defenseless

Chen Nan sent the little squid to the intersection and stopped a taxi.

Before getting in the car, just as Chen Nan wanted to talk, the little squid quietly squeezed his hand: "I know. Send a message when you get home, and call if you have something to do."

Chen Nan smiled: "Okay. Get in the car."

Seeing that the car that the little squid was in was out of sight, Chen Nan turned around and walked into the community.

According to common sense, it is normal for adults to get drunk.

Whether it's at the wine bureau or at your own discretion, it's quite normal.

But Chen Nan felt something was wrong.

He shook his head, probably because he was used to Su Ming's meticulous look, and he was a little worried when he thought that the little squid would face a drunk when he returned home.

But when Su Youyu got into the car, his expression became much heavier.

Su Ming doesn't like to socialize, and he rarely goes to the bar.In these years, there is almost no time when drunk.

At least he hasn't seen it.

It's just that Su Ming doesn't sleep well, and sometimes he drinks a glass of whiskey before going to bed.

Aunt Luo is very appropriate and meticulous in her work. If there is no situation that is difficult for her to solve, she should not send him a text message.

He took out his phone and called the landline at home, but it was Su Ming's assistant Yang Chuan who answered the phone.

Yang Chuan: "Xiao Yu, Mr. Su is fine. Even Aunt Luo is not convenient to take care of Mr. Su personally. She called me before and couldn't get through, so I sent you a text message."

Su Youyu's hand holding the phone tightly: "Well, I'm already on my way back."

"Already back?" Yang Chuan paused for two seconds, "Okay, let's talk when we come back."

If it was just a vague guess before, Su Youyu was certain that something must be wrong the moment she heard Yang Chuan's words.

When they arrived at Jinxi Garden, Su Youyu almost ran home.

Aunt Luo was making hangover soup in the kitchen. When she saw Su Youyu came back, she simply said hello and said nothing else.

When Su Youyu was about to go upstairs, he saw a piece of debris in the corner.

He walked over to pick it up, and after looking at it for a while, he recognized that it was a corner of a piece of porcelain that Su Ming liked very much.Looking up at the place where the porcelain was placed in the living room, it was indeed empty.

He scanned the living room, two ornaments were missing, and the vase on the coffee table was also missing.There is a long scratch on the corner of the wooden coffee table, which is obvious.

At this time Yang Chuan came down from upstairs: "You are back."

He turned his head to look at Yang Chuan, only to realize that his voice was a bit rough when he spoke: "Uncle Yang."

Yang Chuan's complexion was also not very good, he forced a smile: "Mr. Su is in the bedroom, go and have a look."

Su Youyu looked at him, but Yang Chuan remained silent after saying this.

Just stood there, watching him quietly.

After he went up two stairs, Yang Chuan said softly behind his back: "You should spend more time with him. He is always happy when you are by your side."

Su Ming was lying on the bed, staring at the painting on the wall at the end of the bed. When Su Youyu entered, he didn't take his eyes off.

On the wall at the end of the bed is a common imitation of Van Gogh's starry sky, but the person who painted it was Su Lin.

"Su Ming." Su Youyu walked over and stood by the bed and called him softly.

"Yeah", Su Ming looked away, looked at him and smiled, "Didn't you go on a date, why did you come back here?"

Su Ming's entire eye sockets were red, and his eyes were also bloodshot, but his complexion was terribly pale.

Su Youyu was so close that he could still smell the alcohol.

"It's been about half a day." Su Youyu sat on the edge of the bed and looked straight at Su Ming, "He's so beautiful."

"Are you happy?" Su Ming smiled.

"And you, are you very unhappy?" Su Youyu asked without answering.

"It's just that I feel very uncomfortable today." Su Ming spoke with a somewhat obscure voice, "Then suddenly I'm very tired of being like this."

"What are you bored with?" Su Youyu tugged at his hand protruding from the bed, "How many people want to look like you, how pretty you are."

"You know that's not what I meant." Su Ming smiled weakly, "Why don't you say I can't forget him. No matter how many places I go to, no matter how many scenery I see, no matter how many people I meet, I won't forget him."

"Who wants you to forget about him?" Su Youyu pinched Su Ming's fingers with both hands, "That's right, don't keep thinking about him. It's been so long. Don't let him affect your life."

"I think so too," Su Ming said softly, "But I've gotten used to it a long time ago. If I don't think about his day, I feel that life is unreal."

"What's so good about him?" After saying this, Su Youyu sighed again, "Maybe my dad is not bad. But he broke his promise and abandoned you to get married. If Chen Nan treats me like this, I will never talk to him again. I live in a cool and unrestrained way and pissed him off."

