-] students, and the analysis of the change of ownership of the top [-] students.

That's right, I have adopted the most stupid method to achieve my goal. Knowing yourself and the enemy can win a hundred battles, and the ancestors once again proved that their wisdom is the crystallization of thousands of years.

There are occasional mistakes, but I'm pretty accurate.

I didn't expect Ning Ye to find out that the position on his back side has been occupied by the same person all year round.For all the exams before the third grade, I just watched him walk up to me confidently, and then walk out of my sight calmly.

August 08, XX7

I rarely doubt my patience, thanks to Ning Ye, he always has the opportunity to prove to me that what I see now is never worth paying too much attention to.You don't know what "surprise" he can give you next moment

Patience, whose patience is not forced out.

During the two years from the first grade to the third grade, I dutifully watched Ning Ye's every move as a bystander.

The past two years have not been easy.If a person who is already too glamorous doesn't want to hide it at all, he will definitely become the most attention-grabbing person.

Soon I realized that Ning Ye became that person.

In the past, I always thought that Ning Ye was the darling of the heavens. Even a person like me who despises everything can be infatuated, so who else can escape his obsession.

That's how confident I am. Also, for Ning Ye, I never lack confidence.

From very early on, I didn't need to inquire about Ning Ye's news.There are endless rumors and gossip.

The bullies were discussing which subject Ning Ye from the next class got full marks in this exam, the scumbags made a few three-pointers in the game against Ning Ye, and there was endless chatter about who was better than Ning Ye It looks good, or Ning Ye picked up the mineral water from someone at the stadium.And so on, half-truths, half-false.I'm happy to hear that, Ning Ye, oh Ning Ye, look how nice you are, who doesn't like you?

But I was in endless pain.

I know very well that if this continues, I will not come any closer.The more time passes, the farther away I will be.My persistence has become ridiculous.

No one is going to pay for an unrelated person's self-righteous payment.

Ning Ye lives wantonly in his glamorous world.While I spurned myself, I stared uncontrollably at the same time.

It finally made me feel that Li Ningye's chance to take a step closer ended in the second year of junior high school.

Ning Ye's resignation exhibition caused a sensation in the whole Attached No. [-] Middle School.Of course, judging from the later impact, it is not just attached to the First Middle School.

It has nothing to do with winning or losing, and it has nothing to do with football skills. Ning Ye became popular in C city junior high school because of a premature girl Huaichun.

I am standing opposite Ning Ye's favorite No. [-] court, leaning on the osmanthus tree that I have leaned against countless times in the past two years. This is my favorite viewing spot for the past two years. Ning Ye once threw a ball and it rolled straight to my feet.

I can even recall the Nike logo on his wristband when he beckoned me to throw the ball back.

Still in this position, I witnessed a confession that I didn't know whether to say it was a surprise, a joy or a shock.

That girl is really too bold, I don't think I will be able to do such a thing in my life.Compared to making announcements with gongs and drums, I think I am more suitable for calm formation.Of course, it turned out that Ning Ye didn't like the former too much.

At the end of the game, I was still glad that no one went up to deliver water today, but the sound of the radio broke this ridiculous idea.

I immediately raised my eyes to see the person who was receiving the towel from the classmate.

If I read correctly, it was the first time I saw a disgusted expression on Ning Ye's face.

"Ning Ye from Class [-] of the second year, I'm XXX from Class [-], first of all congratulations on winning today's competition, I guess you already know what I want to say..."

I didn't pay attention to what the radio said, and panicked over my discovery.

Ning Ye quickly responded to everyone's shouts with a smile, and returned to the classroom as if nothing had happened.

But it's clearly not the end of the story.

I can imagine Ning Ye's annoyance when surrounded by a bunch of girls, forbearance and headache.With a calm face, it is estimated that he has already planned to face the teacher's remarks.

When the Lord appeared, all the boys looked on with an expression of watching the show, except me of course, except for the shock caused by the previous glance, I was considered angry.As for the girls, I can't describe them very well. In fact, once the girl who disgusted me so much appeared, I didn't care about other people.

It was really a wonderful confession, it was widely publicized and blocked, but it touched Ning Ye's backlash, and it was destined to have no good results.

No matter how upset you are, you won't slap someone in the face. This is Ning Ye's way of life.

I watched him smiling and admonishing the girl who was so annoying to me to study hard, Xiaozhi explained with emotion and reason that he didn't want to fall in love early.

I feel sorry for the school's debate team. Why didn't I catch such a good seed?

The school discipline after the final exam was so loose that even the teacher probably came out to arrest people after watching a good show.

The farce ended without shock and tears, Ning Ye smiled and promised that he would never have any thoughts other than studying, and dismissed the teacher very easily.

I didn't miss the deadpan slack in that last glance.

Ning Ye was tired of acting.

