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Before Xu Man started the car, Tian Xiaohui dialed Ding Jianjun's phone and turned on the speakerphone: "Old Ding, I'm Tian Xiaohui."

"I know who you are, what's the matter, let's talk." The two heard Ding Jianjun's voice.

"I want to go to Guangzhou with Xu Man to visit Xiaolei tomorrow, is it convenient for you?" Tian Xiaohui said.

"My aunt, you saved me! Can you come here now? I'm going to a wedding tonight, and Xiaolei refuses to go with me. He's arguing with me to go to Zhongshan to find my mother. If you can come, I will I will hand him over to you," Ding Jianjun said.

Seeing Xu Man nodding straight, Tian Xiaohui said to the phone: "Okay, then we'll set off right away. Old Ding, you can send me the location of your phone later."

"Okay. Oh, by the way, since you are here, you must stay until tomorrow. You don't need to find a hotel, just stay at my place." Ding Jianjun suggested.

"Don't even think about it! We will take Xiaolei to stay in the hotel together, and we will send him back to you when we leave tomorrow." Tian Xiaohui said.

"Tian Xiaohui, are you thinking too much? I mean, if you are willing to live in my place, I will not go back tonight." Ding Jianjun added.

"Then we won't live in your place either. Thank you for your kindness, Lao Ding. When we get downstairs to your house, I'll call you and you can just send Xiaolei down." Tian Xiaohui said.

"Okay, okay. Wow, Xiaolei jumped up for joy when he heard that you were coming. Okay, that's it, I'll wait for you to come." After speaking, Ding Jianjun ended the call.

Tian Xiaohui and Xu Man returned home immediately, took the gift prepared for Xiaolei, and hurried downstairs.

"Let me drive and change my car." Tian Xiaohui said.

"It's okay to change your car, but I'll drive it, so save your time for your son. You're a good driver, but don't forget, I'm also a veteran driver, and I drive around more than you do." Xu Man said.

Speeding along the way.Tian Xiaohui found out that Xu Man was also very aggressive in driving, so she advised her not to hurry up and drive fast for her sake.Xu Man replied that it was not for her, and joked that as a woman from Wuhan, she is naturally fierce, and this speed is nothing to worry about.Xu Man didn't tell Tian Xiaohui, but it was actually because racing alone on the South Ring Road refreshed her experience a few days ago.

Arriving at the downstairs of Ding Jianjun's apartment, he saw that Ding Jianjun and Xiao Lei were already waiting outside.Xiaolei was naturally overjoyed to see his mother, Tian Xiaohui ignored Ding Jianjun, and Ding Jianjun started talking to Xu Man.After listening to Xu Man's recent introduction, Ding Jianjun said happily: "It's great that you are back in Zhongshan! You two sisters like each other and are finally together again. To be honest, I feel sorry for Xiao Hui. She followed me and didn't What kind of sweetness did you taste. If you hadn't drawn your sword to help, Tian Xiaohui would not have escaped from the sea of ​​suffering so quickly. Of course, if our husband and wife live like that, sooner or later I will let her live. Please believe this, no matter how stupid I am , I still have feelings for Xiaohui, it really ruined her life, how can I bear it?"

"Old Ding, I think you should stop crying and pretending to be merciful! You have such a heart for a long time, how did you get to where you are today? But you can say that, it is very touching, I was almost fooled by you." Xu Man He made a knowing expression on his face, and then continued, "By the way, Lao Ding, it's hard work alone with a child now, right? Have you asked a nanny to help?"

"I hired a part-time worker, and I'm only responsible for cleaning the house during working hours. At present, I still take care of the children. It's only been a few months since I divorced Xiaohui, my good guy, it's like years! It seems that I have to hurry up and marry another one." , there is no woman in this family, life is almost impossible." Ding Jianjun said.

"Look at your virtue!" Xu Man teased, "Let me tell you, Lao Ding, it's okay for you to marry another one. Can I make two requests for you?"

