you were a boy

It's a long way to go, but now and yesterday.

Sun Yuanjun somehow remembered this sentence. In fact, he has always known that he is not a good person in the standard sense. He thinks that he may be the kind of person who does not care about how to achieve a certain goal in order to achieve a certain goal.He began to participate in various drafts at the age of 17, and began to step into the entertainment circle with half a foot, and understood how many unwritten unspoken rules there are in this seemingly glamorous circle.He is not without jealousy when he sees other people's superior positions, but he never thought of betraying himself.

Back then, the school's "□□" band, without Song Yu, was like losing the lead singer of the soul, but it was not without chance.What Song Yu and Li Si didn't know was that in fact, many entertainment agencies had called him privately, asking him if he wanted to go solo, saying they would make him famous, but they didn't want him to be a band. Identity debut.Even several well-known large companies in China have come to look for them.

Obviously, they just liked his face.Sun Yuanjun knew very well in his heart that if all he valued was this skin, he would get tired of it one day.He may make his debut, and he may be short-lived, but he can't go far, just like many popular draft singers back then, the media and the public will soon be tired of them, and their disappearance will be related to their Popularity comes just as fast.

Of course, he didn't want to betray Li Si, the best friend who accompanied him all the way in middle school.He obviously hates homosexuality in his heart, but he insists on accepting his relationship with Song Yu.Even every time they quarrel, he is willing to be a peacemaker, make peace in the middle, and try every means to make them reconcile.

In the third year of high school, she focused on studying and finally got admitted to one of the most famous 985 colleges in Beijing with the third highest score in her grade.Li Si appeared on the little-known second book, but after all, they got together and the band was able to continue.Apart from occasionally disappearing for a while to see Song Yu, Sun Yuanjun was thinking about writing songs, composing music, and practicing musical instruments every day.When he arrived at the university, he was still an unchanging figure in the school. It is no exaggeration to say that girls who liked him could line up from the school gate to the school dormitory.

Just like in middle school, I never saw him go to the movies or eat with any girl.The boys in the same dormitory even found out that he didn't even watch pornography.Because every time everyone gathers together for a carnival, he either goes out, or wraps himself in a quilt and sleeps with his head covered.Everyone thought he was weird and out of gregarious.

Someone heard that when he was singing in the Sanlitun Bar, he was discovered by scouts and signed to a brokerage company.But it's just rumors, no one has heard of any songs he has released, and he has never seen him on TV.

There are even some things that even Song Yu doesn't know what's going on, such as why Sun Yuanjun was hidden for so long when he joined the company.

How can he talk to him?Can he tell him about the band in the bar who promised to sign him, to make him famous, and to say that the woman who admired his talent was actually a pimp?

And the top of the so-called performing arts company is a perverted old gay who likes fresh meat.That person has talent, otherwise he wouldn't be able to climb to almost the highest position in such a big company in less than forty.However, he is stern and soft-hearted, full of bad water.

Could he tell Song Yu that when he met the big boss for the first time, that person deliberately poured red wine on him to help him take off his shirt?When the man was about to touch his lower body, he was so sick, did he beat him up?

Later, small companies dared not use those who were hidden by big companies.Sun Yuanjun doesn't know where his future lies.Every demo sent to the record company, without exception, fell into the sea.At that time, Sun Yuanjun doubted his talent for the first time in his life.He even began to think about whether there is another possibility in his life: whether to study hard again before graduating, to make up for the missing credits due to skipping too many classes, and then make up his mind to be a A down-to-earth office worker?

At that time, in that basement in Beijing, Song Yu accompanied him through the darkest and most helpless time of his life.

That is also one of the best memories in his life, but Sun Yuanjun is an ambitious person, he doesn't want these!He doesn't want Song Yu to accompany him to endure hardships, he wants to succeed, he wants to prove to the world that he is not a bird in a cage or a thing in a pond.

However, there are too many talented people in this world, and too many ambitious people.Clean and innocent people can also fulfill their dreams, but there are really too few of them.

The law of the jungle tells him that only successful people are qualified to talk about self-esteem, otherwise everything is zero.

So he answered the call, and fate arranged for him an audition for a supporting actor in a movie.The director is a Taiwanese, a well-known director of literary films in the circle, known for his daring to use newcomers.

After the interview, the director told the people around him that it was him. He said that Sun Yuanjun was like a melancholy puppy when he was silent, but when he spoke, he was like an ambitious man with executive power.He likes such rich and multi-layered people.

It took three months to shoot a film, which was unheard of in the film industry.Sun Yuanjun, who was filming for the first time, faced the camera and didn't even know how to walk. You can imagine how much scolding and hardship he has endured.However, Sun Yuanjun won an award that he can only win once in his life-the Best Newcomer Award at the Taiwan Film Festival Sahua Girl.

The so-called unintentional planting of willows and Liu Chengyin.

