So the pond will drown

A gorgeous fireworks, an illusory dream.

……

After Jiang Yu went out, Gu Chi sat in front of the window for a while, and the drowsiness he still had was completely washed away by the "fireworks".

It had been a long time since he had officially watched a New Year's fireworks.

Thousands of cities are bright, no matter how gorgeous they are, they don't belong to him.

And tonight's show was set off by Jiang Yu for him. Although he didn't want to admit it, Gu Chi knew that he was attracted by the fireworks that were about to open.

He sat alone until eleven o'clock close to zero, will it bloom on time?

Gu Chi thought.

For so many years, everything has not gone his way, and everything he asked for and wished for is galloping in the darkest direction. He alone can't stand the hail of bullets, and no one is willing to set off a firework on earth for him.

Now there is someone who is willing to let him go, but it's not the person Gu Chi expected, or the person Gu Chi least expected.

He didn't know whether he should be happy or ridiculed.

In the end, all his joy and pain came from Jiang Yu.

In the whole life, the grass and trees fall in autumn, each has joys and sorrows.

This New Year, should I welcome it or complain

……

Jiang You staggered up from the ground, and dragged himself to the bay window with his so-called willpower.

The curtains were open, Jiang You stretched out his hand to push open the window, his hands were still shaking, and the blood stains spread along his wrist bones and into his sleeves, he struggled to let in the cold night wind as if he didn't see it, the winter night The wind is like polar snow, chilling to the marrow of the bone, and the chill is chilling. It is because of this stimulation that Jiang Yu finally regained his clarity.

He leaned his back against the wall as if he was exhausted, swallowed the fishy smell in his throat, took a deep breath of ice cold, the cold air crawled into his internal organs, and rushed towards the monster provocatively, he was wearing thin clothes, The heating is never turned on in the room.Being too warm will give him an illusion. After all, this world has not been as gentle as it was for him before, and he has a cold nature, so he doesn't need to cover his skin to get the temperature.

If Gu Chi hadn't been here, this villa would have been cold and empty. At this time, there should be wine bottles piled up at his feet, and he used alcohol to numb his tired brain and heart during the night of family reunion. .

He's a monster that crumbles in the night.

He is lonely and cold-blooded.

The fireworks outside the window were bright, he didn't bother to light one for himself, but he wanted to light this bright lamp for the young man.

It was Gu Chi who saved him, but instead of repaying his boy, he hurt him with thousands of times of pain.

He's a total monster.

He's sick, he's a monster...

……

"Nineteen, eighteen, seventeen..." Gu Chi looked at the watch on his wrist and counted down the deadline for this year.

Gu Chi has already put away his father's watch, and now Chu Yang gave it to him. It was originally bought by Chu Yang to make amends for Gu Chi. After Gu Chi took him to return it, he didn't expect him to return it. Buy it back again.But this piece is indeed similar to the one his father gave him, except that it is a little less old and scarred, showing the vitality that belongs to Chu Yang alone.

Gu Chi likes it very much, clocks and watches can make him truly feel the vitality of life.

Ten seconds left.

In ten seconds, this year that has kept him in the light for 18 years will suddenly disappear in the torrent of time, just like the past few years, it will slowly fade into the long river of history, even if it still exists Someone has a deep memory of it, whether it is ecstasy or hatred, it will never return, what has been taken away will not be returned, and what has been given as a gift is not sure whether it will be taken back.

Everything has a deadline, doesn't it?

……

"My love for you will never end. I hope that in the new year, your hatred for me will decrease."

Jiang You looked out the window at the dark night with a weak smile.

"I will always love you the most."

……

"I never, ever want to expect anything more."

I only hope that life will come to an end soon, and this endless torture should finally have a result.

If the result is a farewell, he is also happy and calm.

"five four three two one."

Come on, New Years.

"boom--"

The fireworks exploded in the night sky. The brilliant and delicate fireworks were like thousands of flowers blooming in the long river of the universe. The colorful colors dyed the sky of Nanyang into a afterglow. In the night, his brilliance seems to be so short-lived, so short-lived that it will end without a problem.

It gave the world a splendid beauty, but opened its hands and turned itself into heavy snow. The coldness of the ground was its wreckage. People trampled on it under their feet, because people didn't know that the broken ground under their feet was theirs. It was also gorgeous that was beyond reach.

The beauty is as short as it is, and so is life, but there are more than ten thousand people in fireworks, and some people have been mediocre all their lives, and they have folded their shoulders for fame and desire, money and power.

