My bamboo horse is scumbag

The body of the person who was scolded as a fool visibly froze.

Then he pretended to laugh nonchalantly and said, "It's so fierce, I'm just joking."

The arms hang down, and the blue five-petal small round flowers fall on the dark ridge.The corners of Chen Youhan's lips curled up reluctantly.What the hell is he talking about?What are you pretending to be affectionate and unforgettable?

Ye Kai really didn't want to watch his clumsy performance anymore, glanced at his face indifferently, turned around and walked forward.

The two walked very slowly on the long winding mountain road of nearly one kilometer, occasionally alarming the dog to bark.The lights are gradually turned off one by one, and the village is silent under the starlight.

When we arrived at Tashi's house, the animals were all asleep, and the living room on the second floor was lit.Tashi sat in front of the stove and wiped his Tibetan knife with a soft cloth.Ye Kai stopped and asked, "Is there any wine?"

Tashi put the blade back into the beautiful and majestic scabbard, and Rong Chang's smiling face became even more black and red under the yellow electric light. He wiped his hands: "Yes, there is highland barley wine."

Ye Kai held his pocket and smiled slightly: "Give me four bottles."

Chen Youhan took down the cigarette dangling from his mouth, stunned and surprised: "What are you doing?"

Ye Kai ignored it.After a while, Tashi brought out four glass bottles of highland barley wine.Ye Kai took it, and threw two bottles to Chen Youhan in the air.Chen Youhan caught it in a hurry, with an expression like seeing a ghost.

Ye Kai turned and went downstairs: "Tashi, hold the door open for us."

Tashi nodded, and sat back by the stove to polish his precious silver knife.

The movement of going downstairs startled the livestock into a commotion.

Ye Kai held two glass bottle necks with one hand, and was grabbed by Chen Youhan as soon as he entered the yard: "Are you sick?"

"Brother Youhan, you must not know how much I can drink now." Ye Kai looked at him gently and calmly: "Aren't you in love with me? I'll give you a chance."

Chen Youhan reflexively wanted to deny it, but moved his lips, but he didn't say a word.

"I'm really troubled by you like this." Ye Kai turned off the bottle cap, took a sip, his expression remained motionless, as if he was drinking water.

"You know, sometimes you really can't hide the way you look at me." He took another big sip, raised the back of his hand to wipe the corner of his mouth, his posture was lazy, calm and beautiful, "What should I say about you. Yes Are you getting old after not seeing each other for two years? That’s why you do the stupid thing of looking back for your old lover. Or do you think you’ve found love when you’re middle-aged and want to go back and pick it up?”

Chen Youhan forced a smile.The embarrassment of being punctured face to face is not comparable to the intense panic in my heart.The concern that crosses the boundary at any time, if there is any ambiguity in the words... As long as Ye Kai doesn't make it clear, he can continue to deceive himself and others.How could he continue as if nothing had happened when the truth was revealed?Dogs are not that cheap.

"I said it was a joke, don't get me wrong." He remained calm.

Ye Kai twitched his lips mockingly: "What did I misunderstand? Is it the way you looked at me, or the screen saver of your iPad?" He shook off Chen Youhan's hand, pushed open the courtyard door, and walked towards the dark and quiet grass under the night. Dian, facing the direction of the distant snow-capped mountains bathed in starlight, "...Did I misunderstand your hints and temptations, or did I misunderstand that you are so humble in front of me that you are not as cautious as you are at all?"

Chen Youhan turned around in a hurry and walked back: "I don't know what you're talking about."

The phone rings.

Ye Kai answered the phone: "Hello."

Chen Youhan's footsteps froze.As the night grew colder, he began to shiver.

"I think, of course I want to." Ye Kai turned his back to Chen Youhan, his voice was low, "I still have a week to go back. ... Japanese food? Okay, ... nothing special. I'm looking at the snow-capped mountains. Well, I can also watch it at night... My heartbeat ? Don't lie to me, where do you have time...Of course I will be disappointed."