"He didn't break his promise." Su Ming was amused by what he said, and smiled again. "He's very good. It can't be better."

Su Youyu lowered her eyes: "I'm very sad when you look like this."

"Day after day, year after year, as long as I'm still alive, I can't change it." Su Ming closed his eyes. "Some things have long been buried in my flesh and blood, deep into my bone marrow. You guard love, and you guard love." Hold on to hatred, but hold on to longing. Suddenly one day, you find that he loves you as well, and you don’t know whether to be sad or happy for a while. Then, you love him more, hate him and miss him more.”

Just as Su Youyu was about to speak, Su Ming's pupils shrank suddenly: "Did you hear that?"

Su Youyu raised his head, with water in his eyes, and a little dazed: "What did you hear?"

"Listen." Su Ming tilted his head on the pillow, "Someone is playing the violin, right?"

"No." Su Youyu listened carefully again, "There is no sound at all."

Su Ming suddenly threw off the quilt and got out of bed, walked to the window and looked down, then staggered back two steps, with a desperate expression, but with a little naivety, looking at Su Youyu who was a little frightened: "I I really heard it just now. Why didn’t I see anyone.”

His nightgown was baggy, exposing his bony chest.

Su Youyu stayed where she was.

He was frightened by Su Ming's sudden movement just now, and when he saw Su Ming's exposed chest, he was stunned again.

Su Ming, why are you so thin?

Before he recovered from this wave of accidents, Su Ming suddenly took off the painting from the wall with red eyes, held it in the air and fell heavily.

The carpet in the bedroom was thick and there was just a muffled sound.

When Su Youyu got up to stop him, Su Ming had already picked up the painting, and before he could straighten up, he threw it heavily towards the wall of the corridor outside the door.

Crackling, fragmented.

Su Ming was barefoot and trembling all over. Looking carefully, he was still sweating.

He took a trembling step forward, Su Youyu shouted "Su Ming" loudly, and Su Ming turned his head to look at him.

Su Ming tilted his head and smiled, but tears flowed from the corners of his eyes, his lips trembled twice, but he didn't speak.

Su Youyu stood up straight with excitement just now, and froze in place.

He had never seen Su Ming like this before.

Desperate and sick.

Aunt Luo and Yang Chuan were already calm when they came up.

The frame was cracked and the mirror was shattered.

Yang Chuan dismantled the frame and took off the painting.Aunt Luo was cleaning up.

He stood at the door, just looking at the back of Su Ming's head, and didn't come in.

Su Ming stood for a while, then suddenly squatted down on the spot, with his head depressed, and soon there was a choked cry.

Yang Chuan came in, squatted beside him, and patted his back.

He held the painting in his other hand, and on the rolled-up back corner of the painting, there were a few lines of tiny words that read: TOMYLOVE:

You are my starry sky,

When Su Youyu walked over to see it, Su Ming's voice also stopped.

Su Ming saw the words behind the painting.

But after seeing it, he unexpectedly calmed down.

When he straightened up and stood up, he had already returned to his previous invulnerable and cold posture.

If it weren't for the still red eye sockets, it seemed that people would almost forget what happened just now.

He waved his hands to Yang Chuan and Aunt Luo, his voice hoarse: "Go out, I'll sleep for a while, don't clean up yet."

After speaking, he walked to the bed and directly lifted the quilt and lay down on his side.

Yang Chuan stared at Su Ming on the bed with a solemn expression for a while, and then walked out of the bedroom softly, and Aunt Luo followed him out.

Su Youyu was still standing by the bed, and when he turned around, he could see Su Ming lying on his side facing him.

His eyes were closed tightly, his face was calm, he seemed to have noticed Su Youyu's gaze, and without opening his eyes, he said softly, "Lie down with me."

Su Youyu took off his coat, and lightly got on the bed.

"Are you scared?" Su Ming opened his eyes and smiled, "So I can't drink more than one drink each time, it's too easy to perform live."

"Is it just because you drank too much?" Su Youyu also turned sideways to face Su Ming.

His eyes are so clear that one can see through emotions at a glance.

"I'm sorry for letting you see me like this." Su Ming raised his hand and patted his head, "Don't worry, I always feel sad at this time of year. This year I didn't hold back to let it out, and it's much better now."

"Uncle Lu said, there is no need to say sorry to family members." Su Youyu reached out and hugged Su Ming. Feeling Su Ming's thin body, he felt that his eyes were sore and swollen, and he closed them subconsciously. I said I'm sorry. Whether you're sad or venting, as long as it makes you feel better, it's fine, but you have to remember that you are not alone, you still have me."

"Family." Su Ming repeated these words.

