After the object of crush dies and comes back to life

After Qi Yuan came out of the nursing home, his expression was listless, like a wimpy dogtail.

When Lu Xin talked to her, she always replied very slowly, as if she was distracted.

The cloud that had lingered for two days in a row gradually dissipated, and the sky turned sunny.It was noon at this time, the sun was bright, and Qi Yuan's hazy face looked paler and almost transparent under the sunlight.

Lu Xin felt uneasy, she had rarely seen Qi Yuan in such a distraught state, she was a little worried about the other party's mental state.

She quickly took Qi Yuan home by car.

Qi Yuan curled up on the sofa, hugging her knees with her hands, her chin resting between her arms, the cold blue light of the TV kept jumping on her expressionless face.She seemed to be the bewildered zombie again, dull, slow, and lifeless.

Lu Xin was very distressed, she sat down beside Qi Yuan, put her arms around her shoulders lightly, and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong with you?"

Qi Yuan shifted his gaze to her face wearily, paused for a few seconds, then tilted his body and lowered his head to Lu Xin's shoulder.

"Tired." She rubbed Lu Xin's soft neck and whispered.

Lu Xin reached out to touch her forehead, and the skin temperature touched by her fingertips was colder than before, and she suddenly became nervous: "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Qi Yuan hummed, buried his head on her narrow shoulder socket, closed his eyes half-closed, and answered without energy: "... dizzy, lack of energy."

Lu Xin hugged her softly and carefully, like hugging a handful of auspicious feathers.

She stroked Qi Yuan's long black hair gently: "Is it... because of what happened in the nursing home today?"

"...Well." Qi Yuan's slender eyelashes closed gently, and then slowly opened, his face was gloomy, adding a bit of fragility that he didn't have on weekdays. "I feel sick."

From the moment she knew that Qi Miao had something to do with the driver who killed her, a sense of collapse that wanted to vomit lingered in her heart and couldn't get rid of it.

She felt that she shouldn't have had too much hope for her family in the first place.

"Is she really your own sister?" Lu Xin said sadly, "Why are you so cruel..."

Qi Yuan smiled and said: "I have lived under the same roof with her for more than ten years, and I know what kind of person she is. The Qi family likes to weigh the pros and cons, and hates worrying about the future. They will always choose things that threaten their status and interests. Get rid of it in no time."

Lu Xin retorted subconsciously: "But you are not! You are different from them!"

Qi Yuan was silent for a long while, then smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled, his voice was so weak that it seemed to be dissipated in the wind: "...I, maybe it's the same."

In such an environment, she has been instilled with the same ideas and beliefs since she was a child, and the vane of her life is subtly tilted. Perhaps she has gradually become similar to them and extremely selfish.

She suddenly felt powerless and disgusted with herself.

Lu Xin was anxious, turned sideways suddenly, and put her hands on her shoulders: "You are different! You are very kind to everyone!"

Qi Yuan raised his face, his eye circles were faintly red, and looked at her compassionately and calmly: "Lu Xin, it's just that you think too well of me."

"I often feel that human beings must abandon useless social interaction. In the past, I would choose to politely distance myself from those who could not bring any benefits."

"Those who choose to approach me, I will label them with different advantages or disadvantages, draw boundaries, and make the best use of them."

"At the end of the day I was just using them. I never had any sincerity... for them."

Lu Xin stared at her motionlessly, and time was completely still for this long second.Qi Yuan's words are like arrow feathers that leave the string, splitting the gentle appearance that has been decorated with love and trust into two broken halves.

She bit her pale lips, her eyelashes trembled slightly, and slowly opened her lips and asked: "...Then you are also using me?"

Before Qi Yuan could answer, she smiled awkwardly again, lowered her head, and lowered her voice: "...It's okay, you don't have to tell me. I know, but it's just my wishful thinking all the time."

"You don't owe me anything." She sucked her red nose and wiped the corners of her eyes with the back of her hand, "I did it voluntarily and it has nothing to do with you."

"Lu Xin..." Qi Yuan stared at her in a daze, with a lot of turmoil in his mind.

Looking at the dreamy face in front of her, Lu Xin struggled to show a crying smile.

She suddenly recalled the wish she had passed by a long time ago, the one who picked up the thing she accidentally dropped on the ground and returned it to herself with a smile.

Speaking generously on the podium, holding a trophy in his hand, he made his wish with a cold expression.

When she was squeezed out by Li Shanglu and ignored by everyone, she stood up and made a wish for her injustice.

With a firm face, he said "I just want to be nice to you".

Those are the memories of every scene that are still fresh in her memory, and every wish that she has been secretly in love with for three full years.

It was almost the only thing that could hold her down when her parents crashed, when she was humiliated by her aunt, when she was locked in a toilet cubicle and felt hopeless.

Because everyone chose to avoid it, only Qi Yuanken gently picked up her muddy heart and gently wiped it clean.

So she was determined to be at the mercy of the other party, even if she knew it was a scam, she could pretend she didn't know anything about it.

The author has something to say: It's a bit short... a little abuse

Qi Yuan: No!Wife, listen to my explanation_(;_」∠)_