black offering

42.

"Hello, Jackdaw?"

The person on the other side of the phone hummed slightly, as if he hadn't woken up.

But it's getting dark here.

Are people abroad?

"Where are you now?"

"America," replied the one over there.

"Busy?" I asked.

"...Just ask if you have anything."

"Ah, I used to have a lover, do you know?" I smiled relaxedly, grabbed the phone, and went to pick up the photos on the ground.

Several photos were scattered on the ground.

It was the information that Su Qin brought to me today.There are a few photos of me with other people in different stages, in which there is a person who has appeared three times, with green hair and green eyes, the whole person feels very alive, like a large virgin forest living in him In the eyes, there is a wet breath, which makes people feel a sense of intimacy.

I am no stranger to this person.

He is cold white.

One is when I was in my teens, I was wearing a small military uniform and standing beside Han Bai. At that time, Han Bai looked very healthy, with a clean smile and a very straight military uniform.

The second photo is a group photo, but among the many sesame-sized faces, I recognized Han Bai at a glance.

The third picture, which seems to be a candid shot, is a little far away. I am an adult, walking with Han Bai into a gray building.

A string of English is marked on the building.

Why did Hanbai appear in my life when I was so young?

I have a headache.

I didn't want to look at it any more, I threw the photo away, and leaned against the wall weakly.

"I don't know." The answer was very crisp.

"Fuck, why the hell are you not jealous at all." I teased.

"..." There was silence on the other side of the phone, but I could feel his icy breath spreading along the phone line.

"I said, I have a lover." I repeated, tilted my head, and lit a cigarette for myself.

"..."

"You have nothing to say?"

"......"

"I have nothing to say, I'm hanging up." I said flatly.

"Put out the cigarette, I'll go back the day after tomorrow." After the other side finished speaking, they hung up.

Jackdaw, do you really love me and know nothing about me?

I took a deep puff of the cigarette, and spit it out, feeling so weak that I didn't come.

I drank a lot of wine and slept in an empty wine bottle. None of the servants dared to come and help me clean up. Liu Di came here once, but stood at the door far away and said to me: "Boss, Su Qin wants me to help you." Take a word."

I didn't even lift my head and just drank by myself.

I want to numb my pathetic, sane nerves, and those damn brain cells!

"I'm sorry, Su Qin said, I'm sorry."

What does a lover represent?That is to say, I was in love with him before?

Su Qin, Su Qin, Su Qin, why do I have no memory at all?

I hate it!

I turned my head again, not knowing what I was hating, my consciousness was blurred and my head was dizzy, I took another sip of wine numbly.

Liu Di said: "Boss, I think we all understand one thing, this person may not be the person you followed at that time."

what to follow?

I shook my head, indicating that I didn't understand.

I don't need to understand, I just need to wait quietly for Jackdaw to come back.

I laughed, raised my wine glass to Liu Di and said, "Hey buddy, would you like a drink?"

Liu Di left, very disappointed.

I'm probably not what they expected, but they don't want to give up on me at all. I don't understand what they are expecting.

I am not Shen Mo, but I am Shen Mo, it's that simple.

Jiang Hui also came, directly took the wine glass from my hand, and said, "Master Shen, your body does not allow you to drink like this!"

It was the first time that the gentle man lost his temper.

People are multi-faceted, with good sides and bad sides. Even weak people will have a tough day, such as doctors.

"Doctor, what do you think of me?" I asked.

"Master Shen?"

"Answer me!" I yelled irritably, touching another bottle of wine.

"Master Shen, very powerful, very friendly, very good."

"I'm that good?" I laughed, feeling like this is not fucking judging me at all, am I friendly?Just fart! "to be honest."

"...Young Master Shen, it's very simple..."

Is this the truth?

Forget it.

Didn't Lemon, the child who sees through people's hearts, comment on me in the same way?

I am very simple.

It is indeed very simple, what others say, what I believe.