"We are a family, aren't we? I never told you about this." Su Youyu paused, "Su Ming, thank you for being by my side all these years. Thank you for giving me a family. Thank you for being here after Su Lin left. Playing the role of father in my life."

Su Ming's body trembled visibly.

"Thank you, Dad." After Su Youyu finished speaking, tears wet Su Ming's chest.

Su Ming has always been a rational person, and even these years his pain is forbearable and restrained.

What supported him was the promise and responsibility to Su Lin at first, and later, the love and reluctance for this child.

Slowly, this bond became deeper and deeper, and he began to become a real parent.How many times did he and Su Ming talk about the role he wanted to be in the future.

What Su Lin promised to give him was finally given to him.

The room fell silent for a while.After a long time, Su Ming finally said, "Call again."

Su Youyu held Su Ming's hand tightly, and her voice was a little astringent after crying, "Father."

"I'm not used to it," Su Ming said with a smile, "But it sounds really nice."

"I'm not used to it either." Su Youyu sniffed, rubbed against his chest, and lowered her voice, "Don't scare me like this in the future."

"Okay." Su Ming touched the back of his head and said again, "Okay."

Xu Shi felt relieved when he heard these words, and Xu Shi was really a little tired. It didn't take long for Su Ming to notice that the person in his arms was silent. Hearing the smooth and even breathing, it turned out that he had fallen asleep.

This little thing is exactly the same as when he was a child, Su Ming couldn't help laughing.

The person in his arms was like a small stove, warming Su Ming from inside to outside.

What Su Lin left for him was not only memories, but also a future that the two of them hadn't realized before.

These years, he has been muddled in his memories, and at this moment, he suddenly wants to see what will happen in the future.

He closed his eyes and said softly in his heart, we will meet sooner or later, then later.

When Su Youyu woke up, it was already late.

Su Ming was still asleep.He got up slowly, picked up the coat next to him and went downstairs.

Yang Chuan didn't leave, but was still sitting in the living room.

Just as he was about to open his mouth, Yang Chuan said, "Your classmate came over just now, but I didn't call you because you fell asleep."

classmate?Su Youyu was stunned for a while before realizing it, and immediately took out the phone from his coat.

They were all missed calls and text messages from Chen Nan.

Last message: I'm at Jinxiyuan's house, wake up, call me back.

"Uncle Yang, I'll go out for a while. If you're hungry, ask Aunt Luo to cook you something to eat." Su Youyu nodded to Yang Chuan, changed his shoes and went out the door calmly.As soon as the door was closed, he ran in the direction of Chen Nan's house.

It is estimated that I will be criticized, and I swear that I will send a text message or call back, and forget it.

But even if he knows that he will be criticized in the past, he can still run like a rabbit.

Of course it's not about speed, it's about cuteness.

Not long after he went out, Su Ming came down from the upstairs, looked at the worried Yang Chuan lightly, and said, "Book the plane ticket."

Yang Chuan was stunned.

"Book a plane ticket", Su Ming repeated again, "Didn't you say it's time to go back and continue treatment?"

Yang Chuan came back to his senses, and immediately took out his cell phone from his pocket. When he got excited, the cell phone fell to the ground as soon as he took it out.

Su Ming looked at Aunt Luo who was at the side again: "Go upstairs and help me pack my things."

Chen Nan was sitting in front of her house smoking a cigarette. When she saw the little squid coming, she didn't get up right away. She extinguished the cigarette in an empty soda can beside her.

"Little squid," Chen Nan smiled, "There are sharks chasing after you. They run so fast."

He was in a hurry when he ran just now, and he was blown away by the oncoming wind. When he saw Chen Nan sitting there, he smiled at himself, not to mention how charming he was, and he was drunk again.So Su Youyu stared at Chen Nan with her eyes fixed on Amber, completely unresponsive, "Hey, do sharks eat squid?" Chen Nan took out his mobile phone, "I have to check it out, so that my boyfriend doesn't think so. I'm like an illiterate."

The three words "boyfriend" were like a switch to Su Youyu. As soon as Chen Nan said it, his heart became excited.

He came over and sat beside Chen Nan, a little aggrieved: "You are not happy to see me coming."

"It's cold on the ground." Chen Nan took a book from his bag and put it on him, and then said, "How can you tell that I'm not happy? I'm happy to come back here and think about staying in the same neighborhood with me for an hour."

"I fell asleep," the little squid leaned against Chen Nan, "Why don't you go in after you've been here for so long, it's so cold sitting outside in the wind."

"Wouldn't it be possible to see you the first time you come by the door?" Chen Nan smiled.

"I didn't see you sitting in front of our house." The little squid recovered his IQ as soon as he sat next to Chen Nan.

