Peaceful year after year

For three whole days, they avoided seeing each other, and under the same roof, Wang Xiaonian just didn't have a word of communication with Gu Ning, not even a look in the eyes.On the contrary, Wang Zihan often followed him, going out in pairs.

Gu Ning was still calm on the first day, telling himself not to think about it, the second and third day.

Until the day when Father Wang had the operation, Wang Xiaonian finally spoke, but what he said made him wish he could strangle Wang Xiaonian to death.

This year's winter is extremely cold, and we haven't had a good winter vacation. This is an ordinary family, and it may be overwhelmed by a serious illness.

Wang Xiaonian didn't wait at the door of the operating room. He stayed on a balcony next to the operating room, with his hands on the railing, smoking quietly. Waiting for the operation was a long and torturous thing.The atmosphere outside the operating room was too painful, and he was afraid that he would show his timidity.

Gu Ning stood behind him, his face was not much better than his, his face was sullen, and his eyes were suppressed with anger.

"What did you say, what do you mean?" Gu Ning paused every word, opening his mouth full of coldness, and clenched his hands tightly.

This person says he likes someone else, this person says they don't fit, this person says let him go back.He couldn't figure out how a person could become so fast in just a few days.

He was obviously full of heart and eyes, and finally accepted it, but before he recovered, he was thrown into the abyss again.

A cigarette was almost burned, but Wang Xiaonian still didn't feel it.

"Go back, we are not suitable. I was confused before, but now I am sober."

Every time I said a word, my heart felt empty, and my eyes became more and more dull.

"Can you say that again."

"We are not suitable, you go back."

Yes, so smart, so dazzling, a bigger and wider world than staying here is the right place for you to live.

"They will come to pick you up tomorrow, so go with them."

There are no whales in the shallows, your world is a sea of ​​stars, and I am just a fish swimming in the bottom of the lake, which is beyond reach.

Gu Jing stood quietly, listening with a blank expression, her lips turned white.

He suddenly felt that he was ridiculous, and he also felt that he was cheap enough to like a person so much.Even after hearing him say such things, he still doesn't want to leave, and still wants to stay by his side, as stubborn and loyal as a dog.And this person manipulates his emotions and feelings at will, wants to get what he wants, and doesn't want to discard it, without any burden.

The human heart is full of flesh, the wound can be ignored, and if you ignore it too much, you won’t feel the pain, but no matter how much you pretend it doesn’t matter, no matter how much you pretend that it doesn’t hurt, you can’t get over that sentence that is almost cut in half, we are not suitable.

Tired, very tired.

"Brother, can we talk about it in a few days, wait for uncle to get sick..."

"Zihan and Lu Ming are separated, I want to accompany him, I don't want him to misunderstand, you can leave with them tomorrow."

Gu Ning looked at him in shock, his face was no longer calm, pale and terrifying.

A clumsy lie can be seen through at a glance, but caring is chaotic. The only thing I want to do after being betrayed by a loved one is not to lose so ugly. At least I want to leave a little self-esteem in front of you, so that you can look at me as a Stand proudly.

With a sneer, Gu Ning spoke, full of disdain and sarcasm, "Wang Xiaonian, you are really good. I thought I still had a little place in your heart, but now it seems that I think too much. It is important to be everyone in your heart, but I can do whatever I want. Abandon." As he spoke, he approached slowly, and before he had time to react, Wang Xiaonian was grabbed by his collar with one hand and punched on the cheek.Beat him to the ground, and said viciously, "I'm blind, and I like you. Don't worry, I will leave with them and never bother you."

A gust of cold wind blew by, and the cold air penetrated through the cracks in the bones, and the cold people felt chills in their hearts.

Gu Ning turned and left with a sense of despair.

Wang Xiaonian sat on the ground in a daze, and after a while he got up and patted the dust off his body.

The operation was over, and the doctor said the operation was a success. He wanted to laugh, but for some reason, he just couldn't.And everyone looked at him with strange eyes, what's the matter, he didn't have any flowers on his face, what else could he see, he was happy that the operation was successful, no matter what he looked like he didn't dare to show his air.