This is an exciting discovery.Now that I think about it, maybe I have to thank this unknown girl who is so good at writing, Ning Ye's mask, for the first time I found a crack.

August 08, XX11

Ning Ye really got to know me at the sports meeting in the third year of junior high school.Seven years after I met him.

If it weren't for the sudden increase in stature, I think this date would have to be postponed.

Ning Ye is a well-rounded person, which is not only reflected in his good brains, popularity, and basketball skills, but also his incredible athletic talent.

Ning Ye is a strange person. When everyone thought he was going to win the sprint championship for a second time, he went to the long-distance running quietly, but when you were lucky that he was good at running, he went to the long jump again.

It is Ning Ye's low-key dissatisfaction that you have to break your self-righteousness.

I groped Ning Ye's sports in the past two years, and guessed that this year it was the turn of the high jump.I can't jump high, but this doesn't affect my desire to apply for this event. After all, it is also a problem to get enough people in the class to participate in the sports meeting.I think I left a deep impression on the monitor again. It's the last year, and Ning Ye probably won't participate in more activities. I think this can be regarded as a gift for the monitor.

Speaking of which, I am really shameless.

Ning Ye did participate in the high jump, and I have some expected regrets. Compared to him, I still hope he goes for long-distance running.Powerful, tenacious, lap after lap on the track for my appreciation.

Ah, what a pity.

The squad leader has several tasks, and I stand in a long line with me to prepare for the game.

Only one person away is Ning Ye.

I was secretly delighted, comparing our heights, the diet and exercise plan I customized was very effective, and it couldn't compare to Ning Ye's strong body, and the height was not much different.

The person in front was trying to jump, and when he landed, he quickly used his hands to stabilize the wobbly bar. The person standing between me and Ning Ye laughed exaggeratedly, calling people idiots.Ning Ye laughed too, but didn't say anything.

I was in a trance, and I guess I can use a weird way to make people laugh later.

The squad leader was very enthusiastic and explained in my ear how to dance later, I listened casually, and my requirements were not high, as long as I entered the qualifying competition.

I learn now and sell now, Ning Ye is a good teacher, he takes off beautifully and lands cleanly, if my limbs can keep up with the progress of my mind, then it should be fine.

When I heard the squad leader's applause, I knew I was dancing pretty well, and I skipped it.

However, I guess only the referee and the squad leader noticed my vigorous figure. When I turned back to find someone, Ning Ye had already left with that unknown eye-obscuring person.

It's a pity, my vigorous figure is only this time, and the next time I will be in a state of desperation.

It didn't take long for the finals to start, and there were a few more people who came back with Ning Ye. Of course, one can imagine who the majority of the people around the high jump field came for.

Ning Ye took off his bright yellow sports jacket, and a girl took the clothes that he wanted to pass to the boys.It was almost invisible stiffness again, but the person who was good at concealing it immediately adjusted an embarrassed look.

I want to laugh again, once a crack is discovered, there will be flaws everywhere.

The squad leader's popularity is also good, and there are more or less a dozen people in the class.

Very good and lively.

But I'm destined not to belong to this occasion.My high jump star fell on the first jump.I think I should be an unprecedented high jump athlete who was "persecuted" because the opponent was too handsome.

I heard the click of my wrist when it landed, it was crisp and sweet.

Who came to help me first, the monitor or Ning Ye?I can't remember clearly, but selfishness still puts Ning Ye at the front.It was really painful, the wrist bone fell to the ground to support the weight of the whole body falling from a height of more than one meter, and the skin from the neck to the back of the ear was burning with pain.

The girls were stunned. No one cares about Ning Ye's bright yellow sportswear lying on the ground.

I'm an innocent pond fish, but this fire was well lit, it unintentionally forced Ning Ye to come to me.

When I was jumping, because someone suddenly appeared within a safe distance, my very unskilled high jump steps were messed up.

I consider myself a person who can endure pain, but after seeing a few over-excited and then frightened girls approaching me after Ning Ye taught me a lesson, I think it is necessary to put on a show.

It turned out that my affectation was quite unnecessary.

The game was stopped at the beginning of the first day, and for the first time in my life, I received so much attention.But this is not important, Ning Ye is enough to offset all the discomfort and embarrassment.

At that time, I thought that my acting skills were still very successful, because Ning Ye actually carried me to the infirmary with both legs intact.

It was not until a long time later that I learned from Ning Ye that it wasn't that I was good at acting, but that my appearance at that time was too scary.

The wound scraped by the support frame snaked from behind the ear to the neck, blood was flowing, and half of the light gray clothes were stained red.The people on the field were immediately stunned, not to mention the girls who were the culprits. No wonder they didn't even notice that Ning Ye's clothes fell on the ground.