He chatted with Lucas on the phone for 3 minutes calmly, and the "good night" at the end was extremely gentle.

"Brother Youhan, I only give you one chance tonight." Ye Kai walked slowly into the meadow, "Let's talk."

The soil is soft, the outer edge of the meadow, and the low shrubs are hard and thorny.The tall highland barley frame looks weird and compelling under the moonlight.Ye Kai walked nearly 20 meters with one foot deep and one shallow foot, and the soft grass finally stretched under his feet.Yelu wet his boots and trousers, but he didn't care.Sitting on the ground and waiting quietly for more than ten seconds, Chen Youhan sat down beside him with his knees bent.

"After I went to Beijing, no one cared about me. I drank every night. Jiang Yan met in a bar. You must not believe it. I didn't even make a friend in a semester. Jiang Yan was the first one. I fought with others. He helped me out." Ye Kai held the wine bottle and took a sip: "He is a senior, and his time in school is very short, but whenever he has time, he pulls me. Without him, I don't know how long I will fall. "

"Lucas met when I was skiing in France. I spent two years of vacation in Vancouver. He happened to be from Vancouver, and he was very close to my grandmother's house. He often joked that maybe I met him a long time ago. Meet. Brother Youhan, there are many ways to interpret fate. I used to think that you and I were a match made in heaven and destined to be together. Later, I didn’t think so. You see, Lucas and I can also say Very fate."

"Didn't you ask me why I didn't go abroad to study? My mother didn't let me. I made up my mind before that I would never tell you, but since I have been trying to let go, it doesn't matter. After I came out of your house that day, I became I’m dumb.” Chen Youhan turned his head to look at him abruptly, and saw Ye Kai bowed his head and smiled self-deprecatingly, “For more than a month, I suffered from aphasia due to stress. I didn’t hide it for more than half a month, and my mother was almost hacked. You. She didn't dare to let me go abroad alone, and wanted me to stay in China anyway. Fortunately——for you, I really worked hard to get into Tsinghua University."

Chen Youhan squeezed the wine bottle tightly, his stomach twisted into a ball.

"I even almost went to a mental hospital - it's almost the same, anyway, it's all psychiatry. Taking medicine, hypnosis, counseling and language rehabilitation - forget it, don't be scared, it's not that scary." Ye Kai His brows and eyes were gentle, the starlight dimmed, and the emotion in his eyes was calm and deep, "It's been a long time ago, I'm fine now."

Before Chen Youhan could speak, he took a deep breath and said, "Writing that letter is a lie to you, what 'we all have to look forward', I am far less free and easy than I thought. I almost died, non-stop I am sick, I am also thinking about you, why don’t you come to see me. Being sick is really painful, I look at the door of the ward every day, and at the beginning I dream whether you will come to see me. Don’t fall in love anymore, I’m still your brother Right. We have been together for more than a year, but we have known each other for 18 years, 18 years, even if a dog dies of illness after being raised for so long, you will feel distressed."

Chen Youhan gritted his teeth, his jaw line was as stiff and tight as a stone carving.He said hoarsely and painfully: "I don't know...Baby, I'm sorry, I really don't know."

"You can know." Ye Kai said quietly, "Have you ever looked for me? You just didn't look for me, and you never asked me if I was doing well."

Chen Youhan seemed to have something to say, but finally closed his eyes in pain.

"I said this, not to tell you how pitiful I was back then. I look back now and find it unbelievable... Brother Youhan," Ye Kai was almost suffocated, and took two breaths before continuing, "How could I be so miserable back then? Love you."

The word "At the beginning" made Chen Youhan bloody.

"If it's just an exchange of 200 billion, I won't be in such pain. I understand, I really understand, and I say I will choose this way. I am not deluding myself. If I exchange positions, I will really do it. No one knows you better than me. , I fell in love with you on the basis of knowing all about you." He pursed one corner of his lips, looking at the wet grass foam on the upper of his shoe, "...it's just that I thought you loved me like I love you, I never doubted that you would really get tired of me."

