I was a stand-in for those years

"En." Ke Chen replied lightly, with a bitter smile on his face: "Chenchen, I miss you so much, why don't you come to see me?"

"I..." Guo Zichen squeezed his right hand with his left hand, not knowing how to answer him, but Ke Chen didn't seem to want to wait for an answer, staring at the face that tortured him day and night, suddenly whispered "I'm sorry".The voice was too low, Guo Zichen couldn't hear clearly, "Huh?" After saying that, he looked at him blankly.

"I'm sorry." Ke Chen rubbed his eyes, showing a smile that was uglier than crying: "You got hurt."

Guo Zichen thought for a long time before he understood what he meant, and smiled awkwardly: "It's been so long, don't bring it up again." Changing the subject, he said, "Well...how is my brother? Is he better?"

Ke Chen seemed not to have heard his words, and continued his apology: "That day... I saw Xing Mu, and my brain couldn't control it for a while, and I couldn't help feeling guilty towards him, as if... I wanted to make up for what I did to him. As guilty as I was, I took him away without even thinking about it, so—"

Guo Zichen interrupted him: "It's okay, I understand."

"Chenchen, I was impulsive at that time," Ke Chen said, getting emotional, and suddenly grabbed his hand, his eyes flushed: "After knowing what happened to you, I regret it every day... I can't sleep at night, shut my eyes, The upper eye is always thinking, when you jumped into the sea, did you expect that I would come to save you, and when you open your eyes without me, will you be disappointed in me, Chenchen, I—”

"Enough!" Guo Zichen also became emotional, and interrupted him with trembling shoulders, the voice was not low, and the already quiet coffee shop became even quieter because of this accusation-like roar, so quiet that it was terrifying.

After a long time, Guo Zichen's eyelids drooped again, and he seemed to have regained his previous demeanor, and said to Ke Chen, "Brother Chen, in fact, I did hate you a little at first. At that time, I couldn't figure out why you didn't know anything about it. Leave without staying, I think if you... even send me a text message to tell me that you have left, I might not wait in that house foolishly... and I won't..."

The grievances in the past have never been told to anyone, but now he speaks, but it still weighs a thousand catties. Guo Zichen's eyes are a little blurred, he raises his arm to touch his head that has been operated on several times, and choked up: "Actually...it hurts, I just woke up. At that time, I had nightmares every day, and I was very scared... It would be a lie to say that I don't blame you, but later I figured it out. "

"For my lost and found lover, if you want to bring him home, you can't wait for a moment, can you?"

Guo Zichen smiled brightly at Ke Chen, although he was filled with unshed tears, he seemed sincere: "So now I... don't blame you, and don't blame yourself."

Ke Chen closed his eyes, a person who has never been able to do anything with ease, would also feel a heart-wrenching sense of powerlessness as if he had lost something. He wanted to explain, to make him understand, but why did the more he talked, the two became farther and farther away?

"Chenchen, I have always loved you, and you will only believe what I have to do."

Putting away his tears, Guo Zichen looked at Ke Chen tenderly and distantly, pleading in his eyes: "If, as you said, you once loved me, then please don't disturb my life anymore, I'm... Very good... really, not some perfunctory words, it's... really."

"Chenchen! It's not the past, did you understand or not? It's the past, the present, and the future. I've always loved you! Please, give me a chance to make up for you." Ke Chen stood up suddenly and took a step forward while talking Sitting beside Guo Zichen, he pressed him on the leather sofa in the coffee shop and gnawed his lips, his words were as urgent as his movements: "Look at me more, please call me more, Chenchen, don't leave me."

The movement was not small, and the coffee shop was full of noisy discussions. Guo Zichen became angry and wanted to slap him, but his hands were firmly clamped, and he kicked him, but he couldn't kick this tall and strong man. He said angrily: " Ke Chen! You are crazy!"

Ke Chen kissed wildly again: "I'm crazy, I've been crazy for a long time." Looking obsessively at the person below him, the paranoid madness in his eyes was the first time he saw even Guo Zichen, who had been by his side for many years, shaking his head in fear. While trembling, I heard him say softly again: "You can only get better if you come back, otherwise, the madman will get sick, and I don't know what he will do."

Guo Zichen shivered unconsciously, and was about to call out in fear, but Ke Chen suddenly let go of him, stood up and flattened the folds on the suit, and smiled softly at Guo Zichen: "I'll go first, see you tomorrow."

Guo Zichen's heart was beating wildly and he was about to faint from fright. He picked up his phone and frantically looked for Zhang Chengwen's phone number.

Zhang Chengwen on the other end of the phone asked in surprise, "Why did you call at noon?"

"I... I, I..."

"Cough, miss me?"

Hearing Zhang Chengwen's voice, Guo Zichen's consciousness gradually returned, and he calmed down: "Yes, I miss you."

"........."

He was teasing him casually, but he didn't expect such a formal answer. Zhang Chengwen put down his pen, and said in a serious and serious manner: "You take a leave this afternoon, I will find you later, and we will go to the park to fight in the field."

It was rare for Guo Zichen not to blush and scold him, and replied in a low mood: "Work hard."

