Peeping at the ex-boyfriend next door who suddenly returned to China every day

I am a guest at a friend's house. "Ling Xuan was angry at first, but he was afraid of revealing that he bought a house in Zhong Yi's community, so his tone suddenly became shorter. Zhong Yi frowned and looked at him. Ling Xuan's hair was still dripping, and his face was a little pale. Wearing Nike slippers, and it’s weekend again, it’s self-evident what kind of friend you are.

"Then you go back quickly, what are you still standing here for?" Zhong Yi felt a pang of sorrow in his heart, looked down at his toes and said.

Ling Xuan laughed back angrily, and said, "If I wasn't here, how would I know about you and Xiao Zihang..."

His voice raised involuntarily, and several other customers in the cafe cast curious eyes. Zhong Yi frowned, got up and walked out, and said coldly: "It's not as dirty as you think."

"Then tell me clearly." Seeing his solemn expression, Ling Xuan knew that this man was really angry, so he quickly pulled Zhong Yi back.

When the skins of their palms touched, both of them shook, and they couldn't help but let go of their hands. Zhong Yi turned his eyes away, and said calmly, "There's nothing to say, and I don't need to explain anything to you, college alumni."

The phrase "university alumni" pointed out the current relationship between the two of them, like a basin of ice water, pouring cold water on Ling Xuan's head, and the anger died down just like that.

In the past, when they quarreled fiercely, both sides would throw out a lot of hurtful and cruel words, and in the end, Ling Xuan was always the first to compromise.In his heart, although Zhong Yi was older than him, when he quarreled, he was just a stubborn and stubborn naive little boy.

Once, Zhong Yi was angry because a school girl who had been chasing after Ling Xuan was jealous, and the two had a cold war. Zhong Yi found that he was still playing games with great interest, and had no intention of introspection at all, so he pushed him out of the door and locked him in the door. Outside.

Ling Xuan stood at the door, "My baby, I was wrong" and said for half an hour, but Zhong Yi remained unmoved.

He and this boy were so hungry that they had no choice but to go downstairs to buy stir-fried noodles and pack them up to eat. The tenant next door was a lady in her forties, seeing him standing pitifully, she moved a stool for him.

Halfway through the meal, the door rang, and Zhong Yi pushed the door open, his face was deliberately dull, and the grievance in his eyes couldn't be concealed, like the undercurrent of a frozen spring in spring when it first thawed.

Seeing him dying of distress, and refusing to speak out of face, he could only lift his head from the fried rice box and stare blankly at Zhong Yi.

Zhong Yi pushed him and said, "I came out because I was hungry, not to forgive you."

"Baby, I'm sorry, I shouldn't eat alone." Ling Xuan didn't have time to wipe his mouth, put the box lunch aside, stood up in the crowded and narrow corridor, and hugged his baby.

When he was eighteen or nineteen years old, that was an age when he could reach out and touch the sky. Ling Xuan had a lot of secondary school dreams that he wanted to realize, but he was ashamed to say that he was deeply buried in his heart. Those who travel the world, such as studying media, always want to direct and rewrite the history of Chinese film.

——"My dreams are colorful and colorful. They change with the mood of the day and the taste of the soda after playing ball, but they are always the same. There is always a you in them."

"Now I'm 26 years old, and I'm not doing too badly. It's just that in the process of making a living day after day, occasionally, um, it's a very ordinary day, I open a new box of Only then did I suddenly realize that in fact, I have been at the bottom of the mud and abyss, and I have already lost all of these, including you."

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Son of a bitch.

Why do you stop me?In what capacity are you stopping me?

Zhong Yi sneered almost all the way home. He opened the door and dropped the key when he got home. Then he felt a hungry stomach ache. He threw the noodles into the pot and found that he forgot to boil the water.Poured out the water again, turned over two pieces of toast that were about to expire in the refrigerator, and ate them. It was cold and hard.

He chewed the toast dryly, his cheeks were bulging, as if he was chewing someone's flesh and blood—recalling Ling Xuan's demeanor and dress like that fool just now, Zhong Yi was still trembling with anger.

In the process of filling his stomach, Xiao Zihang, who didn't know anything about what happened just now, called twice and rang twice, seeing that he didn't answer it was fine.

The phone turned from bright to dark in the bedroom with the lights off, and vibrated a few more times. Zhong Yi glanced at it from the corner of his eye. It was a WeChat message from Xiao Zihang.It was nothing more than explanations and some entangled words, the lines were greasy, he didn't bother to read any more, resisted the urge to block this old friend for many years, turned his phone over again, and lay on his back on the bed.

What's wrong with this world?