But I don't care much about these.My memory began to fragment when Ning Ye carried me on his back, and it circulated in him asking me where it hurts, and I couldn't extricate myself.

The sound came from the warm chest in front of me, making me dizzy.

The wrist was broken and the wound on the back of the ear was too large, which was beyond the capability of the school infirmary.

Ning Ye sent me to the city hospital again, and when I finally settled down, I found out that the squad leader was also there.

I didn't apologize at all for disturbing Ning Ye's game, but felt a little uncommon guilt towards the squad leader.

Ning Ye took responsibility for the accident by himself, and the appearance of offending a few girls completely wiped out my happy mood.

I don't care that they get carried away because they saw your beautiful figure, and I don't care about the misery of being thrown so bloody that they can't even mention it.

But you really know how to choose, pick the one that hits people's hearts as soon as you come.Ning Ye, oh Ning Ye, you really understand me.

I sent the two of them away in a dispirited mood, but none of the two, who were skilled monitors, agreed.I had no choice but to close my eyes and wait for the anesthetic effect of the stitches to disappear. My mind was numb, and I didn't know if I would become stupid. This made me a little worried about whether I could be admitted to the same school as Ning Ye in the senior high school entrance examination.

"It's starting to hurt? Are you taking painkillers?" The concern in Ning Ye's eyes was undisguised. I might have frowned accidentally, but only I knew it wasn't because of the pain.

I asked what I would do if I became stupid, and the two of them kept shaking as if they had hit a laughing hole.

The squad leader said that even if I became stupid, I was much smarter than ordinary people. I really don't know how he came to this conclusion.

Ning Ye said that he was responsible for becoming stupid, and started teaching reading and writing again.

What these people say is really irresponsible.

I smiled, irresponsibly satisfying me like never before.

August 08, XX11

When I entered the school again, I seemed to be a celebrity in the school.A fall to fame.

It is very difficult for an ordinary person to be famous, but it is a breeze if he is with a famous person.I don't know whether the basket of fruit and a handful of flowers on my desk is the result of my wound with stitches and my wrist in a plaster cast, or because of Ning Ye's influence.

I threw the fruits and flowers to the monitor.No way, this scene is very easy to misunderstand that I have died heroically as an athlete on the sports field.

It was my right hand that was injured, and eating in class became a problem, but it was not a big deal for me.I don't insist on grades, not to mention I'm fairly confident in my own brain.But obviously I was pitiful in the eyes of my classmates. When the third class representative told me that I didn't have to hand in my homework, this kind of privilege beyond class finally succeeded and made me feel that maybe I did have a little bit of misery.

This feeling of being unpopular with me only lasted for half a day, and soon I realized that this is actually not a bad thing.Many years later, I am still thankful for the fall. Even the dull pain in my wrist bone on a rainy day cannot dispel my gratitude.

Many times I feel that Ning Ye doesn't care about people at all. For example, he has no impression of me at all. I admit that I am very indifferent to this matter, but most of the time Ning Ye has enough charm to coax People are willing to let him manipulate, such as his apologetic delivery of math notebooks.

No one knows that such an overture is enough to make me forget all the loneliness and waiting.

When I was still thinking about how to disclose my miserable situation to Ning Ye, he had already figured out all my weaknesses without knowing it.

I don't care about the so-called notes at all, and I have rejected the monitor's kindness.But when I took Ning Ye's notes, my expression of joy and surprise made the squad leader sulky for a while.

Ning Ye doesn't know, I don't care about notes, I just care about what he cares about.

In any case, Ning Ye's image of a good person has finally been given to me.What a memorable moment, and those weeks of uninterrupted note-taking have clearly become my most treasured possession for three years.

I have copied the clear and powerful handwriting and the neat and rigorous thinking a hundred times, but I still can't stop my deeper desire.

What a wonderful time.

August 08, XX11

I know that from now on, Ning Ye will notice that the person behind him on the right is Jiang Ke, but unfortunately the chance is running out.

When Ning Ye sat in the seat that had been reserved for him for more than two years during the mid-term exam, he made no effort to conceal the surprise on his face.

I guess Ning Ye's heart is very complicated, guilt and powerlessness should be tormenting him alternately.I like to see anything about me on his face, even if it means he's sick.

No matter how accurate my calculations are in this exam, it is impossible for me to stay in this classroom in the next exam.How far can a candidate who cannot write with his right hand do it?

If you don't harbor malicious speculations against everyone, everyone in the examination room is probably expressing sympathy for me.

Ning Ye is a very considerate person, he quickly calmed down and encouraged me with a smile.I didn't care about it in my heart, but I was very panicked on my face, with a tense look that was determined for a lifetime.

This appearance made Ning Ye embarrassed.

This is the first time I know how easy it is to pretend to be pitiful in front of Ning Ye.Over the years since then, I have used this trick with joy, but unfortunately, after I said it, this trick may have to be temporarily put on hold.

