if you serious you lose

The winter vacation is finally here. At the summary meeting at the end of the semester, although the dean's lengthy speech made people drowsy, Qin Jie was successfully encouraged by the recognition and expectation of himself as a new teacher. Spirit.

After all, everything was still so unknown half a year ago, and I went back to my alma mater with the mentality of taking one step at a time. I didn't expect to pass the first semester so soon.

Before returning to China, some colleagues, especially Chinese colleagues, advised that the teaching and scientific research environment of domestic universities is not as good as that of foreign countries, and the only consolation is the emotional sustenance of geographical kinship.

However, after personal experience, Qin Jie felt that it was right to return to China. Perhaps because he had not had time to apply for a project, he did not really appreciate the difficulty of the scientific research environment.

But the quality of the university's students, the attitude of the leaders of the departments, and the old professors who gave him the most support all made Qin Jie feel lucky and grateful. These are already enough to offset the pressure that he may face in the future Get in the way.

Thinking of this, Qin Jie's mood was even brighter, until he received a call from his mother.

"Xiaojie, let's go on vacation soon, come to my mother for the Spring Festival this year."

After returning to China, Qin Jie kept the same habit of talking to his parents every week as he did abroad, but he only met two or three times. Thinking about how much he felt that he had treated his parents badly when he was away all these years, and his mother had invited him many times. She lived there for a few days, and she always used work as an excuse before, but now she would really hurt her mother if she refused, so this time Qin Jie decided not to run away anymore.

"I just finished the summary meeting today, and I still have some finishing work in the past few days. Mom, I will go to your place to celebrate the New Year after I finish my work."

Qin Jie said the last sentence slowly, the other side of the phone was silent for a few seconds, and then heard a voice with a little trembling and it was difficult to hide his joy.

"Okay, okay, you, you do your work first, I'll wait for you to come back for the New Year at home."

After hanging up the phone, Qin Jie took a deep breath, a sentence after seven years was more unbearable than expected.

On the way home, Qin Jie called Li Zi, intending to ask Li Zi out for a meal and a few drinks. Since the party after returning to China, the two hadn't met alone again. The family, of course, can't come out as often as when I was a student, and I am also busy adapting to work, and there is also the law of speech.

So now that he is finally free, Qin Jie plans to get together with Li Zi and his family alone before they return to their hometown for the New Year.

After all, he was a best friend for many years, once a phone call was made, Li Zi responded immediately with that excited loud voice, and said that he would arrange the place, the style of resolute and decisive was still the same, Qin Jie smiled and confirmed the final time with him and ended the call.

At this time, Qin Jie passed by the supermarket, suddenly remembered something, and went in.

I went straight to the frozen area all the way, and I found it. When I was in college, a group of young people bought and drank the brand most often. At that time, I could afford beer, and I also thought that beer was the best and the most exciting.

Every time after finishing a project in the club, a group of people will go to the food stalls around the school for supper at night, drink, drink too much, you will push each other on the wide school road, and the loud voice headed by Li will always howl a few times Until the dormitory area came the forceful scolding voice.

Looking at the familiar green beer cans, Qin Jie decisively bought a dozen, then walked briskly to check out and walk home.

Qin Jie, who always felt a little excited today, still chose to entertain himself at home. Perhaps, only at home, drinking the taste of memory, would he not worry about getting drunk and losing his mind, so that he could think of some youth beautiful.

Li Zi is Qin Jie's best buddy these years. Qin Jie's first real friend when he entered university was him. During the military training, the two of them lined up together because of the same height, so they developed a "comrade-in-arms" relationship.

After the military training, they even joined the class committee and the class committee together, and later joined the student union, and often organized activities together. Food.

Li Zi is the kind of Northeast guy who looks rough and unrestrained at first glance, while Qin Jie at that time was a gentle, fair, smiling and sunny boy. The two seem to be incompatible but they both belong to the same type of personality. They are straightforward, straightforward, and love to socialize. , naturally supported the group entertainment of the entire department.

Especially Qin Jie, with his handsome appearance and humorous conversation, he has already been on the list of male gods among college girls. Because of this, Li Zi thinks it is strange that Qin Jie doesn't have a girlfriend, no matter if it is at the same level or a senior. Qin Jie always politely refused or directly ignored.

Until near the end of the semester, Li Zi found out that Qin Jie was from this city, but he started to go to F city frequently, and every time he went there he was smiling, but when he came back he was always gloomy.

At the beginning, everyone said that they had found the reason why Qin Jie didn't have a girlfriend, that is, he already had a girlfriend, and it was a long-distance relationship.

But looking at this posture, everyone is also puzzled, why does it seem that the relationship is not going well, and the long-distance relationship is really a test of determination?

