defenseless

Chen Nan had a dream.

In the dream, he was still at the age of withdrawn and perverted seven years old, and was blocked in an alley by three gangsters who asked him to "pay a little cigarette money".

At that time, Lao Tian was still a young bachelor who had just turned 22 years old. Holding a large stack of leaflets in his hand, he fell from the sky and rescued the little Chen Nan who was about to die rather than obey.

After beating off the gangsters, Lao Tian, ​​who was still Xiaotian, squatted on the ground and picked up the scattered leaflets one by one. He was heartbroken for the 50 yuan to print the leaflets. Little Chen Nan asked him with puffy cheeks: "I can learn ?"

Lao Tian turned his head and looked at him, with a smirk on his face: "If you have money, you can, do you have it?"

Xiao Chen Nan nodded: "Yes, there are many."

He lowered his head to take money out of his bag, and finally took out a handful of candy. Under the transparent candy wrapper, there were light brown candies with dark brown arcs around the edges.

At this time, a thin figure suddenly appeared at the entrance of the alley, and said coldly: "You said this candy looks like my eyes?"

Then he woke up.

He likes to sleep on his back. He turned his side all night yesterday, and his right arm was a little numb from the pressure.His left hand was still resting on the little squid's head. At this moment, the little squid was sleeping soundly with its head against his chest, breathing long and long.Only a small piece of white and delicate skin behind the ear was leaked.Under the quilt, his feet were close to Chen Nan's feet, and there was a warm and smooth touch.

Chen Nan couldn't help but gently patted his head, the little squid seemed to have gained some consciousness, and rubbed against his chest twice.

Chen Nan smiled, and it was no wonder why she always treated him like a child.

Su Youyu said that she is not small, she will be 16 soon, although she is not as tall as Chen Nan, she is still close to 174.Lying with me at this moment, it is clearly the stature of a young man.

But his image always overlaps with the quiet and stubborn child in the alley in Chen Nan's dream, so Chen Nan can't help giving him more care and indulgence, as if by doing so, in the parallel world, that child will also get some warmth.

Chen Nan quietly got out of bed and tucked in the quilt for him.It was already eight o'clock in the morning, but the light coming in from outside was terribly dim and cold, and the air was filled with the depressing, lazy, and lifeless smell of winter.

He shivered when he got out of bed, washed up briefly, put on his clothes and went out.

The sky outside is cold gray, and the other side of the city has a little ink color.He pressed his hat and bought some soy milk and fried dough sticks in front of the hotel.

The winter wind was rustling in my ears, as if it was about to blow into people's hearts, and it also woke up Chen Nan's head a bit.

It was as if a projector had been installed in his mind, and yesterday's pictures were automatically played again like a slideshow.

Live life, brothers have to do.He took a deep breath, made a decision in his heart, and strode back.

After knocking on the door of the next room for a long time, Jiang Hongyu opened the door wrapped in his overcoat. Although the buttons were fastened, Chen Nan could see that he was not wearing anything underneath the open collar with a glance at the neck. There is a red mark of unknown origin.

Chen Nan looked away and stretched out a hand: "Breakfast."

When he went back, the little squid had already woken up and was leaning against the bedside table in a daze.

Chen Nan walked over to put down his breakfast, took out the soy milk and put it in a straw, and sat on the edge of the bed to deliver it to his mouth.

Su Youyu frowned slightly: "I haven't brushed my teeth yet."

His usually clear voice was murmured and blamed because he hadn't opened it since he got up early.

"Okay, don't be particular about it." Chen Nan smoothed his hair with the other hand, "Warm your stomach first."

The little squid drank two sips of soy milk, and his eyes became clearer.

Chen Nan pondered for a while, then said, "I have a question for you."

It's really not his style to grind like this, and the little squid turned his head and gave him a strange look.

"I just want to ask." Chen Nan touched his nose, "How did you accept it after you knew about your father and Su Ming?"

Su Youyu tilted her head: "Just accept it like this. Oh, so this is my father's former lover."

Chen Nan pursed her lips slightly: "There is no process of overcoming?"

Su Youyu gave him another strange look: "Overcome what."

Chen Nan: "Overcome their intimacy."

Su Youyu: "Why do you have to overcome it?"

Chen Nan's speech was incomplete: "I mean, after all, after all, their feelings are rare, not so common, there must be a process..."

Su Youyu shook his head: "Emotions are emotions. For me, there is no difference between a few people and a few people. I didn't think about it that much."

The simple and frank words of the little squid moved Chen Nan's heart.

"They will do some intimate actions, won't you feel uncomfortable?" Chen Nan asked.

Su Youyu had a clear face: "Don't lovers always have intimacy?"

"You can accept it. Have you ever thought that most people may have other opinions on such a matter?" Chen Nan expressed as tactfully as possible, "After all, your family is different from other classmates." Including you Aren't the current personality and social situation one of the causes?

"I can't change other people's thoughts," Su Youyu said softly, "so I don't want others to know, because the only thing I'm afraid of is that other people's opinions will hurt Su Ming."

"For me, Su Ming's happiness is the most important thing."

On the way back from the examination room, it snowed.This is the first snow this year in City B.

The snowflakes rustled, covering the entire city in a short while, and the gray and withered city of B was immediately embellished with a touch of lingering agility by the heavy snow.

Su Youyu's face was almost pressed against the car window.

Chen Nan leaned close to his ear and said in a low voice, "I'll take you out to make a snowman this afternoon."

The scorching breath he breathed on Su Youyu's ear made Su Youyu shrink back uncomfortably.

Turning his face slightly, he found that Chen Nan's smiling face was enlarged in front of him, his eyes were beautifully curved, and the long eyelashes at the end of the eyes were close together, making the whole eye shape look narrow and moving.

