I was a stand-in for those years

Ke Chen thought that Guo Zichen was jealous, and his mood suddenly improved. He lifted Guo Zichen's head and let him rest on his lap, and asked in a slow voice, "Are you unhappy that I took Yumo over?"

Guo Zichen couldn't answer this question, because he didn't seem to be able to answer it right.

Guo Zichen remained silent, and Ke Chen didn't force him to ask, he put his hand into Guo Zichen's hair and played it lightly, scolding him: "You really scared me when you passed out in the bathroom, what I said just now was just angry at you for hurting yourself. No matter what wrong things you do in the future, you are not allowed to make fun of your own life, you know?"

Guo Zichen just wanted to laugh when he heard this seemingly caring words, what did he do wrong?

"Ke Chen, I don't know why Jing Yumo had a miscarriage, but I didn't push her, it has nothing to do with me."

The movements of Ke Chen's hands froze, and then slowly said: "Okay, if you say no, there will be no."

Guo Zichen smiled bitterly: "It's really not."

Ke Chen looked at Guo Zichen's pale and injured face, and suddenly his heart ached. He thought it was his words that made him sad, so he lowered his head and kissed his eyes: "Do you feel wronged? May I apologize to you?"

Looking at Ke Chen's fiery eyes, Guo Zichen was in a daze for a moment, and suddenly he became courageous enough to ask him if it was him who he loved all these years.

"Brother Chen, I...I want to ask you..."

Ke Chen: "What's wrong?"

"Do I look alike Lin Xingmu?"

Ke Chen: "..."

Ke Chen couldn't believe what he heard. He suddenly stood up from the head of the bed and asked in shock, "Who mentioned Lin Xingmu to you?"

This subconscious reaction deeply hurt Guo Zichen, Guo Zichen clutched the corner of the quilt tightly, and asked word by word: "So you regard me as him?"

Ke Chen closed his eyes and took a deep breath, calmly trying to answer this question.It's true that he loves Guo Zichen, but it's also true that he loves Guo Zichen as Lin Xingmu, not to mention that they both have the same blood on their bodies.

"Aren't you two the same who I love?"

"So," Guo Zichen lowered his eyelids, unable to see how upset he was: "So if it wasn't because of him, you wouldn't have liked me at all."

Ke Chen didn't want to blaspheme his feelings for Lin Xingmu, nor did he want to trick Guo Zichen with clever words, so he nodded and answered firmly, "Yes."

"Then now...do you still love him?"

Ke Chen still nodded: "Love."

Guo Zichen obviously had a crying expression on his face, but when he looked carefully, he seemed to think he was smiling: "You love him, so what am I?"

Guo Zichen's questioning sounded like unreasonable trouble to Ke Chen. With a cold face, he said slowly: "Xingmu is dead, do you have to compete with him?"

Guo Zichen covered his face to hide his tears but failed, so he turned his head and turned his back to Ke Chen, crying and laughing like self-deprecating: "I have been a substitute for a dead person for many years. Thinking about it, it's really sad. .”

"What do you mean 'to a dead person'?" Guo Zichen's words made Ke Chen displeased: "He has a name, please show some respect."

Guo Zichen buried his face in his arms, recalling the years they had been together.Ke Chen gets married, has a child, blames himself, doesn't trust himself, he can endure all the sadness and grievances, and he can even choose to leave silently. Unwilling, he wanted to leave, but just because of the thought of leaving, he couldn't help but lose his mind.

He loves others, how can he bear this kind of pain?What's even more ridiculous is that after being together for so many years, he has not been able to live out his own appearance from Lin Xingmu's shadow.

"For him, you know how to respect, but for me, you never understand." Guo Zichen tore off his pajamas to reveal his chest, which was scalded by Ke Chen with cigarette butts. After so many years, the black dots can't disappear: " If I were really Lin Xingmu, you would definitely not be willing to scald or beat me."

Ke Chen admitted that Guo Zichen's words were correct.

