So the pond will drown

There has been a lot of snow in Nanyang this year,

I don't know when the evening snow festival,

Can you look forward to your return.

…………

Gu Chi didn't stay at Fu's house for long, he had to prepare for the exam as soon as possible, so he had to go and see the house with Gao Ying first.

Seeing that he had no intention of taking Xing Mian away, the elders of the Fu family warmed up to him and warmly entertained him for lunch. Gu Chi declined the dinner and said hello to Xing Mian before leaving.

Anyway, there are many opportunities for others to meet after they are in the UK.

That night they flew to Oxford again, and the two found a hotel not far from the university to stay. After that, they stayed in the hotel for a week before finding an apartment near the university where Gu Chi was going to take his exam.

In this way, the house was settled first, but Gao Xuan did not live with him, saying that he had friends here and wanted to live with them, Gu Chi did not force him.

Gu Chi originally wanted to find a part-time job, but Gao Xie said that he would be able to prepare for the exam with peace of mind and refused to let him go. He thought about how long it was before the exam, so he gave up.

The days after coming to the UK are busy and fulfilling, and freedom is also full of hope. He can go wherever he wants, see the bustling crowds, and hear the voices of people talking.The breeze will pass by his clothes, he will walk through the ancient streets of Oxford, pass by the Church of the Virgin Mary, see those strange and majestic buildings, and friends from all over the world, this is a foreign country, and it seems to be his It all started.

Sometimes passing by the gate of the university, he can even glimpse his brighter future.

But he doesn't seem to be that happy.

In June, he successfully entered his ideal university.

Gu Chi didn't seem very excited, and even Gao Xuan just said "Congratulations" flatly, probably thinking it was a matter of course, so the two of them found a Chinese restaurant and had a meal together outside.

When ordering food, Gu Chi looked at the long-lost meaty and spicy food, he suddenly thought of Jiang Yu, and he didn't know how he was doing now, did he miss him?Have things been handled in the company?

The thoughts he never wanted to admit and even intentionally buried in his heart were like vines that could not be cut, growing and spreading in the bottom of his heart, climbing on his heart, making him uncomfortable and painful.

How long have you been away from him? Gu Chi, why did you fall in love with his cage?

Gu Chi looked at the menu and didn't speak for a long time.

"Sir?" Seeing that he was in a daze, the waiter called him friendly.

Gu Chi came back to his senses, smiled apologetically at the waiter, and then he didn't know whether it was to vent his anger or what, he ordered a series of meat and spicy dishes as if he was desperate for his life.

The waiter took the order and was about to place the order, but was quickly taken away by Gao Ying. Then he canceled the ones that Gu Chi ordered with a poker face and ruthless, and reported some dish names in half English and half Chinese.

The name of the dish was very familiar to Gu Chi.

Gu Chi stared at him blankly, his face was full of astonishment, and he asked after a long time: "It's him... who made you..."

"Yes." Gao Ying didn't deny it, "He said, you can do whatever else you want, but I have to take care of you every day for physical matters."

"He can still let you control me forever?" Gu Chi gritted his teeth.

Gao Hao expressionless: "I can take care of you for a while, and when the time comes, I will naturally not take care of you anymore."

"But don't worry, I won't tell him unless something serious happens to you. He also said that I don't have to monitor you, just take care of you temporarily. I will go to the United States after your side is over." Gao Xing said lightly.

So Gu Chi was a little curious: "What did you go to America for?"

"go to school."

"School?" Gu Chi raised his eyebrows.

Gao Xing knew what he was thinking, gave him a nonchalant look, and explained, "I'm learning the cello."

"You still know this?" Gu Chi was full of disbelief.

Gao Xie felt that if it wasn't for Jiang Yu's entrustment, he might have fought Gu Chi, but he didn't know if he could beat him in the fight.

Gao Xing silently closed his mouth.

So the two had a meal without emotion, and walked back mechanically, and Gao Xi was responsible for sending him back.

Gu Chi was a little sleepy, but the restaurant was not far from the apartment, so he wanted to walk back.

He doesn't live on campus, and he doesn't know why, probably because... Tired of socializing?

right.

Or maybe waiting for someone to come over.

Gu Chi walked forward in a daze, Oxford was still very cold at this time.

But even at night, the streets of this city are still lit with warm lights in twos and threes. Whether they are returning home or wandering outside, they can probably enjoy a moment of joy from these lights.

