I ride a bamboo horse

In Fudu, a few kilometers away from home, Gu Jinxing started his college life, which was completely different from before. Without Ye Huaichuan by his side, Gu Jinxing was like a new student.

But without Ye Huaichuan, I always feel that this kind of new life has shortcomings, like a congenital handicap.

It's not that there are unexpected things, such as Qi Yu.

After graduation, he and Qi Yu seldom contacted each other, but I also heard from him that he remembered that Lido was his choice, but for some reason he suddenly became a freshman of Fudu University.

The first time I heard Qi Yu's name was from a girl in the same class, it was conceivable that he was a nympho.

——Ah, Qi Yu from the finance department is so handsome!

When Gu Jinxing heard it, he paused for a moment, thinking that it was probably just the same name, or the pronunciation was similar, and he heard it wrong.

However, due to the rapid flow of information in contemporary society and the rich and colorful university life, the name Qi Yu is mentioned by more and more girls. When they started talking about his ancestral birth date, Gu Jinxing had to have a little crisis Consciousness, this 'Qi Yu' sounds more and more like the Qi Yu he knew.

Then he saw Qi Yu's photo, and then he saw Qi Yu on the road.

Not long after the military training was over, Qi Yu's whole body was darkened, as if he had grown taller. When he waved at him with his white teeth, Gu Jinxing really didn't dare to admit it.

Until he said, "Baby Gu, what a coincidence."

Oh, Gu Jinxing is sure, this person is that annoying alumnus Qi Yu.

Strange to say, when Gu Jinxing was in the same class as him, they weren't very close to each other. Presumably he sneered at his girlfriend's constant bad behavior, especially when he claimed to like Ye Huaichuan.

Whether it's to cover up his true sexual orientation, or to take all men and women, Gu Jinxing is very unimpressed with his approach.

One lost his mind, the other lost his kidneys, and it was really impossible to talk together.

Although the two are in the same school now, they are not in the same department, but their relationship has unexpectedly improved a lot. Instead, they often eat and play together.

It may be that I finally met an old acquaintance in a foreign country.

It may also be that a stage has been crossed, when everyone has grown up, Gu Jinxing will forgive this former scum magnanimously for the time being.

"Why did you come to Fudu?" Gu Jinxing asked him the first time we met, "Your Huaichuan is in Lido."

Qi Yu laughed badly, "But my family is in Fudu, so I'm not allowed to transfer my love to someone else."

He didn't want to talk to him for a second, so Gu Jinxing walked around him and left.

The man relied on his legs to be a few centimeters longer than him, and chased after him easily, "Baby, I haven't had a girlfriend for several months, will you give me another chance, I was ignorant before, I promise I will No one else but you."

Gu Jinxing kept walking, "What a disgusting line."

"Hey, Gu Xiaojin, if you don't wait for me, I'll leave a message to the author saying that you scold him for writing disgusting things."

Gu Jinxing: "..."

It was not a pleasant meeting. In fact, we may not get along very happily in the future. The main reason is that Qi Yu is a person who really wants to flirt with a decent-looking person. Oh, that mouth, I wish someone could fill it with cement to seal it .

Fortunately, friendship still took root and sprouted amidst such stumbling.

Once he accepts the setting that Qi Yu is mentally handicapped, his mouthful of trains won't be so unbearable anymore.

However, Gu Jinxing did not expect that the group of rotten girls has already covered all large, medium and small cities across the country, and it is especially crazy in an open and free university.

Ye Huaichuan was not there, he and Qi Yu got very close, both of them were high-end good-looking people, people who made them a pair sprung up like mushrooms, one by one, they couldn't stop them.

Gu Jinxing also heard with his own ears several times people talking about how he and Qi Yu match up, and some people even commented: Qi Gu is a big Pingxie.

The name of Cp has changed, but the soup does not change the medicine.

Hehe, if he doesn't get tanned, he will suffer forever?

And Qi Yu is a guy who likes to play, knowing that there are girls secretly taking pictures, but deliberately hugs him, makes some misleading movements, talks to him, and helps him remove the dirt that doesn't exist in his hair. .