There is a wall between the boy and the monster, and there are thousands of miles of ravines and thorns in the wild. They are destined not to be close. How can people in the two worlds cherish each other?

The monster's overbearing and sickness finally pushed the boy further.

The more brilliant the fireworks, the more turbulent the tide hidden in the fireworks, so turbulent that it overwhelmed the city, buried everything, and the world was shrouded in this emptiness of warmth.

People think that they have glimpsed a corner of romance, and they have picked up the stars in the sky and the snow in their palms.

This year, they watched a lonely and gorgeous fireworks alone through a wall.

……

Fu Dong followed Jiang Yu's warning and did not risk his life to come here on the first day of the new year, but took out Mo Yanshu and put it on his back, but what surprised him was that Mo Yanshu agreed very readily, and unexpectedly It is really surprising that there is not even a little outrageous request.But he didn't realize that Mo Yanshu's expression was not right until it was the first day of junior high school. There was a faint grayness under his eyes, obviously he didn't sleep well at night.

Fu Dong never asked him much about his affairs. First, the two of them were not relatives, so there was no need to ask him. Second, Mo Yanshu's industry involved extremely high confidentiality requirements. If he asked, it would be like prying into secrets.

After all, Mo Yanshu's heart is higher than the sky, and he will not feel panic easily. In his opinion, things that don't involve his pretense are trivial matters. Two, so Mo Yanshu's sudden mood change can only be due to work.

In the end, Fu Dong didn't ask any more questions, and let Mo Yanshu take Gu Xingmian to Jiang Yu's house.

…………

If it wasn't for the fact that there were children in the car, Mo Yanshu must have been on the road all the way. Since he saw the text message last night, he has been tossing and turning all night, having trouble sleeping and eating.

Mo Yanshu didn't know Jiang Yu earlier than Fu Dong, and he didn't have a deep understanding of Jiang Yu's childhood, but he knew more about Jiang Yu's mental and physical conditions than Fu Dong, because Jiang Yu trusted him more, not that Fu Dong It's unbelievable, but Fu Dong is just a doctor after all, and he is an international professional criminal psychologist, so Jiang Yu is his patient.

Fu Dong is a high-achieving medical student with little clinical psychology, and Jiang Yu's internal camouflage is stronger than anyone else's. He can see through the external problems of Jiang Yu's body, but he can't see through the inside.

So Su Pingchuan is here. Su Pingchuan is a professional psychologist, but unfortunately he is only a psychologist. Jiang Yu's problem is not limited to psychology, but also...spirit. Mo Yanshu did not tell Jiang Yuming about his Psychotherapy also started when Su Pingchuan appeared.

This mental problem not only affects his behavior and psychology, but also his body.

His body has long been eaten away.

Even his iron body couldn't stand up to the perennial hail of bullets, not to mention that Jiang Yu's body had been destroyed by Ye Xiuqing as early as his childhood.

It's just that Mo Yanshu couldn't figure out how this would suddenly recur.

relapse?It has already stabilized tomorrow, how can it relapse?

What does relapse mean?It meant that all the previous treatments were in vain, and it also meant that Jiang Yu's body officially began to disintegrate.

…………

Gu Xingmian was going to come over today and Jiang Yu knew that it was almost noon at this time, Zhang Shen had already prepared lunch, and was waiting for Mo Yanshu to bring the little kid over.Gu Chi was sitting on the sofa watching cartoons, while Jiang Yu was cutting fruit for Gu Chi in the kitchen.It was impossible for him to do this kind of thing before, but Gu Chi's body needs nutrition.It’s always right to eat more fruits and vegetables, so Jiang Yu bought a lot of fruits in the refrigerator, and cut them for Gu Chi when he was free, but his technique was clumsy, peeling the skin of pears or apples always peeled off the flesh The piece was so big that the fist-sized fruit was cut into small pieces, and Gu Chi hated him many times because of this.But helplessly, Gu Chi is really not active in eating, and he will not cut it himself if he wants to eat. Of course, Jiang Yu is reluctant to give up this job. In order to satisfy Gu Chi, he can only cut slowly and finely. I have done the most delicate things in my life, and the embroidery is not so careful.

Hearing the doorbell, Jiang Yu put down the knife and was about to open the door, but Gu Chi stood up before him, and ran straight to the door without looking at him. Happy once.

"..."

He admits to being jealous again.

