defenseless

Chen Nan promised coolly, and sent the little squid back, but the sadness of parting came within two steps.

Little Squid said that he had to accompany Su Ming recently, but he didn't say how to accompany him.

I don't know how much time I can take up.

Eh, I didn't ask clearly at the time.

He lit a cigarette sadly, and stood under a tree not far from Su's house, smoking lonely.

People often say that if you don't see each other every day, it's like every autumn. He has only been in less than 3 minutes, and he started to feel irritable and restless.

It's quite annoying, in fact, he has had this kind of similar situation before.

During those long days without any response.

But fortunately, this time it was no longer my unilateral waiting.

And it's amazing, when I'm with the little squid, my heartbeat and pulse run fast, but the whole person's state is calm.

Just now I was patronizing Le, but when I parted, I thought about a bunch of miscellaneous things.

Maybe his life in the first 17 years has been in a state of worrying about gains and losses, and now everything is stable, so that his worrying problems have not been completely settled.

As a result, Chen Nan had just lit his second cigarette when he heard the movement of the gate of Su's house.

When the little squid ran towards him, his heart almost melted.

Seeing that Chen Nan didn't answer, the little squid asked again in a soft voice: "The hypothetical request just now doesn't count. Do you approve it?"

Chen Nan tilted her head and rubbed against the head of the little squid: "Okay, the leader allows you to sell the vacation."

"Su Ming said to go out to relax." Little Squid still hugged him, her voice soft and coquettish, "I'm a left-behind child again."

"Such a big baby is taken by the old Chen family." Chen Nan stroked the tip of the hair on his head that had just been blown up, "Hey, why didn't I think we were so sticky before."

"I used to be sticky too." The little squid looked up at him, "You used to take advantage of me without knowing it. Now I have to take it back."

"I don't think I have any advantages that you should take advantage of." Chen Nan narrowed his narrow eyes slightly, "You are the only one who took advantage of it."

"Just coax me." The dimples on the little squid's face appeared, and he let go of Chen Nan. "By the way, how are Lu Xiao and Jiang Hongyu going?"

"I just thought of asking now?" Chen Nan laughed.

"Just now I had Su Ming on my head, and after seeing you, I divided up half of the space, how can I pretend to be other things." The little squid took Chen Nan's hand and walked out of the community.

Chen Nan looked at the little squid beside him, except for the color in the earlobe, the whole face was so calm that there was no wave, and he said this sentence calmly.

Chen Nan smiled, as if drinking a cup of hot cocoa, her heart was warm and sweet.

"Where are you going?" Chen Nan asked.

"I haven't eaten yet," the little squid dragged Chen Nan forward, "I'm a little hungry, you haven't answered me yet."

"It's about Lu Xiao." Chen Nan let him hold her hand. "I waited downstairs for a long time, and you didn't reply to me afterward. I was a little worried about you, so I went upstairs to have a look. It seemed that the atmosphere was quite happy. I went downstairs and took a taxi and came to look for it. You. It should be nothing, how old are they?"

"It's really all right." The little squid's voice was jumping, "Are you arguing that you value sex and despise friends?"

"You know my true face," Chen Nan said happily, "Don't go back on your word."

"No regrets, no regrets," said the little squid, "Why do I regret the one that holds the weight? I'm not stupid."

Whether the little squid is stupid or not is hard for Chen Nan to say, but he thinks he is pretty stupid.

Joy, anger, sorrow, and joy are all mobilized by one person, it is silly.

But also happy.

After leaving the community, Little Squid didn't want to eat much anymore, so he went to a small supermarket to buy an ice cream, and walked aimlessly along the road while eating the ice cream.

The dim street lights and the night that has not completely fallen make the road outside Jinxi Garden more clear and indifferent than usual, and there are few pedestrians and cars.

Quietly, as if the whole world was just the two of them.

"Tomorrow," Chen Nan said, "Come and have dinner with me, and the basketball team, you met last time downstairs at Ma Weihao's house."

"I can go." The little squid started to walk backwards again, "I thought outsiders couldn't participate."

"You are not an outsider." Chen Nan smiled at him, "I used to always say that you are my family member, but now you are really a family member."

"Then do they bring their families?" Little Squid asked happily.

"I don't know," Chen Nan thought for a while, "Generally, we bring girlfriends to parties. I used to want to report their puppy love."

"You didn't have a girlfriend before." The little squid blinked.

"Yes, there are a lot of them." Chen Nan said seriously with a sullen face.