The person who should be contacted did not call, but the old classmate who was about to get married was inexplicably shaking and complaining.Zhong Yi got up again and looked at his mobile phone, Ling Xuan's number was not saved in the call log, it was still a string of unfamiliar numbers.

Zhong Yi's fingers paused, he opened the phone book, and found Ling Xuan's university number.This number used to be Ling Xuan's name, and Ling Xuan himself changed it to her husband behind Zhong Yi's back. During the Cold War, he himself changed it to a bastard. Now the name column is a period, quietly lying at the bottom of the address book.

He used to know this person's number by heart. When he was in a foreign country, Zhong Yi also sent a text message to this number, but there was no response. When he dialed again, only a cold female voice reminded him, "The number you dialed is empty." .

Even the most familiar people will become unfamiliar after a long separation, let alone a series of meaningless numbers.Those moments that he tried so hard to remember are just like this string of numbers. When he thinks about it one day, he can't remember it.

Contact name: a period.The story between them has already come to an end.

After a long silence and stagnant thinking, he pressed his finger on the delete button on the already dim phone screen, and clicked for confirmation.

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In the long journey of life, people can't avoid saying goodbye to many people and things, such as childhood partners, because we moved and parted, we said to them: "Come and play next time", but gradually forget them look like.For example, when classmates graduated from high school, they held each other's hands at the ceremony and said: "keep in touch often and be good friends for life", but they always adapt to the changes and turn each other into friends who like each other in the circle of friends.For example, lovers who love each other deeply, they kiss, hug, and make love sincerely, saying that they only love you for the rest of their lives, and most of them don't even want to mention your name in the end.

Those who say they must see each other again, in fact, they all know clearly in their hearts that at this moment, they have bid farewell to the passers-by in their lives, and they may never see each other again in this life.

Whether it's getting old or mature, people who keep saying they don't want to grow up end up in the vat called world and life.After becoming mature and sophisticated adults, they all know that no one can live without their hearts, and after a night of heartbreak, the earth will still turn the next day, so they still have to put those pieces together and put them back in their chests, pretending to be If nothing happened, clock in and go to work.

Ling Xuan threw the binoculars into the trash can, like many times in the past, and within half an hour later, he picked it out of the trash can and stuffed it into the deepest part of the storage cabinet—there were already many things in there that he was reluctant to throw away. The next one is the tokens related to Zhong Yi, and it would not be too crowded if there is one more.

Zhong Yi's work gradually became regular, and most of the tasks of handing over to the media company were given to Long Jiayu, and he naturally avoided re-encountering with his ex-boyfriend.The publishing house where my cousin works is also nearby, and I will bring him an extra copy when I cook occasionally.Zhong Yi went to work on time, ate regularly, and went to bed before twelve o'clock, and his troubled stomach never hurt again.

It's as if the brief scribbled reunion between them, and the violent tremor of the moment when the two hearts meet, are as if they have never existed.

How many seconds can the tip of the tongue feel obviously sweet when a piece of sugar is contained in the mouth?Putting sugar cubes into hot water requires an obvious taste to taste a little bit of thin sweetness.How many days can a longing last?After being put in for more than 1000 days, how much is left?

There is nothing left.

During the busy break, Zhong Yi recalled the scene at the entrance of the cafe, and couldn't help but compare it to the last quarrel before they broke up.

He said to Ling Xuan: "There is nothing to quarrel between us. I don't want to quarrel with you. I can't stay in school for long."

Ling Xuan was holding a glass to drink water, and put the glass back on the sink with a bang, and said, "It's up to you."

Such a scene is so similar, obviously it can be explained clearly, and obviously it can be retained, one bites the bullet and doesn't reach out, the other doesn't open his mouth because of face, just pass by like this.

Many things will change, but human nature is difficult to change. Times have changed. After countless reflections and remorse, when reviewing this old relationship, Zhong Yi will still feel emotional: Maybe they are not suitable in their bones.

When they fell in love when they were young, they would always tell each other that personality, constellation and blood type are nothing, as long as we love each other deeply.After separation, if you want to get back the feeling you had back then, the difference in personality is like a stumbling block, standing there, barging its teeth and claws, making people daunting.

This is indeed a worrisome question.

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Being busy will indeed make people omit a lot of heartbreak and worry. In the words of Zhong Yi's mother, "If you have time to be sad and twisted, it is because you are too busy."

It has been more than two months since I met Ling Xuan again, since the last time I was unhappy.

That was Xiao Zihang's wedding.

This kid is very popular. Almost all the college classmates who stayed in the city to work came here. They are all old friends who have been together for thousands of years. They are usually busy with work, but now they are sitting at the same table. children" and so on.

In a way, marriage