return to sea

At the end of the summer vacation, I went to a high school where I could board.

We're in our teens, so it's a last resort to watch DVDs that we shouldn't be watching now and then.

But today, the third child in the dormitory suddenly took a CD and said that he would give us a try.

"Fuck, aren't these two men?"

"Damn, it's so disgusting... Third brother, you are so fucking perverted." I glanced twice, and walked out of the dormitory blushing. The boss looked at me, "Fourth brother, are you going to listen to conch shells again?"

"Hey! The fourth one is pure-hearted and ascetic, how can he watch such things?"

The whispering in the conch, this time, could not soothe my restless heart, but added fuel to the fire, devouring my mood.

I had a dream, the light and shadow intertwined in the dream...

The smile that Cang Yang showed me from sideways showed his well-proportioned and healthy complexion, which was bestowed by the sun.

The shirt rolled up against the sea breeze raised a small roll in my eyes.

The way he cried, the tears were dyed the color of the ocean, and there were waves in his eyes.

The hot and humid air that night, the torrential thunderstorm, the lean back muscles, and the thick palms.

——'Cang Yang loves the sea. '

There is the sound of waves surging in my mind, there is a bright starry sky, in the light and dark... there are more dense colors, and my mind is empty.

I rubbed my sleepy eyes, the cloth under my waist was wet, covered my eyes and cried, "Cang Yang..."

With the end of the pen in his mouth, he stared out of the window, looking at the dry land, the original loess was covered by the cement floor.

"Yu Hai, the teacher told you to go to the office."

I stood in front of Lao Ban, he treated me well, better than my dad, at least he would ask me where I wanted to volunteer.

"I don't know...I think I have to ask." This is how I answered, I want to go back to the village during the National Day, so that I can ask Cang Yang what his dream is.

"Okay, your grades are very good."

"Thank you." I turned and left the office, indescribably irritated, I had no plans for the future, like a seagull flying along the coastline with nowhere to settle.

When I returned to the classroom, the conch in the hands of those people ignited my anger.

"lay down!"

The man let go of his hand in fright, and the conch fell to the ground, "What the hell! Why don't you just hear if there is any cheat for you to be a top student in your magical conch? Damn it..."

I picked up the conch, and the sharp corner was cracked into a small piece, "Fuck you!" I stuffed it into the bag with my backhand, grabbed the ballpoint pen on the table and scratched at the bastard's face.

"What's going on with you guys?!" The old class tried to tolerate me, but it was indeed my fault. The kid is still holding his scratched cheek and crying beside me, "Yu Hai, what are you doing?" What happened? How old are you! Don’t you have any control over your emotions?”

"I just need to lose money." I looked at the kid and snorted coldly, "He took my things first, and he owed the beating." I don't lack money!Conch, even if I die, no one is allowed to touch it in the grave.

Lao Ban was speechless, the last incident was suppressed only with compensation and a letter of self-criticism.

And that slap from my dad... slapped my head in the classroom, "Hit me? Because I've disrespected you! I don't have your fucking dad! Fuck!"

Because of this... I was more lonely in school, no one wanted to talk to me, they laughed at me as a freak, and what was more... Said I was probably a fetish, obsessed with a broken conch.

They washed the snails they ate at home and threw them all on my desk.