The little squid lost interest immediately, and Chen Nan seemed to be able to see the tail that was waving happily just now drooping down behind him, and looked at Chen Nan without speaking, not to mention how wronged and resentful he looked.

"I'm teasing you." Chen Nan pinched his face, "There are quite a lot of girlfriends who unilaterally claim to be my girlfriend."

The little squid took a big bite of the ice cream, baring his teeth from the ice. The ice cream was very sweet, but his mouth had a sour taste: "It sounds like you are envious of someone having a girlfriend, and you want to report it."

"They are all girlfriends, I'll make a boyfriend." Chen Nan grabbed him and put him next to him, "I'm so awesome, who do I envy."

"I'm better than them, really." The little squid moved the ice cream to his left hand, and stretched out his right hand to hook Chen Nan's little finger. "I must learn to cook seriously. I am very smart, and I will learn it soon .”

Chen Nan sighed: "Let me learn."

In fact, Chen Nan did not say a word.

What he never envied was not the fact that other people had girlfriends.

What he has always envied are those who are accompanied by others.

Now, there is really nothing to envy others.

While staring blankly, the little squid poked Chen Nan and asked him to hold the ice cream for himself.

"I'll text Su Ming back, he's at the airport." Little Squid typed with his head down.

"I forgot to ask, just like you, Su Ming," Chen Nan said casually, "I'm still drunk in the afternoon, so I can leave as I please."

"It won't be long before my dad's birthday." Little Squid's fingers on the screen stopped, "He's having a hard time at this time of year, that's why he got drunk today. It's good to go out and relax."

"I don't know if I'm sober at this time, so I left in such a hurry." Chen Nan said casually.

Little Squid's heart tightened when he heard this, and he muttered: "Yes, why are you leaving in such a hurry."

"Don't worry." Chen Nan handed him the ice cream and asked him to take a bite. "I guess the wine is still on the top. I made the decision on the spur of the moment. I'll just say that. Besides, didn't his secretary go with him?"

"Yeah." The little squid bit off more than half of the ice cream in two or three bites, and fed the remaining piece of chocolate to Chen Nan.

Chen Nan: "How long is your father's memorial day?"

The little squid answered softly: "The 28th of next month."

Chen Nan turned to look at him: "Isn't it also your birthday?"

"That's right." Little Squid smiled, as if something was about to burst out of her beautiful eyes, "So I won't celebrate my birthday for a long time."

During the days of living alone, all festivals were painless for Chen Nan.

The only difference is that in every festival, the feeling of loneliness is particularly strong.

As for birthdays, his emotions were a little more complicated.

That day made him feel that he was missed.

And there are Chen Er and Ma Weihao's rowdy guys, and it's very lively on his birthday.

But he especially hated that day, because that day would remind him of his unchosen relationship with Chen Shaozhi Lingfei and the helpless and unchangeable status quo.

Every special day is easy for people to magnify their own emotions.

But when a day celebrating birth collides with a day commemorating death...

This year is the tenth year, the tenth year that the little squid has not had a birthday,

It was also the tenth year since Su Lin left.

Being together, the sweet moment is certainly something that people can't help but reminisce countless times, but the moist eyes of the little squid made Chen Nan scratch his heart and lungs even more.

Just such a sentence made him toss and turn, toss and turn, thinking for many days.

He didn't know what he was trying to figure out or do.That sentence made him very uncomfortable.

The days before Chinese New Year always go by very fast.In the blink of an eye, the final exam is just a few days away.

Yan Ting chatted with Jiang Hongyu a lot that time, and in the end Jiang Hongyu planned to return to City Y with the Lu family first, and then return to City U with Yan Ting for the New Year.

The relationship between Jiang Hongyu and his family has eased, and Lu Xiao's mood has also improved. Although he often has a calm and calm face of abstinence, it can be seen from the fact that he is more and more fond of running people, and he feels comfortable in his heart .

Chen Nan was not very clear about how Lu Xiao and Lu Xiangzhi lived together before, but he could feel that Lu Xiangzhi was also happy. There was one more permanent resident, and from time to time there were two people who loved to spend time together. The laughter never stopped.

As for the little squid, most of the time it is still so obedient that Chen Nan wants to tie it on his trouser waist at any time, but that unruly and self-willed energy has recently begun to show up again.In the past, when Su Ming was around, his back was tense, but now he doesn't know if it's because his sense of security towards Chen Nan is increasing day by day, and his petty temper is changing every day.

