you are so tender

As soon as Tian Xiaohui drove the car into the community, she received a call asking if there was anyone at home, saying that two large boxes of courier had arrived.She knew that Xu Man had left her phone number, so she quickly answered and asked her to wait at the elevator entrance for a while.When the two entered the house, Tian Xiaohui checked the time on the phone, pointed to the two cardboard boxes, and said to Xu Man, "Okay, let me make dinner. It's just after four o'clock, I'll give you two hours, enough Did you tidy it up?"

By dinner time, except for the books and documents necessary for work that were temporarily piled up in the study, all the household items that entered the bedroom had been packed properly.The difference is that Xu Man's professional attire was also kept at home, while Tian Xiaohui's did not leave the hospital.According to Tian Xiaohui's proposal, the first drawer of the chest of drawers is for public goods, including various small objects and gadgets, etc., and the second and third drawers belong to Tian Xiaohui. Xu Man even deliberately opened the second drawer to take a look. Xiao Hui's bra was placed, and she put her own in the fourth drawer. When she closed the drawer, she felt at ease.

After dinner, Xu Man was in charge of washing the dishes and tidying up the kitchen. Tian Xiaohui, like Xu Man last night, didn't touch a finger, just followed Xu Man on his heels, not letting her eyes leave Xu Man for a moment.When Xu Man was washing the dishes, she glanced back at Tian Xiaohui, "Xiaohui, I allow you to sit on the chair in the dining room."

"But I can't approve you out of my sight." Tian Xiaohui said.

"Oh. Then you should follow me. I have to wash the dishes, otherwise I won't be able to satisfy your request." Xu Man said.

After cleaning the kitchen, the two walked into the study together.Xu Man said: "Xiaohui, please help me, follow my instructions, and help me put this pile of things in the designated place on the bookcase." The work progressed very smoothly and was completed within an hour.Tian Xiaohui suggested, "Xu Man, we ran outside for a day today, and you sweated a lot after cleaning up. Now that the housing project is basically completed, you should take a bath first."

"I want...to wash together, is that okay?" Xu Man was a little shy.

"I really have this intention." Tian Xiaohui replied.

After bathing, the two changed into casual clothes.In front of the dressing table in the bedroom, they deliberately competed with each other for simple touch-ups and combing, and then returned to the study and sat across from the office table.Everyone feels very relaxed. They came into the study not for work, but out of some kind of tacit understanding, walking together to the place closest to tomorrow's life.They know that from tomorrow onwards, although everyone has to repeat the previous work, it will be a completely new day.Tian Xiaohui turned her head and looked up at the wall from the staring eyes, and Xu Man naturally followed suit.The two mothers are now looking at their daughter and son together. Tian Xiaohui said: "Xu Man, I have an idea to tell you. From now on, we will establish a family support fund, such as a certain amount of money will be allocated from our income every month. The proportion or a fixed amount, this fund is specially prepared for our two children to meet their unexpected needs. The nurturing fund will continue to be reserved until the children grow up. If the two children have been calm, of course I hope so, until We'll split the entire fund between them. Do you think that's a good idea?"

"Okay. That's really great." Xu Man immediately agreed, "Xiaohui, I suggest that a fixed ratio be withdrawn from the total income of the two of them every month and deposited into a designated account. Now the country is liberalizing the second child. But it has nothing to do with us, besides, we already have two children. We each participate in insurance, so we don’t have to worry about retirement, and it’s still very early. Apart from saving a sum of money for our two children, the two of us usually don’t have much spending , I don’t think it’s better to set a ratio of [-]%?” Tian Xiaohui said yes, and then the matter was settled like this.

"Xu Man, now I have a small request, I don't know if I should say it or not?" Tian Xiaohui asked with a serious face.

Xu Man knew Tian Xiaohui well, and knew that she had never been sensational in anything, so there must be another reason for her uncharacteristic behavior.Xu Man turned to sit upright, and replied, "But it's okay to say."

"I ask for a kiss." Tian Xiaohui insisted on words, "In the cafe this afternoon, I had this idea, but in a public place, you and I are so inconvenient, I dare not make a mistake, so I delayed talking until now. "

"Hehe..." Xu Man laughed, "Well, Tian Xiaohui, you are still a bit perverted. But I like it. Come on, how shall we proceed?"

Tian Xiaohui pouted towards the sofa next to the wall, the two stood up respectively, left the office desk, first met in front of the sofa and kissed together, then fell down on the sofa together and continued to linger.After a while, Tian Xiaohui hooked Xu Man's neck with one hand, and with the other hand, the index finger and middle finger were straight and close together, and gently pressed against Xu Man's lips. Xu Man knew that this meant that she had something to say.

"Xu Man, do you know? We spent 48 hours together. During the 48 hours, I never left you for a second. Of course I remember that I had an operation yesterday morning, but the operation I had , as if it happened 48 hours away, and we have never been separated at all. Tell me, is this a magical illusion. Xu Man, you have returned to me, and I am full of joy." Such tender words made me feel happy. Xu Man was intoxicated, she hoped that Tian Xiaohui would continue to talk, and her ears heard it.

"When you left suddenly, I suddenly lost one of the closest people in my life. Speaking of which, even when you were here, we didn't always see each other. Sometimes we had no contact for a month or two, and we hummed twice on each other's mobile phones. It's over. But you left me with a sense of loss. In fact, my own life has not changed. Whether I am in the hospital or out of the hospital, it is the same everywhere I go, but I just have a feeling of loss. This makes me feel Life is very different, the familiar road seems to have changed, and even the smell of the air has changed." Tian Xiaohui continued to confide, and Xu Man burst into tears unknowingly.