Han Xian said, he is a good man, I believe it.

Lemon said that he would save me, and I believed it.

......

Jackdaw said he loved me, and I even believed it.

I have no desires, and I don't have any extravagant demands on food, clothing, housing and transportation. My only thought is to protect the jackdaws.

I am from the battlefield, I have no parents, I am an orphan.

"Master Shen?" Jiang Hui looked at me worriedly.

Such gentle eyes.

I sighed and felt that this gaze was like that of a jackdaw, and he would look at me like that.

I blinked, looking at him a little confused.

I clumsily hugged the person in front of me and kissed his lips regardless.

I said, "Jackdaw, anyone can lie to me, but you can't."

You can not.

The feeling of the soles of your feet hanging in the air is really uncomfortable, especially when you are standing on top of the glass, and the bottom of the glass is densely packed with blades facing upwards.

I am afraid.

You, the glass, become shattered.

"woke up?"

I opened my eyes in an instant, having difficulty adapting to the light.

"Do you know how shocked I was when I came back? Shen Mo?" The voice was cold, but there was no anger, and the words were very flat.

The light in front of my eyes gradually recovered, and my jackdaw was looking at me blankly, but my head hurts, my thinking is a little slow, and I can't connect the front and back.

His pupils were swarthy, unable to reflect any light.

"Do you like Dr. Jiang?"

I am baffled.But thinking of him coming back, I was still very happy, "Are you back?"

"I think I have pampered you too much, Shen Mo!" Jackdaw's voice didn't sound very happy?

why?

"what happened?"

"...Little bastard, you don't know the good things you did?" Jackdaw frowned coldly.

"..." I stared, sorry I didn't understand, what good did I do?

I just remember that I was drinking.

Appears to be drunk?

So now lying in bed, what's wrong with that?

And this person went crazy as soon as he came back, it was too unreasonable.

"Didn't you say it would take seven days? Why did you come back early?" I asked.

"..."

Jackdaw's expression was a bit strange, "Anyway, I want to resign Dr. Jiang!"

"Not at all." I sat up, stretched my waist, felt a terrible headache, and swore I would never drink so much again.

Jackdaw poured me a glass of water at the right time.

This is like, after a long drought and rain, I took a sip and immediately felt much more comfortable.

"You called me yesterday, so I'm back." Jackdaw said.

"Phone?" I was confused.

"I didn't say anything, you said you missed me."

"...Are you sure?" I would be so hypocritical?

“…”

"...Just now, why did you ask me if I like doctors?" Just after waking up, he asked me random questions, and there was no way to respond, and it was a bit wrong to react now.

"When I first got home last night, I saw two people rolling on the ground and kissing. One was you, and the other was Dr. Jiang." Jackdaw pursed his lips, looking very unhappy.

"Ha, you're not jealous!" I smiled, grabbed his collar, and kissed his still cold lips, "I thought he was you...Welcome back, my love you."

Jackdaw leaned sideways and kissed me.

When the two separated, a bright silk thread was pulled out.

The Jackdaw stared at me resolutely, his expression seemed very complicated, and I felt uncomfortable being looked at by him.

The breath around him was obviously cold, but it gave me an inexplicable sense of peace of mind.

Very comfortable.

"Shen Mo, you can rely on me for the rest of your life." Jackdaw said in a calm tone, like a reward from a high-ranking emperor, a natural sense of coercion arose spontaneously.

It can make people look up to it infinitely, while the civilians below only need to accept it at a low level.

But I'm not a civilian.

I am Shen Mo.

So I hate this coercion, but I just frowned and said with a smile: "Okay."

Afterwards, the Jackdaw didn't make any big moves anymore, and even the number of out-going meetings decreased a lot, and they were basically completed in the villa.There is only one thing to do, and that is to be with me.

Watching TV, doing sports, even the person who handles official business will put me aside, give me a book about firearms, kiss my forehead, and whisper: "Don't run around, wait until I finish my work."

