I was a stand-in for those years

Zhang Chengwen was seriously injured, and it took two operations to remove the bullet and broken bones from his shoulder.Guo Zichen tried his best to slow down his expression when he was with others, but he didn't know how many times he secretly cried secretly.Zhang Chengwen was afraid that his bad mood would lead to a recurrence of his previous mental illness, so he coaxed people to go home and rest, but Guo Zichen refused desperately. He had no choice but to ask the housekeeper to send the two children to the hospital to accompany him, and he stayed by his side, waiting for him. When I fell asleep, I closed my eyelids to rest.

This injury was really nothing to Zhang Chengwen, but Guo Zichen was in a low mood, sleeping most of the time, unable to speak a few words all day long.Zhang Chengwen didn't worry much at first, after all, he used to stare at his eyes and couldn't sleep all night, but now it's good to be able to rest normally.But one day after a while, Guo Zichen came to the hospital to see Zhang Chengwen in the morning, had breakfast with him, fell asleep lying on the table, and woke up the next morning.After the person woke up, Zhang Chengwen asked him to check with a sullen face, but Guo Zichen smiled and avoided him, telling him that he had played games all night before and didn't sleep, Zhang Chengwen scolded him angrily, Guo Zichen apologized repeatedly, and promised that there would be absolutely no sleep. Next time, this just dodged.

A few days later, Guo Zichen was sitting in a daze on the rest chair outside the ward, when suddenly a black shadow cast in front of him, and when he looked up, he found Ke Chen standing beside him holding a bouquet of carnations.

When he came back to his senses, he squeezed the diagnosis certificate in his hand into a ball of paper and stuffed it into his pocket, and asked Ke Chen, "Did you come to see Chengwen?"

Ke Chen sat down beside him, showing a helpless smile: "If you just said that I came to see you, it would scare you." Turning his head to look at his face, he asked, "Why are you so thin?"

"Is there?" Guo Zichen touched his face and smiled awkwardly. Sitting with Ke Chen made him uncomfortable, so he stood up unconsciously, gently holding the doorknob of the ward and whispering: "Chengwen is asleep." Well, would you like to come back later?"

Ke Chen still sat on the chair, straightened his body like a sculpture, sighed, and said, "I came here just to talk to you."

Guo Zichen wanted to say that I don't want to talk to you, but he swallowed the words, deliberately refusing to show that he couldn't forget the past, he might as well be open and frank like a friend.So he sat back where he was just now, staring at the ground, and casually picked up a topic: "When did you come to Norway?"

"I just got out of the hospital not long ago."

"What are you doing here?"

Ke Chen wanted to say something to snatch him back, but when he got to his mouth, he changed to another word: "Come to heal your wounds."

Guo Zichen was taken aback for a moment, and then remembered the way he fell from upstairs and vomited blood profusely. He must have not recovered yet, but he didn't continue to ask, and the air fell into silence again.Ke Chen turned his head, stared at Guo Zichen for a long time, then continued with what he said just now: "Heart injury, I'm afraid it won't heal." He gently took his hand and applied it to the piece of skin covering his heart, He said lightly, "Touch it, it beats slower than a normal heart."

Guo Zichen struggled for a while but couldn't pull out his hand, then gave up, his self-blaming voice wafted in the air: "I'm sorry..."

"If you really feel sorry," Ke Chen smiled, "Then can you come back to my side?"

"Sorry, I've already—"

"I know." Ke Chen interrupted him before he was about to say something cruel: "It's okay, I'll wait for you."

After a while Zhang Chengwen woke up, Guo Zichen pushed the door and went in, Ke Chen followed behind him.After seeing Ke Chen, Zhang Chengwen showed no expression, as if he expected that he would come sooner or later.Guo Zichen went to the bedside and put the flowers Ke Chen brought in a vase, then smiled and asked him what he would like to have for dinner.

Zhang Chengwen closed his eyes, frowned and made a thoughtful expression, and then said: "Just make your best crab roe tofu." After speaking, he glanced at Ke Chen standing at the door, and said to him: "We The child likes this dish made by his mother the most. Cousin hasn’t eaten it before, right? Let’s eat it here at night, how about trying my wife’s cooking skills.”

Ke Chen's face was instantly livid, his hands clenched into fists, and the air around him was about to be sucked dry by his anger.Guo Zichen didn't pay attention to Ke Chen, but after listening to Zhang Chengwen's words, he muttered in a low voice: "I told you not to call me mom."

Zhang Chengwen chuckled: "That's right. I like it. What do you think, cousin?"

With a bang, the door was slammed shut, and when I looked up again, Ke Chen, who was standing at the door, had already left.