It's just that this place is bright and strange, it is not only the place that Gu Chi yearns for but also the place that Gu Chi is afraid of.

This place can give him everything that is bright, and give him a bright future, but here he has no friends, no relatives, and the only relative is still in London. Although he knows that Chu Yang is in England, he doesn't know where he is now, even if he knows How dare he go to see him?

Gu Chi was suddenly very lonely and lonely.

That bastard Jiang Yu left him alone in this strange country and left him alone, and disappeared after letting go.

Is he looking for a new love?Otherwise, why didn't you send him to see him?

Knowing that this was unlikely, he still couldn't help but let himself feel sore for a moment.

Gu Chi's footsteps on his way home stopped in front of a men's clothing store.

The model in the window was wearing a camel woolen coat, which Gu Chi thought looked good, and Jiang Yu must also look good in it.So his mind got hot, and he opened the door and went in.

"Hello, sir, do you need my help?" The store owner is a middle-aged blonde woman, gentle and kind, her eyes lit up when she saw Gu Chi, and seeing him keep looking at the clothes in the window, Immediately took it off and handed it to him, "You can try it, I think it will look great in your figure."

Gu Chi stared at the clothes in his hands for a moment, then shook his head after a while, and replied in fluent English, "It's not for me."

The woman smiled and said, "Is that for a friend? Father? Or, boyfriend?"

Gu Chi was stunned for a moment, then smiled: "Boyfriend."

The woman smiled and joked: "I also have a son, and his husband is also a boy. They are a good match. I think you and your boyfriend must be too."

"Thank you."

Even if the other party only showed a friendly gesture out of politeness, Gu Chi's heart was still warm.

He hooked his lips and asked, "How much is this dress?"

"Three hundred pounds."

Gu Chi: "..."

Hold.

So he silently put the clothes back on the model.

The proprietress: "?"

Gu Chi said embarrassingly, "I'm sorry, I'm just a student, and I don't have the ability to buy it for now. When I have money, I will definitely come and take it away."

The proprietress expressed her understanding and smiled.

At this time, Gao Ying immediately opened the door and came in, and said from the side: "If you like it, I can buy it for you. Master Jiang gave me a lot of money, and I don't think I can take it for myself."

Gu Chi said angrily, "Then he's for you too."

Gao Xi didn't speak.

Seeing Gao Xuan, the proprietress tentatively asked Gu Chi: "Is this your boyfriend?"

Gu Chi shook his head: "No, ordinary friends."

The proprietress nodded: "I don't think so either. What about your boyfriend?"

Gu Chi was silent for a moment, the loneliness in his eyes flashed, and he said with the corners of his lips: "We broke up."

The proprietress's eyes were full of surprise, and then she seemed to feel that her reaction was inappropriate, and immediately said: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't mention your sad things."

"It's okay, it's been a while." Gu Chi said lightly.

When the two left the clothing store, Gu Chi didn't want to walk anymore, so Gao Xuan took a taxi and went downstairs to his apartment.

Gu Chi went upstairs slowly, but because he was absent-minded, he misaligned the key a few times. When he opened the door, he saw the empty house and vacant furnishings, and he suddenly felt extremely lonely.

The teenager who would spend all day in the kitchen researching and cooking for him was not here.

Gu Chi blinked, feeling his eyes were a little sore, the heating was not turned on in the house, so the silence here was more piercing than the wind outside.

He thought he could control it, until when he went to take a shower, he saw the glass bottle on the table that had a strange luster because it contained small diamonds.

That was the star that Jiang Yu gave him on the day of his coming-of-age ceremony, and this bright fragment was left to him by his father.

Are these two the same?Nature is different.Is it important?It seems... as important as it is.

——"Koike, happy birthday."

He still took his memories to say happy birthday to him the year before last, but he didn't say happy birthday to him last year, nor did he say happy new year to him this year.

In every festival in the future, no boy will appear to say happy festivals to him.

He has no parents, and now he seems to have lost his little monster too.

It's his little monster.

Gu Chi's eyes were red in an instant, and the mist rose up, and the tears that had been suppressed for a long time were no longer under control.

He couldn't help it anymore, and he couldn't hide his thoughts about that person in his heart anymore.

Gu Chi propped his face against the door, holding tightly in his hand the cat jade pendant that Jiang Yan prayed for him to come back one night.

He seemed to want to vent out the depression and loneliness of being in the UK for so long, and he seemed to simply miss someone.

"Why..." Gu Chi murmured hoarsely.

