I was a stand-in for those years

Jing Yumo lay in the hospital for a week before being taken home by Ke Chen.

Ke Chen and Guo Zichen live in the bedroom, and Jing Yumo lives in the guest room. Ke Chen usually works, and only Guo Zichen and Jing Yumo live together at home.

It's ridiculous to say that Ke Chen didn't think there was anything wrong with the life of the three of them.

The two of them had lunch that day, Jing Yumo lowered his voice and asked him softly, "What do you do for work?"

In fact, Guo Zichen has been staying at home, and anyone with a discerning eye can see that he has no job. Jing Yumo asked the question knowingly and deliberately said it to embarrass him.

Guo Zichen smiled embarrassingly, and replied, "I'm planning to find a job."

Jing Yumo added vegetables to the bowl, then bit his chopsticks and said innocently, "That's good. It's really outrageous for a big man to have no job and to eat and drink for free at other people's homes every day."

"But I think you are very smart, and my husband also cares about you. Why don't you just work as a nanny in our house? Clean up every day, help out with errands to buy groceries, and help change diapers after Xiao Ke is born. That's all, I will pay you according to the price of a top confinement wife."

This naked/naked humiliation stunned Guo Zichen, his face flushed red, he squeezed the chopsticks tightly with his fingers, and squeezed out a few words from between his teeth: "I can do other jobs, but I can't, babysitter. "

Jing Yumo let out a chuckle, and she deliberately covered the corner of her mouth with her hand as if to cover it up, but instead made the contemptuous smile on her face bigger.

"Hey, you've lived with my husband for so long, so don't say that, it's funny."

"People like you, I'm not surprised at all. After all, there are too many people from families like my husband and I who want to climb high, and I don't have the heart to deal with you people. Isn't it just to spend some money on you? ? Just treat it as helping the poor and doing charity. Do you understand?"

Guo Zichen took a deep breath in his chest, and a sour stabbing pain poured into his nasal cavity and the corners of his eyes, he took a deep breath for a long time before he could say his retort: ​​"I'm not trying to get his money, we are together, we like each other. "

"Hahaha! Like each other? Hey, do you think he loves you? Hahaha!" Jing Yumo laughed and burst into tears as he spoke.

Guo Zichen has a bad temper, but he can't do anything to a pregnant woman. He will not respond to Jing Yumo's insults, contempt and ridicule towards him with violence or even verbal attacks.

Guo Zichen didn't answer, but put down the bowl and chopsticks and got up from the dining table, Jing Yumo's expression became embarrassing.

She didn't expect Guo Zichen to be so tolerant. He thought that Guo Zichen would beat and scold her, and she even arranged for a fake abortion, but she didn't expect that man to not take the bait at all.

Jing Yumo was in a hurry, the insidiousness in his bones was out of cover, and exposed to others uncontrollably.

She got up and grabbed Guo Zichen, first slapped him, then poured the thick soup from the dining table on top of his head, and stared at Guo Zichen with wide eyes: "How dare you ignore me? Look in the mirror and see what you are." , have been a stand-in for so many years, do you really regard yourself as the real master?"

Guo Zichen's head and shoulders were covered with vegetables from the soup, and his face was covered with grease. The soup was a little hot, sticking to his skin and it was sticky and painful, but the humiliation in his heart was a hundred times worse than the burns on his body.

A persevering warrior can withstand mountains of swords and seas of fire, but he may collapse because of a single sentence. Mental torture is more terrible than physical injury.

And Jing Yumo wanted to completely destroy Guo Zichen.

"Hey, do you know why Ke Chen is holding onto you? Let me tell you."

"Do you know Lin Xingmu? This person used to be Ke Chen's lover. Ke Chen loved him to death, but that person died suddenly when he was 16 years old. Then, two years later, you appeared. You Do you know, you look exactly like him."

"Aren't you surprised after all these years? Why did Ke Chen fall in love with you just a few days after you started college? That's because Ke Chen thought it was Lin Xingmu who came back when he first saw you."

"Let me tell you one more thing. In your freshman year, the blue earrings that Ke Chen gave you belonged to Lin Xingmu, so if you threw them away, Ke Chen beat you to the hospital like crazy, and Ah, the earrings were actually found by Ke Chen that night, and he said that he wanted you to lose money, but he just wanted to play tricks on you, after all, you lost his lover's things, didn't you?"

This series of words floated into Guo Zichen's ears with the help of the air medium, and then turned into a thunderbolt in his brain, causing Guo Zichen's brain to be broken and he collapsed directly on the ground.