It made the little girl flush with excitement, and he was happy.

Simply crazy.Didn't even bother to tear him apart.

He keeps in touch with Ye Huaichuan to a certain extent, but it's usually a very dry conversation like "remember to dress when it's cold" and "what did you do today". Brothers who were once close will become strangers because of time and distance, right?

Gu Jinxing didn't go home on National Day, Ye Huaichuan called to ask, and he just found an excuse to fool him.He also didn't plan to go back during the Chinese New Year, not out of anger, but because it was unnecessary, he was already ready to leave Ye Huaichuan, so he shouldn't be so procrastinating, not to mention that he finally felt that he seemed to be so far away, he was afraid of seeing Ye Huaichuan when he returned home. Really, all your efforts will be in vain again.

Before the winter vacation, Ye Huaichuan received a call.

Ye Huaichuan seldom called him, so that the moment he saw the caller ID, Gu Jinxing's spineless heart beat faster, just like a shy little boy seeing his sweetheart who has been away for a vacation, the feeling of heartbeat has settled, as if It's getting stronger.

It was only then that Gu Jinxing discovered that he had failed like this. Ye Huaichuan's drug addiction, he hadn't given up for a day at all.

"elder brother."

"Be careful, is it cold over there?"

Gu Jinxing looked up at the gray sky, "The sun is good, not too cold."

"Really." Ye Huaichuan echoed in a vague way, "When is the holiday?"

Here comes the important point, Gu Jinxing thought to himself, "Ah, there is no fake. After the final exam, I will go to an international sketching project. Hey, I will probably have to participate in similar training in the future holidays. How can it be like you people? Oh, and winter vacation and summer vacation.”

The other end didn't answer the call right away, Gu Jinxing was a little uneasy when there was a buzzing noise coming from the phone, was his words unnatural?Is it fake?

"Well, the signal is not very good." The noise disappeared, and Ye Huaichuan's more magnetic voice blessed by the current came. It was very natural, as if he had changed places because of the poor signal and couldn't answer the call immediately, " Thanks for your hard work."

"Study, it's like this, it's always a bit harder." Gu Jinxing said without shame.

Ye Huaichuan chuckled, and teased his nerves fiercely. In the end, he didn't take off his diorama, but only told him: "Don't be too tired, pay attention to rest. Do you have enough money?"

"Enough is enough." My heart seemed to be filled with Chinese medicine, full of bitterness and astringency, but lazily said in my mouth: "Ye Huaichuan, you are in menopause."

"Gu Jinxing, you are becoming more and more lawless." Ye Huaichuan said indifferently.

"It's okay, it's okay." Gu Jinxing said modestly.

Ye Huaichuan has become accustomed to Gu Jinxing's random behavior, and said calmly: "One is outside, pay attention to your body, don't let brother worry."

Gu Jinxing suddenly became quiet, "I'm sorry brother, I can't go home for the New Year, parents, I need to trouble you to visit often."

"There's nothing to be sorry about this kind of thing, as long as you like it." After a pause, "Well, I'm not used to being so sensible."

Gu Jinxing: "..."

After hesitating for a moment, "Brother, you and Sister Han are all right."

"Well, it's okay. Just take care of yourself."

"That's good." Gu Jinxing said softly, "Then... That's it, goodbye."

"Goodbye."

As the phone was hung up, the bubble that briefly filled the vacancy in my heart suddenly burst and became empty again.

The sky is overcast and it is estimated that it will rain, where there is a little bit of sunshine.

This will probably be the case in the days to come, maybe we won't see each other a few times in a lifetime, but so what, so what.

Returning to the dormitory from the balcony, the people in the same dormitory winked at him, "Girlfriend, it's been so long."

Gu Jinxing smiled and did not deny it.

Yan Xiaoyan's dealing with Ye Huaichuan had exhausted all his energy, and he really didn't have the energy to deal with his classmates' teasing.

Quietly looking at the photo frame placed in the most conspicuous position on the bookshelf, it was the family portrait that was originally placed on his bedside table, and his beloved was hidden inside.

If there is no accident, they are probably the three most precious people in his life, two are gone, and the remaining one has someone else.