Why did he say let him go, let him go, walked into his life without a word, made waves in his world, trapped him under his dome, and now made him chaotic and lonely help, and in the end the bastard didn't even bother to see him.

bastard bastard bastard bastard...

"...Why let me go, why can't you bother me a little longer to coax me, why don't you pester me a little more...Fool..." He heard himself murmuring hoarsely, choking with grievances.

"Two years are almost over, why can't I... stay a little longer, what should I do now... I only have you..."

He made him so sad, made him so uncomfortable, gave him joy and heartbeat, and then quietly disappeared from his life.

Gu Chi suddenly understood why he didn't come to see him off, because Jiang dotes on him, because he loves him, so he has to be selfless, let Gu Chi come to this foreign country to find his own light, instead of being mediocre in this life with him By his side, he really became a puppet at his mercy.

And so far, he has not been able to be so impartial and selfless, so if he hurt himself, he would let Gu Chi go, even if he doesn't see him in this life, there will be no future.

Gu Chi thinks about it now, Jiang Yu seems to have never said "love" to him, even when the love is strong, he just repeats "I like you" and "You are mine", but never says "I love you".

Jiang Yu has never been loved, so the word "love" is too heavy for him, and Jiang Yu doesn't want to be too hasty, his liking has already made Gu Chi's life worse than death, how can Gu Chi bear his love?

The night of the second day of the new year was not only the unconscious injury caused by Jiang Yu's loss of control, but also his warning to Gu Chi.He proved it to him with actions, and he told him that this is his love, paranoia, loss of control, sternness, and terror.

This is obviously a little monster who is used to playing tricks on people's hearts.

He did scare Gu Chi back then, but he also made Gu Chi regret it now.

He shouldn't have left him so early.

After all, they are young. During this period of youth, young people should be carefree and chasing their dreams. However, their lives have not yet begun because of the trauma of this troubled world.

Who will remember that they were only 19 years old?

All the speculations and hesitations before were all because of the words that he couldn't help but surfaced. The line of defense he had held on for almost two years collapsed into ashes.

Everything is good here, there is everything, everything can be there, but nothing seems so meaningful.If a person really only lives for himself and spends his whole life chasing fame and fortune for himself, he will face supreme loneliness and fear.

Cheng also loses himself.

He hoped that that person would stay with him, and Gu Chi wanted to be better for him.So he wanted to take a gamble and wait for him here.

It's just that this person is too ruthless. If he says he doesn't want him, he really doesn't want him. If he doesn't send a message, he won't call.

Then he will continue to wait, wait for a surprise, wait for Jiang Yan to send him a surprise.

In fact, the UK is very good, everything here is very good, everything is going well, he also got the admission letter from the prestigious school he wanted, and the next step is to keep studying hard.

But he couldn't restrain some emotions, he was still young after all, and couldn't bear another boy's overwhelming love.

"Suddenly, I miss you a little bit."

………………

After Gu Chi left, Jiang Yu's illnesses became more and more frequent, and the demand for medicines gradually increased. His condition was worse than ever.

In the end, what he was thinking about was Gu Chi, he even proposed to see him, he begged them, he said he would secretly see him and then come back, he was reprimanded by Mo Hanxin. Both are dangerous.

In the end, Mo Hanxin couldn't see Jiang Yu's lonely and desperate look, and said with red eyes, "Why must it be him?"

Obviously this sentence is just nonsense, but Mo Hanxin still wants to ask.

So he saw the young man who had never shed a single tear no matter what kind of injury he suffered since he was a child, suddenly lowered his eyes, buried his face in his hands and began to cry softly. He murmured: "Why can't it be him? Why do you all think that I am I shouldn't be with him... What if I'm not by his side and he ran away with someone else? Then I have nothing..."

Fu Dong held back his tears.

Mo Hanxin couldn't say anything.

"I only want Gu Chi, I like him, you give him back to me...give me back..."

Jiang Yu misses him too much, he can't be selfless emotionally, he just likes Gu Chi, he only wants Gu Chi.He wished he could lock Gu Chi by his side for the rest of his life, until he died.But that wouldn't work, because he hoped that he could see his youth shine again in his lifetime.

But can he still see him?Would he dare to come back to this place that was like a purgatory on earth for a young man?He will meet someone better, maybe after graduating from college he will marry a girl he likes, and he will slowly forget about him.Many years later, Jiang Yu was brought up again. It turned out that in his life, he only forcibly occupied his memories of less than two years.

