Stand at forty

Yu Jinhuan booked a plane ticket to Los Angeles three days later. Before that, what he wanted to do the most was to learn another story about Yu Jinhuan.

Unexpectedly, Fang Bo would be the one who provided him with the most information.

Fang Bo didn't know that person's name, but he knew a lot about their relationship from the young Yuan Tianyi.

Sitting opposite Yu Jinhuan, Fang Bo raised his head to look at Yu Jinhuan who was sitting casually, sighed again, and slowly recalled.

"Master Tianyi was very lively when he was a child. When he was about seven or eight years old, he met a child in the park. The two played happily all day. He also brought back a small wooden horse, but it was agreed that next week Meeting, the young master waited for the child for a long time, until it was dark to see each other, and then went home unhappy."

"The young master cherishes the wooden horse very much, and has always kept it in his schoolbag, accompanying him to and from school, but one day, the wooden horse disappeared, and the young master scuffled with his classmates at school. We also mobilized the whole family to rummage through the house, but the little wooden horse was still not found."

"After that, Master Tianyi was depressed for a long time. He would go to the park when he had free time. He never saw the child again, and he hadn't asked the child's name, so he couldn't find it. Until Master Tianyi had an accident later, Transferring to another school, and meeting another grown-up kid in another park, he is that Yu Jinhuan."

"Master Providence will go to their band rehearsal every weekend, or just meet and play together. Master Providence is happy every day, and will tell me stories about him and the boy. He always starts with "he said" , talking about little things, young people at that age don't know how to love yet."

"Master Tianyi likes to stay with him, watch him practice music, or chat with him, read books, do homework, and eat. Unfortunately, the boy didn't go to school. Well, we can't stay outside for too long."

"That boy changed the boy of God's will, let him slowly come out of the shadows, and he became more and more like a normal person, so," Fang Bo narrowed his eyes slightly, looked at Yu Jinhuan with warm and encouraging eyes, and said, "In my opinion, Master Tianyi is just an obsession with him, because he accompanied Master Tianyi through the darkest time, so Master Tianyi couldn't let him go, and even felt that he liked him, but, like, how could it be It's such a simple thing."

Yu Jinhuan remembered the first sentence Yuan Tianyi wrote in his memoirs:

Meeting you is the window that God bestows on me.

He used to think it was love at first sight, but now he realized that it was just a confession to others.

Yu Jinhuan did not refute Fang Bo's conclusion, but he believed that love is neither simple nor complicated, it just needs a chance, when you meet, you will fall in love.

The second person who gave him some information was Diane.

Although he said that Dai Ansi would not disturb his life, it was not to cut off contact with the other party, but to persuade each other not to do unnecessary things.

"You said Yu Jinhuan," Dai Ansi still spoke to him in a joking tone, as if the two of them were not only familiar but also had a good relationship.

"I only know that he was a very well-behaved child when he was young. He knew that his illness caused a lot of trouble to his family. He would obediently take medicine, stay at home obediently, not go out at will, eat and rest strictly according to the doctor's orders, that The only fun for children is that they can go to the park for half a day every weekend, and occasionally for a day."

Dai Ansi said with a trace of regret:

"Unfortunately, his body took a turn for the worse when he was 14 years old. The old man broke a lot of precepts for him, but he couldn't recover in the end."

Yu Jinhuan listened quietly to him talking about that person's life, and felt desolate for no reason, as if all this had happened to him before, making him suddenly very sad.

At this time, Dai Ansi's smiling voice came from the phone again: "I said Yu Jinhuan, you are not pitying him, you have to know a fact, of the two of you, only one can survive."

"Or, are you envious and jealous?"

Yu Jinhuan didn't want to pay attention to Dai Ansi, because what he said hit his mind, he felt sorry for that person, but also envied him.The family affection he had always regarded as a treasure turned out to be a transparent blister, not only colorless, but also burst at a touch.But his love with all his heart and soul only proves that he is a substitute for others.

"Yeah, don't you envy? If the old thing you talk about loves you like he loves his younger brother, you will be crazy with joy." Yu Jinhuan readily admitted his emotions.

Diane didn't say any more.

Yu Jinhuan was mentally prepared before calling Mama Yuan. The ring rang for a long time, and just when Yu Jinhuan thought it was impossible to get through again, Mama Yuan's voice reached his ears.

"Xiao Huan?" Yuan Ma's voice sounded much older, and she asked with some uncertainty.

"Auntie, it's me." Yu Jin paused for a while before asking with concern, "Is your health okay? Don't worry too much about your children."

Yu Jinhuan still likes Yuan's family from the bottom of his heart. Although he doesn't spend much time with Yuan's family, under Yuan's mother's strong protection and love, others respect him and treat him very kindly. At least they have always accepted him. Be real family.

"It's hard for you to say that now. I've always liked you, child. I don't know how happy you are with Xiaoyi. I didn't expect Xiaoyi to have such thoughts. It's all my fault that I didn't know about it earlier and didn't teach it well. , I didn’t dare to tell you when I found out later, you should blame me, but I still don’t want to be blamed by you, and I have never dared to contact you.”

"Auntie. I don't blame you, I don't blame anyone, really." Yu Jinhuan interrupted Yuan Ma's self-blaming, and said the words of forgiveness. His words were not against his will, because he really didn't blame Yuan's family If you want to blame, you can only blame the instigator.

"Xiao Huan, you are so kind, so kind..." Yuan Ma was a little incoherent in excitement, and kept repeating that you are so kind.

Yu Jinhuan thought that the old man might also be taken aback by Yuan Tianyi's sudden unraveling of the chess game, so Yu Jinhuan hurriedly mentioned the purpose of his call.

