You must be reborn

Shi Zilin knew from a young age that his father always wanted a daughter, but unexpectedly he gave birth to a son. Although he disliked him badly, he was raised up smoothly and healthily, and he never "tortured" himself , even when I had the biggest conflict with my family, it was just because of puberty convulsions, not studying hard, and being caught in a puppy love, but I was chased and beaten by my father with slippers all the way until I was so tired that I sat on the ground.Except for that time, Shi Zilin never thought of a time when they were even more angry, but this time his father was so angry on the phone, he could even feel the destructive power hidden under his restraint, which made him start to worry. Impulsively helping Lin Yan and Gao Ming, will he die in the wilderness?

After driving for more than five hours and returning home, Shi Zilin specially bought the favorite food of the second elder, but no one responded after shouting a few times, he couldn't help but lift up his heart, walked into the living room lightly, just pushed When the door was opened, a glass exploded under the feet, making a crisp and frightening sound.

"Dad, Mom, you are here, I thought..."

"You still know that we are your parents?!" Father Shi's deep and resonant voice sounded, he picked up the purple sand pot in his hand and wanted to smash it, thinking about the money spent when he bought it, he held back and put it down again.

Shi's mother was full of sorrow, seeing Shi Zilin's eyes full of shame, anger and disbelief, she opened her mouth for a long time, but she just wiped away her tears and asked feebly, "Son, why did you do this?"

Seeing this, Shi Zilin felt very uncomfortable, so he quickly squatted down and held Shi's mother's hand: "Mom, I'm sorry, Lin Yan and I are really not suitable, please don't cry, you can arrange a blind date for me tomorrow, okay? "

"It's not suitable for Lin Yan? Is that all?"

Shi Zilin nodded, but was pushed away by Shi's mother in the next second.

"You're gay, right?!"

Shi's mother suddenly threw a stack of photos on Shi Zilin in a frenzy, "Tell me, are you gay?"

Shi Zilin picked up the photos on the ground and looked at them one by one. His brows became tighter and tighter. In the photos, he was kissed by that man after drinking with Cannon that night. Because of the angle, he could see his own body clearly. face, and the back of the man who looked clearly.Who the hell wants to do this?Shi Zilin squeezed hard, and each photo was deformed in his hand.

"I'm not."

"Are you still stubborn, and how long are you going to lie to us?" Shi's mother burst into tears.

"I'm not gay, I didn't lie to you."

"Then what's the matter with this photo? How could you kiss a man?"

"It was an accident. I don't know him..." Shi Zilin thought of Fu Sheng's face and the kiss with him while he was speaking. At first, he lacked confidence. The kiss in the photo was an accident, so what about Fu Sheng's?Apart from the one where he secretly kissed him, how many times did he take the initiative to kiss him without even wanting to stop?what on earth is it?Is...really... gay?

Seeing the guilty look on the face of her eloquent son on weekdays and his feeble explanation, Shi's mother covered her chest and cried hoarsely: "Why you? I'm just a son like you. How can you be gay? Your name is How do we live, huh?"

The blue veins on the forehead of Shi's father with a dark face on the side popped up, he got up and kicked Shi Zilin heavily to the ground, "You son of a bitch, let's see if I won't kill you today!" Then he picked up a wooden stick behind the door and hit it It hit Shi Zilin hard.

Shi Zilin didn't resist or yell, just knelt on the ground and endured those sticks. He hasn't been beaten for a long time. Unexpectedly, it's still like this...so painful that it's almost...out of breath.

"Stop hitting, do you really want to kill your son?"

"This bastard, just beat him to death! He will be angry at people. I was skinny when I was a child. I thought it would be better when I grew up. I didn't expect to run to learn homosexuality from others. You will be shameless! You are shameless, but I still want to Face!"

After Shi's father yelled, he kicked Shi Zilin hard on the back.

"Hmm..." Shi Zilin snorted, gritted his teeth, and did not fall down.

"Dad, Mom, I'm sorry."

"Don't tell us you're sorry, I'll give you a day to think about whether you want to play with men, or listen to our arrangement and find a girl to marry!"

Shi's father helped Shi's mother to leave, and locked Shi Zilin into the "little black room" at home.This was specially set up by Father Shi for him when he was a child. When he was naughty, he was brought here to reflect on it. How did he reflect on it before?Oh, by the way, every time he would secretly put a pen in his trouser pocket beforehand, and then write and draw on the wall. Even though the window was small and the light was very dark, he could always find fun in it, and here too Full of his little secrets.But now... Shi Zilin smiled wryly, he never thought that he could come here in his late twenties and think about it because of...sexuality...