In fact, it is a very silly thing to bring a family photo to school, especially for a boy.

But who is Gu Jinxing, who is not afraid of the sky, and who cares about other people's opinions?

Just so capricious.

What Gu Jinxing usually does most is of course painting, which is not only his hobby, but also his profession.

I still read some books in my free time, maybe because I am getting older, and I am more patient than before. I can slowly read some books that I used to doze off at a glance. I feel that the writing is very good, and the more I read, the better.

Outside of class, Gu Jinxing likes to draw sketches most.

Someone once asked him why, and he only answered two words, "Convenience."

This is certainly the reason, but more importantly, the sketch is black and white, detailed and hopeless, just like his love.

University life continues in an orderly and orderly manner, with classes, studies, painting, reading, clubs, socializing, and part-time jobs, Gu Jinxing tries to make every minute of his life something to do, so that he can think less about things that are not there. .

The first year was like this, the second year was nothing special, the third year was a little busier with his studies, and in the fourth year, he was recommended to study abroad.

For three years, he studied in combination with Master and Ph.D. The scholarship given by the school is very generous, which is enough to support all his expenses abroad.

Gu Jinxing agreed without hesitation.

After his parents passed away, Ye Huaichuan held the property rights of the family, so he would not be harsh on him when it comes to money. Every month, a huge amount of money would go into his card. will not be enough.

Gu Jinxing can save more than half of it every month, and he doesn't treat himself badly, he should eat and drink, but he can't spend anything else besides eating and drinking.I don't have a girlfriend, and most of my meals are in the cafeteria, so my expenses are very limited.

Even the vacation sketching project that I told Ye Huaichuan, the school provides board and lodging, and there is a certain bonus, and of course it is impossible to have it every vacation. Most of the time, Gu Jinxing works part-time.

Money is really endless.

In the past four years, Gu Jinxing has not returned to Haichao, and sometimes Qi Yu would bluntly call him sick.

"I really didn't expect you to get so deep," he said.

At that time, Gu Jinxing had already grown into a tall and handsome young man, with an unlit cigarette in his mouth, he sneered, "There are many things you didn't expect."

There was still such an annoying height difference between Qi Yu and him, he could easily wrap his arms around his shoulders as soon as he stretched out his hand, "Baby, you are still so cute."

Gu Jinxing had already become numb to his tone, glanced at the man who was puffing, and didn't speak.

To say that Qi Yu's biggest change, apart from his more deceptive appearance, is probably that he started to flirt with men openly. It has to be replaced every month, but the romantic nature has continued as before.

After a long time, Qi Yu didn't particularly hide it, so some gossip naturally spread out.Seeing that he has been single all this time, he politely declined when he came to show his favor with a flower, but he only got close to Qi Yu, a beast in clothes... There are not only many versions of sadomasochism that have been spread, but all of them are wonderful.

The funniest thing is that a little boy ran up to him aggressively, pointed at him and called him a vixen, shameless, and seduced other people's boyfriends. , otherwise it will definitely be on the hot search.

It turned out that this bastard Qi Yu was tired of playing with others, so he used him as a shield, saying that he was a white moonlight in his heart, and he couldn't ask for it, so he was willing to silently guard him by his side.

Gu Jinxing: ...for the thousand and eighth time I had the urge to break up with him.

"You are so capable, can't you make up a bloody story without my participation?"

Qi Yu smiled, "I don't need to make up stories if we're really together."

For so many years, Gu Jinxing has long been accustomed to his rascal words, "Okay, let me do it."

Qi Yu: "...height determines up and down."

Gu Jinxing gave him a cold look, "I hate the grandson who talks about his height the most."

Qi Yu: "..."

"Hey, you really don't want to go back and have a look?" Qi Yu picked up a cigarette and restrained his joking expression, "You will be going abroad soon, and it will be even more difficult to go back then."

Gu Jinxing took out the cigarette in his pocket, stuffed one into his mouth, and did not light it, "Let's talk."

Qi Yu dusted off the cigarette, "Why are you doing this, you still can't let it go after so many years."