From now on, he will be an insignificant person in Gu Chi's life, and what he has to do is to leave quietly and die quietly.

But what to do, he misses him, he misses him so much.

After crying, his mood was strangely stable for a period of time, he didn't get sick again, and nothing unusual happened. He just sat quietly in the room and took medicine when he was asked, very obedient.However, when everyone breathed a sigh of relief, Jiang Yu suddenly suffered from the most serious illness in history, and even almost killed himself with a gun. Later, Mo Yanshu and Zhang Shen desperately held him down.

Jiang Yu regained some sanity when they forced him to finish the sedative on the ground. He froze for a while, grabbed Fu Dong before falling asleep and asked him, "Will he come back?"

Fu Dong choked suddenly, shook his head and said, "I don't know."

That winter, Mo Hanxin temporarily resigned from his job abroad, and stayed in China with all his heart. Mo Yanshu also took care of his heart and mind, helping to manage the affairs of Jiang Yu’s company while studying Jiang Yu’s story with Mo Hanxin. illness.

But during this process, Zhang Shen left Nanyang because of some family matters. Before leaving, he gave Jiang Yu his computer from Jiang Yu's home, and said to him: "When the illness recovers, you can go see him."

Because of this sentence, Jiang Yu's condition really began to improve, but after the last outbreak, no one dared to relax his vigilance, but this time it seems to have really improved, he really did not have another illness, and occasionally chatted with them .

One afternoon Jiang Yu took the medicine, looked at Mo Hanxin with those dead and tired eyes, and asked her, "When can I see him?"

Mo Hanxin was silent for a moment, then said stiffly: "Wait a little longer, I'll take you there when your condition stabilizes."

Jiang Yu didn't even know whether Mo Hanxin lied to him, but he was still happy for a long time.

At that time, Jiang Yu didn't get sick for half a year, and occasionally he lost control slightly, as long as Fu Dong took out Gu Chi's photo, he would wake up immediately, so Mo Hanxin found that he especially liked looking at his mobile phone during that time.

She thought that Jiang Yu was playing games, and that he had made progress. After all, being able to play games patiently meant that his condition had improved a bit, but soon she found out that it was not the case. In the photo, he is looking after Chi.

Mo Hanxin once stole a glance at it by accident.

The photo on the lock screen is a picture of Jiang Yu standing in front of the carousel and Gu Chi kissing him. The lights on the carousel are colorful and bright, and he and Gu Chi are as romantic as a fairy tale.

In fact, after Jiang Yu tricked Gu Chi into closing his eyes, he quietly opened them himself.When he was at a close distance, he could see Xiaochi's long eyelashes, and a slight movement of the eyelashes could create a butterfly effect in Jiang Yu's heart, and those wings would stir the violent storm, landslide and tsunami in his heart, he loved it very much.

The photo was taken by Zhang He on the night with Xiu Shan when Gu Chi was drunk.

So is the desktop one.It's just different from the intimacy in the first picture. The two are also standing in front of the carousel. Gu Chi's hand is in his pocket because of the cold, and Jiang Yu puts one hand in his pocket and the other is not heavy or heavy. Gu Chi's shoulder, the two looked at the camera with the same smile.Because at that time Jiang Yu lied to him and said, "When taking pictures, you have to smile brightly to make them look good", Gu Chi believed it.

When Gu Chi smiles, he is innocent and innocent, his good-looking eyes are slightly narrowed, the corners of his lips are raised, he is handsome and elegant, and he is so beautiful in the world, it is this smile that Jiang Yu will never forget the first time he sees him, and he has been in love ever since. , Thinking about it for many years.

His smile is always unique, it is Jiang Yu's calamity.

At that time, Xiao Chi was still drunk, and he would do whatever he lied to, Jiang Yu tricked him into taking pictures, but he didn't expect it to be his life-saving straw now.

"This is Gu Chi?" Mo Hanxin couldn't help asking casually.

Jiang Yu immediately turned off the phone, and said angrily, "None of your business."

Mo Hanxin had a thick skin and said with a smile, "Why are you so stingy?"

Jiang Yu didn't speak, and hid aside to watch.

Mo Hanxin couldn't help murmuring: "You're still like a child..."

The author has something to say:

Late night benefits.

Congratulations to my hundred chapters!

I think it may not be finished before the eighth, I try to do it as soon as possible hahaha.

After that, the progress will speed up, and it will be time for some truths to be revealed.

Thanks for watching.