Facing the wall and thinking about mistakes, liking someone or not liking someone, what did you do wrong?Because the gender is wrong?

Shi Zilin scoffed at this idea.I don't know when it started, but his concept changed. When he mistakenly thought Fu Sheng was gay for the first time, he looked down on him so much in his heart, but now he understands, "like", sometimes I really can't help it.And he found that even with Tang Yu or any of the girlfriends he had been with before, he never had the almost uncontrollable emotions he had towards Fu Sheng now.

Less than a month apart, he suffers from insomnia every day, and can only rely on continuous work to make his body tired and fall asleep naturally, but he still wants to see him, argue with him, see him angry, want to see him shy, and even more... Hold him tightly and kiss those sweet lips.It's just that all of this can only be done in a dream. Under the depression, the emotions become uncontrollable, and the lust often hits like a storm every time I think of his face in the middle of the night, making people have nowhere to hide.

"Fu Sheng..." Shi Zilin murmured, repeating the name over and over again, feeling that he could never tire of hearing it.

Jiang Chuning is sitting in a meeting with colleagues in the department. I don't know if the overtime situation is too serious recently. I just feel that listening to Sister Zhou's speech is like listening to a lullaby. Like a vortex, spinning around and around, and then, it was pitch black.

"Fu Sheng!"

"Fu Sheng, what's wrong with you?"

……

When Jiang Chuning woke up, she found herself in the hospital, a room filled with the smell of disinfectant, a meter-high pink wall under the white wall, and a big pot of prickly pear on the window sill, a very familiar scene.

"Fu Sheng, are you awake?" Qingqing came back from the toilet, saw Fu Sheng opened her eyes, and quickly sat on the bedside.

"Why am I here? The hospital you sent me to?"

"Why are you here? It's not because you suddenly fainted during a meeting."

"I fainted?"

"Yeah, you, forgot?" Qingqing paused for a moment with her hand reaching out to take the apple, and asked in surprise, "You don't remember everything, do you?"

"I've watched too many TV shows, I'm fine."

"Well, that's true. We thought you were sick, but the doctor checked and said that you have nothing wrong with you, you just work too much overtime and lack of sleep. Hey, speaking of this, you are really awesome, brain' I knocked on the table with a bang, and I didn't even yell. Sister Zhou was scared to death by you. The meeting in the afternoon was postponed until tomorrow, and I am reporting to the leader now. We will also learn from it in the future, and let the leader Let's see how hard we work, if we really don't understand us, we just pretend to be dizzy and show them."

Qingqing waved the knife with a proud face, and suddenly remembered something: "By the way, do you have any other pressure recently?"

"Huh? Why do you ask that?" Jiang Chuning touched the big bump on her forehead with her hand, and her eyes and nose were squeezed together in pain.

"When you fainted, you kept yelling for Bo. According to Xiaolin, it should be your brother, right? But judging by your expression at that time, you looked like you were about to cry, what's going on? Tell me?"

"Fu Bo? How could I call his name and look like I'm about to cry?"

"Did you have a nightmare?"

"I don't know... I can't remember." Jiang Chuning frowned, unable to figure out what was going on.

In the evening, Fu Bo cooked another big table of delicious food, saying that he wanted to give Fu Sheng a good boost.

"Fu Bo, don't be too busy, we can't eat so many dishes."

"No, you have to eat if you can't eat, you are already like this, you must listen to me!"

Jiang Chuning didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "What's wrong with me? Isn't this good? Sit down and eat, good boy."

Fu Bo just sat down to eat obediently. Seeing Brother Fu Sheng fainted from exhaustion, his heart ached to death, but he couldn't do anything else, he could only find a way to make him more food.

Jiang Chuning actually didn't have much appetite, but she still stuffed two bowls of rice.Although Fu Bo is very obedient, he can cook for himself, and he is considerate and caring about himself, but when the two of them sit face to face and eat, they always feel that something is missing.

"I'm done eating, let me wash the dishes and chopsticks." After finishing speaking, he got up and walked to the balcony, taking out his mobile phone.

"have you eaten?"

No, delete it.

"Are you busy with work recently? Did you stay up late again?"

It looks so intimate, no.

"I'm going back soon."