I don't understand why the jackdaw would do this, but I am happy to see him every day.

Sometimes reading is annoying, so Jackdaw gave me a laptop and asked me to play games obediently.

If I get tired of playing, I will go to the jackdaws.

Touching his chest, kissing his neck, exploring down with flexible hands.

Just don't want him to concentrate too much.

At times like this, the Jackdaw would either grab my hand, or do it the other way around. It's still the same. When a certain limit is reached, there will be no further action.

I grabbed him and asked, "Why don't you keep doing it?"

"Are you willing?" Jackdaw asked with deep eyes.

"..."

"You don't want to, Shen Mo." Jackdaw gently touched my eyes, "Your eyes can't deceive anyone."

It was pitch black in front of me, and I chuckled lightly: "Can you still read minds? Then can you see that I love you?"

"......kindness."

"For love, you can do anything, can't you?" I said happily.

Jackdaw's fingers moved away from my eyelids, I opened my eyes, and my eyes were glued to him, I wanted to look at him, I wanted to see every subtle change in his expression, his eyes were in good shape Well, every one of his facial features is perfect even if you take it apart, so even if he is expressionless, he is still beautiful.

As long as he stared at a person for a while, the shadow of that person would be clearly reflected in his dark pupils.

No matter who it is, it will be mesmerized by such a gaze.

And he just stared at me like that.

very nice.

I put my hand on his cheek.

This perfect person, the one I love is me.

Jackdaw stared at me and said, "No, Shen Mo, I don't need you to do this."

"..."

"Shen Mo, don't make things difficult for me."

The man frowned and said.

He said so, I should be sensible, so I stopped decisively and continued to play games.

But Su Qin and the others never appeared again.

no more.

Occasionally, the boy who delivered the documents would be forced by me to stay with me for dinner, and Jackdaw would accompany me, with only a glass of red wine in front of me. I prefer Chinese food, spicy, and every dish can be hot.

Li Bing ate with a nervous expression, as if he couldn't eat spicy food.

I deliberately sent Jackdaw to the kitchen to bring desserts for Li Bing. Of course the person concerned ignored me, and the servants brought the food.

Not a happy meal.

Because one put on a cold face the whole time, and the other was trembling, which made me not interested in eating.

But Jackdaw still forced me to eat a few more bites.

Jackdaw kissed my forehead and asked, "Are you full?"

I was a little impatient, "I won't eat."

"Okay, take a break and take a shower."

Li Bing seemed too embarrassed to intervene, so Zhou Huai said, "Young Master Shen, Master, Mr. Li is going back."

I raised my finger to Jackdaw, "You go see him off."

"Are you looking for death?" Jackdaw became angry instantly, as if he couldn't bear it anymore, "How long are you going to make trouble?"

"I'm making trouble?" I was also angry.

"..." Jackdaw followed me with a glance, and said to Zhou Huai, "Zhou Huai, send Li Bing back."

And he himself resisted me and walked upstairs to the bedroom.

As soon as the door was closed, I took off my clothes, put one leg between my legs, fixed me on the door, put the tip of my nose against my nose, and said softly: "You want me to fuck you that much? You don't hesitate to push me out piss me off?"

"..." I turned my face away to touch his lips.

Jackdaw reached out and pinched my cheek, "Don't regret it."

"..."

I didn't say anything, I just stuck out my tongue and licked the back of his hand.

I was at a loss.

very dazed.

In fact, I don't even know what I'm doing right now.

It seems to understand, but it seems not to understand.

I like him, I want to have sex with him, shouldn't this kind of thing be taken for granted?

Of course, why not do it.

I'm afraid I'll regret it if I don't.

A person I love so deeply, there are so many things hidden behind him, like an invisible big hand holding him tightly, I am afraid that if I am not paying attention, he will disappear.

He disappeared, what should I do?

Who will tell me?

He disappeared, what should I do?