In the past, Lin Xingmu played temper with him, and even did a lot of unnecessary things with evil intentions. He just frowned, but he didn't have the desire to hit anyone. But towards Guo Zichen, he couldn't help being cruel, but Fan Getting angry with himself, he couldn't help but want to hit him.

Ke Chen self-righteously thought that if Guo Zichen was as well-behaved as Lin Xingmu and could act like a baby, he wouldn't be beaten.

Ke Chen felt that he had found the source of his illness, so he said as a matter of course: "Is it because of your bad temper? Xingmu's personality has always been soft, never like you, irritable and swearing, you can learn from it if you have a bad temper He'll be fine."

After Ke Chen finished speaking, he looked at Guo Zichen. He was hiding under the quilt, and Ke Chen could feel the quilt trembling slightly.

Ke Chen walked over to try to lift the quilt, but Guo Zichen grabbed him and refused to let go. The two remained in a stalemate until Guo Zichen lost his strength, and Ke Chen fished him out of the quilt.

Guo Zichen remained silent for a while, so Ke Chen thought he was fine, but when he found that the sheets and quilt were wet, Guo Zichen closed his eyes tightly, and his eyelids were red and swollen, he realized how sad this person was, and he began to regret why he had to Say those words.

He wanted to open his mouth to comfort him, but his heart was blocked by something, and his mind was empty for a while, so he missed the opportunity to mend the broken heart of the person in his arms.

Even though he was crying until he was in tears, Guo Zichen was still stubborn and never showed weakness. He broke away from Ke Chen's arms, and never asked Ke Chen to give him an explanation, nor cried and begged him to forget about Lin Xingmu. To love himself, he just sniffed, and said lightly: "I'm not him, and I won't imitate his temperament for you, Ke Chen, you can love him if you want, and you can fall in love if you don't want to. Many people, I don't have to love."

Ke Chen: "If you want, I will still treat you as well as before."

Guo Zichen shook his head and smiled: "You used to treat me badly."

"Hey, Ke Chen, I don't want to be his substitute anymore, and I don't want to suffer because of you anymore, or we really broke up."

Ke Chen was startled when he heard this, and he began to panic, as if he lost something important but didn't know what it was, anxious, lost, blamed himself, regretted, and regretted.

"Chenchen, I still love you very much, don't make such jokes with me."

Guo Zichen laughed: "Stop deceiving yourself, you think you love me, but in fact you just blamed yourself for his death, so you use me to pay for your sins." He pointed to himself, "You hold me Is it really fun to be a fake for comfort? Since you know that I am not him, why do you think I am him?"

"Ke Chen, you don't love me at all, and I don't have to love you. Although the time may be very long, but I don't care whether it is a year or two, or five or ten years, I will never leave you and cannot live."

A never-before-seen emotion swept Ke Chen's brain, and then it buried his temper, and the stern floodgate reopened, making Ke Chen gradually lose his mind.

"Shut up! If you don't love me, I'll dig out your heart. If you want to escape from me, I'll break your legs. If you can't, I'll lock you up. You can't leave me anyway!"

After hearing this, Guo Zichen opened his mouth slightly, his pupils dilated, and his whole body broke out in a cold sweat.

Even if Ke Chen beat him and frightened him before, he had never shown such a frightening expression, or said such frightening words.

Ke Chen stared at Guo Zichen like a trapped animal, then raised Guo Zichen's hands above his head, pressed on the man's body and bit his neck, licked/licked and swallowed the oozing blood.

Guo Zichen felt sick to his stomach again when he smelled the smell of blood. He pushed Ke Chen hard and cursed: "Are you crazy? Get out! Don't touch me!"

.....(harmonious).....

"Ah!" Guo Zichen cried out in pain, his voice was high but not loud, he wanted to reach out to slap Ke Chen but couldn't break free from the restraint, he wanted to kick him but was kicked by Ke Chen, his legs seemed to be broken It's like losing strength.

Before Ke Chen finished, Guo Zichen didn't know how many times he cried and begged for mercy, but the man couldn't listen to what he said, and Guo Zichen almost died of torment.