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"You are brave and admirable. It is really not easy in such an environment in China."

Although it was the first time he heard Qin Jie talk about his past relationship, Yan Zhilu was not surprised that Qin Jie was able to get out of the pain of broken love in this way. After all, the Qin Jie he knew could be so decisive and strong, which was also why he Reasons to be attracted.

"Haha, many people have said that, but maybe it's just a broken jar. Not everyone has the opportunity to live according to their own wishes in this life. I am also lucky. I also know from my parents It won’t be difficult for me, and there are no other obstacles, as long as you have awareness, there will always be a way to overcome it, isn’t it?”

Coming out of the closet always seems to have a dark color in the domestic society. For some people, this is a lifelong luxury, and they suffer from their families; Some people were even forced to come out of the closet by accident, and the results were mixed with sadness and joy.

As for Qin Jie, although it is true that he was motivated by a broken relationship, it is more because of his character that he does not want to wear a mask all his life. Sooner or later, he will eventually choose to come out.

"Yes, if it's you, it will definitely be overcome. If it's someone else, I can't guarantee it."

"You are worthy of being a businessman. You always leave room for your words. I used to think that you were the kind of person who would act according to your own will without thinking too much. Now I find that you are more sophisticated than I thought. But There's nothing wrong with that."

Being told by his lover that he is so worldly, Yan Zhilu felt a little delicate, but he couldn't deny that his always brilliant mind felt a little stunned for a while.

"Ah Li, we are quite similar in some places. The worldly sophistication I mentioned just now may be called "society" in today's buzzwords. I have it too. Li Zi commented on me in this way when I was in college. I thought I would be like you too. I also worked hard in the company, but many things happened later, which made me choose the school."

Qin Jie glanced at Yan Zhilu, and found that the other party was listening to him seriously, with a serious expression on his face, so he looked away, and saw the sidewalk next to the community, leading to the inner ring road of the University City.

"Do you still remember what I said when we were walking here last time? School is a relatively simple place. Even a college teacher like me, although the main task is not to manage students, most of the people he faces are adults. There is no shortage of realistic social competition in the world, but I always feel that I am always living in a relatively slow pace, and academic research will always give or require you to have more free thinking space, which makes people unknowingly let go of some Shrewd, even resisting some kind of sophistication, sometimes it is inevitable that there will be what the world calls intellectuals who are pretending to be noble."

"You're not pretending to be lofty or sophisticated, Brother Qin, you are elegant and mature."

Yan Zhilu obviously didn't agree with Qin Jie's self-mockery, so he interrupted Qin Jie's words, and his change of wording made Qin Jie take a deep look at him, and then responded with a thankful smile.

"Brother Qin, you're right. I really like to keep room. Maybe it has something to do with being a businessman. Now that I'm in a shopping mall, many things have already merged with me. That's how I talk and do things. To people There are always some unfriendly standards of judgment."

"You misunderstood, Ah Li, I don't think there is anything wrong with you now, on the contrary, I think you are very good like this. But, I think, since we are already lovers, maybe we can learn to remove the wall of heart, you don't have to always Look at my face, thinking of trying to please me, I'm not a woman, so I don't need too much care and care."

When Qin Jie mentioned women, Yan Zhilu subconsciously wanted to refute, but Qin Jie's next sentence made him silent.

"Truth is what I most want to see from you, can you understand?"

At this time, a sound of knocking on the glass interrupted the thoughts of the two of them. Qin Jie pressed down the window and saw an old man holding a flashlight looking at the two people in the car suspiciously.

"Young man, do you want to stop or drive away? You can't stay at the gate of the community for so long. I think you have been here for a while, waiting for someone?"

"Master, I'm sorry, we just have something to talk about, and it's about the same now, I'll live inside, so I'll get out of the car."

Qin Jie recognized that this was the gatekeeper of the community, and quickly said sorry. After hearing the explanation, the gatekeeper nodded and returned to his post.

"Ah Li, then I'll go first, you should drive carefully, send a message when you arrive, and go to bed early."

Opening the car door, Qin Jie turned his head to look at Yan Zhilv who had been silent all this time, and suddenly worried whether what he said was too heavy. After all, the two of them just fell in love, and maybe they were asking too much.

"Brother Qin, I will think about what you said, really, thank you for being willing to talk to me about this."

Those long and narrow eyes stared at him fixedly, neither sharp nor deep, and the bewitching curve of his mouth was nowhere to be seen at this time, and his already stern face looked a little strange now, Qin Jie thought that this was all Because of what he said just now, he couldn't help but sighed lightly.

"It's because I'm a little impatient. I didn't drink tonight, but I always feel a little messed up. I really don't want the happy party to end so heavy. Let's take our time, don't rush, everything is just beginning, isn't it?"