Gu Jinxing stared into the distance with smoke in his mouth, his black and white eyes were very clear under the gray sky, after a long time, he said in a clear voice: "People are different from each other, some people are affectionate, Some people are resigned, some people can remember the big things for a lifetime, and some people share weal and woe and forget it when they turn around."

"Be careful." Qi Yu sighed, "Speaking is becoming more and more rough."

Gu Jinxing: "...It's not because you teach well."

Qi Yu: "..."

After all, Gu Jinxing went back, on the eve of Qingming Festival, without disturbing anyone.Qi Yu is not a human being.

Instead of going home, he went to open a house near the cemetery.

Like a homesick fugitive, homesick but afraid to go home, I can only find a small hotel near my home, hide in it and peek at the prosperous and familiar hometown and my relatives in my hometown.

Thinking about it is also sick.

He didn't want to go home, he didn't dare to imagine how far the relationship between Ye Huaichuan and Chen Han had progressed in four years, whether they had already started planning for the upcoming wedding ceremony...

In fact, strictly speaking, the place with another hostess should no longer be his home, and there is no room for him in such a small place.

He didn't want this kind of thing to come, but he was powerless to stop these things from coming one after another, so he simply couldn't see it, because there was such a vast sky outside.He just wanted to come back to see his parents.

If Qi Yu was here, his self-deception would be exposed in about a second—if you could forget, you wouldn't have been alone for four years.

The ancestors have always been very foresighted, saying that "there is a lot of rain during the Qingming Festival", and it is true that a few drops of rain will fall as soon as the Qingming Festival arrives.

Gu Jinxing sat in the shabby hotel, thinking about how to explain to Ye Huaichuan his "urgent desire" to study abroad.

After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to procrastinate.

There are still three months to go, no rush.

The reason why he lives in a hotel that doesn't even have three stars is not because he has no money, nor is he absconded, it's just because this hotel is the closest to the cemetery where his parents are buried, and he can see the people coming and going at the door with a telescope .

In fact, Gu Jinxing didn't have much obsession with seeing Ye Huaichuan or not, he would see Ye Huaichuan when he saw him, it was no big deal... But since he decided not to see him, he still had to do a full set of things.

Time seems to have made him more and more cowardly, degenerating from a big bastard with teeth and claws to a little turtle with its head shrunk and its tail shrunk.

At around 05:30, Ye Huaichuan entered the cemetery with flowers in his hands. Half an hour later, Ye Huaichuan came out empty-handed.

Four years have made this precocious boy more mature. He is dressed in a formal suit, with a tall and straight figure, a calm demeanor, and his face is not clear, but he is probably more handsome.In short, compared with four years ago, it can be said that they are different people, but their appearance is not bad, and the most important thing is their temperament.

However, no matter what Ye Huaichuan has become, Gu Jinxing can still recognize it at a glance.

Because the telescope became more distant, the line of sight has been following the figure of the deep love, until the magnified field of vision can not catch up with that person, Gu Jinxing realizes that he seems to be a bit like a perverted voyeur.

Also, what about Chen Han?Why didn't you come with Ye Huaichuan?After a long time, don't you even want to do enough drama?

Although he said he looked like a voyeur, his body was still very honest and he wanted to aim in that direction from time to time.

Not long after, he caught a familiar figure with his powerful naked eyes, and quickly raised his binoculars.

In this world, anyone who turns into ashes can know lovers, rivals and enemies.

It really was Chen Han.

It's okay if she doesn't come, Gu Jinxing can still understand, what's the matter with Ye Huaichuan coming one after the other?

Gu Jinxing couldn't figure it out, so he could only continue to peep and stare at the entrance of the cemetery, watching the changes.

Chen Han only stayed for about 15 minutes before he came out in a hurry. He still looked around the door for a while, not like worshiping, but hiding from debts.

Taking down the binoculars, Gu Jinxing frowned and thought for a while, then grabbed the coat and umbrella beside the bed and went out.

Speaking of which, he is not filial, he left his hometown in a fit of anger, and has not been back for four years. He only brought a family photo for comfort, and he never visited the grave behind his parents.