Sun Yuanjun changed to a new brokerage company and started all over again.His current manager, Su Ke, has taught him a lot.Regarding how to do one thing in person and one thing behind the other, and how to raise topics for the media, she told Sun Yuanjun that you can't say so little forever, and the press conference has nothing to write.

Teach him to memorize many official languages, such as how to respond to scandals with female stars, teach him to play Tai Chi with the media, and teach him to laugh more on variety shows.Sun Yuanjun feels fake every time he sees his smile, but everyone in this world likes someone who greets them with a smile.Who cares if you're really happy?

He knew that he had no talent in acting, so he wanted to find a teacher to teach him.But Su Ke told him that acting skills are not important at all, no matter TV series or movies, you need an actor with your temperament and your appearance.

Then he took a lot of bad movies, and Sun Yuanjun was exhausted on every set, and he no longer had time to write songs.After all, this is an era that does not leave a way for singers.Records are not sold at all, and everyone is used to downloading free music online.

There will still be music enthusiasts, but no one is willing to spend millions of dollars to create a record without any sales for the sake of feelings.

Sun Yuanjun thought decadently, this is always the case in great times, what can I do?

Finally, after acting in an idol drama adapted from a popular ID, Sun Yuanjun began to become a little popular, and gradually people began to recognize him when he went out, and gradually some fans came to pick him up.The partner's heroine likes him, expressing and hinting many times, Su Ke thinks this is a good opportunity, after all, the actress is very popular, she quietly registered Weibo for Sun Yuanjun, posting some vague pictures and words every day , flirting with the female star who was so obsessed, and during the period when the TV was on the air, he even got the first batch of CP fans in his life.He understood what bundling sales is, and he was surprised that there are such magical people in this world, what they like is the relationship between someone and someone.

This is what Song Yu said, and it was also one of the most direct reasons that led to their breakup.

Sun Yuanjun explained to him countless times that those microblogs were not sent by him at all, but Song Yu said that you knew about it, so you acquiesced.

Sun Yuanjun looked at Song Yu's clear eyes, as if through the years, he saw the big eyes that had been chasing him all the way when he was 13 years old. These eyes were clean and innocent, and there was no room for a grain of sand in them.

Sun Yuanjun sighed and said, "Yuyu, you are still young, you will understand some things when you grow up."

Song Yu said with tears, "Your tone of voice is exactly the same as those adults you hated back then."

Sometimes the price of growing up is that we eventually grow up to be the kind of person we hate. Everyone of us is following what others say, and we live in muddy mud in our lives, and our lives are beyond recognition.Song Yu said to herself in her heart, if these are the so-called price of growth, then I would rather not grow up for the rest of my life.

However, Sun Yuanjun was the same as all the first-time artists who signed a brokerage company. When they were not well-known, they all signed a contract that was almost a prostitution contract.He has no way out.

Sun Yuanjun understood that Song Yu never checked his mobile phone, nor tracked his itinerary.He has always said that Song Yu is a fool, but in fact Song Yu is like a mirror in his heart when it comes to major issues.He understands everything.

There is no third party between them.But the relationship is really fading slowly because of the gap in time and space, it's true.Some things are drifting away, and the alienation after a long separation cannot be made up for no matter how hearty the love is.

After Sun Yuanjun became popular, the gifts for Song Yu became more and more expensive, and he even gave hundreds of thousands of watches. Song Yu said thank you, but he didn't like it much, put it aside, and didn't see him wearing it.They didn't live in the basement anymore, and the house they lived in became more and more luxurious and spacious, but the topics between them became less and less. He didn't even know when Song Yu moved back to the dormitory.

Sun Yuanjun only remembers that one day he finally finished filming a certain long TV series, and rushed home to give him a surprise, because that day was Song Yu's 20th birthday.He clearly remembered that he was holding a house purchase contract that day, and the name of the purchaser in the contract was Song Yu. He spent all his savings and finally got enough down payment for a house that was not too small in Beijing's third ring road.This is his 20th birthday present to Song Yu.

But when I got home, I didn't see anyone.On the table were the gifts he gave in the past few years, mobile phones, watches, and even the phone card.There is also a letter under the key of the rented house.

Song Yu said to calm down for a while and think about the relationship between the two of them.

He was mad with anger and wanted to go to him immediately.

But Song Yu left very cleanly, and none of the classmates or teachers in the school had any news of him.

Sun Yuanjun really didn't expect that he could do so well that he didn't go to the university he worked so hard to get into?It's unbelievable.

At that moment, Sun Yuanjun suddenly felt that the confidence in controlling life and destiny that he had always been proud of all of a sudden disappeared.There are many accidents in life, just like you don't know when some people will come and when they will leave.

When he was 14 years old, before he met Song Yu, he never thought that he would fall in love with a boy in his life.

When he was 21 years old, he also never thought about how his life would go without Song Yu.