He was as stupid as he was, but he didn't forget to sneer at her: "You think I'll believe it?"

Seeing Guo Zichen's deeply shocked appearance, Jing Yumo was very happy. She covered her face and smiled for a long time, but she couldn't stop her face from rising.

"Hey, although you say you don't believe me, you already understand it in your heart, right? Ask yourself, is it really the first time you heard the name 'Lin Xingmu' from me? After so many years, really Did no one mention that you look like him?"

Guo Zichen's mind continued to search for clues following her words, and finally the fuzzy threads were weaved into a tight net.

I remembered it, I remembered it all.

When meeting Ke Chen for the first time, Song Sizhe beside him asked him, "Xingmu?"

When meeting Zhang Chengen for the first time, he said, "Why do I think you look familiar? Are you the kid from the Lin family?"

That winter, he and Ke Chen were lying on the grass behind the school's boiler room. Ke Chen told him affectionately about a dead friend of his. , the dead person looks exactly like himself.

How did that happen?Didn’t you say you like me, didn’t you say you want me to stay by your side and don’t go anywhere, didn’t you say you want to have a family with me?

Who are you saying these words to?

As if he had lost his soul, Guo Zichen shook off Jing Yumo's hand and ran into the bathroom, buried his whole body under the bathtub filled with warm water, buried his whole face under the water, and looked through the transparent water layer hanging on the ceiling. The hanging chandelier, the pattern carved on the lamp cannot be seen clearly, only an illusory bright spot can be seen.

Warm tears kept slipping out of the corners of the eyes, blending into the water in the tank, it seemed insignificant.His heart was squeezed by those words. When he thought of Ke Chen saying that he loved him for so many years, what he thought in his heart was not himself. When he thought that he had loved him for three years, but he was always a substitute, his brain became tense. Slow, numb, no matter whether this is the instinctive self-protection after being overly hurt, he just wants to stay in this quiet water and die like this.

There are still a few days until Ching Ming Festival, and he wants to find his father. The father and son live together in the underworld, and they are not afraid of encountering black and white impermanence and hell ghosts, because his father will protect him and will not lie to him.

Guo Zichen's mind became more and more dizzy, and warm water kept pouring into his ears and nasal cavity. He opened his mouth to breathe, but took a big mouthful of water.

He felt uncomfortable and didn't want to live, but he wanted to ask Ke Chen himself whether he loved it or not.

Just a few seconds before losing consciousness, Guo Zichen stretched out his hand, grabbed the edge of the bathtub and tried to sit up. His head was dizzy, his ear canals were filled with water, and he wanted to put on his clothes but fell directly to the ground.

……

When Guo Zichen woke up, Ke Chen was sitting beside him.

Ke Chen looked at him with a sullen face: "Yumo had a miscarriage, and the child almost lost."

Guo Zichen closed his eyes and didn't look at him: "So?"

Seeing him like this, Ke Chen was a little annoyed: "She's a woman, let her do it."

Guo Zichen asked back, "Why don't I let her go?"

Guo Zichen was not in a good state of mind. Seeing him lying on the bed weakly, Ke Chen didn't say harsh words to reprimand him, but warned slightly: "This time is over, I don't want this kind of thing to happen again."

Guo Zichen wanted to laugh when he heard that, he turned his head to look at Ke Chen, and asked with a smile, "What kind of thing?"

Ke Chen became angry: "Guo Zichen! You were the one who made me responsible for their mother and son. What's the matter now that you pushed her and committed suicide? Do you think I'm too kind to you and life is too comfortable?"

"Do you really want to die or pretend to be pitiful when you suffocate your face in the water?"

Guo Zichen smiled and didn't answer him, just asked: "When are you going to let me out?"

"What, want to go out to find Zhang Chengwen? A few days ago, I saw that you had a good chat with Zhang Chengwen and Zhang Xianyin. Do you like the older one or the younger one?"

Guo Zichen pretended to think about it seriously, and then nodded at Ke Chen: "Both of them fall in love."

Ke Chen didn't expect to get such an answer, he was very angry with Guo Zichen.Today's Guo Zichen is like a fool without any plans, he doesn't know how to bow his head, and keeps standing up and stepping on Ke Chen's minefield.

"Guo Zichen, don't act dead."

Guo Zichen looked at Ke Chen's increasingly sullen expression, thought about Jing Yumo's appearance, and said seriously, "You and Jing Yumo are very suitable."