Generally speaking, at the end of the year, everyone is doing well, and the days seem to be getting better and better, and the mediocre happiness makes people feel quite hopeful.

The final exam is scheduled on Monday and Tuesday, and there are two full days off on weekends.

Lu Xiangzhi took Chen Nan and Lu Xiao to scan the New Year's goods on Saturday afternoon, and the little squid came to eat at noon, so he also brought it out.

However, Jiang Hongyu still had classes in Tianhai in the afternoon, and when he was about to come to find them, it was almost four or five o'clock.

When he arrived, he saw Chen Nan and the little squid standing on the steps in front of the supermarket from a distance.

Chen Nan was looking down at his mobile phone. The little squid was standing behind Chen Nan, stepping on the ladder one step higher, and finally looked about the same height as Chen Nan. His hands were covered under the hat on the back of Chen Nan's coat to keep warm, and he was wearing a woolen cap. His little head was shaking from side to side.

It wasn't until he saw Jiang Hongyu that he raised a hand and jumped: "Here, here!"

Jiang Hongyu smiled at him from a distance, and trotted up.

Chen Nan turned around and picked up the little squid.

When Jiang Hongyu passed by, he heard him start his daily training again.

Chen Nan: "How many times have I said that no one is allowed to jump up and down on the ladder. If I didn't catch it every time..."

The little squid blinked: "Anyway, you catch it every time."

"It's alright, alright, I can already hear the cocoon." Jiang Hongyu couldn't help interrupting him, "Where are Lu Xiao and Uncle Lu?"

"There are too many things to buy." Chen Nan carried the little squid to the lower ladder in front of him and stood there. "They go back and play a wave first, let us wait here."

"You don't follow back to mention it either." Jiang Hongyu said.

"There are so many things in the car that I can't even sit down." Chen Nan put his hands on the little squid's shoulders, "Besides, you let me rest assured to leave this unlucky child here alone."

"Uncle Lu said, I told you not to say bad words from now on." The little squid wanted to turn his head, but Chen Nan's hands quickly fixed it, and he couldn't move. on the palm.

"Stop making trouble." Jiang Hongyu took out his phone and looked at it. "My phone is out of battery. You can call Lu Xiao and ask where it is."

When Lu Xiao came back, he saw three people squatting in front of a crowded supermarket eating ice cream.

"It's because I don't have any steel in my pocket." Lu Xiao walked over and smiled, "What's the matter with you squatting here?"

"I said wait for you at the coffee shop on the other side of the street." Chen Nan clicked his tongue, "Jiang Hongyu also said that it was hard to find you when you came here."

"There's so much nonsense," Jiang Hongyu stood up and fed the half-eaten ice cream directly into Lu Xiao's mouth, "Where's Uncle Lu?"

"His annual meeting tonight," Lu Xiao licked the corner of his mouth where he had just eaten ice cream and said, "Didn't I tell you? I just went ahead of schedule for something."

Chen Nan: "Then why don't you continue to buy it?"

"Come buy it after the exam, and it's almost time for dinner." Lu Xiao took another bite of the ice cream in Jiang Hongyu's hand, looked at the time, "Let's go, I'll take you guys to finish dinner."

"Why don't you go back and I'll cook." The little squid's eyes flickered when he heard the opportunity, and he immediately attacked, showing an eager look.

Jiang Hongyu and Lu Xiao fell silent for a moment, and looked at Chen Nan in unison.

During Su Ming's absence, Little Squid basically ran to Lu's house every day, pestering Lu Xiangzhi to learn how to cook whenever he had the chance.

But cooking is the same as thousands of other things in this world, but it doesn't matter if you have a passion for cooking, without talent, and without long-term experience accumulation, it is always difficult to cook delicious food.

But it was even more difficult for Chen Nan. Lu Xiangzhi could barely taste a tenth of the finished product made by the squid, Lu Xiao was about the same, and Jiang Hongyu was as good as the sky, and the rest had to go into his stomach.

The little squid also stared at Chen Nan.

"University C is about to have a holiday." Chen Nan looked at the special line of University C coming from the bus station in front of him and instantly found the reason, "Do you still want to go to the snack bar that I took you to last time without arguing? closed."

Lu Xiao and Jiang Hongyu hurriedly nodded aside.

"Okay, go there quickly." The little squid was distracted when he thought of the delicious food, and urged himself.