Why do you say this, maybe people really enjoy living alone.After deleting the words in the input box one by one, Jiang Chuning was discouraged. Why can't she even send a text message? There seems to be no simple greetings between her and Shi Zilin, just like the relationship between two objects. Attraction and repulsion, preventing myself from getting too close, but constantly attracting myself to chase him, when will this kind of day end?

Fu Bo lowered his head and bit his chopsticks, his eyes were full of unwillingness, he had treated Fu Sheng so well, could it be that they still couldn't go back?

Jiang Chuning stayed on the balcony for more than ten minutes, but didn't send a text message. She rubbed her cold hands, put away her phone and went back to the house.

Forget it, it's so late, it's bad to disturb him.Jiang Chuning comforted herself like this.

When she was sleeping at night, Jiang Chuning felt that Fu Bo's body was getting closer and closer, and finally she just stuck to her body tightly.

"Fu Bo? Are you asleep?"

"Hmm~~" Fu Changchang's long ending sound fell in Jiang Chuning's ears, making her tremble uncontrollably.

"Sleep over, it's too crowded."

"I am cold."

"I'm going to turn up the temperature of the air conditioner."

Jiang Chuning was about to get up as she spoke, but Fu Bo hugged her waist, "No, it's fine like this."

"..." Well, it was just a hug, Jiang Chuning endured the embarrassment and lay down.But Fu Bo from behind became restless again, pouting his lips and kissing Fu Sheng's ear directly.

"What are you doing!"

Jiang Chuning got up immediately, regardless of Fu Bo, turned on the light and began to get dressed.She couldn't bear Fu Bo's thoughts about her all the time, how could he do that to someone who was taken care of by her as a younger brother!

Seeing his actions, Fu Bo felt as if he was caught and felt uncomfortable, "Brother...don't do this, I just like you, I can't help it..." After speaking, he was already crying.

Jiang Chuning's heart softened again, but it was like this every time, every time!When are you going to make concessions?

"Fu Bo, what do you like about me?"

"I……"

"Do you like that I took care of you and helped you when I was young, and then we lived together for so many years?"

"Isn't that enough for me to like you?"

"I don't know about you... Did you confuse love with family affection in the past, but I only take care of you like a younger brother, so don't..."

"If you don't like me, why do you want to have sex with me?" Fu Bo looked at Fu Sheng coldly, and the corners of his mouth curled up, but tears rolled down his face.

Jiang Chuning was so questioned that she couldn't answer. She had no memory of Fu Sheng's past, so she didn't know if he liked Fu Bo too, but at least he didn't now.Thinking of Fu Bo's past experience, Jiang Chuning became ruthless: "Going to bed...doesn't mean I like you."

Why do you have to force me to say hurtful things...

After Jiang Chuning finished speaking, she picked up the box and escaped from the room. After closing the door, she could still hear the sound of smashing things in the room and Fu Bo's crying and roaring.Leaning against the door, Jiang Chuning gasped heavily, resisting the desire to cry, took out her mobile phone and dialed Zhou Chu's number.

"Hey--"

Zhou Chu's voice was a little lazy, and there was some loud music in the background. Fortunately, he was not asleep yet.

"Zhou Chu, can you do me a favor?"

"Handsome Fu asked for help, he must help, tell me, what's the matter?"

"Can you come to Fu Bo's place and help me take care of him, I... want to go back to live, he's not emotionally stable, so..."

"This... If you let me take care of you, I have no second choice, but taking care of your brother is..."

"I'll give you the picture you asked me to draw as soon as possible this week."

In the bar toilet, Zhou Chu shook his head and smiled when he heard Fu Sheng's words, this guy, there is no picture for him to help draw, it's just an excuse to find him.

"Ok."

"I'll wait for you downstairs and give you the key."

When Zhou Chu arrived, Fu Sheng was stomping in the flower bed downstairs. It was past eleven o'clock in the evening, and the weather was so cold that even the warm yellow light from the street lamps seemed to be frozen, and everything around was still. There was only a figure in a fluffy coat, moving around constantly, with a box standing obediently at his feet.

"Fu Sheng."

"You're finally here." Jiang Chuning trotted over, her face flushed from the cold, and she couldn't speak very well.

"Here, here is the key, help me take care of Fu Bo, please."

"What about you? Why don't you go back so late? Why don't you leave tomorrow?"

"No, I... Shi Zilin came to pick me up by car, so I'll go first, don't make him wait haha." Jiang Chuning waved and ran out of the community.

Shi Zilin?Zhou Chu sneered, he should not be in City S now.But looking at Fu Sheng running away, he had to admit his envy.