Jealousy makes people ugly, and the lesson from last time is still vivid in his memory, Jiang Yu took a deep breath, tried to make himself calm, and continued to pick up the knife in his hand and cut fruit diligently.

Gu Chi opened the door, and was caught off guard by an unfamiliar handsome face.

"Hi, how are you?" Yan Shu greeted Gu Chi with a smile.

Speaking of which, Gu Chi and Jiang Yu have been together for so long and Mo Yanshu has never met Gu Chi formally. Zhang Shen sent him a picture of Gu Chi before, but those were all inch photos on the school honor wall. The youth is young and sunny, absolutely stunning, he is so damn good-looking, now that he sees a real person, he knows what it means to be "photographed". It is far behind. Gu Chi in front of him does not have the youthful look in the photo, with gentle eyebrows and eyes Refined and elegant, there is no unparalleled beauty in the past, and the photo did not capture one percent of the good-looking person in front of him.

Tsk tsk, it's no wonder that Jiang Yu likes him, if it was him who used to hang out in nightclubs, he wouldn't give up if he saw such a boy and didn't spoil him.

When Gu Chi saw Mo Yanshu, he was stunned for a moment, then he lowered his eyes and saw Gu Xingmian beside him. He smiled and was in a surprisingly good mood: "Hello, I'm Gu Chi."

Mo Yanshu chuckled: "I know, she is Master Jiang's daughter-in-law. Well, the little one is here for you."

"..."

The corner of Gu Chi's mouth twitched when he heard the phrase "Master Jiang's wife", and he smiled on the surface: "Hehe...then you all come in."

"Okay!" Mo Yanshu strode into the door, and introduced himself as if he remembered it while changing shoes, "Ah, my name is Mo Yanshu, and I am a friend of Lord Jiang. Do you know Fu Dong? My wife."

"..." Gu Chi choked for a moment, not knowing how to answer.

Mo Yanshu didn't wait for his answer, and rushed in with a flick of his shoes.

Gu Chi heaved a sigh of relief watching his figure go away, and then began to seriously greet the little guy who had been separated for a long time.

It could be seen that Gu Xingmian was raised by Fu Dong very well, he gained some weight and became whiter. Gu Chi reached out and rubbed his head lightly, and said with a smile, "I've grown taller."

Indeed, when Gu Xingmian first arrived, he was terribly thin, and it only reached his waist, and it didn't take long before it was almost to his chest. The little guy's facial features gradually grew, and he looked more and more delicate. is likable.

Hearing what Gu Chi said, he immediately curled the corners of his lips, and said with a childish sweet smile: "Brother looks better."

Gu Chi was coaxed by this small mouth, and his heart was happy, and his depressed mood for so long immediately lifted, as if he had returned to the days before he met Jiang Yu.

When Gu Chi brought Gu Xingmian in, Jiang Yu’s fruit had already been cut, Mo Yanshu probably had something to discuss with Jiang Yu, the two of them didn’t wait in the heated hall, they had to go to the balcony, Gu Chi didn’t let it go on heart.

"How do you feel now?" Mo Yanshu no longer had the joy he had when he entered the door just now, his brows were solemn, and the atmosphere was a bit depressed.

Jiang You leaned against the railing and smiled, didn't look at him, but looked at the endless sky, the winter sky was a desolate white, his tone was flat: "I couldn't stand it when I just relapsed, but it's okay now that I've recovered .”

Mo Yanshu nodded, but he didn't feel happy. The two of them looked at the front in unison and fell silent for a while.

"Are you afraid of Jiang Yu?" Mo Yanshu asked suddenly.

Jiang Yu gave a short laugh, the laughter was unexpectedly clear, but his tone was astringent: "If you asked me half a year ago, I would definitely answer that you are not afraid..."

Mo Yanshu crossed his hands on the railing, his fingertips turned white, and his heart tightened. He was waiting for Jiang Yu's next words, but he had already guessed it.

"But now that he has appeared, what should we do?" Jiang Yu tilted his head and smiled, "This man is so good, so good that I want to be with him for life and life, and I want to live forever with him, even if it is the last The ending is not good, I also want to see him marry a wife and have children, and everything goes well."

"I begged him to like me before, but now I'm glad he doesn't like me."

Mo Yanshu didn't speak. After a long time, he suddenly looked at Jiang Yu as if he came back to his senses, and then said slowly: "You lost, Jiang Yu."

Jiang Yu also looked at him, with a smile on his lips, but no smile in his eyes:

"If it's him, I'll admit defeat, and I'll be happy with it."

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