"Auntie, I'm calling. Besides wanting to know if you are all right, I also want to ask you something. Do you know what happened between Yuan Tianyi and that Yu Jinhuan? Or is it about that person?"

Calling myself by my own name always feels a little strange and awkward.That Yu Jinhuan is not me.

"Let me think about it," Yuan's mother stopped after she finished speaking, and after about 2 minutes, she said slowly: "My mother is actually very incompetent. When Xiaoyi was born, my father and I were busy with work. Fang Bo will take care of everything at home, but there is one thing that really impresses me."

"At that time, Xiaoyi was less than nine years old, but his temper was a bit rigid, like a young adult. One day he saw a report about heart surgery on TV, and suddenly said loudly that he would be a doctor in the future. We asked him why, He said that he would help people see a doctor, so that the people around him would not suffer, and the family members would be healthy."

"Then I asked him if any of his friends were sick, and he kept nodding, and then took my hand and said that his little friend was seriously ill, and he couldn't play with him or see him often. , he has been clamoring to become a great doctor during that time, that little friend is that kid."

Yuan Ma was silent for a while, and said with some regret: "If there is no accident in the future, Xiaoyi will definitely go to the path of studying medicine. He has been very stubborn since he was a child. Never complain and never give up when suffering.”

Mama Yuan seemed to realize that she had talked too much, so she stopped talking. Yu Jinhuan told her that everything was fine, and said some thoughtful words before hanging up the phone.

Yu Jinhuan hesitated whether to give Sang Youyou a call, but in the end he didn't put this idea into action. He had an inexplicable sense of fear for Shi Jiaming, and he just wanted to stay away.

Jiashu lived in the villa for the past two days, Yu Jinhuan knew that he was worried about him, but he didn't say anything, he just used his normal and regular diet to dispel his worries.

His cheeks are still a little thinner, but there is already some rosy luster on his face, and the pain that tortured him has disappeared with the departure of that person. He firmly believes that he will be so painful, he must It is because that person is also in pain.

Whenever he thought of this, for some reason, he would feel a rush of revenge, and when the perverted pleasure dissipated from his mind, he would be filled with deep reluctance and bewilderment, but he sensibly did not go. Never mind.

The night before his departure, he received a special text message: Xiaohuan, I want to meet you, can I?Mu Wanqing.

They used to be mother and son, but now a mother wants to see her son, but also come to ask each other, Yu Jinhuan thinks this is ironic, but he also understands that for Mu Wanqing, the so-called mother-child relationship between them, regardless of the research The ingredients, really, are running low.Otherwise, why did she lie to him to such an extent?Although she was alive, he made him think that she was dead, and then suffered for so many years.

Yu Jinhuan quickly replied: Not now, but later.

After a long time, he got a one-word reply: yes.

Yu Jinhuan just wanted to laugh, but gave up with one sentence. Is it true that mother and child love each other deeply?As for himself, he was too cold and too nostalgic.

He slept so poorly that night that he was still dazed when he was woken up by the alarm clock the next morning, and he still felt a little dizzy when Fang Bo knocked on the door to let him have breakfast.

This was not a good sign. After breakfast, he took a rest in the car and felt better after arriving at the airport.After leaving the country, passing through the security check, and before boarding the plane, he sent Yuan Tianyi a message: I will go to Los Angeles to find you, and I will arrive at 12:30.

Turning off the phone, putting on the blindfold, half asleep and half awake all the way, Yu Jinhuan's mood was very calm, he didn't think about anything, and felt empty.

When the flight attendant announced that the plane was about to arrive at the destination, he began to think about it, and his mind was in a mess. Before he could figure it out, the plane landed safely and stopped.

Yu Jinhuan lingered on the plane for a while, and only when the flight attendant came to call him, did he walk out of the plane slowly. He was no stranger to this airport. Walking in the familiar corridor, he slowly stopped.

He had to think about it carefully, and when he saw Yuan Tianyi again, which expression should he use, whether to smile or remain silent.When he really sees Yuan Tianyi again, will he be able to control himself, he can't face him as a partner and lover, so which identity should he use to deal with himself?

loved ones?friend?stranger?

He suddenly didn't dare to see Yuan Tianyi, because he didn't know what Yuan Tianyi's expression would be when he saw him again.Yuan Tianyi would laugh, but he would still hate. He was afraid that he would see a strange Yuan Tianyi, a Yuan Tianyi who was ruthless and even full of resentment towards him.

He slowly cheered himself up. I only need an answer, and it is best to have a hug. Even if we want to part, there must be a final warm embrace.

Yu Jinhuan raised his feet and walked forward. When going through the immigration process, he handed over the documents in his hand to the customs.

Then he saw the customs officer in front of him staring at him with wide eyes. He was unbelievable at first, and then suddenly became very strict. The man and the person next to him whispered a few words, and then said to Yu Jinhuan: "I'm sorry. , you cannot enter the country. Yu Jinhuan, who is on this document, died a week ago."

Like a bolt from the blue, Yu Jinhuan let the seaside staff take him to the isolation room in a daze. He only came back to his senses when he saw a large number of people who were forced to stay here, carrying luggage, big and small, making noise. , Then I only felt a chill rising from my heart, and my whole body was like falling into a cellar of ice.

So I'm dead?

It turned out that I was already dead!

Yu Jinhuan wanted to laugh, so he laughed too, but there was no sound. He turned on the phone, looked at the empty inbox, and dialed Yuan Tianyi's number.

The author has something to say:

I had a nightmare today, and I was very scared. I wish all the people around me who I don’t know can live a long and healthy life! ! !Happy reading! ! !