When the invigilator came in, Ning Ye went up to talk to the teacher for a while, I raised my head and smiled at the teacher who was looking at me strangely, and raised my arms to cooperate with Ning Ye's solemnity.

Ning Ye has to understand that some things have to go with the flow. I am miserable, and everyone thinks I am miserable, but it doesn't mean that he can act according to his compassionate thoughts.

The result can be imagined, my weak smile to Ning Ye, coupled with my weakened body, is very visually impactful.During the exam, people who have only removed the unnecessary movement of looking up at the time, this time I can catch them turning their heads one after another.

Alas, what do I do with this, Ning Ye, a person who wishes the whole world would only remember his kindness, is probably going to die of pain in his heart.

Ning Ye said I'm sorry, it's a good opportunity to invite me to dinner, but I hesitated for a while, I believe that he, who is already uncomfortable enough, will feel even more uncomfortable after having dinner with me.

He soon understood that people who injured their right wrists were not only unable to take the exam, but eating and drinking were also problems.

But this is really an irresistible temptation, since Ning Ye insisted on adding another knife, I had no choice but to give it to him reluctantly.

It should be difficult for Ning Ye to forget this incident, especially bad memories.The appearance of me eating with a spoon in my left hand with extraordinary difficulty shocked Ning Ye, and I was still guilty, a deeper layer of guilt, I couldn't bear to look at those eyes, and only when I wanted to comfort him did I realize that now I don't have to pretend at all, the more meaningless the more It hurts.

Alas, I have to say I regret it, there are some things I would rather bear alone.

August 08, XX12

These are the happiest two months.

I can understand why Ning Ye was voted the most popular monitor.It is even more conceivable for a victim who is outside the class and only bears indirect responsibility if he can do it himself.

I drank the pigeon soup brought by Ning Ye for more than a month, received Ning Ye's class notes for more than a month, and enjoyed Ning Ye's equal care.It's just a loss of an opportunity to take the exam with Ning Ye, which is really a good deal.

What's more, Ning Ye, who is good at making surprises, gave me a special treatment.

It rarely snows in City C, but this year it is rare to see a layer of white film on the ground.

Attached First Middle School has only one day off on New Year's Day.I still remember that I missed the usual time to receive notes because of the teacher's sudden concern.

Thinking about it now, I still remember the annoyed mood at that time.I greeted the class teacher's ancestors for several generations unkindly.

From the first time I discovered Ning Ye's flaws, I vaguely felt that he didn't like girls very much.This kind of dislike treats all girls equally without distinction.I didn't understand it before, and I thought that Ning Ye was being stalked, so I told myself that I must be patient and don't be like those idiots.

People in the first and second grades of junior high school had already been on vacation, that is to say, the third grade of junior high school was still sticking to the school in the cold snow, and there were only a few people coming and going at the school gate.

Ning Ye stood in an inconspicuous corner, behind him were evergreen cypress trees, and had a casual conversation with a girl wearing a woolen hat.

Almost as soon as I left the school gate, I saw two people who were not afraid of the cold, and my already annoyed mood was almost ignited in an instant.

I watched the two talking from a distance, and it was not until the monitor who left the school at last came and walked with me in his arms that I finally took a step.

Ning Ye, who was standing facing the school gate, waved to me when I stepped out of the school gate, and then ran towards me.This action made my churning anger disappear in an instant.

The squad leader who finished the greetings was dismissed by me in a few words. Now that I think about it, seeing Ning Ye, who has missed his life, may have accidentally hurt the squad leader many times. He wanted to support my ambition.In my middle school career, if anyone wanted to talk to a withdrawn and weird classmate like me, apart from Ning Ye who felt indebted to me, there was only the kind-hearted monitor.

Ning Ye gave me the note, and proposed to go home together for the first time. Maybe it was my surprise that I couldn't hide, so Ning Ye gave me a vague wink.I don't understand where Ning Ye's confidence in the tacit understanding between us has never been verified, but fortunately, I have not failed his rare expectations.

I calmly glanced at the impatient girl who was waiting, and found a middle-difficulty math problem to discuss.

When Ning Ye saw me on the road, he smiled lightly, and it seemed that he remembered that there was still someone waiting for him after the topic was almost finished.

I don't know what the two of them talked about again. When Ning Ye showed the girl my hands and the hideous wound behind my ear with a cold face, I realized that this fashionable girl was the one holding Ning Ye's bright yellow sports car. people who take it.

This apology is late, but it doesn't matter if I don't.If it weren't for those beautiful eyes shining with enthusiasm that I don't like very much, I would even be very grateful to this girl.

Unfortunately, people who covet Ning Ye are usually not too generous.

I smiled at her and said it was okay, and casually invited Ning Ye to study together tomorrow