Fearing that he would go back on his word, Chen Nan hurriedly took someone to the side of the road, took a taxi and set off immediately.

C University is not close to C Central and Lujia, there is no traffic jam, and it takes four to 10 minutes by car.Discovering the snack bar in University C was purely accidental.Last week, the city organized a free fighting exhibition match at University C, and Tianhai also sent representatives to participate, so the four of them took tickets and went to join in the fun.

After the fun was over, I randomly found a small shop outside the school to make do with something to eat, and it was only when I ate something in my mouth that I realized that I had found a treasure.

It was almost six o'clock when we arrived at the gate of C.Different from the desertedness on weekends, the number of people going out together at the school gate almost catches up with C middle school after school.

"What day is it today?"Chen Nan asked.

"It's just the weekend," Little Squid immediately took out his phone and looked at the calendar obediently, "Nothing special."

When they got to the store and listened to the chatting of the college students next door, they knew that there was an activity of thousands of people lighting Kongming lanterns in the central square in front at [-]:[-] pm.

As soon as the little squid heard about this activity, it also accelerated its eating speed.

"Slow down, slow down," Chen Nan took his hand holding the chopsticks, "Swallow what's in your mouth first, there's still time. I'll take you there after eating."

Jiang Hongyu smiled while picking out lettuce from Lu Xiao's bowl: "Chen Nan, you have more and more potential to be a kindergarten teacher."

The little squid still had something stuffed in its mouth, and its voice was vague: "I'm going to teach you."

It took Chen Nan and Lu Xiao a long time to stop to eat.

After eating and drinking, the four of them walked towards the square with their stomachs full.There are stalls selling Kongming lanterns all around the square.

The little squid hopped past, with a crisp and sweet voice: "Boss, we want four."

"I don't want it anymore," Chen Nan followed behind him, "Three are enough."

"I don't want either," Jiang Hongyu smiled, "Two."

"Why don't you?" Little Squid frowned, "You don't want to make a wish."

Chen Nan just smiled.

Jiang Hongyu pointed to Lu Xiao: "Anyway, I have almost the same wish as him, and I can do it with one."

The little squid looked at Chen Nan again, and Chen Nan just rubbed his hair.

The little squid turned to the boss and said, "Then two."

Chen Nan was about to take the money, but the little squid immediately took out the wallet: "I want to buy it for Lu Xiao. You let me pay."

When the four of them got together, there were always a lot, and they never divided who should pay the money. Usually, whoever took it first would give it.

Lu Xiao smiled: "Why."

Following Chen Nan's example, the little squid just laughed and didn't answer.Lu Xiao also went with him.

In the square, there are crowds of people rubbing against each other's shoulders.

Chen Nan had no choice but to wrap the little squid around his chest, and Jiang Hongyu and Lu Xiao were squeezed two meters apart.

"I found you," Chen Nan couldn't help asking, "Why don't people read cards and wishes every time."

Chen Nan still had a bit of a grudge about the last time Little Squid was rejected from the ceremony at the painting supplies store and when he wrote his wish on the lampshade just now.

"It won't work if you see it." The little squid was in the crowd, and behind him was Chen Nan's generous chest.

There were noisy voices all around, but he could still clearly hear Chen Nan's strong heartbeat.

The host in the middle of the field shouted: "1,2,3, [-], [-], light up the lights."

The square gradually lit up. Looking at it from a distance, the lights were twinkling, like a cluster of stars scattered in the world, which was too beautiful to behold.

After the little squid turned around, Chen Nan supported the lighted Kongming lantern together.

Chen Nan suddenly said in a deep voice, "Do you know why I didn't want the Kongming Lantern just now?"

The little squid couldn't see Chen Nan's face through a big Kongming lantern, so he had to prick up his ears to listen.

"Actually, I have thought about many different scenarios about happiness, but I never thought it would be like this, but I don't have any regrets. I am very grateful to have met you."

At this time, the host shouted loudly: "Put the lights on!"

Chen Nan and the little squid also let go.

The Kongming lanterns on the square floated into the air in groups, carrying all kinds of hopes and blessings.

The moment the sky lantern floated up, the little squid looked at Chen Nan.

He was looking up at the sky at this time, his side face and elongated neck were coated with a soft color by the light in the sky.

The little squid took his hand.

Chen Nan looked back at him and said with a smile, "My wishes have come true, I don't need Kongming lanterns anymore."

The author has something to say:

Thank you little angels for your messages, I am very happy.I wish you all good luck in the new year!