After finishing speaking, Qin Jie turned slightly, and before Yan Zhilu could react, someone who suddenly approached in front of him left a kiss on his temple, and then he heard that person kiss his ear. A gentle farewell.

"Reciprocity, good night."

Seemingly satisfied with Yan Zhilv's response, Qin Jie got out of the car and walked towards the apartment while smiling lowly.

Thinking of the first time he raided Qin Jie's house, Yan Zhilu also laughed. At that time, Qin Jie must have been frightened enough by himself. According to his strong character, he probably was quite unwilling, otherwise he would not be reconciled tonight. There will be no "revenge", but Yan Zhili warmly welcomes this kind of sweet coming and going.

Qin Jie had gone far away, and Yan Zhilu was about to drive away. Suddenly, a "buzzing" sound from the phone's vibration stopped his movements, and the name on the screen made Yan Zhilu squint reflexively. eyes.

"Master Lu, I wish you a happy old age."

"Happy Chinese New Year, Lin Yuan, are you back from City H?"

The gentle male voice on the other end of the phone is very familiar, but at this time it can't arouse his intimacy like before.

"Well, I've been back for a few days, and the teahouse opened yesterday. It seems like you haven't been here for a long time, are you busy recently?"

"I started working this week, and the project is still going on, but it's just a normal kind of busy. It's been a long time since I took care of your business, why don't we get together tomorrow."

"Well, I'm sorry to call you so late, I just saw the time suddenly."

Lin Yuan's voice was full of exhaustion and sadness, yes, only at this time, he would ignore the things around him, and desperately ask himself for help, Yan Zhilv quickly realized that Lin Yuan's mood at the moment was not very good Stablize.

Although his request for help was just a phone call and a few words of greeting, but by Lin Yuan's side, only the law of words can give him comfort, because some things, some emotions, some past, tightly bound the two of them together .

However, for the first time now, Yan Zhilu felt a kind of helplessness he had never felt before in this relationship, and his head seemed to be throbbing like Qin Jie's.

"It's okay, if you are in a bad mood, you have to say it, don't hold it back, and take good care of your body, everything is possible."

"You are always so tolerant to me, obviously you will feel uncomfortable and care. Sometimes, I really feel that if it is you in the end, then I have no complaints."

"You're thinking too much, we agreed to let nature take its course, Lin Yuan..."

Yan Zhilu had an urge to confess to Lin Yuan, but in the end he was restrained by something, and he turned to persuade Lin Yuan who was in deep trouble.

"I really think you should look for some new directions. Only when you really start to shift your focus, with time, maybe you will encounter opportunities and no longer trap yourself."

There was silence on the other end of the phone, Yan Zhilu sighed from the bottom of his heart, put on the bluetooth headset and started the car, when he turned around and walked on the straight bridge, Lin Yuan smiled and let the Yan Zhili was a little flustered.

"Just like you, eh?"

It was as if the biting cold wind in the winter was pouring in from a neglected part of the body. The stimulation of the heart, the constriction of the blood vessels, and the reaction of the skin were sudden and strong, but the rhythm of words quickly stabilized the mind. , and Lin Yuan smiled again after speaking, this time returning to his usual gentleness.

"Good night, Yan Er."

As soon as the voice fell, the phone was hung up, and Yan Zhili continued to drive. After an unknown period of time, he suddenly opened the car window, accelerated the speed, and started to run on the road that was no longer congested. The wind hit him It hurt his eyes, but he still stared at his eyes and braved the cold wind all the way back to the villa.

The next day, Lin Yuan received Yan Zhilu who arrived as promised in the room where he usually plays the piano.

This time it was not pre-brewed hangover tea, Lin Yuan waited for Yan Zhilu to spread out the tea sets one by one, scooped out dark brown tea grains from a cylindrical tea pot made of bamboo, and then It is the professional tea ceremony process. As the owner of the teahouse, Lin Yuan is also proficient in tea art. It can be said that he knows that when Lin Yuan insists on showing the whole process in front of him, it means that he is not in a good mood.

Seeing the bloodshot Yan Zhilu in his eyes, Lin Yuan handed over the brewed tea, and said in a rare mocking tone: "Young Master Lu was probably restless last night, so drink some tea to calm yourself down."

"Lin Yuan, you, hey. If you feel unhappy, just say it."

Hearing the teasing meaning in the words, Yan Zhilu reluctantly took the cup of reddish-brown tea and took a sip. The rich aroma of charcoal fire warmed his lips and tongue. Zhilu found out that it was Dongding Oolong. This kind of tea tasted very special. Although he didn't like tea, drinking black tea to warm his body and stomach in the chilly spring season really gave him a temporary relief from tossing and turning all night. soothing.