"Hush", Chen Nan put the index finger of his right hand on his lips, walked around him with his left hand, and put it on the car window, "I haven't seen snow for a long time."

Su Youyu looked at his slender and strong hands with well-defined joints on the car window, and pursed his lips.

Lu Xiao had a mess with Jiang Hongyu yesterday, so he leaned on his seat to rest.Jiang Hongyu was wearing earphones, but there was no song playing inside. He looked out of the window, a little lost in thought.

Chen Nan brought them breakfast in the morning, which meant that he initially accepted this fact.

What about in the future?The Jiang family cannot accept his sexual orientation, so he can leave.But what about Lu Xiao?If Lu Xiangzhi doesn't accept it, what will Lu Xiao do?Lu Xiao couldn't leave, and it was impossible to leave.

This road is too lonely and dangerous, he can grit his teeth and resist most of the obstacles, but Lu Xiangzhi's unknown attitude, only Lu Xiao can bear it, he can't share it.

He couldn't help looking in Chen Nan's direction, and saw Chen Nan lying on the car window with the little squid wrapped around his chest.He didn't know if he was blind, the little squid's ears were terribly red.

When Chen Nan came to call Jiang Hongyu in the afternoon, he was already in good health as usual. As soon as he entered the door, he began to babble: "Wear thicker, I just saw a large open space behind the hotel, go down and play for a while, and then buy a few bowls of mutton rice noodles and go back to the room to eat." , Lu Xiao, you are outside your neck, you can take Jiang Hongyu's scarf, I am so cold that I wear two sweaters in my down jacket. Hey Jiang Hongyu, tie your shoelaces if they are loose."

"Can you put a period in your words?" Lu Xiao smiled and put on the scarf.

Chen Nan turned around and pulled the zipper of the little squid's clothes upside down, almost stuck to his chin.

"What period? I always bring an exclamation point when I speak!" Chen Nan helped the little squid straighten the baseball cap on his head, and lifted it up a bit, "Let's go, speak softly."

"If you don't speak, you will be silent." Jiang Hongyu couldn't help but yell at him.

City C hardly ever snowed, and when it snowed, it was sleet, and the ground turned into ice water, so when Chen Nan stepped on the snow for the first time, she was really excited.

"Fuck me," Chen Nan laughed, "It's even up to my ankles, step on it."

It doesn't often snow in City Y, Jiang Hongyu is actually quite excited inside, but seeing Chen Nan like this, he starts to pretend again: "Chen Nan, you are Geng."

What hit him back was a fistful of snow thrown by Chen Nan.

Lu Xiao was also amused, and pushed him directly from behind. Jiang Hongyu was caught unprepared by a sneak attack, and fell face-down into the snow.

"You can just pretend, who just looked at the snow outside in the room and said at least ten fucks!" Lu Xiao mercilessly exposed him.

Jiang Hongyu jumped up from the ground and fell into the snow with Lu Xiao in his arms.The two started playing without warming up, wrestling in the snow.

Chen Nan walked over and reached out to the little squid under the eaves, with a bright smile: "Come down quickly, don't you really want to play?"

Su Youyu stared at the hand he handed over, still dazed.

Chen Nan directly wrapped his arms around his waist and threw him to the ground, then bent over and threw a snowball at him.

Chen Nan saw that the little squid had been lying in the snow without moving for a long time, so she stepped forward to look, "Hey, are you okay?" Before she got close, she was caught off guard by the snow.

The little squid had already sat up, his mouth was slightly raised, his eyes were as clear as the sky after snow, and his whole body was indescribably bright in the snow.

Chen Nan's eyes were also covered with snow, and he wiped it away with his hands, and saw the little squid looking at him with a smile, his fair face was tinged with crimson, his body was covered with snow, and his hat was also thrown off On one side, the whole person was steaming with freshness.

Chen Nan was stunned for a second, then immediately grabbed a handful of snow and threw it over.

"The little squid has learned badly, and actually knows how to sneak attack people." Before he could react, Chen Nan pressed down on him, scratched his nest, and smeared snow on his face at the same time.

The four of them were tired from playing, lying on the snow with their heads against their heads, laughing and panting.

Jiang Hongyu: "Let's take a photo."

"Okay," Chen Nan straightened up, "Come on, come on, get up quickly."

Jiang Hongyu pulled Lu Xiao to stand next to the snowdrift that could barely be called a snowman just now, with a stretched face and a very charming smile. It is estimated that the girls in the school would not want to be quiet when they saw this month's class 1, so Lu Xiao stood quietly by him Beside him, Qingrun Junlang, Chen Nan saw the two through the camera, and suddenly felt that it was good to freeze time at this moment.

Chen Nan stabilized his mind, laughed and said, "I'll count 1, 2, 3, Lu Xiao, you have to smile more, get ready, 1,..." Before 2 and 3 could be said, Jiang Hongyu hugged Lu Xiao's. shoulders, the corners of the lips were gentle, and said "I love you" softly in a voice that only the two of them could hear.

Like a snowflake, it fell lightly in Lu Xiao's heart.

Lu Xiao was still immersed in shock, only to realize that Jiang Hongyu was still holding his shoulder, and quickly moved his hand away.

When Chen Nan saw it, she hurried over and handed the phone to Jiang Hongyu, and grabbed Lu Xiao's shoulder: "Take a picture of the two of us."

Lu Xiao's heart was about to jump out. He was holding his breath, afraid that if he took another breath, this dream of pink makeup and jade would be shattered.

Until Chen Nan stood aside and touched the top of the little squid's head to take pictures, he still hadn't recovered.