defenseless

No one is born with the ability to deal with the harm that the environment brings upon them.

No one taught Chen Nan.The deformed family environment allowed him to form a self-protection mechanism.

He has a circle of his own.

He is indifferent to the world outside the circle, cold and tough; while everyone inside the circle has been drawn into his safe zone, he does whatever he wants, trusts completely, only delivers with sincerity, and never guesses or speculates.

But the perceptual world has never had a boundary that is clear and clear.He has been paralyzed by the blind spot of security for too long, causing many things to be unreal.

When the daily bits and pieces of the relationship between Lu Xiao and Jiang Hongyu and those weird details slowly gathered together in his mind, the gradually forming strange outline made him flustered and terrified.

Any real respect and understanding is based on the cognition of the matter itself.

And this concept is too far away from him, and there is no way to deal with it in his limited life experience so that he can react to this matter.

Any homosexual couple in the world used to be indifferent to him, and he could accept it verbally, including the relationship between Su Ming and Xiao Squid's father. It will not have any influence, he has no right to interfere with other people's sexual orientation, nor does he have the thought and energy.

Does he really agree with it?He never thought about it deeply.

And when such emotions were happening to his two friends, he lost his soul.

Disgusting?He would never treat Lu Xiao and Jiang Hongyu like this.

Do you not accept it?This is his friend like family, the life-saving straw for him struggling in this world, his light, how can he let go.

do you accept?How to accept it?he does not know.

Can it still be like before?But the brothers became lovers and lovers, and he thought he couldn't take it calmly.

How do you do it to be "correct"?

he does not know.

What should Lu Xiangzhi do if he finds out?What will they do next?

He doesn't know, he doesn't know at all.

The only thing he can confirm is that, based on his understanding of these two people, this is definitely not a relationship born of impulse or curiosity.

Lu Xiao is a sober, self-sufficient, serious and transparent person who knows what he wants very well; while Jiang Hongyu is too ruthless and decisive, he gave up everything and came to City C alone.

How can their feelings be stopped, or in other words, who can stop them.

Do you really want to accept it?How to accept it.

He began to wonder again if he really knew the two of them.

What if the two break up?

Chen Nan felt that his sanity had been evaporated by the heat in the bathroom, his whole body was weak, and his head was dizzy. It was not until Lu Xiao knocked on the door that he turned off the water, put on his clothes and walked out awkwardly.

The two people who were sitting on the carpet in the room eating supper didn't know that their lives were almost over in Chen Nan's mind.

Seeing Chen Nan coming out, the little squid moved a nest for him.

"I ordered wontons for you," Lu Xiao said, "You can choose the drink yourself, and buy whatever you want."

Chen Nan hummed, scooped up a wonton and fed it into his mouth.

"Isn't it hot?" The little squid glanced at him.

"Huh?" Chen Nan asked.

"Why are you so absent-minded?" Lu Xiao said as he picked out the lettuce from the noodles and put it in Jiang Hongyu's bowl.

That's right, Lu Xiao doesn't like to eat lettuce, and used to leave it in the bowl when he and himself ate noodles.After Jiang Hongyu came, it naturally became a pinch in Jiang Hongyu's bowl.

How could I have paid attention to these things before, even if I watched them, I didn't think much about them.

Chen Nan stared blankly for a moment, it seems that there is still a difference between brothers and daughter-in-law.

Jiang Hongyu?young married woman?Doesn't seem right?

Where do you want to go! ?

Chen Nan shook her head, and quickly brought herself back to her senses: "I've been in the bathroom for too long, and I'm a little dehydrated."

Jiang Hongyu took a water bottle from the bag next to him and unscrewed it and handed it to him. There were still some small red spots with ruptured blood vessels under the skin of his right hand, which were left when he just beat someone.

Chen Nan looked at his face, there were two scratches on his forehead, he took care of it briefly and put on two waterproof bandages.

"You're all right, put on some ointment later. Remember to wear a hat tomorrow." Chen Nan said.

"Well," Jiang Hongyu replied, "There is still a tube of medicine on your bedside table, remember to wipe it later. Little Squid reminds him, otherwise he will forget it."

Chen Nan was restless and didn't know how to eat, so he took a few mouthfuls and said, "I'll go to the stairs to smoke a cigarette."

When he got to the stairs of the emergency exit door at the end of the corridor, he realized that he had changed his clothes and hadn't taken any cigarettes or lighters.

"Fuck me", just as I turned around, I saw a tall figure standing by the door, "Fuck me, can you make some noise!"

Chen Nan didn't know why the fire started.