"Brother, you are crying."

I was frightened, how could it be, how could I cry.

As proof, I wiped my face with my hands, and it turned out to be full of water marks.It was really embarrassing to be looked at by the child with sympathy and concern, as if the positions of the two had been reversed.

Maybe it was a little cold, maybe the lacrimal glands were frozen, what else could be wrong with him besides these.It wasn't him being sold, it wasn't him being betrayed by someone he liked, so what could be wrong with him.

I just wanted to say that I was fine, but the result was like a power outage. I saw their terrified faces, screams of panic wafting in their ears, and their elongated figures.

I really don't want to wake up, and lose face to Zhangjiatuo, a dignified man actually fainted in a place like a hospital, still fainted by hunger.

When I was in a daze, I heard the doctor say in a flat and boring tone that my body was malnourished, I was overworked for a long time, my body was hurt, I guess I didn’t eat well recently, and I was caught in the cold and had a fever, so I fainted, take good care of me, keep up for a while.

With such a lot of words, I remember most clearly that I didn’t eat well, and I fainted as a result.When did he have the physique of sister Lin, and he fainted every minute.

"Xiao Nian, wake up, hey, don't move, take a good rest. You have worked hard during this time, it's your mother's fault, she doesn't care about you at all, you take this time to rest well, what mother is there to worry about." Said Wang Mom peeled an orange, broke off a piece and handed it to his mouth.

Probably I haven't eaten for a long time, this orange is really sweet.

This incident really took away a layer of everyone's spirit, looking shabby and barren.

"Mom, I want to get out of here."

Mother Wang tightened her hand holding the cup, her lips were tightly pressed together, she threw the crumpled banknotes into the trash can, and after a moment of silence she said, "Can't we just leave?"

Sometimes a woman's intuition is really accurate. She didn't ask about the source of the money, but she felt that it might have something to do with Gu Ning.

When Gu Ning really said goodbye to her, she was probably sure, but she thought viciously that it might be good for the child to leave. Of course, she didn't want her child to be a shameful homosexual, so she didn't keep her, and even said, Don't come back when you leave.

"Mom, I..."

"Go, take good care of yourself, don't work so hard, we are not around you and we are bullied and no one will help you, so don't cause trouble," Wang Mama said, crying, but her face was calm as if nothing had happened .

"Go home if you can't stand it. Home is always the best. Don't wrong yourself. Eat more delicious food and keep your spirits up. Your father will be taken care of by me. Don't worry. You will grow up in the first grade of junior high school. Don't worry. Do you hear me?"

Probably really can't stay, mother and child are connected, staying here is painful, so it doesn't matter if you choose to leave temporarily, just remember to come back.

"sorry."

"Stupid child, why do you apologize to me? I should have said it. I have wronged you." He stroked his head lightly as he spoke, as gentle as water.

Surrounded by this gentle force, drowsiness struck again, and he fell asleep again drowsily.

He didn't delay when he said he was leaving, and after lying in the hospital for a day, he began to prepare to leave.Although he looked down on this kind of behavior like escaping, he really couldn't stay any longer, and it would be more painful for a moment, and maybe he would be able to come back after staying outside for a year or two. face it calmly.

Arrange everything, refuse the family's request to see you off, and embark on a long journey alone.

Before leaving, I met that fool Wang Zihan, and when I heard that he was leaving, I cried and laughed while hugging him, and finally dragged him to drink and got drunk.Almost missed the train ticket in the morning, rushed to the station in a hurry, checked the ticket alone, got on the train in silence, with so little luggage in his hand, it didn't seem like he was going far away, who knew he didn't even know his own return date.

Maybe he will regret going back tomorrow, maybe he won't go back for three or five years.

That person may never go back, and may never see him again in this life.I don't know how he felt when he left, probably, really, I won't see him again.

I couldn't help squatting on the ground, pressing my aching heart, don't think about it, work hard, you will lose your energy after he leaves.

The floor is gradually blurred, less and less visible, and full of fog. It's a shame that a big man can cry like this.