The sky was drizzling lightly, and the sky was already eighty degrees gray. Gu Jinxing held a deep black umbrella, looked at his parents who were always fixed at that age in the photo, and bowed deeply.

Time can indeed change a lot. The original bloody wounds have condensed into ugly gullies, and the cold rainwater poured in. The pain will not be heartbreaking, but it is dense and endless.

Gu Jinxing didn't expect to bump into Chen Han who was coming back when he went out. The girl didn't hold an umbrella, and the rain drenched her black hair, her pale face, and the black windbreaker made her slender figure even more slender , Seeing Gu Jinxing was obviously also very surprised, many complicated expressions flashed across his face, and finally it was frozen into the indifference of old acquaintances, "Long time no see."

Gu Jinxing feels that she has changed, but her appearance has not changed much, but the temperament exuded from the inside out has undergone earth-shaking changes. At least Gu Jinxing can't see through it. The calmness in front of her is a fake gesture or the appearance is the same. of.

However, people have to change. Gu Jinxing still remembers that when she first met Chen Han, she was a shy girl, and then she became a scheming girl. Now, maybe she is really as restrained as before.

"Long time no see." Gu Jinxing smiled lightly, as if seeing an old classmate who had some grievances and had no contact with him, "Why didn't you come with my brother?"

"I can't make it in time." Chen Han's expression remained the same, as if it was indeed the case.

Gu Jinxing nodded, pointed to the inside of the cemetery, "Is there anything else to do when you go back?"

Only then did Chen Han show a trace of embarrassment, "The umbrella fell inside."

When she left, it was indeed not raining, and the erratic light rain did start to fall when Gu Jin was walking halfway.At least on the surface, this reason barely makes sense.

"You have to go." Chen Han said again: "Then..."

"I'll go find it with you." Gu Jinxing said suddenly.

Chen Han obviously didn't expect Gu Jinxing to have such a reaction. After a second of stunned, he calmed down and said, "It's fine if you don't bother."

Chen Han's umbrella could not be found in the end, as if something unpredictable happened in the short time between her leaving and Gu Jinxing's arrival.

It's just an umbrella, and there's no way to pursue this matter, so I can only let it go.

It seems that today he is destined to share the same umbrella with Chen Han, "Stay... at my house? I'll take you back."

Chen Han seemed to be taken aback, and gave him an indescribable look, "I live in my own house."

Gu Jinxing paused. Due to some unspeakable reasons, some questions cannot be asked directly.

Fortunately, Chen Han took the initiative to ask again: "What about you? When did you come back?" This familiar and flat tone seemed to be old classmates meeting each other and chatting about daily life.

"Yesterday." Gu Jinxing said honestly.

From the moment he ran into Chen Han, Gu Jinxing knew that the fact that he came back but didn't live at home was probably exposed like this.As for the reasons, they are all well-known things.After all, four years ago, they were torn apart, and the last parting message was not so friendly. It would be embarrassing to talk too much about the boyfriend and brother.

Sure enough, Chen Han didn't ask any more questions, but said, "Don't give it away, I'll just go back by myself."

"You take the umbrella, I live nearby."

Chen Han suddenly laughed, "If I didn't know it was impossible, I would have thought you had a crush on me."

"..." Gu Jinxing can only say that Chen Han has really changed. If it were the past, she would probably never say these words anyway, at least not in front of him.

Gu Jinxing stopped and put the umbrella into Chen Han's hand, "I'm leaving."

When I walked out of the umbrella, I couldn't feel the rain anymore, and I didn't know whether to say that God was helping or disrupting the situation.

"Gu Jinxing." Chen Han suddenly called his name, with a little panic in his raised voice.

Gu Jinxing turned around, Chen Han's slender body looked weak under the huge black umbrella, but his eyes were bright, "Four years ago..."

Gu Jinxing dragged her violently into the alley, dodged a head-on collision with an unrelenting car, dazzling lights flashed in front of his eyes, and with a sound of "creak--", a black car was blocked At the entrance of the alley.

The author has something to say:

Classmate Han Biqing, Yu would like to have a welfare time... [laughing]