"Okay. One hundred requests are fine. You see, I'm in the world now, why don't you show me the way?" Ding Jianjun said with a playful smile.

"Who is your sister? Old Ding, let me tell you the truth. First, no matter who you marry in the future, you must love him sincerely, otherwise you will become a scourge? No matter how anxious you are, you must not repeat the same mistakes. You never lack What women lack is sincerity. Second, I don't care who you marry, you are not allowed to treat Xiaolei badly. If I find that the child has been wronged, I will ask Xiaohui to take him away, and I will break up with you from now on." Xu Man spoke very seriously.

"Xu Man, I promise to fulfill these two requirements of yours." Ding Jianjun immediately changed his attitude, his tone became serious, and said, "Don't keep talking about me, Xu Man, please take care of Xiaohui. The right person, encourage her to remarry, the world is not full of bad men like me."

"Do you think she still dares to marry? I won't encourage her to do this, and I won't marry myself anyway." Xu Man said firmly.

"Okay, I won't get involved in your affairs. Take Xiaolei away, and we'll contact you tomorrow." After Ding Jianjun finished speaking, he called back to Xiaolei, who was following his mother around the flower bed, and told him not to play tricks on his mother tomorrow. leave.Xiao Lei nodded, Ding Jianjun greeted Tian Xiaohui again, and went back to the apartment alone.Xiaolei said he wanted to see tigers, Tian Xiaohui told Xu Man, then take him to the zoo first, and then find a hotel to stay at night.

After leaving the zoo, Xiao Lei was tired and hungry, so the three of them went to Pizza Hut for dinner.Xu Man drove to find a five-star hotel. The front desk checked the room and said that there was no standard room, only a deluxe double room, and asked if it was okay?Before the guest could speak, the girl at the reception said eloquently: "This room is a two-meter-wide bed. If the two ladies don't mind, we believe it is spacious enough to use with a child."

"Okay, please help us check in." Xu Man said.

After getting along for a long time, Xiaolei and Xu Man got acquainted, but of course he didn't remember that this aunt was Jiaojiao's mother.After entering the room, Xiaolei rolled and tumbled on the bed, trying to imitate the appearance of a tiger, but there was nothing to learn, because the two tigers he saw were lazily lying on the ground, and it took a long time for one of them to stand up , walked a few steps slowly in the cage.Later, the little guy was sleepy, and offered to ask Aunt Xu Man to help him take a bath and wipe the fragrance. She also said that she would sleep between her and her mother. Change into your hotel robe.Xiaolei fell asleep quickly after lying down, and the two adults also felt a little tired, so they leaned on the bedside to rest on both sides of Xiaolei.

"Xiaohui," Xu Man said, "are you going to sleep? I want to talk to you."

"Yeah. I'm standing upright, you can tell me." Tian Xiaohui said.

"Okay, hold on for a while." Xu Man said bluntly, "Xiaohui, I want to tell you that I am very happy today."

"I see that you are much more tired than I am today. I have been driving all the time without talking. I didn't expect that Xiaolei would get to know you so quickly, and you will be so attached!" Tian Xiaohui said.

"I'm happy that Xiaolei let me really experience the feeling that this is our son. Xiaohui, thank you for allowing me to visit my son with you. You don't know, the warmth in my heart made me suddenly More tenderness developed. You may not have noticed, Xiaohui, when the three of us were at the zoo, for a while, I glanced at Xiaolei, then at you, and at the same time said to myself silently, 'Xu Man, You love that child well, love that woman well. For your son, you must love each other well.'Xiao Hui, at that moment I really felt that I loved you very much."

Tian Xiaohui's heart felt hot when she heard this, tears welled up in her eyes.She immediately turned sideways and stretched out her arms, Xu Man also turned around, letting Tian Xiaohui hug her neck, the two mothers kissed silently for a while in front of the sleeping child, and then leaned back to their original positions.Tian Xiaohui asked: "Xu Man, have you noticed the plot of our hotel check-in?"