Jiang Hongyu threw the cigarette and the lighter to him next to each other.

"Thanks." Chen Nan took the cigarette and took one out to light himself. He heard the sound of the tobacco burning.

"Do you know that every time you get nervous, you have to smoke?" Jiang Hongyu said suddenly.

Chen Nan smiled: "You are the second person to say that."

There was a brief silence.

Jiang Hongyu: "You know."

Chen Nan didn't answer.He didn't know how to answer himself.

"I won't say much else." Jiang Hongyu's voice was low and deep, "Just one thing. Lu Xiao didn't want to hide it from you. He planned to talk to you after the exam. You give him some time to let him say it himself."

Chen Nan's voice was muffled: "You also give me some time."

Jiang Hongyu smiled: "Don't persuade me?"

The smoke ring that Chen Nan exhaled was dense in the darkness: "Is it useful?"

"It's useless." Jiang Hongyu laughed for a while, then stopped laughing, "I didn't want to force you, but I really want you to accept it. I can be indifferent to many things and people, but you are not included."

Chen Nan remained silent for a while.

"Actually, I still haven't realized it, do you know?" Chen Nan walked in front of Jiang Hongyu, leaning against the wall with his back, "I've heard of it before, but I didn't think it would be possible for someone so close to me. I don't really understand. "

"Let me take it easy," Chen Nan lowered her head, "It takes a long time to digest a rice dumpling, you can't let me swallow a bomb and immediately let you off with fireworks."

When I went back, Little Squid was taking a shower in the bathroom, and Lu Xiao was packing up the leftovers.

After chatting with Jiang Hongyu for a few words, his initial shock and panic have eased a lot.Jiang Hongyu was still the same Jiang Hongyu, and Lu Xiao was still the same Lu Xiao.Who stipulated that the relationship between the two of them must be what he thought he imagined?

The panic dissipated a lot, but the worry and worry lingered in my heart.Even his reaction to this relationship is so bad, how difficult they will face in the future.No matter how calm and composed Jiang Hongyu wanted to appear in front of him, the consideration in his tone had already exposed his trembling and fearless heart.

But Chen Nan couldn't lie to him. If he couldn't really agree with them, how could he fight side by side with them and play a role in their small world.

Lu Xiao nagged him again to remind him to check his wounds and apply medicine, before he was dragged back to the room by Jiang Hongyu.

He sat on the carpet and leaned against the bed, and stayed there for a while, until the little squid came out after taking a bath, and then he came back to his senses.

The little squid's hair was wet and dripping, and the whole body was covered with mist.

Chen Nan frowned and stood up, took a towel from the bathroom and asked him to wipe his hair.

Su Youyu rubbed it randomly twice and then threw it aside, squatting in front of the luggage bag to rummage through things.

Chen Nan sighed, and squatted behind him with a towel to help him wipe.

"What are you looking for?" Chen Nan asked.

"Blindfolds, I can't sleep with light on." Su Youyu was scratching in the luggage bag.

The little squid's hair is very soft, but it has a lot of volume. Chen Nan wiped it for a while and grabbed a handful, but it was still moist.

Chen Nan stood up and went to look in the cabinet in the bathroom for a long time, but he didn't see the blower. After looking around, he found it in the bedside table.

The little squid was still squatting on the luggage bag, and Chen Nan sat him on the bed, plugged the hair dryer into the bedside socket, and sat behind him to help him dry his hair.

After blowing it, he rubbed it again: "Okay, I won't look for the blindfold if I don't find it. The curtains in the room should be blackout."

He walked over and closed the blackout cloth and the outer layer of curtains, then turned to Su Youyu and said, "Turn off the lights and try."

The moment the light went out, he felt his eyes go dark, and the next second he saw the mottled light and shadow on the little squid's face, and his pair of light brown pupils that complemented the light and shadow.

The lights of the city are projected in this room through the hollow pattern, which is vaguely similar to the picture in a certain movie scene.

Chen Nan was holding back something in her heart, lying quietly on the bed, letting go for a while, and then started worrying about Lu Xiao and Jiang Hongyu again.The little squid in the next bed turned over countless times and still hasn't calmed down.

Chen Nan couldn't count how many times he sighed today, turned over and got out of bed, shrank to the next bed, and crawled beside the little squid.He was lying on his side, and gently covered Su Youyu's eyes with one hand.

"Go to sleep." Chen Nan lowered her voice and said.

Su Youyu's eyelashes swept across his palm, and then gave a soft "hmm".

His body was burning hot, and he could still smell the cool ointment. Su Youyu moved towards him, and there was no movement for a while.