"I don't want to go in." Chen Nan put his hand around the little squid's shoulder, and touched his ear with the other hand, "Running so fast, the ears are all red from the wind, I'll keep you warm."

"Hands are cold too," Little Squid immediately stretched out his hands obediently, "Warm me too."

Chen Nan smiled, took his hands and rubbed them, the touch of those delicate white hands made her feel distracted, and immediately asked: "Is everything okay at home, why is the man who opened the door today a man I don't know. "

"Su Ming is drunk." Little Squid lowered his eyes, "That's Su Ming's secretary."

"I know he's drunk," Chen Nan smiled, "You didn't text me or call me, I always thought something was wrong."

"Do you like me?" Little Squid suddenly raised his head and asked, his eyes sparkled, making Chen Nan's heart tremble.

"I like it." Chen Nan suppressed her smile and said, "I like it."

"Do you like it so much that you want to be together anytime and anywhere?" Little Squid continued to ask.

"Yeah." Chen Nan couldn't help being amused, and pinched his ears to play.

"Hey", the little squid let go of Chen Nan's hand, hugged his knees, looked at his toes on the ground, "Then I can't be with you anytime, anywhere, do you still like me?"

"What's the problem?" Chen Nan grabbed his shoulders again, "I'm not together anytime and anywhere now. No, I still like you."

"I mean," the little squid said in a muffled voice, "maybe a little less than the time we spend together now."

"How much is a little bit." Chen Nan also imitated him and slowed down his speech.

"Don't tease me," the little squid raised his head anxiously, "I'll tell you seriously."

Chen Nan patted his head and comforted him: "Tell me, what's the matter.

"I want to ask for a leave." The little squid said in a low voice against Chen Nan pitifully.

Chen Nan raised her eyebrows: "Huh?"

"Su Ming is in a bad mood recently, I need to spend more time with him," the little squid said seriously, "I have reflected on myself, I have been thinking about playing with you recently, and I always chat with you when I go home. Have a good talk with Su Ming."

Chen Nan nodded: "Yes."

"Don't criticize me." The little squid added worriedly.

"Look at how trembling you are," Chen Nan pinched his face, "Show us the domineering spirit you used to know when you first met us."

The little squid looked at him sullenly: "I'm not bossing around."

"You have to have the courage to ask me." Chen Nan smiled, "What are you afraid of? I will definitely satisfy you if I can satisfy you."

"I'm just afraid." Little Squid frowned, "What if you don't like me anymore."

Chen Nan choked and sighed: "It seems difficult at present."

The little squid who "asked for leave" was obviously much more interested, and Chen Nan coquettishly coquettished him a few times on the way to send him home.

When they got to the door, they didn't go in. They grabbed Chen Nan's hand and talked for a while, then couldn't help but hugged Chen Nan on tiptoe and kissed Chen Nan's face.

Her mouth was still beautifying her behavior: "Look at how caring I am, I know you must want to kiss me."

"Then kiss more." Chen Nan supported the back of his head, pressed his lips and kissed lightly, "Okay, go in, wait for me to savor it slowly."

The little squid hopped to the door in two or three steps, and finally gave Chen Nan a reluctant look, and entered the room.

When he returned to the room, he was stunned. Su Ming and Yang Chuan were sitting in the living room with two suitcases beside them.

"I'm back." Su Ming stood up with a smile.

After tidying up, Su Ming looked handsome and energetic as usual.

"Where are you going?" asked the little squid.

"I plan to go abroad to relax," Su Ming said, "It's not an option to be bored here."

Although Little Squid was worried and a bit reluctant, he felt that Su Ming was right.

"Are you alone?" He walked over and sat beside Su Ming.

"You Uncle Yang will accompany me." Su Ming smiled, "You still have to take the final exam, so I won't take you with me. After the exam, I'll come back and pick you up to go back to City B for the New Year."

"Then you have fun," the little squid reminded, "If you are still in a bad mood, call me. By the way, you must answer my call."

"Understood." Su Ming touched the top of his head, "Get up and hug me again."

When sending Su Ming out, he emphasized it again: "You must contact me every day, you know?"

Su Ming looked at him meaningfully: "Who are you so worried about learning from? I've never seen this before."

The little squid's ears turned red instantly: "I'm worried about you."

"Understood." Su Ming hugged him again, and said softly, "When I come back, everything will be fine."

He nodded heavily, and turned around to go back to the house after watching Su Ming's car disappear from sight.As soon as he turned around, he saw Chen Nan not far away.

Chen Nan stood under a tree, smiling slightly at him.

He ran over and hugged Chen Nan's back heavily, and he could still smell the faint smell of smoke on Chen Nan's body along the wind: "Big wood, I want to sell my vacation."

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I wish you all a Happy New Year!