Finally, on a cold and rainy January winter night, Li Zi received a call from Qin Jie. For the first time, he heard Qin Jie's feeble voice with faint crying.

Without further ado, Li Zi rushed out of the dormitory with an umbrella and coat, and rushed to the train station. On a bench, he found Qin Jie who had just rushed from school to City F early in the morning.

"Jiezi, what's the matter with you?"

Li Zi found that something was wrong with Qin Jie. His originally fair face was now pale and pale. Yes, and with this observation, I can guess in my heart that this kid has been dumped.

"You can guess, Li Zi, I'm broken in love, even though I dumped him."

With a wry smile, his voice no longer had the crying tone on the phone, but it was full of sadness. Qin Jie looked at Li Zi, and he knew that this buddy in front of him who seemed to have a rough appearance actually had a meticulous and delicate heart. It was because the two of them were very similar and sensitive people. During this period of time, Li Zi had already noticed his abnormality, so he came here again today. Once it comes out, how can it not be guessed.

"I guessed it, but it's really just an ordinary lovelorn? I don't think it's that simple. You dumped her, there must be something inside."

As expected of Li Zi, but up to now, Li Zi also tacitly agrees that the object of Qin Jie's lovelorn is a woman, who can make a man break up so painfully, it must be a woman who climbed the wall, Li Zi thought angrily.

"Li Zi, sit down. I want to talk to you today. You have to be prepared. What you hear next may have a major impact on our future friendship. If you can accept it after listening, then I, Qin Jie, will definitely be your best buddy for the rest of my life. If you don’t understand or even reject it after listening to it, then we are still friends, but I will slowly keep a distance from you. After all, this is a matter of principle.”

It was a cold station, but there was a constant flow of people because of the approach of the Spring Festival travel season. No one noticed the serious faces of the two big boys in the corner, and no one would be interested in knowing how much the next conversation between the two meant to them.

Li Zi pursed his lips, silently looked at Qin Jie's frozen purple lips, sighed, put the overcoat in his hand on Qin Jie, and sat down beside Qin Jie with a "bang" on his big butt .

"Go ahead, I'm listening."

"I have a partner who I met in the second year of high school. The two have been together for a semester. They have been secretly in love, and they can't see the light. After graduation from the third year of high school, he did not follow our agreement and applied for the university in F city, because he said he wanted to Change the environment, and then we become a long-distance relationship."

Qin Jie's feeble voice was interrupted by the ear-piercing sound of a train whistle.

Li Zi didn't rush, the two quietly waited for the train to leave the platform, and the crowded platform suddenly became much deserted.

"Some time ago, he said that he fell in love with someone else and wanted to chase that person. I started to visit him frequently in City F, wanting to ask some questions. In fact, it was just entanglement. Then, today I saw him with that person. It looks like we are together, I feel that I am very bad, I shouldn’t, and the end of the term is coming soon, it will be bad if I don’t concentrate on my study, I took the initiative to break up after thinking about it, and I came back.”

Although Qin Jie's voice was still weak, it became clearer due to the change in the environment, and Li Zi heard Qin Jie's narration reveal a kind of firmness.

Perhaps, he also thought carefully about breaking up, but the recoil was too strong, and now, he was too tired and couldn't stretch himself.

But Li Zi also faintly felt that Qin Jie had something to say, so he remained silent and waited.

After an unknown amount of time, Qin Jie's voice sounded again.

"Li Zi, the reason why he and I can't make it public, the reason why he would tell me so blatantly that he likes someone else, and the reason why I let go so quickly, even taking it for granted, is because, because I am a man, so is he." A man, but he likes a woman."

Not far away, a train whistle sounded, and another train came into the station.

In the ears, there was a constant sound of the radio, crowds of people moving, and their footsteps were chaotic, but they couldn't cover up Qin Jie's confession. Li Zi could hear clearly, I am a man, and he is also a man.

In an instant, Li Zi felt that everything was clear, as if the foggy net in front of him had finally been uncovered, and his vision was clear and comfortable. Yes, Li Zi felt that the heart that had been hanging these days was finally let go.

Then look at the buddy I care about the most, how brave this guy is to say this to himself.

"Jiezi, thank you for being willing to tell me. I can only say that leaving that person is your smartest choice. He is not worth it, let alone suitable for you. There is nothing to say. Next, my buddy's task is to help You walked out of the haze of broken love. Then, it should be you and me. You are a man and I am a man. We are all the same. The only difference is that you like men and I like women. Chatting together should not only talk about beautiful women, but also about strong men. You and I, iron buddies, this lifetime is worthwhile and suitable."