As soon as he left, Zhang Chengwen's relaxed and rascal expression disappeared, his eyes were dark and he didn't know what he was thinking.Guo Zichen thought he was angry again, so he softened his voice and explained to him: "He came to see you, I thought you were asleep, so I didn't let him come in to disturb you."

Zhang Chengwen put his chin on his head and hugged him tightly, asking: "Do you still like him?"

Guo Zichen chuckled, and asked, "What do you think?"

"I think," Zhang Chengwen said Nuo Nuo, as if soaked in vinegar, "you've lost your old love for him."

"Oh." Guo Zichen smiled: "Yes, what should I do?"

"..."

Zhang Chengwen reached into Guo Zichen's trousers and squeezed them back and forth, but his face was serious: "We'll talk after we think about it." Guo Zichen leaned his head back, raised his head to sniff Zhang Chengwen's face, and asked doubtfully, "Did you smell your face?" A sour smell coming from the bed?"

Zhang Chengwen turned around to fuck him, pushed the thing under his crotch forward, squeezed Guo Zichen's mouth and asked, "Would you like to try to see if the stick underneath is jealous?"

Guo Zichen frowned, rolled his eyes, and kicked him.The two laughed and started arguing and arguing, but Zhang Chengwen suddenly stopped and stared deeply at Guo Zichen.

After a long time, Zhang Chengwen's voice sounded without warmth, and he asked, "If only one of Ke Chen and I fell into the sea, who would you save?"

Guo Zichen was stunned by this nonsense, and then he laughed, rolled up his sleeves to reveal his thin arms, and joked, "You two are about the same size, I can't pull either of you."

This answer obviously made Zhang Chengwen very dissatisfied. He stared straight at him and almost made a hole in his body. Guo Zichen was furious from being stared at, and then said seriously: "Of course I will save you."

Zhang Chengwen asked: "Then he died, will you be sad?"

Guo Zichen subconsciously shook his head, and whispered, "He can't die."

The voice was too low, Zhang Chengwen thought he had misheard, and asked again: "What did you say?"

Guo Zichen stopped talking: "It's nothing..." After speaking, he stood up: "I'll go home and cook for you."

Zhang Chengwen's face turned cold, and he suddenly felt very aggrieved: "I heard, you said he can't die, right? That's right, you can't bear it. After all, you have been with him for so many years. No matter how bad he was to you before, you always thought about it." He is not."

The way Guo Zichen bowed his head and said nothing made Zhang Chengwen even more angry, and he didn't hold back his words, and accidentally said something serious: "Human, you are really a cheap creature."

Guo Zichen paused, but didn't say anything, he closed the door and walked out.It was dusk when I went downstairs, and the garden of the hospital had a beautiful view under the setting sun. Although it looked lonely, it made people linger unconsciously.Guo Zichen stopped, walked to the bench and sat down, staring at the flowers in the distance.

If Zhang Chengwen hadn't asked, he never thought that he would be sad when Ke Chen died.As for why he said the words "he can't die" subconsciously, it might just be because he was worried about his brother and Xiao Ke.Before Lin Hai died, he entrusted Lin Xingmu to himself, but he hadn't visited him for so long. He didn't know where he was and how he was doing. He failed Lin Hai's entrustment and failed to repay Lin Hai's kindness.And that child Xiaoke, because of him, was separated from his mother since he was a child. The little child has suffered too much, and he can no longer lose his father.

Guo Zichen couldn't figure out why Zhang Chengwen suddenly asked him this question, he seemed to be joking with his calm expression, but it still aroused the sourness in Guo Zichen's heart.Healthy people talk about death at will, but those who want to live are not qualified to continue life.He took out the diagnosis certificate in his pocket, and suddenly burst into tears.It's not that he's sentimental, it's just that he knows his physical condition best.

In fact, since he started to lethargy, he already felt that his body was gradually becoming dilapidated. Sure enough, the doctor told him that the tissue near the broken skull had lesions, and he had a brain tumor.In the past, he might not have reacted at all, at least he would not be as sad as he is now, but would be happy and relieved, no longer need to be frightened, and no longer need to hold on, but... now he is reluctant, reluctant to part with the warmth Zhang Chengwen gave him , I can't bear to part with those two children who call me daddy in a milky voice.

I regret that I was with Zhang Chengwen at the beginning, and the momentary greed has caused the helpless sadness now.After being warmed by others, even the surrounding vegetation became alive. Staring at the most beautiful orchid outside the flower garden, he couldn't bear to say goodbye to it, let alone the person he cared about.

[The author has something to say]: It’s almost over, there’s not much left