"During that period, Lao Ding and I lived as strangers. But it's strange, Xu Man, didn't your leaving make me feel worse, no, really not, although in fact I was more miserable. My whole state of mind It seems that I was caught by the strangeness of life, and I became more and more numb to the pain of marriage, more and more lost consciousness, and became indifferent. Xu Man, I didn't understand why until now, because I lost the most important thing in life. one of the people."

"Xiaohui, my dear Xiaohui. After listening to your narration, I became sad. I felt sorry for you and made me feel sorry for you. I didn't know that you had suffered so much for me. But I must tell you, My sadness can't hide my surprise, you let me gain confidence in the things I'm most unsure of. Because I have already figured out my mind, and I'm not afraid to say frankly that in the most abstract physical longing, Seeing the most vivid and concrete image, I know that I love you. The more I understand my love, the more I feel uneasy because of the uncertainty in my longing. My only expectation for the whole world is to let You can love me too. If my departure can make you aware of your love for me by causing you pain, then please forgive my selfishness once, and I would rather let you experience such temporary pain. Suffering It may not be sweet, but there is love in this bitterness, and love is pure sweetness."

"Xu Man, I was about to tell you that the parting brought me an unprecedented feeling. First, I realized that you left me, which made my original pain less painful. It seems that it is not because of the addition of new pain. You have to leave the city where you used to live because of a marriage accident. Although the incident happened suddenly, it was normal. At that time, we were girlfriends, but one of them was going to live in another place. It was not a life-and-death separation. So I did not I don’t feel that this is pain. The sadness of being hurt and parting is human nature. It may not be long-term love, but they will definitely find their own lives, so that they will not have a lasting impact on life. I did not expect that I have been unable to get rid of Coming out of the separation, the sense of loss permeated my whole life and blunted my sense of pain. What you just said was not how I felt, and that's okay, because it was what you meant, and I get it, and you don't have to. I feel like my life is still there, even in the same way, but it’s blurred and I can’t see clearly, as if everything has gone with the wind.”

In the past interactions, Xu Man had hardly heard Tian Xiaohui's long speeches like this.The sincerity of her words and the octopus-like personal touch completely brought Xu Man into a state of empathy.She didn't want to interject a word, so she just kept listening to Tian Xiaohui's talk.

"Later you returned to Zhongshan because of the case, and I seemed to have returned to my original life. It was not the life that became blurred, but the life before you left Zhongshan. This made me suddenly have a desire, I I feel like I need a change so badly, some kind of actual change, to feel like I'm still alive in this world. I've thought about divorce for a long time, but I don't have any hope, because it's impossible for Lao Ding to let me go. Lao Ding I was surprised that Ding agreed to divorce so readily. I know that you played a role in the process. But it also shows that I still didn't know much about Ding Jianjun in the past.

"Divorce made me lose my marriage after losing you, but life is so unexpected. More losses make the sense of loss disappear. I mean, even the original loss caused by your departure The bewilderment also disappeared. Life gave me a new feeling, and I quickly realized what kind of feeling it was. Xu Man, do you know? I felt anticipation, some kind of expectation for the future The clearer this expectation is, the more it becomes stronger in the longing because the chances are slim. I now understand that the reason I have expectations and longings is because ending my marriage has given me the most important thing in life. One thing, and that is freedom. Freedom has given me new opportunities to survive the disaster, to live again, to love what I love.

"Xu Man, I also want to ask you to forgive my selfishness once. Because now I thank life for arranging the parting between you and me, because it made me finally understand that the parting is for me to live in a wider world. I can see in the space that my previous life was all about waiting, waiting for a person’s return. But at this moment, the waiting has come to fruition. The person I’ve been waiting for has returned and has been by my side for more than 48 hours. .”

Xu Man burst into tears.At that moment, she began to understand: "I can never measure how much others love me, just like I can't look at the end of the sky, I can't penetrate the depth of the ocean. I can only do what I am more sure of, and that is to be faithful to my heart. Belonging, let my love chase the shooting star, cut through your sky, let my heart follow the flowing water, and keep pouring out to you."

"Xu Man, do you know?" Tian Xiaohui was still immersed in her confiding, "These 48 hours are the new time I have entered after experiencing the same scale of 30. It is a life I have never had before. I'm sure , This is the life I like, a life worth waiting for. I think I will never leave this life again." After saying these few words, Tian Xiaohui took a deep breath in order to welcome a soul-stirring long kiss.Then, Xu Man pulled Xiaohui to stand up, put her arms around her waist, and looked at the pictures of her children on the wall together. Xu Man said to herself: "Jiaojiao, my daughter, mother admits to you that mother is I left you for my own happiness. Please forgive me for this. Now my mother and Aunt Xiaohui have found happiness together. I hope you and Xiaolei can understand our life in the future. In any case, please believe that a person who is in happiness It is always easier to bring happiness to children as a mother. We no longer need to force a smile to cover up the pain in our hearts. We don’t need to put on lipstick to prevent others from seeing the paleness of our lips, and we don’t need to clench our teeth to avoid the truth Slipping down from a scarred heart does not require an invisible crutch to find a fulcrum for our helplessness. Because we have nothing else to give you except happiness."