"What's wrong with you? Are you unhappy?" Zhang Chengwen noticed something, and said worriedly: "Wait a while, I'll go downstairs to find you and take you home."

He can be there in time for everything. This is the reason why Zhang Chengwen was looking for a job for Guo Zichen in the office building where he worked. He couldn't accept any situation that Guo Zichen needed him but he wasn't there. The coat of the chair was about to go out, when the person on the phone said again: "Brother Chengwen, don't come. I... came out with my colleagues today, and didn't have lunch downstairs in the company... Don't worry, I'm fine."

"Then where are you? I'll pick you up."

"No...I...I'm already on my way, in a taxi."

"Okay, then you pay attention to safety and wait for me after get off work at night."

After hanging up the phone, Guo Zichen let out a long breath, finally regaining consciousness from the panic that made his heart skip a beat.It will be all right, he thought, since Ke Chen felt ashamed of him, he would definitely not do anything out of line, just to scare him, this person always does this, he would threaten himself when he was in college, nothing to be afraid of.

When he got off work, Zhang Chengwen walked past the staff area, and saw the assistant piled up a small wall with documents on his seat, hiding a mobile phone in it to secretly look at something, Zhang Chengwen thought about it, frowned and patted him on the head: "It's all off work, I can't go home and read it ? The office is where you are in heat?"

The assistant watched the video several times, the so-called never tire of watching it, and was engrossed in watching it with relish, when the boss's voice suddenly appeared, he was so frightened that he threw the phone out in panic.Seeing his stupid appearance, Zhang Chengwen felt amused, and didn't say anything else. He bent down to pick up the hand that fell at his feet for him, and the video that hadn't been turned off came into view clearly.

The assistant didn't see Zhang Chengwen's gradually dull expression, and when he took the phone, he still smiled and explained to him: "It's the first time I saw two men kissing so seductively, boss, look at it, it's in broad daylight, in coffee Tsk tsk tsk... But the one above is so handsome... The one below," the assistant said, pressing the index and middle fingers of his right hand and spreading out the screen, and the face of the person below was slightly blurred. "You're so pretty, it's obviously a man, why are you so—wait a minute," the assistant suddenly noticed something was wrong, and asked in confusion, "Why do you look a bit like the proprietress?"

Zhang Chengwen closed his eyes and took a breath, then opened them again, and asked hoarsely, "Why do you have this thing?"

Seeing that the boss's expression was wrong, the assistant belatedly realized that he had caused a catastrophe, but he didn't know what to say, and finally bit the bullet and told the truth: "At noon, my friend bumped into me in the coffee shop, so, I recorded it. Give me a small video...Boss, I really didn't mean it, I, I, I...I didn't pay attention to who the person was at the beginning, but I didn't expect it to be..."

Before he finished speaking, Zhang Chengwen had already disappeared when he raised his eyes again.

After taking a shower at night, Zhang Chengwen lay down on his side with his back to Guo Zichen. Guo Zichen turned around with him and hugged him from behind.Warm breath sprayed on his back, but Zhang Chengwen seemed to be wrapped in a ten-thousand-year glacier on his heart, and his whole body was completely cold.

Thinking about it this way, although the two are already together, he has never said a word of liking to himself.Sometimes the two of them live too happily, and he thinks he likes him. He doesn't believe that the relationship between the two has always been his own wishful thinking, and he doesn't believe that he is just Ke Chen's short-term substitute.But...why did she do that, why did she meet Ke Chen in private, why did she act like a normal person without saying anything to herself after being kissed by him.

Zhang Chengwen thought, wait a little longer, he will definitely find a chance to explain to himself.

After waiting for three days, Guo Zichen still didn't say anything, not only that, he talked less and less with himself, and he seemed to have something on his mind, but kept silent to himself.

That night, Guo Zichen turned off the light and fell asleep just after taking a shower. Zhang Chengwen couldn't bear it anymore, so he sat up and turned on the light and asked him, "What's on your mind these days? I told you, I won't allow you to hide anything." Follow me."

Guo Zichen also sat up, looking down at the white sheets, "It's okay... don't worry."

Zhang Chengwen said angrily: "Guo Zichen, don't make me angry!"

"It's okay...Really, don't be afraid, we will be fine."

"It's none of your mother's business!" Zhang Chengwen was furious, and it was the first time he got so angry with Guo Zichen: "Did you meet Ke Chen behind my back!"

Ke Chen's name is like a time bomb, as soon as it is mentioned, it will detonate Guo Zichen's tense strings. He raised his head suddenly, staring at his big eyes in disbelief: "How could...you know?"

Guo Zichen's reaction turned into something called disappointment reflected in Zhang Chengwen's mind, and he suddenly felt that he was so ridiculous that he still didn't understand after all these years, what kind of person Zhang Chengwen was in Guo Zichen's eyes.

The moment he held the bedroom doorknob to open the door, Guo Zichen's anxious voice came from behind him: "Where are you going?"

Zhang Chengwen sneered: "Anywhere is fine, as long as there is room for you and Ke Chen."