After he finished speaking such a long paragraph, he breathed a long sigh of relief, raised the bottle and touched the bottle in Chen Youhan's hand, "I've talked so much, it seems like it's all messed up, just listen to it."

The snow-capped mountains are really shining.He looked up from a distance.The wind crosses the black field like a whimpering shepherd.

The cold liquid slid down the throat line into the stomach.The burning sensation rushed up from all limbs belatedly. ...Wine is indeed a good thing.

"What about you? I have found someone I like in the past two years..." Ye Kai smiled, "I guess I didn't, otherwise I wouldn't look back at me now. How long did it take me to forget you? Once I get drunk, I will Imagine once who you are with now, tall or thin, male or female, good-looking, cute? Warm or gentle. Will you fry steak for him, will you take him home, fingerprint database Did you get any new fingerprints in it? Would you not call him baby, would you also tell him that I wish I could see you every day? Would he tie your tie for you, fold your pocket square for you? , whether you were frank or shy when you went to bed, will you be so fascinated that you will never think of me again——" Ye Kai lowered his head, and pressed his palms tightly to his closed scorching eye sockets, "It's too painful, Chen Youhan, really It hurts a lot. It hurts more than being rejected by you outside your door, and it hurts so much that I finally dare not take any chances."

"I'm telling you this, but I don't really mean anything else—I saw your iPad screen saver today, and I'm very angry, ridiculous and angry."

Chen Youhan responded hoarsely: "I will change it when I go back."

Ye Kai seemed to find it funny, and gave a short laugh, "Don't you ask me why I'm angry."

"Because you think I'm shameless." Chen Youhan raised his neck and took a sip of wine: "After causing you so much pain, how can I still have the face to show that I never forget you."

Ye Kai gave a soft "um" and said: "I would rather see you hugging left and right the next time we meet, as promiscuous and ruthless as before, than seeing you holding on to me in the slightest. "

Chen Youhan smiled bleakly: "So that's how it is."

The bottle was empty, so he unscrewed another bottle.His personal doctor told him not to drink too much alcohol, and his stomach couldn't take it anymore.But it's cold enough tonight, only by drinking non-stop can the coldness in his limbs and bones be warmed up, and the trembling that seeps from the depths of his bone marrow can be stopped.

"I see." Chen Youhan's voice trembled at the end, "Xiao Kai, you didn't want to give me a chance today, but to issue a death notice—I'm not qualified anymore, right?"

Such a small school building project won't take up two days of his time, so it doesn't matter if he leaves early.

"I'm leaving tomorrow."

Ye Kai bent his knees and buried his face deeply.

"You have been two years—" His voice was muffled, as if it came from his chest.

"I have been fine for the past two years, much better than you," Chen Youhan said softly and lowly, with a hoarse voice, "I mentioned breaking up, I said I was bored, although I also feel regretful, but it is far less painful than you. My current situation Regret, you are right, it is the delusion and freshness brought by my sudden meeting with you again. I made you abrupt,... I am sorry."

Ye Kai trembled.He wanted to hear such an answer, this was the answer he expected.He was determined to let it go, he hated the last bit of love he had for Chen Youhan, but in just a few days of contact, sparks of unyielding sparks were set off like wildfire.He came here for a break today...but why, his chest felt tight.

"Did you take him home and introduced him formally?" Chen Youhan held Ye Kai's slender hand.His palm was wide and warm, Ye Kai was so familiar that he almost collapsed.

He didn't speak, and Chen Youhan took it as his default.

"I didn't make it in time for my 20th birthday. As a brother, I will treat it as the last gift for you," Chen Youhan squeezed Ye Kai's palm.Ye Kai raised his head, his drunken eyes were blurred and dazed, he saw Chen Youhan's lips opening and closing in front of his eyes, and a voice rang in his ears: "Grandpa knows your sexual orientation, he will not stop you."