"What's the plot?" Xu Man was a little at a loss, and asked instead of answering.

"It's just that there is no standard room, so we have arranged a double room with a big bed." Tian Xiaohui said.

"What is there to pay attention to? It's normal." Xu Man was puzzled.

"That's right, Xu Man. Look, two women live in a double room with a big bed. Although we have a child, no one thinks there is any problem, right? I think, even if it's just the two of us , and people don’t care. Our cultural traditions have always paid attention to the relationship between men and women. If a man and a woman have an affair outside of marriage, they must be trembling when they stay in a hotel, for fear of being found out about the improper relationship. But two women are different. After all, they Whether it's a lover, a colleague, a friend, a best friend, or a sister from the same family, no one will distinguish, no one will question, everyone is used to it, isn't it?" Tian Xiaohui said.

"What do you want to explain? Xiao Hui." Xu Man asked.

"Xu Man, I'm thinking about how to live our lives. I know that Lala's path must be very difficult, because homosexuality is really extraordinary, too bizarre, too unbelievable, and it is difficult for people to accept it. And for most people As far as people are concerned, homosexuals only hear their voices and don’t see their people. They know that there is such a special group, but they rarely see live examples. Therefore, no one can imagine that there will be an inevitable social connection with homosexuals. What kind of attitude will I show, and what kind of behavior will I take? Because homosexuality is still strange and far away to the whole society, so that even if two lesbians walk in front of it, as long as they don’t disclose their identities, they will still be regarded as Treat it like ordinary people, as if we were warmly received by the hotel today. Xu Man, don’t you think this is intriguing?”

"Wow!" Xu Man exclaimed, and quickly covered her mouth with her hand, for fear of waking Xiaolei up.She looked, and the child was still sound asleep, unaffected.Then, Xu Mancai said: "Xiaohui, you keep refreshing me! I remember telling you in Tianxin Park that you have hidden more insight into the world than me, and now I am more and more convinced of this. You Not only is she considerate, but she is also observant. No, it should be said, how can she be considerate if she is not observant? Well, I won’t talk, I will continue to listen to your analysis.”

"Praise sounds like comfort. Um, one." Tian Xiaohui made a kiss with her lips, and then continued: "Through this incident, I discovered a certain possibility. The two lesbians actually have a chance. They live together in the same society quietly and without interference. And you will find that their life like this is not as difficult as imagined, and there is no need to be afraid of walking on thin ice, just let nature take its course. Unless they are very Draw a rainbow in the sky, force this society to immediately accept all orders, and make way for the homosexual group. It is not impossible in the future, but it is too early to see it. It is better to take one step at a time and live your own life well. In popular words Say, nozuonodie, if you don’t die, you won’t die. To put it nicely, it’s a low-key person, and everything will be successful. We don’t do things that harm others and benefit ourselves, but just want to live the life we ​​desire. I think we can do it. But I think so, Xu Man, do you think it's too philistine?"

"Xiaohui, I don't think you are a philistine. On the contrary, I think you are very transparent and realistic. It seems that I am too pessimistic on the issue of homosexuality." Xu Man said.

"Besides, Xu Man," Tian Xiaohui continued, "as a lesbian, such a way of living in the world may not necessarily be deceitful. Because there is a greater possibility in this society, that is, it will inevitably move towards diversification. With a more flexible tolerance system, it can accommodate people's diverse and polymorphic lifestyles. I remember someone once said that diversity is the source of happiness. [Note 1]. I think the biggest feature of China at present is that It's an open society. I don't know if that's the right generalization? But I think so. So, I'm pretty confident about the future."

"Xiao Hui, are you tired of talking? I suggest sleeping. Because we can sleep peacefully." Xu Man said.

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[Note 1] See Russell's "History of Western Philosophy", Commercial Press, 1976 edition, Volume 4, Chapter 40 "Erasmore and More", p. [-].