I was a stand-in for those years

Ke Chen sniffed, turned his head and walked into the forest, speaking with a strong nasal voice: "Arrange someone to deal with it, and take the two of them back by the way."

Song Sizhe wanted to say something, but finally shut up.He was very efficient. He put a few of his own people in the search team, and guided them to find the whereabouts of Guo Zichen and Zhang Chengwen in the shortest possible time without arousing suspicion. Soon, the two were sent to the hospital for treatment.

It's just that Ke Chen suffered quite a blow, and his eyes were still wet when he boarded the helicopter. Song Sizhe sighed, sat beside him and comforted him, "People can be chased back."

Ke Chen lowered his eyes: "How to chase? He doesn't even love me anymore."

Song Sizhe encouraged: "Then let him fall in love with you again."

Ke Chen's eyes lit up, and he patted his forehead to cheer himself up: "Yes, I will give him two more houses, he will be happy."

Song Sizhe: "...Brother Chen, do you think this is what he wants?"

"Then what should I do..." Ke Chen's eyes were flushed with anxiety, and his eyes became sore again. With the back of his hand on his eyes, he said in a muffled voice, "Sure enough, he should be tied back and locked up at home."

Song Sizhe turned his head to look at Ke Chen. He didn't know how joking or serious his words were, but he still carefully reminded: "Don't make the same mistakes again."

"I know, he was injured before, so I can't tie him up, he will be afraid." Ke Chen clenched his trembling teeth, clenched his hands into fists, and let go of them after a while, and said with determination: "I'll think about something else Method."

After that, no one spoke again, the plane rose slowly, and after a while, the towering snow-capped mountains and the woods at the foot of the mountains turned into small black dots and disappeared from sight.Ke Chen closed his eyes and recalled the time he spent with Guo Zichen.From having a little affection for him at the beginning, then completely sinking in, until he left me, meeting again after many years, and finally losing him completely, no matter what step he took, it seemed that he never gave him happiness.

When I was in college, I had the most heated relationship with him, and I only occasionally gave him gifts to make him happy. I felt that just keeping him by my side had already given him a great gift, and even asked him to be grateful.

He was not allowed to break up with himself, and felt that the relationship between the two was always up to him, and as long as he wanted to give it, he was not qualified to say no.When I married Jing Yumo, I acted like a victim and used my inability to compete with the outside world at that time as an excuse to hurt him. Now that many years have passed, I recalled the past again like watching a movie, and suddenly realized that, after all, Is it powerless to fight, or has no intention to fight, is really helpless, or treats him as a plaything that can never be driven away.

Later, after forcing him away, I began to regret it.He has lived through six sad years, but after all, this regret is no match for the arrogance in his heart, twisted and deformed, and he can only find balance and seek comfort in the process of slandering him, watching him feel sad because of himself, because Weeping by myself, as if I had just found the value of living.This distorted emotion still gave birth to love, but this love was too small and subtle, and I failed to discover it in time, and finally caused him to become what he is now, resulting in an irreparable ending for the two of them.

When I just learned that he almost died because of my own disregard, I also found reasons to excuse myself, thinking that when I was a child, I lived in such a sinister environment where power and money were paramount, and it was inevitable that I would lose some of the most pure and simple emotions.He thought, it's not that he doesn't love him, it's just that he doesn't know how to love him.So even during the days when Guo Zichen was in the worst state of mind and needed the love and care of others the most, he couldn't accept that he failed his love and got so close to Zhang Chengwen.If you don't love yourself, just kill all those you love and those who love him, then he will always be his own.

If there was a chance, he could have killed Zhang Chengwen just now, but... he was afraid that he would not be able to make up for the blow that Zhang Chengwen's death had brought to him, cutting off his hope of living, and also cutting off his own hope of living.

He was obviously very scared, but he wanted to come out to save Zhang Chengwen. His bravery made people feel distressed.It shouldn't be like this, knowing that he is very fragile, but it makes him sad and scared.She obviously wanted to be his sky, and wanted to give him shade and warmth, but in the end, it seemed that she only gave him shade and cold, and failed to give him even a moment of peace of mind and happiness.So, what qualifications do you have to say you love him?How ridiculous was the previous apology that he thought was sincere and touching in Guo Zichen's eyes?

The person to be damned is not Zhang Chengwen, but Ke Chen himself.The so-called inability to love cannot be a reason to ask him for forgiveness. He used to love himself as much as he does to Zhang Chengwen now, but he was lost by himself, and now he ran back and asked him to fall in love again as if nothing had happened. Are you being too self righteous?Ke Chen, are you worthy?ah?Are you worthy? You made him like that, do you still have the face to beg him to love yourself again?

Ke Chen pulled out the necklace he was wearing around his neck and looked at it carefully.At that time, Guo Zichen had just left, so he took the necklace out of the charcoal fire, it was burnt black, but he still wore it until now.After losing the ring, this was the only witness of his relationship with Guo Zichen.Staring at the dark pendant, closing my eyes and thinking about that year under the blooming fireworks, I personally put it on for him, and said to him "I like you, Chenchen", suddenly a suffocating sadness hits me, the fire burned things that day At that time, Guo Zichen's expression of despair emerged, dragging him into the abyss of despair.Holding the pendant tightly in his hand, it was like holding on to the only rope that hangs his life, breathing heavily.Only then did I understand why I unconsciously reached into the fire and pulled the necklace at that time, because he was actually carrying the same despair and sadness as Guo Zichen.

Now, even if Guo Zichen really no longer loves him, and the two of them can never go back to the past, these thoughts are enough for him to sink into memories and fantasies.

Is it better not to disturb?As long as he lives well, as long as I can sneak a look at him when I miss him, isn't that enough?

But...just seeing him standing with Zhang Chengwen, his heart felt like it was broken, and just imagining that scene made his breathing difficult.Jealous of Zhang Chengwen, maddened by jealousy, why is the person standing beside him no longer himself, why should he share the love that was once reserved for himself with others, this will not work, you love me, as you said.After turning me into a monster who can't live without you, isn't it too cruel for you to abandon me to be happy with others?Just kill me, dying in your hands is happier than watching you being held in someone else's arms.

You have always been tolerant and kind, otherwise...forgive me one more time, just this time, I will treat you a thousand times better than Zhang Chengwen, okay Chenchen.